December

well,december is already here.new month new target of cuz. recently one of my mei mei tell me y ur blog alwiz show sad sad story de...i think think think,and i answer because everytime when im not happy then i will come and blog to release my moodiness?to relax.yeah after u type everything u will feel better and when u read back u would laugh and say how cute.

Well,recently there is alotz of changes.me and u were once so close babe.but now it seems like we r so far from each other..i know its different but i din wana change it bcuz i understand how hurt it is for both of us when we maintain like that.but anyway u r happy now thats the best of all.im happy for u.i dun wana force anything. yeah although i miss u alotz. but i will love u still.hahaz,i know u will say nah u won't.lol,im glad that u walk into my life during this year 2009.i feel great.hope i did not become ur memories oni.

And then,about my work place, somehow its just a very realistic place...my boss is a demanding boss thats y she can maintain at no.1 spot.when u hit ur own KRA she will say its not enough.u are below par performance..that is not what i wanna see...i wan my PFC to be top 10 percent nationwide.best is top 10.and not enough support we received from her. if im in other brance life will be much greater.haihz,just hope another 6 month goes faster so i can have some planning to increase my basic salary. yeah aimed to achieve big thingz.

then december got alotz of holiday.this is lovely. going to broga hill on the 12/13 of dec. then go penang on 19/20 of dec.christmas still thinking wanna do what..if i can that will be the greatest christmas ever.lol,hope everyone around me can have a good month this month..all stay very happy happy.

and so,my life is normal.okay this time is not so sad bah my post,its just a normal blog which dun have much excitement bah.lol,not too sad not too happy.and not very ang eng seng style.lol

have a great month dear friend.

cheers

bleeding...

i dunno why everytime thingz like this will happen to me...i dun understand izit bcuz i alwiz think of alotz of different different thing so it alwiz put up some challenge for me.....or we should call all this negative happenings in my life....

i dunno but when u say if i call u or if i sms u is actually ur burden. u do not wana have any connection wif me....besides u even ask me to not let u hate so much....when i heard this it really gives me a very big impact.....i feel like u used a knife to slowly carve my heart....then cut into pieces and then smash it with the machine.but i din wanna tell u how i feel there....cuz actually i understand im being ur burden already....if u will be not happy wif what i have done...then i won't do anything. i wil stay away from u if u think thats work best for u...bcuz the most important thingz for me is u being happy.

from the heart, i wish u have a happy future and meet a nice man that will not hurt u...all the best.and i will alwiz love u wif all my heart..


And stupid stupid,its time to wake up from ur dream.......there is nothing u must focus....just fucking focus wif ur career....lets think about money making.....go all out....or i should say i can oni work work work myself out to forget all this pain.....

by the well im not well....sick...hahaz

not happy at all..

i dunno wat is happening to the thingz around me...everything is just seems so unsmooth...commission is not coming in.....then alotz of bills has come to paying time.....then other source we suppose to have oso not yet out.

Just yesterday im starting to feel not well.then is getting worse so in the end i go to clinic and get a day off.....whole body ache and then sore throat of cuz......lil bit fever......whole body is shivering....so i wore long sleeve and long pants.cover blanket wif oni fan on.....result is im better today....luckily.and did not online of cuz.

i didn't know why im alwiz being ignore or stay away from......am i like H1N1?or am i like AIDS?i really dun understand the reason....but is not good for me anyway....But its clear that we cannot force thingz...if people wanna do that just let them do it...as long as they are happy....yeah..

dunno what to type this not well feeling making me very emotional...easily get frustrated over thingz.so i think thats all for 2day...will update later..

1st week of work.....

I can say is super tired......reason being is very simple.....bcuz a day before i start work which is sunday im out since afternoon to lunch wif a roiz....then after that jeff call...asking to yum cha...so i agree and i go....then he ask me go on his car then we dinner...after dinner we go yum cha and then snooker...so my stupidity make me reach home around 1 and then go work early at 7 something.....crazee,so monday i already scared and pantang so i go home makan....and then i thought can rest for the 1st day.....unfortunately a call come......say:jeff birthday celebration lah so asking us to go some stupid karaoke which is expensive yet unproffessional and not nice.......waste time oni......and then reach there nobody come...oni a few person.....then order the beer all neva drink.....so end up on monday nite when everything is done is already 2 something and i sleep around 3.....

then tuesday follow boss go klang visit branch there.....2nite wanna excape but they already call me and say birthday is the day so force all of us be there for dinner...manatau tak boleh make it.....so we eat nearby oni.....so steamboat until 9 something then i go home adi to rest...damm tired.....wednesday wake up damm early to go klang branch.....learn how 2 do sales...then almost whole day there...at nite shawn pulak birthday.....so must go....and so stupid this is also steamboat....so this is the 4th steamboat 2 weeks on the row....crazee liao then took alotz of picture...but able to reach home around 11 if im not mistaken....or 11 something...then sleep loh and go to work thursday...this is the one and only day im free to eat and home and rest myself....so lucky....im so tired already...

but my nightmares doesn't end......on friday bcuz is to celebrate vincent's birthday.....i go the sri petaling harbour to steamboat....the food is nice....but this is the 5th steamboat of this 2 weeks....this week 3 time....so crazee...while eating steamboat already drink beer....then finish we go station 1 and drink again...so this whole drinking thingz make me home at 1 something or 2..then after i bath and everything i sleep around 2:45.....then i woke up at 5 on saturdat to go to KL that wisma hong leong..to meet up at 6:30 and shoot up to cameron highland...but the fact is everyone is late and 7 something oni we shoot up..and the most unlucky part is that the bus im on suddenly spoiled...the oil is dripping....my god......so i was stuffed in another bus wif some seats left....im at the back wif the bus throwing me from left to right from right to left...i almost vomit.....the bus driver can go for power rally liao.....cornering like mad....and this is not the nightmare yet....

then when reach adi...we go for lunch but dun really have appetite....then eat something and go into hall for some product briefing.....not really happy wif products is alotz but incentive i dun see many....negative...then hor we go for teambuilding...holy shit where we r in the jungle and doing alotz of activities.....and i oni bring the nike...im so sad my nike is dirty already....but mother nature is best lah...love it so much.....then the air is damm fresh at cameron highland...really a healthy place.....if can go wif loves one or family then sweet......the food all fresh.....but the teambuilding until 6:30 almost 7...then we go in the room happily wanna bath and we find out the room got no water supply...fuck them lah i got so pissed off....and call them couldn't get...then we go hotel room and bath...under repair de room...so stupid......then the dinner time....i see my nightmare....fuck and its steamboat again......6 times in 2 weeks and 4 times in a week man...oh god.....im gonna ban steamboat for 2 months......no more...no more.....

then after that got some award presentation and a stupid karaoke session and drinking session which last 4 hours....i really feel is a waste of time...i dun like it.....cuz the judges r like bias.....then the drinking session is not about who can drink more.....is about speed.....so boring......then after that,we r wondering around and enjoy the air.......and unfortunately i still sleep around 1 something almost 2 cuz of the fantastic 3 ka ka cau cau.....same room wif them is funny lah anyway........when drunk adi very funny de that ah yong....

then 2day wake up at 7....extremely not enuff sleep oh.....then go breakfast.....then i thought we leaving early and im happy...manatau we went shopping.....to a market they buy so many thingz....strawberry,corn,cabbage and alotz more vege.....then go down a lil bit we go c the strawberry farm......then go down a lil bit sumore to see the tea garden....nice place....and john buy again....teas....nvm then we like wanna go back adi...then got sumore thingz they buy......like strawberry cakes or stuff...then after that potatoes lah.....then thought we r done...but is not...we go further down and they r buying more thingz......crazee people......the even buy kaya puff,then bicuits....and alotz alotz of thingz even petai at bidor.....end up reach KL at 4..so crazily tired....reach home and bath already 5.....then go out eat wif daddy cuz father's day....the bill is RM75...my god i got so shocked almost bang wall cuz we din order much...stupid place.........nvm liao then i think 2day im gonna sleep early..cuz very very tired...

by the way my phone hang again and it cuz me cannot send sms again....so many days liao...so stupid...gonna smack the phone again...1 day....

quick update....

wow this week has been busy....cuz keep on going out oni non stop..........like saturday and monday i go back to jenjarom cuz wanna do the medical card for ah yap.....and he assume that i wanna cheat him.....so he is very big......i am very small...nvm i accept this.....and sunday cuz help jeff do his online assessment....my god...terrible.....

monday after jenjorom session in the morning and afternoon.........at nite got meeting at 9......then we were talking talking there.....then ah yong when leave adi oni tell us that he dun wana work sumore....he got his own reason but basically as my understanding is he still not willing to learn and keep on giving himself excuses.......bcuz his parents pampered him.......i feel lucky for him cuz he got no commitment....and then johnathan and jason talk wif him until i reach home also 2 o'clock adi....his mind set is not in career...he is just like i work..get some salary and pass time...that is his mind set...he neva think further.....god bless him.....

then tuesday went back see grandpa he is ill.....and he make ah foo look stupid cuz foo dun understand hokkien u see.....then after that nvm..........then nite so happy we went yuen steamboat......got evan yong,tiff chin,shiroi yong,irene kuah,vivi leng,zkan,evan ong,jason teh,marcus,henry,kien fei,steven and me.......we were having fun there and joke joke around and i eat until i think my mom oso cannot recognised me lah....lol,then after done already we went macdonald for drinking session....but not all there...oni me,tiff,vivi and evan ong,shiroi,zkan and jimmy wif jason.......so we stay a while then leave.......cuz have to fetch vivi back ampang.....and on the way back saw accident......the car bang the lamp post till the lamp post got S shape so sexy.....then reach home already almost 2......

Wednesday.....this is another special day cuz i come out to meet my penang friend kent chin.....okayz this guy is funny....i go his cousin house and pick him up.....then after that we go lunch in sunway....then we walk around sunway....then his friend come we go eat again....then after that they shop in pyramid and bowling....i sit wif my friend and have some chating session....and then at nite we already planned to go bah kut teh......so we all go down to bah kut teh and we r having fun eating........so then when finish and we go home i reach home already 12 something...is a bit earlier then i online till almost 2 and i sleep......

then thursday i need to go fetch kent out again from his cousin house....so then we lunch in pyramid again and we watch movie.....then after that we walk around and go for dinner.we have some chating and playing session lah of cuz......but this day got alotz of happening which make me not quite happy...not bcuz of one person...bcuz of few reason im not happy or u can say im kinda pissed......bcuz of all this selfish ass......

And friday...i dunno y i can't sleep loh...and so i was awake the whole day loh.....then around 10 in the morning the hong leong HR call.....she ask me start work next monday...okayz cool......then 3 hours later standard chartered admin call.....ask me turn up to work on the next next monday...i was like huh???no choice i must take hong leong...bcuz the hong leong friend warn me....last time i reject their offer once.....last year so if this year i reject their fucking offer again....i will be fucking blacklisted by the hong leong group for life.......awwww.....so sad.....

and even more sad is my fucking phone got hang.......so now i cannot sms adi.....i can received but cannot sent out.....so stupid.......make me feel so uncomfortable......yeah and i miss u so much still....still......

And Kiu,i watch the last vampire blood...the girl name SAYA really look like u lah....seriously...when i look at her face straight away reminds me of u......and recently dun really have time online catch up wif u oh......hope next week after i work adi then got more time at nite to stay home....maybe???i dunno.......

and quin yee....yeah i suppose speak canton wif u...sorry lah cuz when primary school we communicate wif mandarin mah.....if speak cantonese teacher will fine us money....therefore this is the reason lah...next time cantonese kz.....hahahaz

and gloomy still goes on.......SPARTA!!

How to absorb money??

quite stress recently about the younger brother studies fees.....must come out wif some money....then after that got sumore other thingz to think......housing loan and mama car loan....besides i sumore have to think about save some money...no way for now.......whua,how can i make lotza lotza money harh??i neva can get chances to spend on wat i like....lol

dear shiroi mei mei recently very stress oh.....similar problem like that chee bai kia tak tau macam mana wanna reply people's sms....din know how to treat a gal......and can alwiz ignored own gf...thats the really bull shit of saying himself busy when he is just a student....wat da fuck u think u r....the son of public listed company chairman?or shareholder of those company....

then dear psycho oso has a similar problem but its not the same.....she finaly can take it easy and not asking too much maybe.....and she already can put it down all the past i think.....that fat ko really very childish....he need to grow up a lil bit and be a nicer person.....good luck to him....

then dear kiu,u must rush on ur assignment adi u know.this study break is for u to complete it.....plz dun do it last minute again or else u will not have the time to sleep again my dear....okayz mah??and thanx for alwiz be there for me when i need u....although we are far from each other but i think still there is no problem...we still able to be so close...thank you very much.....i appreciate u very very much...kekez,maid will do the housework if i have the chance.....permit not out lol....

then dear xiu keng.....i really dunno wat we r now......u r making me super duper confuse....maybe i did not make enuff effort to chase after u....maybe......but im really not sure wat can i do by now........but the most important thingz is u r happy......if u happy then im happy....cuz now i dun think i can have time to be in any relationshipz when i got so much burden to carry.......

dunno...but i had a gloomy weekend and a stressful weekdays......and its still goin on.....goin on....

maybe time will help me be clear of my direction....wat to do...where to proceed....

one thing for sure...i will be a successful person and smack the world.....smack smack.....

hope everyone can be happy....smile on the face after all this gloomy time....

extra moody....

recently bcuz holiday-ing....no need to work so everyday like zombie lidat got nothing to do...online and read newspaper and outside hang out wif frenz.......almost everyday......one is to get job and now finaly get job liao....im gonna be a PFC in hong leong in taipan.......but moody about other thingz also oh........

when u alwiz ignore me and i saw that comment in ur facebook i thought u already have someone in ur life......but u just sms me 2 days ago and tell me very long neva received my msh already.....ok first of all im busy everyday reach home quite late so i assume u sleep already so din wanna sms u.....then 2nd is i thought of u dun wanna even see my msg so i din wanna disturb u as someone tell me when u dun like me and i keep on sms u end up oni will be hated by u oni...i guess.....but u r making me very confuse and lost of direction.....i really dunno wat u r thinking and wat u wan.....im so blur..

then happy birthday to dear kiu and dear quin yee......have a great one.....and 2molo will be yee mei's birthday......one of my ex-schoolmate which sit beside me 14 years ago......and din even see each other since primary school...but so happen add her in facebook and friendster....lol,so happy birthday all...and friday is jeff's gf birthday.....got celebration at the curve...so scary.......

then shiroi look very sad recently......my god,i have to say that chee bai will get his day....when raining the thunder sure will hit his head.....hopefully yee chin kam mei mei can recovered from it lah...then tiff mei mei and jun jun mei mei look like recovered a lil bit adi..although there is problem but the love is there.....i think problem can be solve.....good luck.....

wat else...i oso duno.very blur rite now...and enjoying cuz no need to go to work.......happy...everyday just being lazy lazy lazy just like a weirdo.......hahaz

moody!!

i duno wat the fuck is happening recently bcuz everything just seems so terrible......fucking iritating......like i was hurt..my leg and hands......then officially on holiday already....then have to look for job already.............then she seems like having a close new bf already...whuakakakaz,its just so so dark wei.......

i dunno wat to type bcuz i realy dun feel happy at all.....it does affect my mood...can't sleep well the other day...so terrible......but i cannot blame others bcuz me myself everything is just not stable how can i expect so many thing....i shall just be like now......focus on my career and other thingz dun even think about it anymore......and yes i must be lidat...and if she's happy then let her be loh...

and the uncle of my boss really very very noisy lah...im really not interested about all this shitty stuff.....i already got no time myself and so im not gonna touch other thingz.....not basic and just live on my commision is seriously not something that i wan......i need to survive bcuz i has alotz of commitment......im so tired...i really hope one day i can escape here and go for a sweet vacation and relax my soul.....

i saw the kite in the park 2day....and its so windy...i feel so good be in the park feel the wind....even nobody come out 2day....but just enjoy the wind is good enuff to release my moodyness...duno wat to say..update later..

vacancy

Whuakakakaz,as the title shows oh yes ang eng seng is going to look for a new job...resume was send out already......then now see where should i go.....there is ambank,hong leong bank and public bank already send resume.....then got a financial planner meeting 2molo cuz he is nickson's uncle...well we should just look into it and see if we have something going on......then direct competitor also ask me to join them.....but to be honest if join them means out of my focus already....then HSBC mortagage oso got space......lol,with intro.......why suddenly like so many post for me......i think this must be i alwiz intro people job so therefore this is my reward kah??

i dunno lah but im so calm rite now.....im not blur or stress or wateva fuck.....bcuz i already know which path next already......so i have to work 2wards all this shit loh......haihz,too bad.all the effort waste liao.....but i believe it will take me a short period then i can go far far for travel already...i believe......i mean hit target lah....lol,besides working in a bank provide more stability also lah....life goes on...

then i miss u lah xiu keng....but i dunno wats happening rite now.....maybe im sensitive or something i feel very odd.....is like there is a distance between us lidat.....haihz,maybe i need to be more aggresive??more and more aggresive?maybe lah

dunno wat else to say.......ohya oni this.....kiu kiu,recently has human interaction phobia or communication phobia....there is one day u ignore everybody almost exclude me....im so worry about u u know......plz dun do that again...i think u just lack of sleep alotz....and drink more water then u can feel better liao......and if there is anything im here to support u mah rite??although is a bit far maybe...hahahaz,gambateh and life will be better rite....

update soon lah....alotz of thinking going on..

shitty stuff

okayz hate to admit this but i think i got no choice but to change again.......and is not taking over the business.....i think bcuz nickson already decided and making everything goes on a very smooth and fast track....i dun think we got time to react over it......so yeah im changing my job probably to bank.......and im stick to remark liao........izit a good thing i dunno......but i know start from now on i got to join alotz of meeting liao.....well i got no choice but oni to join them....

so now my conflict comes.....looks like my elder bro has fucking couldn't be bothered wif them....so how??i dunno......but if i get along wif them or not me and my elder brother is still de same.....we still dun get along....we used to be so close.....im not sure the reason why...i really got no idea......am i really being too rude??am i too fucking rebelious last time?Yeah maybe i din wanna share wif him and my blog hurt him......i thought i have grown up......so i wanna do all by myself.....i dunno...im so blur rite now.....but luckily he is better now wif my dad,my younger bro,and my mom...he is trying to get everything back to the shape i think......but internally in my heart i know im being very mean to everyone in this house....i think my attitude does.....but i am who i am....i dunno will i change anot.....

Elder bro has some good friend.....somehow he is lucky to have them as friend...but on the other hand is bad to see all of them already succeed and he is still working towards there....so i think this made them a gap.....but they just dun understand how he feel i guess....i dunno how 2 help out but as usual i can only be outsider....bcuz in this family alwiz elders will not listen to younger people advise....neva.......well......

im so fucking stress and so i pick up cigarettes again.....but i think its oni a way to calm myself down.....or izit am i too bored while sitting alone got nothing to do...so i smoke and i think.......is that something rite?maybe i should just quit it again.......i dunno.....

and im missing u much...recently been busy so neva sms u at all.....but knowing u went a happy trip....glad u enjoy a relaxing week.and i start to realise i shouldn't alwiz tell u my updates bcuz maybe u just dun even wanna know.......and i shall not share anything negatives wif u.....i really very stress wif everything happening around.......fuck fuck fuck....hate all this......

hahahaz,a negative blogger and im still 1.....my blog hardly share my happiness.....i dunno why.....but im not a negative person i think........lol,beside i got a best friend which neva see her before.....we are alwiz sharing and cheer each other up......thank you for alwiz being beside me my dear....

mood-lost..really lost....and fucked up!!!!!

Changes in life

As the title show im having a situation here which again im into changes....and this changes is not my choice and its bcuz of something out of my control.......yeah my career path is alwiz so difficult to go.....whenever im going to that direction it ends up will tell me ahahahaz,u got the wrong road and so now u gotta turn back and choose the other road.....well but in the process of choosing all this wrong roads i learn alotz of different different thingz....and im glad i meet alotz of good people which help me out........

So im not worried about i can't get a job with people's help and also with my qualification.....the skills i got....But the thingz im worried is this job can get me how far??where can i reach by going through this path.....will i meet the same sign again??i really got no idea beh.....hahaz,but i know alotz of people willing to guide me and help me through this path.......although im being quite moody but i know nothing i can do......anyway its dissapointed bcuz once i thought this path im gonna reach somewhere and it will bring me to a different level........but im wrong in some way....bcuz of some inethical practice we are going to withdraw ourself.......

then im so blur of myself.........i miss u......do u know???yes i know u knew...but i duno how to be more close wif u...i really got no idea and im so stuck now....u teach me.....wat can i do??but now oso dun really have time to think about all this......unfortunately...

and oh my dear kiu, hahahaz,u r so stress with everything and become so weak bcuz i think u din sleep enuff and have not drink enough of water lah.......go drink more then u can feel much happier rite.......lol,im glad we are alwiz there for each other....we share so many thingz.......how nice if we r actually staying nearby....i think the place that we stay will banned us going anywhere together......cuz im such an silly idiot which i think might influence u to disturb the peaceful of that place......hahahahaz,but plz be strong bcuz nothing can stop a strong person......tough time won't last but tough people do.....i believe in u.....gambateh yoz........hahaz


oh my god...after update my blog i still feel shit........thingz seems sucks.......i bet im greedy and im a very negative person so my blog alwiz shows the negative side of me....sorry for those people which is reading it.....i apologise here for my evil practice...but this is actually a way of me trying to relax my soul and trying to express my feelingz and so to feel better.....in other words is SS lah....syok sendiri.....which i enjoy myself.......lol,hahaz


UPDATE SOON LOH!!!!!!

shocked...............................R.I.P

As the title show 2day im very very shocked.......early morning woke up already received a message saying that hon woon's mother enter hospital liao......okayz my worry start....but i keep telling myself that everything will be okayz.......she will be fine...its not serious.....then around 10 o'clock lidat there is a phone call from one of the auntie saying that she is gone........that accident is a joke......bcuz government block the motorbike lane.......so this bike must go on highway and it got hit by some rich people.....some executive of foreign company......and so she is gone.....

So the day start to be tough......bcuz this auntie watch me grow.......she know me when im oni 3 month's old.....and hon woon is not even born yet......and through my childhood.......i rememba i alwiz go hon woon house......we r like best buddies.....and when my mom having business outside i alwiz go hon woon house and his mom take care of us......when these aunties got nothing to do alwiz they stay together and chit chat chit chat....they all gather and cook......alotz of thingz they do.....so we r like a big family......

i still rememba there is one time i kick on the glasses and my leg bleed non stop....my elder brother and me and my younger brother oso dunno wat to do........so my elder bro ask auntie for help...so she cycle almost 1 KM to look for the doctor.......auntie is alwiz so friendly and she really loves her family...she willing to do everything for the family.......and she neva whack hon woon or ying ying before......work for the family to spend......

i believe that everyone will miss her.....and everyone will now help out hon woon and ying ying......bcuz we understand how helpless both of them will be.......but i know me myself is gonna help hon woon.....and its time for auntie to rest since she already work so hard for the family...hardly she get to rest......its time for her to rest 4eva.......a great women she is......everybody say...........

And i sumore must force myself to smile bcuz im doing marketing....i must entertain my customer in order they will buy from me.........cuz im representing the company........its so hard for me....i try to seek for help during afternoon but failed......but i still smile smile and laugh laugh.....although i know its fake......life must go on...i believe auntie would like to see us smile and laugh....she will go to heaven.....for sure.....

duno wat to say....not happy....2molo is the last time we still able to see her...after that nomore....
auntie

REST IN PEACE

stress

recently alotz of not happy stuff occurs in front of me.....im seriously not happy....just like our distributor is giving us alotz of trouble......set stupid target for us......and then compete directly wif us.....they even set the rules and i think its not authorised by the xox about the are allowed to steal our dealers...my god it means all my hard work has come to an end kah........fuck man......stupid ass....and then give those stupid numbers......everyone see's it also will not like it man......they grab nice one we get bad's one.......

career is moving no where...very stress.....dun like this type of environment........then talk about family......just last friday my dad start up a fight again......really fucking stupid when he did it so over.....he keep saying my mom outing wif other man.......sleep wif other man....use karaoke as an excuse to meet up wif those man...talk until my mom like a slut like that.......and my mom cannot take it so my mom yell at him......say wat r u done wif ur imagination ah...u crazee ah...thingz like that....okayz then me and younger bro go downstairs watch them and try to avoid any of them use violence.......then my mom pray in front of the guan yin and my grandmonther.....so my dad got crazy and he dig out those sand and throw at my mom's eyes........and he break that water put there for grandma.....and so my younger bro got very angry so i push my dad to sit on a chair and i stop him from moving......that time my mom so angry and bring the broom stick out......she wanna hit him and i protected my dad.......i can consider myself stop my mom and my younger bro whack my dad.....and stopped my dad to do stupid thingz....

then my elder bro come home....so he try to talk nicely wif my dad.......me and younger bro sit aside....but he is not listening lah..but he is tired......so he can't fight so long........then he sleep.....after that the next morning he got angry again.......he start everything again and scream and yell.......then he say his boss ask him out to breakfast......when he come home will fight again....early notice....fuck man......so my elder bro and his wife wif my niece out for breakfast too...left oni me wif my mom..younger bro sleepin....then when dad come back he really fight again........my god and as usual he say lah me this son useless lah,stupid lah,and he curse me that when im old my wife will betrayed me also and sleep wif other man....hahahahaz,wat a good daddy he is....then nvm,finaly he stopped when reaching noon.....then he talk nicely and try to apologise i dunno.....but my mood already spoiled for this weekend......then me and younger bro wif mom go out during noon to lunch wif the baby my mom used to babysit last time.....they are big now...so fun to walk around in pyramid........wif them i mean....so cute they are now.....

then reach home adi evening go for basketball.....so tired and was elbow on my chest by that big fat guy......well cuz nobody wanna guard him....everytime im there....and the basketball is satisfying,really sweat all out........but stress not clear at all.....hahahahaz

then sunday nothing much either than sleep sleep sleep......then out to lunch wif elder bro family.......in a nearby mamak.......then at nite mom and elder family go tapao...the food is so so oni....not to say nice as they claimed.....but anyway is just dinner....so dun bother about it........

then luckily kiu kiu alwiz share my problem.....i alwiz grumble grumble wif her all my problem.......although me and kiu neva meet each other before but we chat like we know each other very long adi......maybe is bcuz she neva see me before or else she will be sacred of me maybe...hahahahaz,but im glad she is alwiz here listen......but recently having a study break hope that u really can study hard and achieve ur goal u set earlier this year...cross fingers.....

finally,i still missing u very much leh......previous sunday which we dinner together and walk around its veryy sweet to me......i feel so happy can be wif u.....although we talk about oni normal stuff....but i realised that im more close wif u at least a few steps maybe........and let kevin saw me.....but we din go in any shop we just keep walking around oni.......looking forward to have another date wif u......miss u so much....

then ohya not to forget,justin mei mei and patrick mei mei recently go for travel and relax......welcome back to malaysia and work work work..hahahahaz,then happy birthday to evan mei mei on the 15th of april......stupid price tag....that staff which wrap for me is brainless....already ask her take out she just dun listen....hahahaz,apartment seems like a nice place for dinner....quite nice...hahaz

conclusion......im lost.......need a break...

im sure is not monday blue

2day definitely is not monday blue.....but i had been very very unhappy i dunno y......is no reason or no nothing but im not happy........no fight nor nothing happen......i dunno wat cause that.......maybe is bcuz last nite one day that i cannot online...........or izit bcuz i know about nee nee problem didn't share much wif her last nite....or izit bcuz recently me and keng hardly chat or something.......really missing u much....

well im 23 years old......i have work as carlsberg marketing representative assistant before........i have work as retail shop before as a part time until supervisor.......i have work in ds-max which do direct selling before.......i can even go door to door selling...no problem....now im a business development executive of this company in a new telco company.......but i still see me going no where.........i cannot see where i can reach......i feel like i wan more......i need more.....is that so?i really dunno......im like got no direction at the moment........im just lost.....

and family recently has back to the peaceful stage........just for temporarily oni....we will not know in a month or 2 month time or maybe in a week times they might fight again.....i just do not know.....i just feel quite tired to maintain........

i really dunno wat to write anymore bcuz i really dun feel happy 2day...im moody...really moody......i wonder why...........im doubt about my value....

my dad is back...

last friday he came back........and i really dunno y my mom become like so down......maybe bcuz of his past records......then my mom just try to be normal but actually that nite she cook the dinner taste very different........till i have to force it in my mouth............and i expected that soon there will be a fight no matter how we do it........and yet is only less than 2 days..........2day afternoon my mom went summit to watch singing contest wif my elder brother.........so then my dad was sleeping so my mom neva tell her anything and just go......then when he woke up he just check everywhere to look for her....and then i say i was in the toilet when they are out....but i heard is go summit loh...then he dun wana believe me........he keep saying my mom go out wif mans.......oh god plz tell me wat sin did we do until he wanna torture us like this.......i really dun like him.........so and while he questioning me in my room my younger brother was sleeping.....it does disturb my younger bro.............then my sister in law told me that he call up my mom and scold her straight away now........oh my god i just feel that my beautiful sunday just screw up.........i just feel so dissapointed........he neva think of the family financial nvm......use the money to gamble nvm...........still wanna start up a fight on a sunday which i plan to just rest........

And i know my mom very hate my dad........but i really cannot understand y she still choose to sometimes maybe hide or purposely wanna make thingz the worse way......everyone knows how my dad behave but y............i wanna have my own house.....if i no need to pay for the house installment i could have do that in a year time......but god.....everything is just so fucked up.......

well.......i really miss u alotz rite now.......after this blogging i think i will sms u and see whether can u chat wif me anot......cuz really not happy wif wats happening............but my ffamily which cause so many conflict make me dun know whether can i have a stable relationship anot......im just so afraid.........and im just so tired.....

then at work place also the same thing........this fucking "iritating asss" neva give us wat we wan and set something they wan and so we must follow them.........and im not sure whether will my boss follow them anot...i really do not know.....at least for me myself im negative wif wats actually happening..........im really worried about my own future rite now........this is just so negative.......

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.....................kiuuuuuuuuuuu.................im so helpless....later when u be online i will be grumbling and mumbling to u again..........bcuz supposing write blog can ease my pain but now it seems not good enough.......i need more help.......im very very tired.....

as i predict.

as i predict 2day went this so far trip is not efficient bcuz it took me so long and some of them not open yet and the worse is......some of them complain about the complicated situation that happen around malaysia......i can understand this.....so i use some time to explain to the dealers about wat actually happening here.....and the distributor so troublesome......principle themselves is oso another issues.....so stress..hahaz

and this few days really feeling very uncomfortable about my own body....bcuz i feel very very very hot in my body........is like burning.....and my face....so oily and those pimples...my god this is killing me......i just feel so dead.......and wanna eat oso cannot eat well bcuz inside my mouth is almost 30% ulcer....so pain so pain.....din wana use listerine......

and again im missing u.......missing u so much......again our relationshipz maybe growing....i think.....but we dun know yet wat will happen in the future.......we just slowly move on...whuakakakaz,im excited over the date..........

lol,and kiu kiu has already drop one of her subject i think.....which makes her wake up early in the morning every tuesday......so funny......and amaze wif her can dun sleep early.....or to be accurate sometime dun even sleep......she's crazee...if me i dun think i can take it.....im excited about hatyai trip ne....whuakakakaz

cloudy day!!

2day dunno izit bcuz god pity me got burn the other day.....so he decide to let no sun out 2day!!hahahaz,i love 2day......well and recently got quite busy wif everything.......especially wif the distributors and the dealers....i feel so tired wif them......and my bosses thinks that if we can keep on slow pace should be good......so lets go babe.....

and very tired recently......neva had a good rest.......2molo sumore have to rush go kuala selangor and make sure everyone sign before i can come back.....and then most probably i need to go KL city to sign the rest of the dealers......and hopefully i can start selling those packs by thursday.......that will be great!!

then become very weird wif us now.....i wonder how r both of us consider?????looks so far yet so close.....my god.....very dizzy and my body got so hot suddenly....now my mouth is full of ulcer beh........can understand i need more water to cool down my body...i think......lol

and helllllllllllllllllllllllll,i need a break to rest and out of this city......hahahaz

wednesday!!!

okayz,recently has been very busy bcuz just everything is picking up so i got alotz of work to do.....alwiz flying here and there loh.........then after that has to communicate wif dealers......and try to make them buy...hahahaz,funny a bit...

then recently my dear kiu start to be very very not happy......actually did try to make her happy.....but then after a while then she will think about those negative stuff again......but if im her,i might even be worse...nobody know.....she is so tough i think......well but dun really know wat actually happening..........well i guess now i can do oni chat wif her....try to relax her mind.........hope she will be better soon......

then just now when yum cha wif kevin and thiam soon.......again this kevin is in troubled.......hahahahaz,bcuz the mom bring for some fortune teller......so that person totaly crashed kevin's heart and say u will not have a good relationshipz.....even if got wife oso not good....the ending i think.....then if u got son or daughter oso not good....bcuz they will finish all ur money in a bad way.........and u will still be in bad luck until 31 years old......but he is oni 22 going 23....whuakakakakakaz,so i just scold him one thing.....this type of thing dun go see better lah...if they say good thing does not mean u no need to work hard......if they say u bad then u will feel terrible and no confident......this activity is so demotivating but his mom alwiz bring him go.......pity him.......so he is a bit negative but i think we did help him to relax a lil bit i guess....hope i did if not really waste my time...hahahahaz

and as usual im missing u very very much.......i know u might be busy recently and i am too.......but i think u know that i miss u.....maybe u miss me too...nobody know..hahahaz

whualau....

start wif last friday nite suppose to celebrate ah sa birthday at look out point.....the plan was everyone wait at ah sa house and go together at 8...but bcuz yee wei work until 8 so i told her i will pick them up and go there a bit late........so they go by themselves.....oh well.....we use 1 hour to reach look out point which we can see the whole KL view...nice place.....but if for 25 person at one row.....maybe a lil weird........and i waited for everyone 2 sit down then we order food and drinks......my food came last...so stupid....hahahahaz,then something not happy happen....which is half way we were eating half group of the people left........cuz they wanna go up and see the more clear KL view.......but one follow another end up oni left 10 person lidat wif the super long table.....and the birthday gal was left wif us.......she's just not so happy bcuz after that ask people take picture and about the bills just so troublesome.......and then at first someone already promise to club together.......end up most of them din go......so i understand she's not happy.......well then i reach home around 2....and sleep

then saturday woke up at 9 lidat cuz need to go cut my hair......now my hair is no difference wif those botak...damm short my hair....hahahahaz,then after that we go home.......then alan and foo wanna go KL to walk around and buy present for kah chun....then after that more funny.......we go by train....we park the car at bukit jalil stadium there.......so we reach there and alan suggest to buy that shit keychain.....so after he buy we walk a while more in times square....then when we wanna walk to the train station start raining.......but we still manage to reach station without being wet yet.....so inside the train then we reach bukit jalil station.........so when we reach we know its gonna rain cats and dogs.......but suddenly we heard the drifting sound...so we go up and see really there's drifting...but foo say leave before the heavy rain.......we neva listen.........end up when we start walk back to the car start raining heavily.....so we r stuck in the middle.....then we decided to be wet...is very fun to play.......and end up all wet like bathing....then when we sit in the car,we start driving back to home....then sudddenly alan so unluckily car cannot start in the middle of highway...........reason after his father staff check is the timing belt spoiled.......whualau end up it drag a few hours there and i promise to dinner together wif desmond and the gang....those college kawan......

then reach home wif whole day wet.....so then i go to that steamboat place.....but the food honestly is just so so...i dun feel anything nice so just simply grab alotz of thingz in my mouth...then we chat chat a lil...then desmond and ah san go back.....kah wah oso go home....left oni me and vincent and wai hong go lil bali cafe watch manchester united vs liverpool and also arsenal vs blackburn.......

and 3 of us the whole nite sitting outdoor under the rain....so wet........and we have 4 bucket of heineken......my god.....so drunk.....hahahahaz,cuz excited when liverpool win 4-1 and arsenal win 4-0.....and we talk about some staff that happen recently.......and i reach home already almost 3 in the morning.....so sleep

and 2day wake up i feel so dizzy.......headache bcuz of wat i had yesterday i think....and freaking hot i feel......and 2day just do nothing in front of laptop and just went eat alotz of foods.....so now resting and prepare for 2molo back to work......

at the same time missing her much......lol.so funny...

raining cats and dogs...

as the title show......now raining till like mad lidat.....whualau im so scared......so 2day cannot go exercise jor lah......so pity.....nvm lah....okayz since that few days which give me alotz of stress and pressure...now at least everything is slowing down.....and i can have a breathe........well regarding my recent family issues.....my dad just went kuantan yesterday....so he will not be home for 2 weeks.......so peace for 2 weeks...but when he is back wat will happen sincerely i dunno....i have no idea.......just hope for the best and definitely im prepared for the worse...i alwiz do.....

then jun jun oso went to work adi.....lucky this time they neva say delay or anything....good for her......then kiu is gonna exam.......and im gonna invite some klang kaki and shiroi,vivian makan bah kut teh...whualau so hard to ask cuz everyone busy like mad everytime......so cacat..........

then recently catch up wif kevin,kok hay and soon..........so basically soon and kok hay is fine....but our fren kevin is having some conflict there.......he is just into his relationship problem again..........well,that gal is under his team...and he is a team leader.....not positive....if im the manager i will sack her...hahahaz,or at least shift her to another team.....then he is not afraid of wat others say and be i think flirty wif her......so i believe the rest of the team member might drop their confidence on him a lil bit........then recently i think he decided not to get close wif her....but he suffer...i dunno how 2 say......i did advice but dun seems working....so we leave it.....he will grow tougher each time he fall......gambateh mate.......

then to my dear.....im missing u much.....i can feel that we r being at least a bit closer........i really feel very very excited.......sweet flirty stage i suppose....i know will take times to progress.....but i dun mind waiting........as long as i can stay by ur side.....i already feel very very happy......hehehez,hope for the best.....hope for the best...hahaz

stressfull day!!!!

2day actually quite weird.........i oso dunno how 2 say...woke up quite early considering is sunday.....i oso dunno y....then after that had breakfast and watch discovery talking about crocodile...read some news on the paper............then suddenly oni justin oso say he cannot make it 2nite so the rest is oso not coming......hahahaz,so end up me and pat pat will dinner 2gether just to catch up wif each other loh......kekez

then around 12 lidat mommy wanna go out........she brings a bottle of water........so my dad start grumble say she going out to have fun.......to mixed around wif man and women.........we actually quite pissed off wif his attitude.....he say straight away like my mom did something wrong and probably he is looking for a fight..........im quite dissapointed wif this childish attitude....mentioned alotz of time before that if cannot take it then u both dun get along.........they both wanna get along but then wanna fight like this.........he neva even think about how im burdened at this stage......i pay house loan...sometimes daily expenses like papers or security fees oso i pay......and alotz more.......neva contribute nevamind on the sunday oso wanna start up a fight and end up will need us to stop them......i really had enuff of this dramatic scene........y is he so negative and im so positive???he just spoiled my sunday morning mood......

then after that im still missing her so much....i know our relationship is very hard to define where izit......."ai mei" should be the best describtion........i think so..............but really hope one day we can be closer than just that...well time will proves everything............

very boring day.......everything is just so not excited except for the dinner.....and the nite chat wif kiu........but i think after my dinner will be quite late oso...hahahaz.....

mood--bomb gonna explode anytime.....

2day i just feel like blogging....second part of the day!!!!!!!!well actually suppose to have a gathering 2day........but then bcuz of some incident then we cannot gather together but since im already at pyramid i got nothing to do then stay at bookstore and read a mystery novel for 3 hours there.....stand till leg pain......then oni go some mamak near by look for food.........after finish that dinner/supper i knew that when im home there will definitely be alotz of problem.........bcuz my dad is being stupid again.....as i mentioned in the afternoon,he really fight over the issue just now.......and my stupid auntie wif husband and the son is her....she is the one comment alotz.......like proffesor,but i bet she wanna help my mom....but she really talk alotz and my father that so so so insists about face issue.......say my mom make him shame........not respect.....oh well and dun talk wif him all is my mom's fault....i was like wat the fuck man.......2day my mood is just the worse of all.......im just being stressful wif him.....he can't even support the family but is burdening me but he neva realise and he still wanna act as a person in charge of the house.......fuck man.....if got time find fought why not just go and get some job to help out the family.........im exhausted wif all this shit adi.....he keep on grumble like fucking ass hole oni....neva even think of all his mistake that he keep repeating.......neva wanna give people freedom......my god man......and say thingz like wanna kill my mom and stuff....brainless.......he really has no idea how he has make us feel shame.......

god,can u plz tell me my dad which i respect so much last time....which is a superman to me...which is contributing to family...where have he been...y he oni know how 2 grumble and burdening us.......im gonna lose patience on this guy......im ashamed wif him......y people's parents can do so good......my dad......i really feel like crying.......i hope my grandma is here to slap him awake......slap till he know he is wrong and fucking wrong which neva cares about anyone's feelingz........

busy!!!

been so busy since yesterday...cuz mom car send for repair....so i need to send younger brother to school and then me myself go to the skin specialist for injection...so i leave home at 8 and have breakfast adi then send bro there.....while im waiting for my turn to go inject my face im so nervous......is something similar to a prisoner prepare to be torture.....but rememba thereis support......just go ahead and get injection by the doctor......he is so funny he say where should i poke this time.....hand or leg......then i say face lah.........then he poke until i feel so pain left and right side or my face.......then bloody.......then he joke,since i poke ur left side and right side....u wan some in the middle????lol,since there is no scar tissue y poke.....i asked him...he laugh.......

then after that wait for younger bro........he say probably can leave at 11:20 but i wait until 12 oni he is out...my god....then bcuz of the ah hong from seremban getting interview from johnny....so i went kim gary and catch up wif them see how thingz goes.....but hong just not prepare mentally,he is not confidence enough and some of his resume is just not right......so i believe he will get some idea and prepare again so in the future he can do better........

then reach home adi stay a while read the papers then rush out again to get the car send to repair...then toufu go home and me go mid valley to meet up wif evan,jun jun and justin....so we have a drink there then shop around wif evan and jun.........neva buy anything but around 7 lidat they are hungry so they eat......i watch......then jia xin and tony call ask me to go pyramid....whualau haven rest then rush to pyramid and meet up wif them.......so talk talk some crap there......chat around until 10 something lidat oni go home......reach home bath and eat adi sumore go online and check check......then oni wanna go oi oi.......later gonna meet up wif boss...good luck to myself......hope got something good happen......

thank you!!

well,even though my birthday already pass few days.....yesterday i have a birthday dinner again wif seaport group which is ah nic,yee wei,shi liang,stephy,theresa,jia xin, and me and tiff which is both not from seaport...hahahaz,have some great time chat chat and play play there......and those cake is chocolate banana.....so again thanx for all of them that came for the dinner.really appreciate it!!!!so many times i celebrate...lol,and the place is at millenium square...until now i still dunno how i can put this picture nicer.....still look funny funny when i post.....

then 2day boss email to me.....basically i think is need me to work harder for him and let him now my progress i think.....well he already give me very much freedom but the thing is i still dun have epf and socso.he still haven give me any new contract???im not sure how he wanna pay me....so boring...

well,and my ulcer almost a week adi still there not cured.....wat can i do....did i talk crap too much until my mouth now lidat???well,theres alotz of dinner coming by all friends.....sister in law,hon woon,then patrick and theresa.....i feel that life is becoming quite busy there.....lol,but its good bcuz it means i can have a lotz of thingz to do....busy busy....

again miss u so much.....still dunno how???speechless...............haihz..

rainy day!!!

yesterday while chating talk about my grandma....suddenly make me feel so miss her.....i miss those time when im back she will cook nice food,she will be happy see us running around in the house.....and she alwiz watch us leave and wave to us......and i rememba when she is very ill in the hospital she still rememba my birthday and ask my mom to cook something nice for me.....i wish i can be like small that time just be in her arm........is already 9 years she's gone....and since i so miss her...my elder brother shouuld miss her even more since he last time thought my grandma is her mama....but grandma is really good to us.......hahahahaz,ahma should be watching us....we will be somebody in the future.....so that u can be proud of us....

rainy day makes me write this feelingz out.and actually career is not that smooth at the moment...but its not that bad....just that is very hard to proceed...hope for better future....2day toufu finaly get back to school....we glad he do that....and wat else??hmmm

missing her much....so excited the other day she wishes me on my birthday...seriously surprised bcuz i din know she will rememba...but she mentioned that actually she remembered every word that i said.....its so sweet but im just blur....im very blur about us now....i dunno wat am i to her........well,confuse..........

and recently raining almost everyday...hardly go for exercise so make myself very very very fat adi....lol,must back to exercise...........and wanna buy myself a present after i got my salary!!!!!!now thinking wat to buy......kekez

ohya,jun jun recent post look very very down and moody.....i suppose is 4skin mei mei inspired her to spotcheck her boy boy....but i think that makes them argue maybe.....so she is very moody now and angry possibly...lol,but the above is just wat i assume oni.....if not right dun scold me plz....hahahaz,funny!!

my happy birthday!!!!!!

well,my day is really great.....when that time my younger brother birthday which is one day earlier than me already celebrate!!!!!for me as well....and we play wif those cakes.....so when i make him face on the cake...he just did it back to me as well....so pain......but i did share wif ling ling and alan...so funny....have fun in that red box...but haven get those picture yet so cannot post here....one day when free.....

then when countdown for my birthday bcuz hon woon car spoiled we neva out...so i stay at home and i countdown wif kiu nee pau online...alotz of people wish me through sms and msn online and facebook and friendster......really thanx for all of their wishes....those that wish me first is shirley,then follow by evan ong,then shiroi and kiu and ling ling,ah foo.....then msn is stephy,and who else???can't rememba...then 2day dinner together wif all 4skin mei mei....feel quite happy compare wif my last year birthday have to celebrate in the dark....lol

and 2day got alotz of people wish me in facebook and friendster and smses.....feel really sweet compare wif my last year.....and really appreciate those that already wishes me....love u all muacks.....and im so funny purposely go disturb a few person just to ask them wish me...one of them is best buddy since small,lim chee siang...hahaz,one is joey.....really so free kacau people...but gonna sleep since eng seng day already come to an end.....and today is also a few of my friends birthday......happy birthday to jason lim,zheng han,izeen tik,erica,sureen nita and najib from topman/topshop!!!!!!so many of them is born on the same day as me....my younger bro one day earlier.....happy birthday too.......lol

miss her much...continue the blog 2molo....whuakakaz

ohhh,so long no post!!!!

hahahaz,recently quite fun playing around but forget to post....me not much difference,grow fatter adi.....cuz i did alotz of thingz....i went park kum sun house on the 2nd last day of CNY.....then some frenz come my house....then after that nothing much happen except i work work work and then valentine come i hide at home.......then recently that KIU KIU that missing in action already back online.....so alwiz see get her...but bcuz of her holiday finish adi so i think she will back to study hard adi.....wish her luck for her goals.....of cuz not about spam my profile....is about to get the chance to get into the best UNI........gambateh mass......

my life is normal,nothing special bcuz not much outing....recently went gabriel open house thats all.....then 2day is actually my younger brother birthday and 2molo is mine.....is just so so so ngam.....lol,last nite celebrate 2gether wif ling ling,kah chun,alan sot,kwok sing.....well we have fun inside there and swallow some cake.....lol,and chun is drunk..so funny.........

dunno wat else to post bcuz of too long neva blog adi..kinda dun rememba thingz well....one thing for sure...still miss u much much....i wonder u know anot...i guess not.....lol,just hope u r doing fine there..muacks....

dong chan sze!!!

whua,yesterday before pray ti gong we went back to jenjarom to visit ah gong,wanna visit auntie but she slept adi i think......then we go dong chan ssze......seriously so nice the thingz there....a very good photoshoot place.......i took a few of it..gonna post soon......the hall i think display books and thingz....then got some art work about those monk living places......a mini display of tibet i think......then got alotz of tanglung....then got wish tree and wish pool......then got a garden got alotz of light wif some flower wif a pool of fish...then still got the countdown stage.....then got the guan yin street....after that got the big moo moo and the rest wif flowers at the garden near car park.....then next to it is the association of Ang......but too dark cannot take get picture...next time go in the morning and take...hahahaz,quite big.....

then pray ti gong....wish.......then online online online....sleep around 2...so sienz...then wake up go work....but uncle not home cuz i think some car ran over his dog......then uncle went serdang hospital.......so after that go work.....so tired after so long start work again.....then get ready wif a new starter pack......waiting for them to convert.....just view the mnp hop on package......then just now go jogging and shoot shoot basketball for while...nobody there cuz raining...but i still shoot under the rain.....cuz i wanna get sick...hahahahaz,feel so good under the rain..im not sure wat reason.........

as usual missing u much much...i wonder how r u doing???hehez,dunno....really dunno........but feel quite happy sometimes.....hahahahaz

long time no blog

hehehez,recently extremey busy wif CNY...cuz got alotz of activities so therefore sometimes cannot online......just busy going everywhere............but haven got a chance to go dong chan sze yet...maybe going there 2molo.....hahahaz,in between there is so many days have been to genting,have been to jenjarom watch fireworks........have been to cinema.......have been to redbox sing karaoke and then go one utama watch ink hearts...have been to wan san house gamble.....have been to IOI watch "ga yau hei si".....this is the short summary of my cny life.....will be back soon.....

chinese new year coming to town....

hahahahaz,chinese new year coming everybody so busy included me...clean here clean there clean non stop........and buy buy buy non stop oso...i spend banyak banyak duit..going to issue bankruptcy soon......will not have time to blog...will be back after chinese new year i guess.....

busy day

have a great sleep last nite........until almost 11 2day.....then go makan wif mommy then go tesco buy some stuff for chinese new year...end up bayar 136......wow.......but as long as got a happy chinese new year then can adi......hahahaz,then reach home online a while and wait for toufu....

when toufu is home then we go find auntie in pkns shah alam to get new specs......and chat a while wif auntie....then after a while go one utama.....not very jam but then when reach there round round round quite long.......din get wat i plan to get...nvm......bought something to eat then stuck in LDP traffic congestion and reach home at almost 8.....then bath adi and eat adi dunno wat to do....so boring........

miss her so much.........but haihz.....hahahahaz

so tired

last nite elder bro bring me and toufu carrying those guan yin stuff to setia alam to mandarin say "kai guang"....and reach there adi nobody yet so we watch HE Man....it look liks 70's show to me...perhaps 80's.....i dunno but after everything is done is already 1:33.....then we reach the toll machine face difficulties to print so we drag there for almost 20 minutes.....then reach home already 2 something...so late....then sleep and wake up early today feel so letih.......then go and distribute the rest of those red packets......

then very tired reach home adi straight away fall dead.......and tiba tiba raining very heavily so neva go exercise oso....just sleep.......and its woke up already almost 8..then bath and eat....now sitting in front of the comp dunno wat to do....mayb later boring boring follow toufu go pasar malam....to pass my time...hahaz

miss miss miss her much much.........nothing much to blog...moody~~

my job's done....

i have got my work almost complete.........i mean distribute those red packets to all the dealers......alotz of people wanna give me back mandarin as return......lol,but i really not quite like it so i rejected them.......and 2molo just need to distribute few more then my work is done adi....so thursday and friday i think i can get day off jor....hahahahaz

this few day cannot sleep well im not sure why but it might be something to do wif me....izit the air cond???izit my body???or izit the bed sheet haven change since so long.......well i dunno......just not feeling well....or i called it uncomfortable....and hot.....lol

alotz of them haven prepare the documents to me...im planning to find them after chinese new year bcuz im very sure they dun have the mood to do thingz rite now.....they are alwiz like this......dealers........

and again i miss miss miss miss miss u much much.....nothing to blog...moody...

sore throat.

As the title show im having a sore throat rite now....so pain ne......2day so damm rushing keep on flying all the place......from house puchong to subang then go semenyih and then all the way down to kajang......then oni go home....rush around all the dealers there to distribute red packets....and just received some information from CM.....but the things that they say im not sure izit okayz anot....

lol,when im exercise i feel more tired recently i oso dunno y...just tired.......so letih......jogging adi lagi tired....after basketball game adi freaking tired........i oso dunno wat i can do.......izit start to old adi???muscle just like tak boleh tahan lidat....im afraid of myself........

chinese new year coming.......busy busy busy.......miss miss miss her...haihz.....

shopping till im so so tired

As the title show recently keep on going to the mall there for some shopping for our grand grand chinese new year 2009....so 2day early morning wake up the same thing going out to have breakfast in pyramid.....kim gary as usual loh..........then give back stevan members card to evan.......cuz today they wanna buy something oso........then after makan we go s&j and buy a present....

but this present is actually not mine...is toufu buy for one of his friend.......but before that we went in to a shop i think its speedy or something bought original VCD....hahahaz,about some talk show of lam hoi fong.......is alwiz funny........

then we go in giant wanted to buy some drinks....too bad is 100 plus is too expensive there...but then we dunno at nite we go tesco there already no stock of this 100 plus.....CNY is really scary.....everybody crazee buying thingz......

back to usual thingz.....i go exercise just as usual and eat as usual and miss her as usual......lol

no time blog yesterday

hahahahahaz,very busy and tired last nite thats y neva write any blog de ne....busy dou mother oso cannot recognise......ahahahaz,last nite busy and buy clothes from sungei wang and also got go pyramid see see thingz.....then sit a while at station one!!!!then watch bedtime stories......is seriously a damm funny show.....i love it and actually i smile quite happily....love it so much......but i dun rememba my kids time my mom did not do this....thats y i grew up quite nottily i guess....hahahaz

then 2day more busy...woke up adi go cut hair......then go pyramid lunch......then bought some shirt for me and my younger bro and dad and elder brother......lol,but seriously so banyak olang inside there where......really got the mood for this happy chinese new year........of cuz there's alotz of pretty gal wondering inside the mall as well.......so lepaking in mall is becoming one of the hobby of weirdo recently.....so puas.......then at nite dinner have steamboat together wif segi fren......desmond and san,wai hong and kah wah.....have until so full so penuh.......chat a lil bit and kah wah look so down and he kinda say he got cheated by a gal or something..........then after this no activities.....lol

nothing much but just miss her much as usual....lol

me so letih!!!!!

whua,2day early morning wake up then go makan.....but then 2day i damm rushing........at 1st reach uncle house then rush go a shop to fax and photocopy........then pass the things to uncle straight away run all the way to ampang there.......oh my god then dunno y all the handphone shop like belum buka.........

then after tat rush to pyramid and lunch wif shiroi...din buy anything for steven.....maybe shiroi will buy a cake in a short while.....then later we plan to meet up around 10 something....aiyer,so letih......back to my exercise time......2day went to the park the U18 is there again....but they are very lousy........maybe their basic is not good enuff...and their teamwork is nil.....i really glad that my team before was so good......compare wif them....compare to previous U18 strongest will be kenneth that year and following toufu that year.......

but too long neva full court i feel so tired......run as a guard is so tiring.....i still prefer my small forward position....no need run so much.....lol

and usual i miss miss miss her so much....whuakakaz

im exhausted....

2day wake up go breakfast...then tapau for everybody in the house.....then after there go uncle house.....he call to maxis and complaint some staff behavior and also his network problem...alwiz got cut off haly way talking....and according to him maxis customer service got quite alotz of problem as one of the staff dare to slam the phone on him.....is so rude and they are customer service sumore....i wonder izit they got complain too many time so they explode adi leh....still their fault anyway.....

then go distribute red packet without money wan...hahahaz,all asking where is the money inside....so funny....and drive here and there.....then come home raining...then go exercise and basketball.....saw the utama school team U18.....ask for next team all dare not even have a match wif us...run when they finish the game between them....so damm funny and stupid.......now think back im alwiz glad if those better skills wanna play wif us.....but them....haihz.....no wonder utama standard so lousy adi...all the coward.....

then as usual after my dinner adi feel so tired.....wanna sleep lidat...hahaz,and as usual miss her much much....lol

rainy day!!!!

2day so boring...bcuz my house full of chicken pox virus....every one look so down.....my mom,my bro,my dad......toufu looks better but his nose keep bleeding dunno y....haihz......my dad is bcuz of alwiz grumble.....im not sure is this called pesismistic......i start to thank god actually im a quite optimistic person....and im glad i do.......bcuz when i look at me i feel so down and sad as well....it does has the influence......and he did not notice it...he still thought this is the best way he should do.......if me i bet i will make everyone happy and think of solution but not with that face in front of my children...hahahaz

then 2day actually so hot the whole afternoon oni until 4:30 it start to rain.....i mean more accurate is 4:50 lidat.....then rain till 6 lidat....actually is 5:50.....lol,and then i go jogging when nobody is there.....then everyone comes even the floor is wet....then we play a few game but actually all scared fall dare not run.....oni me keep moving bcuz wanna exercise till tired tired then wat oso no need to think and go to sleep.....hahahaz,just did it yesterday.......wat a boring man's life........

as usual missing her much....too bad is not something that i can tell...but i can oni keep secret about it....but that day obviously can see she is very happy...neva c her like this before.....now i know wat she means when she tell me she is a funny person in front of everyone and she makes everyone laugh.....hahahaz

mood=rainy day

cockroach.....

2day wake up nothing special...just that ada 2 person kena infected chicken pox from my younger bro then look like very tired lidat....hahahaz,so after breakfast reach home bath adi then go out......reach uncle there chat chat a while talk about chelsea loses....uncle is happy bcuz he is a MU fans.....so its a good thing happened....but he say he neva expect that score....agreed..

then go and distribute those red packet to dealers.....some of the dealers get it feel very happy wif it.....hahahaz,out of my expectation......then distribute till ampang there wanna go lunch.....sit inside hamid maju i think.......sit down order nescafe ice wif mamak mee goreng.....drinks come adi....then tiba tiba i feel something go inside my pants.....i feel very very very not happy adi...i can guess get wat izit adi.....so i keep pushing it out and it keep wanna climb in sumore...fuck.....then end up i make it out and comfirm is actually a cockroach.........really hate this stupid place....so damm fucking dirty when u see it.......hate hate......just simply spoiled my day....then continue distribute red packet....main main....

then reach home adi bro wanna go buy coconut drinks.......fetch him out adi......then reach home sky adi dark dark......predict will rain....then i exercise a while then go out jogging and basketball adi....but dunno y raining....then i tak mau balik........so basketball under the rain.......then 2day basketball almost 3 hour i think...so funny.....and tired now....feel like sleep straight away......play play and talk talk....all the boring man got together.....lol

heart broken!!!

2day early morning wake up until afternoon oso nothing special happen...oni that toufu chicken pox is getting okayz adi but then dunno y my elder bro and my mama i think got affected...so i think they got hit by chicken pox loh....hahahaz,then they can have a long long long long rest jor lah....

then after that got go exercise and basketball to get all my sweats out........then after that go home and bath then fast fast rush out to pyramid adi......cuz 2nite date wif 3 ah meiz......lolz,and the location is at station one there....beside sunway pyramid that one.......then we ate there and then evan main main say mau minum carlsberg then open bucket manatau actually she and shiroi drink one and half bottle oni...so funny...end up i drink.......so full......

but back to the title lah,i saw someone that i miss so much,but she is with some guy and yee mei as well.....she seems like so close wif one guy and if im not mistaken i saw when she going back she hold hand wif this guy.....but y this guy so lala one.....definitely no match wif her......but they look quite sweet together so nothing much i can say lah...i can oni keep quiet and watch her.....and just seeing her happy thats alll......if thats wat she want i wish her luck loh....hahahaz,but still i wanna msg msg her....to keep in touch wif her....lol

gotong royong!!

As the title show today,im having a gotong royong at home.......toufu is off bcuz he haven recover from his chicken pox and alwiz having nose bleeding...lousy punya olang...hahahaz,so i clean the dust of ceiling bcuz im tall...hahahahaz,then clean the kitchen oso....wanna wipe the fan mommy say wait till next week wor...no need so cepat do......anything lah

then 2day supposing is going quottro de but then too bad nobody going...all FFK tiba tiba and so we got no choice oso we have to dun go lah.....nvm lah wait for next time we have a better planning then oni we go lah...hahaz,lidat we can oso keep more money for our chinese new year mah.....i can buy more thingz....hehehez,shopaholic punya belang sudah keluar......kekez

and as usual im missing somebody very very much.....if can see u for once oso i think is quite happy adi loh.....so dump lah me......hahahaz

ular day!!!!

hahahaz, i have to admit that i am a very very very lazy guy....i alwiz do this and this is very bad....but actually oso bcuz of nothing much i can do in the market as Chinese New Year is coming.....everyone is busy and no time to entertain me here.....

then nothing 2 do even at nite not going out so nothing much to write...a boring day should be the title....and recently keep on raining make me missing her much....i miss u......hahahaz,and prepare for 2molo to clean the house sumore.....clean clean clean.....

injection....

As the title shows.....i 2day after my breakfast before i start working i went to ranjit skin specialist again........so easy to understand that i go and cucuk my face again....until alotz of blood come out until i feel very very pain....until im gonna faint....hahahahaz,but actually the process quite fast lah oni around 45 minutes then gao thim.....but the pain until now i still can feel....so pain...lol

last nite went station one at sunway wif kevin and thiam soon and there got liveband singing de oh....quite fun......and kevin after we discuss has already categorised as dinasour.....i already consider alwiz stay at home got nothing to do but he is even worse.....he dun even clubbing....is a good man.....

so boring de life..sumore 2day raining so heavily so long sumore..but so syok...kekez,and i miss u so much....i still rememba that time we both oso say cold.....and i even come out wif a very funny idea......but now.......its more like a dream....

meet up!!!

wow,2day wake up early in the morning bcuz must meet up wif the shareholder in kepong....then reach early at uncle melvin house......then after that we from there shoot down to kepong and it takes almost 1 hour.....a bit jam.....then reach there have a chat wif nickson.....we talk about the future growth of the company and im gonna remain in this company for keeping operation going....but uncle melvin is busy wif his stuff so temporarily not gonna involve i guess.....

then go in to see a place which we might wanna make it our administrative office.....but then we can't even get in this lot of this business park...bcuz of some stupid reason and the management is coming out wif a irresponsible guy and trying to talk crap......not a good impression.....then another party that get involve is oso wrong at this case and can be issue lawyer letter....well,will like to find out more.....

and again missing someone very much....and later going out yum cha wif kevin and thiam soon....and pass something to soon.....will have a short chat and then balik tidur i guess...dunno wanna cucuk my face 2molo or on friday lah.....very scared the pain....haihz........

distributing red parket without money

lol,as title im distributing red parket that got no money to dealers in order for them to rememba me.....well,nothing much i can do....bcuz xox still not prepare to launch...alotz of work is not done yet....still a long way to go.....and 2molo will be meeting wif my company de shareholder in order to discuss about my future.....whether am i staying or leaving....i really got no idea wif all this happening around.....

then talk about the money....previously one time clubbing at scarlet and actually shawn and the gang has paid certain amount of money....and its still not settled so i think its time to handle it nicely and then return the money still owing and we will see......and next time get out of this type of money issues.....

anyway it doesn't stop me from going quottro this saturday nite...yeah!!!

and again miss miss miss miss miss miss u.....i oso dunno how or wat i should do rite now.....very very confuse....im blur...really blur...

happy

2day very very very very happy....bcuz of some reason oni......early in the morning go makan come back bath wanna go to work....manatau car cannot start at all....then after that nobody at home...wanna call ah foo home....he on the way home going to reach adi manatau tiba tiba can start after i push the car.....lol

then meet up wif uncle melvin and he say this week will be meeting the shareholders and see my future....really stress out about this.....hope something good happen......then get those angpau packet can later give to some of the dealers.....hahahaz,chinese new year coming but i saw S&J already start promoting valentines jor....cuz they are promoting gifts i think....lol

then about the very very very happy part is just bcuz i get to sms wif her the whole afternoon....maybe is just 2 hours but actually it brings me alotz of satisfaction jor...i feel very happy....i miss her so much.....kekez

family shopping at pyramid....

well,but actually is not the whole family....oni me and toufu wif my pretty mommy oni......of cuz my pretty mommy go by her own cuz she say me and toufu disturb her so she go alone....me and toufu go get something for CNY....nothing but oni boxer i get...lol

but before that fetch itu shiroi meiz to HSBC bank....then we play play in the car and looking for parking but tak dapat...end up i simply park oni....not in parking slot.....then wonder the whole complex and look for thingz.....end up tak jadi buy anything is the conclusion.....went to lunch at kim gary again.....alwiz makan there wan we all....hahahaz,actually im the one.....dunno y....

then after that go for exercise and basketball again.....so tiring.....when reach home bath and go dinner wif toufu......after dinner wan go tesco buy bird of paradise and 100 plus de....manatau bird of paradise got but 100 plus already out of stock...nomore adi...so good business.....so easy then this sunday pass adi....so sienz....lol,2molo back to work...lucky the car can be fixed in time.....

and as usual miss miss her much much...lol

daddy's back home...

as the title show daddy has return home for a short holiday i guess....still not sure whether is a good thing or a bad thing...well we can think think and see and observe for the coming few days....and school starting soon so i guess shopping mall will have a lotz of students hanging around jor....to prepare for their new start.....

but well 2day really not a good day cuz that stupid idiot make me accident....he stop when green light and wanna turn left....cuz he in the wrong road...really a mofo.....neva used his brain while driving....end up have to do a little bit of work before monday go to work...waiting for people come and fixed..end up it makes my boring saturday...just chat chat chat and then go for basketball and some exercise......

nothing much happen so dunno wat to write sumore....ohya and missing her so much..wonder does she knows about it...i wonder...lol

turning point..

As the title shows,i might have a turning point wif my career...at first im thinking they might be a suspended period bcuz of the principle company cannot launch....but then this morning ML told me that i will meet up wif those share holder and discuss about some new plan they have talk about earlier.....and i will be meeting them next week if im not mistaken...so plz wish me good luck....

and then as usual life is boring for me....everytine is just so routine..wake up go breakfast then work then exercise and basketball.....and then reach home dinner and watch an episode of a drama....but 2day a bit more tired bcuz jogging more oni start b.ball....maybe will rest earlier....

and younger bro is watching movie just beside me...so damm fucking noisy....sienz dou lan gam.....ma ge hem....so rude tiba tiba...cuz i just miss my rude gang so much...hahaz,by the way im so rude 24/7.....can anybody help me?

and again i miss u so so much.....i really really miss u...can anybody help me?

1st january..so blur

just like the title....everytime after clubbing im oso blur blur de.....i almost tak tau wat myself is doing loh....really feel tak boleh tahan jor...dun wana go clubbing jor...bcuz of this maison really make people boring wan....hahaz

2day actually woke up quite late lah cuz of the early morning oni sleep...hahaz,then woke up adi go help elder bro book badminton court....then we go 101 mall makan....find alan chat chat....so hard to find parking....and so many lala.....then wait for food and drinks so long...then finish adi we go puteri and buy molten basketball...is a nice ball t0 play....we have tested it just now......

2day basketball sweat alotz....still the same old group of people.....rough is still rough...i keep on got rough foul....hehez,but is so fun to basketball bcuz of we r a bunch of too free people....and it does help me to keep fit as well....im so worry bcuz just few more days will need to inject my face again....so pain.....and then on the 17th cut hair.....chinese new year is coming jor lah...hehez

and january started...hope i get a good start....and win everything...lol,once again happy new year everyone.....