last friday he came back........and i really dunno y my mom become like so down......maybe bcuz of his past records......then my mom just try to be normal but actually that nite she cook the dinner taste very different........till i have to force it in my mouth............and i expected that soon there will be a fight no matter how we do it........and yet is only less than 2 days..........2day afternoon my mom went summit to watch singing contest wif my elder brother.........so then my dad was sleeping so my mom neva tell her anything and just go......then when he woke up he just check everywhere to look for her....and then i say i was in the toilet when they are out....but i heard is go summit loh...then he dun wana believe me........he keep saying my mom go out wif mans.......oh god plz tell me wat sin did we do until he wanna torture us like this.......i really dun like him.........so and while he questioning me in my room my younger brother was sleeping.....it does disturb my younger bro.............then my sister in law told me that he call up my mom and scold her straight away now........oh my god i just feel that my beautiful sunday just screw up.........i just feel so dissapointed........he neva think of the family financial nvm......use the money to gamble nvm...........still wanna start up a fight on a sunday which i plan to just rest........
And i know my mom very hate my dad........but i really cannot understand y she still choose to sometimes maybe hide or purposely wanna make thingz the worse way......everyone knows how my dad behave but y............i wanna have my own house.....if i no need to pay for the house installment i could have do that in a year time......but god.....everything is just so fucked up.......
well.......i really miss u alotz rite now.......after this blogging i think i will sms u and see whether can u chat wif me anot......cuz really not happy wif wats happening............but my ffamily which cause so many conflict make me dun know whether can i have a stable relationship anot......im just so afraid.........and im just so tired.....
then at work place also the same thing........this fucking "iritating asss" neva give us wat we wan and set something they wan and so we must follow them.........and im not sure whether will my boss follow them anot...i really do not know.....at least for me myself im negative wif wats actually happening..........im really worried about my own future rite now........this is just so negative.......
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.....................kiuuuuuuuuuuu.................im so helpless....later when u be online i will be grumbling and mumbling to u again..........bcuz supposing write blog can ease my pain but now it seems not good enough.......i need more help.......im very very tired.....
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