世界末日快来了吗？

最近真的是天气无常啊，每一天都是很热的天气到3-4 点，然后就开始狂风暴雨。这样的日子很可怕吧。有几天的大雨，我正在车里然后那个雷好像要劈到我酱。哈哈哈，好心虚的人噢。不过这个不是最惨。最惨的是我的脚竟然会风湿。虽然以前曾经有过，可是这次真的很痛很痛。自己坏蛋，没冲热水跑去冲冷水。后果当然是不能好好走路啦。痛惨了。

然后了，生意也没什么提升。好好，下个月我勤劳点。最近，很多事在头脑里转动。可是，现在却不记得了。好白痴噢。好像有些事如果想到的时候不写，等你有时间写的时候却不记得了。明确点应该是说心情吧。很多事情并没有如我所想的那样进行，而这些事情本来都是在控制中的。虽然有时候顾客是第一，但是我真的累了。

唉， 不过我这个人啊，是一只打不死的蟑螂。我不会认命更不会认输。 我只会一直向前冲。 现在，也不用想将多咯，只想把家人都照顾好，以及多关心朋友。然后每一天就这样开开心心的过。应该还不错吧。 忽然间很想你，忽然间很想那一段时间。我知道，我有幸福过。我也不忘记。现在把所有身边的人都珍惜是我最大的幸福吧。以及尽量不要发脾气。

上个星期很多事发生，当然我也做了一个坏人。因为我把一个人介绍给另一个人。结果那人贪得无厌，还想强吻人。我真的很后悔。不过，幸好那个女的没什么损失。否则，我跳进海里都洗不清啊。还有的就是遇见了我的中学学长。小时候，他就住我家附近。可是过后我搬走了。他和我都变胖了。他以及他两个同事和我们一起吃火锅。那个女的也是短发，很可爱。不过他们好像很看不起人。虽然我知道他们还很新，但是我也没有说什么。可能人总以为自己比较优秀吧。哈哈

还有，老爸的生日是星期五，刚刚过。我们没送什么礼物，因为他什么都不要。所以我们给了他一些钱，让他买他喜欢的东西加上陪她吃了一餐晚饭。他看起来还蛮开心的。就好咯。对啦，还有星期五，双溪威的同学喝茶。一如往常的几个人到。还聊得蛮开心的。还知道了三个同学的家。哈哈哈

好了就酱吧。暂时也不懂要写什么。就祝大家幸福快乐吧，霓也幸福快乐。还有健健康康。

- 申- 苦中作乐 -ing

Sick already

I am once again sick. lol, at first is only sore throat but at the rate it's going now already flu plus cough and a lil bit headache. Whualau i din do anything eh why treat me like this. i wanna be healthy healthy again. Doctor say no exercise, no fruits, no biscuits and have to control a few days. I am so sad eh. I have not eat chili's for many days liao. Pityful me.

Then talk about last nite. Bring some banker friend to ginger. But didn't expect it to turn out become so bad. I mean not all but only one of them. I find it stupid as i never expect him to react like this. I think i dun find myself comfortable also with the way he is behaving. Luckily there is better one so i bet the happy hour not too bad also lah. But i bring them there when im sick and drink sumore. So i think i'm not too bad as a friend bah. Hope she got more refferal after this lah.

then everything in house seems good. And ohya,i have not got time go out do the courier. i'm really bad.i really have to arrange for a day to do it. Maybe on a saturday bah. Because not good loh keep people things here with dust. lol, and sales is not so good this month. Not much of submission thim. Boss is going to nag me soon. So have to work a lil bit liao. hahahaz,after recover adi social a lil bit sin.

Good Day Peoples. Miss u as usual. Wonder if u do the same?nope bah.hahaz

-seng-

Raining Friday Nite.

hahaz, this week is quite a good week as i manage to go basketball twice a week and maybe 3 times plus 2molo. But really find myself very old adi. Can't really run and sumore whole body ache due to too long never exercise already. A lot of things happen since monday went injection. I myself is a quite positive person bah i think but sometimes really tired over certain things. I'm really exhausted with the lie a person can give. it's okay if u want to have overriding and its okay if you want to make money over a lots of thing. i understand that you are very business minded. But i cannot accept the part where u totally ignore us. If it is not necessary who will rush you for thing. People rush you is with valid reason and of course reasonable time frame is given. Things just seems so different when you first inform. and how it has become. i really disagree with the way you do things. i have made my decision this time. I will draw a line with you. Since things never get done with you. i'm will go on my own and you continue what you are doing. I appreciate what you have teach us long ago. But i believe all this comm is more than enough to cover. i will see that as a tuition fees.

Luckily i only need to wait till august. Once everything is settled i will be a freeman once more. And it will be good as times goes by. not really positive things i write today because this is my negative release center. Cause find it happier after write down everything. hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. now really have to go take a rest bah... try to neutralize my feelings.i will be good.

And ohya, heard that you are getting better. Congratz... i'm really happy for you. Best thing i've heard so far this week. missing you much. xoxo,good nite.

A date with the Doctor

Well, It's not easy to date him cause u know why? Reason is because he is a skin specialist and i have to see him to cure my face. As usual the girl there recognize me. She see me only say Ang Eng Seng, y u cannot book ah...then she laugh and say, Sui zai, do u know 2day alotz of people ah and u gonna wait for a long long one. So i say no problem, 2day i can wait lah. hahaz, but really alotz of people there. I'm freeze even though i love air-conditioner so much. So u can imagine how cold is in there. And She did not lie. I really wait for i think more than 2 hours just to see this doctor.

As i have told u before, because of recently i always sleep very late and always never control at the food i'm eating. So my scar tissue did went a lil bit too big than usually. i can feel it. And he once look at me he say, ohhh injection ah. I say yes ah. He inject inject and inject and i feel pain and pain and very de pain. It's getting more and more difficult, But because i want to cure it so i do not have a choice and this is the path i must go through. He comment when he is done. U ah,u never apply the pimple cream am i right. So i'm like ahhhh yes. lol, and he say now i give u something to eat. And also the pimple cream to apply on the pimples. And besides this, your lip is dry. I give you some lip bump okay. So i am like, ahhhhh, okay loh. Hahahahaz, okay lah 2molo onwards i will apply everything everywhere lah can?

So cute and so painful. talk back in the branch nothing much difference as a new month i got new target again. Alotz of customer coming in and out,some old some new. 2day one of the customer come and he talks really funny and sometime doesn't make sense. He sit in our branch and talk until the wife and the son also feel shy. Of course we did talk about the loan application a little bit. But overall he is a very weird customer. And other customer ah, very impatient as usual ah. And 2day pity the operation. Can see that Chai and Sook Yee and Sri is very angry. They keep complaining and show angry face. But come on, we work as a team right. Some of them play MC hammer u mai let me be loh. we work harder to cover for them loh. No point that u people show us angry face mah. We have nothing 2 do with their MC what. If we work together faster to cover i think should be able to make it also mah. Anger management really need to be taught.

And ohya, i saw Kel 2day. She tell me that she permanently shift to Usj Taipan liao. So happy that another friend of mine come to de vicinity. Obviously she is pregnant oh. Happy for her. and what else do i have 2 say....

i'm missing you very much. i really do not know what i can do other than looking backwards. i know this is not good but i can only do this. Know that you are living healthier than u were. Get well soon. XOXO.

-seng-

Freaking Exhausted.

Didn't have enough sleep. Reason being is last nite Ning Tze Birthday ah. So we celebrate for her. But its a very last minute one so nobody prepare things and all rush there when we received call at 6pm. What a boss. Organise until so lousy. Recently is busy about chasing the cases execution for money money. And chase LI so Lawyer can prepare Loan Agreement and let customer sign as soon as they can. And still cannot find any potential manager to come and look after my branch so my old boss is staying for a while until we get the new boss. Figure as usual.

Then, last nite hang out until reach home already 3 something. So freaking tired and then have to take out lens sumore and i realize that i wore that thing for more than 12 hours and its almost 24 hours. Then 2day when i open the casing and i saw one of the lens broken. Really think myself can break records ah. Nevamind, then with this lack of sleep i almost can't wake up 2day. Fell so uncomfortable at work. i got the feeling that i may fall anytime as i am too fucking tired. Then boss sumore ask me out together to check out stuff. beautiful property. Setia Eco-park. Went to Customer new house. It's seriously a damm awesome geh bungalow loh. It's like every floor also come with a garden. The highest floor (3) sumore can have a pond eh. If 1 day i got 5 million i definitely will buy a unit in there. It's like a dream house with fantastic view. Just that if it's mine perhaps i will have more furniture and not all wood. And check out a lot of development in that vicinity and it's damm awesome place to stay. All the green green make people feel comfortable. i think it's very healthy also for our health.

Then, Branch also got a lot of happening recently ah. Mira already ask to resign already. This is her third attempt so everyone understand that it can never turn back anymore. She has made her decision. My boss say let her go and we take it as a challenge and i agree because maybe the branch needs a change. Maybe we need different people to run the branch. Hopefully it can lighten our works. Gambateh people when alotz of them is trying to run away from USJ branch.

Seriously very tired and dunno what to write. Maybe one thing bah. i miss u so much. hahaz.Hope u r doing okay bah.

-seng-

清明节

我见了你今年的最后一次，我很开心但是我也很无奈。因为这一次我真的感觉到我们的陌生不是在普通的地步。虽然很辛苦但是我还是觉得我们当回朋友是蛮不错的。因为我很清楚你已经没有那种感觉了。希望你和他能够有进展吧。我的幻想是时候要结束了，虽然我不能够放下，但是公主还是应该配王子吧。而我也应该尽量去实现我的梦想，我要把脚印在世界的每一个角落。我会更充实自己的。但是我有可能太过喜欢活在过去吧，虽然这样很不好，但是我不管了，只要我开心就好。这样也不错啦，可以有更多时间与家人朋友相处。再玩玩啦。

然后，回来主题，今天很早就爬起来因为要赶回去扫墓。可是那个地方真的是恐怖的多人。结果就勉强的把车停在一个很远很远的空位。然后就到婆婆的“家”。不知不觉中，婆婆已经离开我们十一年了。真的很想念他，我的福建话也比以前好很多啦。我很怀念婆婆的kopi-O, 也很怀念婆婆的关怀。我还记得婆婆临走的那一年，他的病已经到了最后，没办法好了。但是她在住院的时候也记得我的生日，她还和妈妈说：记得住红鸡蛋还有面线给ah boy吃啊。 我每次想到这个都很感动。啊，写着写着我也想哭了。不过，珍惜眼前人更重要。

然后，就和清和哥哥，嫂嫂，心蕊姐姐，三伯，三伯娘，大伯，妈妈，豆腐 还有我就去吃Bah Kut Teh.真的是很丰富的一餐啊。吃的超饱的，然后回阿公的家。普通的聊了一些。公公也老了，而且他脾气也不好，令很多人不喜欢与他相处。没办法，人老了都是酱的吧。然后，他们都塞了很多东西给我们。没多久我们就回来了，因为爸爸的脚很痛。回来了就带他去看医生。医生说啊，应该是肌肉撕裂？大概是酱。回来过后就很不耐了。躺在床上睡了一个下午。很满足呢。

我啊，我会不会随便找个人来谈恋爱呢？会不会寻找替代品呢？时间会证明一切啊。看看就知道了。我这个人太过顽固了。没办法，天生是酱。

不知道要些什么了，暂时先这样吧。
- 申-

Mooooody.

2day is really a fucking moody day. Its the accumulation of what recently happen has cause my patience limit goes down to a very low level until i already cannot stand it anymore. I am very very moody or u shall say angry with the face one kind. It maybe due to lack of rest but in other way, Its because of everything that got into my way and everything i want it to be my way goes another way. Everything just goes against me no matter how hard i try no matter how many times i try.

I'm not trying to be negative but i think im just having too much of negative in my body and i definitely cannot cope. I have to absorb all this negative because of the money it brings to me. Life is like that and nobody can escape. So same goes to me. But things got worse when u know u do not get the support u needed from ur superior or anyone else. everybody is just pushing things around. So in the end, everything's goes back to me. Is all my fault again.

Then, some people just couldn't think for u,they only think about themselves. Whatever they want, they will just do it and asking u to tolerate with them. Even though it may cause trouble to others for your convenience. I really wonder why. How can u people be so selfish. Is this the way u show ur appreciation to someone that care about u. I got really pissed 2day and shown not happy face to my mommy and toufu. I didn't mean it but i just couldn't adjust my mood anyway. I dun feel like acting in front of u guys. i wanna neutralise my feelings and start a brand new day 2molo. i know i can do it but the process its making me mad.

Fuck it............

A bUsy SunDaY.

last nite sleep quite late at roughly 2 or 3 in the morning. Then 2day thought of having a long sleep to recharge myself.manatau at 9:30 one of my customer already give me a call...i am like nooooooooooooooooo,i am so sleepy here. Then i call back and he didn't pick up,so i suppose its his grandchildren use his phone and just simply press call and so happen my surname is ang, so i am the one they alwiz "accidentally" call. this is not good.

Nevamind wake up adi then go read newspaper and have my breakfast. Suddenly think of the courier service is only half day 2day. So i online and saw u on, so i ask about the address so i can send the stuff to u. unfortunately when i got your address and have reach there in time. But the shop is not open. Then go to another one in another place also closed. then i kinda like give up liao lah. Just go to empire shopping mall and see if there is any Giant Rainbow Pocky. Who knows there is actually a courier service oh....Lucky me. Then i went there and ask them about the price and everything. Terms and condition agreed. So ah i bring the things and we start to package the item. And i notice one of the staff sitting there is new. i suppose 2day its his first day. Because i can see the more senior one is trying to explain thingz 1 by 1 to him. And all the steps. but have to admit one thing where the wrapping is not nice because he is super duper new.i wanted to do it myself but they are just too kind. So item sent. Shall reach by wednesday oh.

Then ah, went to pyramid because i have not buy present for ah sa. Others already share a present liao. So nevemind, i walk around and try to find but gosh. Its damm difficult to even look for a nice one. Or should i say a suitable one. i wondering the pyramid floor by floor to look for 1 present. stuck half way and suddenly, saw evan as she is working so ask her to lunch 2gether bah. She say okayz ah as she is going to break at that period of time. So we have some random talk at kim gary. She talk about so many recent happenings and she is still being her and lotz of issues happen because of his bf previous employment. A lotz of not happy thingz.

Anyway, then i continue to wonder around the mall. Seriously not easy eh to look for present,i think i have spent more than 2 hours for this present bah. Luckily in the end i manage to find one present which i think its kinda cute bah. Hopefully she will like it lah. tak tau. And now im home again to type all this thing.

Recently earthquake in japan and china is super scary. Hopefully thingz will goes better after a while of struggling. Hope people will start to take carez of our mother nature. If everyone do their part i think we can still do better bah. Pray for a better 2molo huh. And oh well, recently has been drinking too often. i think its a lil bit too much bah. i seriously should cut down on the volume consume. Because its very de not healthy oh. And its quite dangerous too everytime when i drive after i drink and when im tired after a long day of works. i really should take care of myself.

And my boss seems like going soon lu.....she got promoted and i have to adapt again with my new boss. jon did ask me go to his branch but i really dun find it comfortable because i know its not the same when i step into his branch. He will start to mood swing and complain when things is not properly done. Im very sure about his way of doing thingz after knowing him for so long. Besides the traffic is super duper congested to his place. So i still think its better to remains in my branch. lol

So many happenings huh, i hope u r doing well too yeah. i am really missing u very much. i hope u will know. well,nothing much except world peace and take carez everyone. Hope the world will have a better 2molo.

-seng-

Injection day bor.....

2day is my injection day,early morning settle all the busy problem.sign letter offer and check acceptance and flow all the necessary file that is in urgent stage and chat with boss a little bit. She is very stress with our branch current situation. Not only sales she is worried but in fact everything she is worry. Because our operation is being too outstanding. hahahaz,some of the work they are suppose to finish it as early as they could but its been drag for quite some time. And this quite some time better not to be mentioned here cuz its really bad.

Then rush out all the outstanding matters and im on the smooth track. I strongly believe that i'm gonna make it big once more this month. A superstar is alwiz gonna be a superstar. lol,self praise is no praise wah.....but i have been really hardworking since last month so i think i should be able to tapao a big one....

Then rush to Jalan Imbi for my injection. Its been late and raining when i starting moving. Its getting more heavy rain when i go nearer and nearer to KL so the traffic is going worse as i go. Then nvm, alotz of the trees in KL falls and cause some of the road close. This action has cause alotz of driver gone mad. 2 be really honest 2day's traffic is really terrible as i have never experience a traffic congestion like this. It's different with the slow and congest like puchong but in fact this is everyone also lost their patience. Someone should have recorded it. Then when i reach Ting Skin Specialist they leave only a few more and they are gonna close shop adi. So this is a good news as i no need to wait so long. then while i go to the registry the gal say, ahhhh ang eng seng. Next time no need to register lah just walk in only lah. Because they know i only come for injection only. Regular liao lah.... But dunno izit because of i 3 weeks never go for injection already. When he really start i feel ouch. Y izit so fucking pain. and he cover damm alotz of places . After so long i pain till cannot talk liao. And the worse part is i stuck in a traffic congestion while going home. every driver is like mad already...

Then, talk about my works bah. There is always approve and reject right. So when their loan approve they will say thank you thank you. But once their loan reject right. U will be the most stupid iritating fucker and bloody annoying to them. U r liar and u r super irresponsible and all the bull shit will park under your name. Not only apply on customer. Even on the lawyers,developer,our loan center, and also our credit department. When something goes wrong everything is our fault. We sales staff is the solely party to be blame. However, im a couldn't be bothered where i do not care about how you people feel. i am alwiz gonna be who i am and i am alwiz gonna do what i like. So, i dunno, but i think im kinda tired with everyone is pushing everything around. is really annoying. lol

and i still miss you. been thinking of u for me to pass through all this. but is only remain as thinking. Because this is the only thing that i could still do. hehez

-seng-

寿司

今天是一个很懒惰的星期天，我睡醒了以后匆匆忙忙的去找kitt剪头发。一个帮我剪头发剪了很多年的妈妈的朋友。我很喜欢去哪里因为他什么也不问，我什么也不说。就这样静静的被他剪头发。懒惰的我以及我懒惰的习惯。 然后因为太累了，我根本没办法去做工。累惨了。然后就直接回家。到家过后就看报纸，还有煮面吃。因为吃不饱，我知道我知道，我很肥了可是我不管。i am who i am and i do what i like. So im still not gonna care about what others say.lol

然后啊，我就进去富的房间。他在看那个鱼跃在花见。这个是一个关于做寿司的故事。再看的时候，我想起了你，我想起了那短暂的几天。而我从一个不吃寿司的人到一个会有时想吃寿司了。 在一个这么慵懒的星期天，我又再一次的胡思乱想，发白日梦了。可是啊，一切都已经太迟了，因为我知道那个感觉已经不再有了，我明白到你对我真的比普通朋友更普通了，反而，你在和别人沟通可以更自在。 我真的懂了。如果，这个世界到最后你还是没人要的话，我会很乐意的陪在你的身边。只不过，我觉得那个可能性是零。人可以有梦想但是不可以幻想，对吧？只不过我这个人啊，很喜欢为梦想而活。无聊吧。

还有，那天令我的一个朋友不舒服了，因为我的说话令他很不爽。我开始觉得，我这个人是真的没有说话的艺术吧。就算做我这行是要很会讲话，可是有可能是我讲话不经大脑吧，很容易就过了他们的底线？做事情也是吧， 这件事真的令我很困扰呢。我这个人啊，可能还是要一个人比较好吧。反正我一个人自由自在，也不用担心我会令到谁谁谁不舒服吧。因为可能我觉得这些事说说没关系吧，可是很多人会很介意啊，不管了。

很悠闲却很忧愁的一个星期天啊。我很想你，可是我已经不懂我应该怎么做了，对于人与人的相处，我已经到了一个迷宫了，我完全的迷失了。我啊，现在只想什么都不想的一天过一天。ohya, by the way last nite go drinking with wai hong rite, he finally has quit smoking. And he has keep himself away from ciggaretes for more than 2 weeks bor....Bravo my dear brothers.....Hope u can keep it up and not 2 come back 2 smoking once again. lol

i dunno what else to write as my feelings is very confuse. i have alotz in my mind. But my mind shall keep it in my mind loh. because i have no way to sort it out nicely and type it out. Its all mixed up. Hope everyone enjoy your beautiful sunday loh. take good carez as alotz of people are sick recently. Have fun and relax.

-seng-

Flyday....

Friday, Its suppose to be the best day of the week. Plus, My manager has went to HQ for manager meetings the whole day. Sounds fantastic isn't it. I also thought of it this way. But then, i think due to last nite drank too much with sean and david they all for sean's farewell already. So im suffering a difficulties of swallowing the food into my mouth. The food is actually tasty de.yummy yummy. Then nvm, i have a new colleague . Frankly speaking she is not doing anything and alotz of common sense she dun have as this is her first job and this is the first 2 days of working. But, i find her a lil bit strange strange and weird weird one. More like come here work is to stalk the bf only. Cause her bf work in UOB which is just near by. But its only my feelings lah.

Then, i feel so tired when im back to my old routine way of working. Where i have 2 work everyday. Because my boss just tell me only sunday i can go look look in a launching of a super expensive project. Scary mou,and 2molo is a wonderful saturday but i need to go and explain to my customer and his loan application and signed another letter offer. Plus i am starting to take over everything in mortgage in the branch. including calling customer and chasing the lawyer. Well i find myself very ill and im going to be sick already and even if im sick i still have to go and work like a mad cow.hahahahaz, well no choice loh. Want to make that amount of money has to sacrifice wan loh.

And then afternoon accidentally make a friend of mine angry, well the word i say its just for fun only but somehow this word offended her. I din mean it but then its okay anyway. Already have a tough day and i din wana explain much anymore. I respect that everyone can have their own feeling. But im still gonna be who i am. Although im a sales person which do not really know the art of talking of the art of interacting with people. If dun like, So be it bah. Im too tired over everything already.

A disaster friday 2day bor. i wish i could talk to u about all this in details. i truly wish. i missing u so much and i miss those time we can have a long long conversation. Its really sweet. Haihz, wake up wake up bah. I will be fine. Everything will be okay. And i will be sick soon but still okayz.

Take carez everyone. tataz

-seng-

Time fly........

Hey Hey, as my title show lah really time's fly. And March is the month im back on business. Everything we have it back on track. Our sales staff all working everyday except sean which loves to come late. And besides this, he can consider no longer in the branch as he come to branch and waste time only. But still appreciate where he help out to service all the problem customer. And this give me more time in doing my own thing. i have more processing and market value checking that i have been doing it on my own. Once in a while ask people to help me check but result not so encouraging. Hahaz,well more and more submission makes me confident about the money im gonna get.

But still very tired over alotz of thing. I need a rest to neutralised my body because i know my body cannot take it when i alwiz use it to the maximum..i shall take some rest. So recently i have more blank moment where i dun think. Cuz that way i can really rest my mind and my body just plain listen to music only. And the changes is starting to take place already as she start to shift things to my side. Start to delegate to me and start to teach me how to face service issue and things like that when she is not around. To be very honest, she treat me really much nicer compare to others. So im really sad about someone who take care of me leaving already. But i must be happy for her as this is a career advancement for her. And i know i can make it on my own even when she has left because im super okay.

And oh so many things happen here and there. Didn't wanna list out all as im more and more tired to write as my work loads goes more and more. But its a good sign because it means my sales is coming in. I'm making alotz of money and i want to have more. because im a superstar.

And i miss you.

-seng-

After all the celebration

Hey hey,recently have been very very busy oh. Bcuz its my big day on 25th february ah. So i have alotz of celebration going on through the weeks. But still miss out some of the friends. really have to thank all of them so nice. roughly is about drunk drunk and chat chat. But of cuz not to forget my mom did cook for me on my birthday. Lovely mee suah soup as my breakfast. and i received alotz of wishes from everywhere. Wishes through the phone,via sms,via facebook or face to face wish. Well i think this year birthday is one of the sweet one.

And then yesterday nite went to zouk KL and club. i have to say that i find myself too old liao. Because i dun think i enjoy in the club but im tired. Maybe because we did not plan nicely or whatever it is. End up we only have 2 buckets of heineken. and 2 big glass of long island. And its very awkward that 2 of my dear mei mei's friend is very quiet and they stay at a side. I dunno how but pity them. By the way the song is not too nice anyway in zouk last nite.

And, supposing alotz of thingz i wanna write but come to here once again im blank. i dunno why oh. By the way is gonna be a big change cuz my boss is gonna make a move and leave us already. And hopefully im still able to survive loh. bcuz i dun know how will our new boss like. Can the new boss handle usj trouble???i doubt so but hope for the best loh and prepare for the worse.

Oh well, And i miss u alotz alotz. but then...........hahaz

Dun feel like writing suddenly. Cuz something in my mind. lol

-seng-

2day is toufu 21 years old birthday

Well, actually everyday for me is tiring and work is boring. Recently heard bad news ah.boss has went to KL to meet big bosses. And she have spoken with me that there is a chance that she going to take up an offer of the management and go for a higher position. And then we will be fighting on our own for quite some time. I heard this and I'm very sure if she goes then sure there will be another adapting moment with the new manager liao. Kinda boring with it.

And then, alwiz going here and there make me tired. Doing sales is kinda tiring now i feel. But bcuz of what i get in return so i dun mind being tired. I enjoy work hard. And by the way, its my toufu 21 years old birthday leh. This younger brother is so cute so everyone is wishing him a happy birthday and i have did a lil bit in ruining his wall by adding some not relevant comments there. Hope he didn't mind loh. And he really grow up adi loh 21 as his studies also finishing. So i think after august everything will be real smooth in the house. I mean financially and mentally. Eveything should be good liao. hugs.

And then, 2molo im gonna meet all my ah meiz to celebrate my birthday. And people do ask me out on my birthday to celebrate also. But i think im kinda tired and plz plz plz, i dun wana eat any cakes and i dun wana cut any cakes oh. i am thinking if i can pass it alone oso not bad. But this year is different. I think should hang out with all this friends ya as they so nice ask me out and thought of celebrating it for me. I shouldn't hide myself liao loh.

And ohya, 2day drink with ah yong again. cuz im bored and wanna go lil bally for some music. So we drink and then derrick come. a long lost brother. Last time alwiz 3 of us kena sound by them. We have some fun by sitting there and playing the dice. Chating some old jokes. Really great to hang out with them.

And i still miss u. Birthday wish this year is a bit unique but can't tell or the wish will not come true liao. xoxo.

Good nite and take carez everyone.

-seng-

whualiao

Dunno why ah, actually many things happen de. And everytime when thingz happen, i also feel like write down every single one here but when im sitting in front of this laptop i find it fucking lazy.hahahahaz,i guess i only write once in a while bah then lazy adi gua.....hahahaz,by the way, recently is about seeing many many cakes and about k-pop. Really addicted liao hahahaz,but im more into their dance hit plus rap rap. not so into their love song i think. even now im listening.

Then ah, yesterday celebrate another friend's birthday at neway. However dun like the service as the guy that providing shit service and having shit sentences. like normally u go karaoke when u wanna choose song sure got picture de mah. Then suddenly dun have and then we ask him. He replied, What is your problem with no picture??? And he say every room also got picture EXCEPT this room. And he think we will be fine with it and so happen in the room there is people that dun like it. And he change it for us after a while its back to normal. But the way he talk is seriously annoying. And there is many incident as well but im too lazy to list it down. Luckily he did not spoiled their mood. But dunno y the birthday girl got upset and cry after that. seriously sad wei. dunno why. And few more days is my birthday already and i only wanna hide at home and not going to anywhere. i dunno why but i wanna pass my birthday peacefully without any celebration. I think this is the best way i enjoy my birthday.

Suddenly i am like back to those time where i love to stay alone. i enjoy that. Alotz of space for me to think think nonsense. And daddy looks moody dunno why. I think he is very very bored bah. mommy sound me say, u ah, everyday go out go out. sumore till so late. if no go out then stay in front of the PC till late. Can u let urself really rest by going to the bed ah. i am like, wooookayyyy...but didn't do as usual. how naughty.

dunno what to write liao. Kinda blur. nitez and take carez lah. rest more.

-seng-

4 more days 2 go.

well, have alotz of negative feelings before and i can't say i have already recovered. However, yesterday toufu celebrate his 21st birthday with a party at home. So preparation also took us quite some time loh, then hor, people coming one by one. And this party is quite a happening one as everyone bring present and chit chat chit chat. Not too bored as everyone is entertain. Then a cake was presented roughly about 10 bah. and toufu become cream man. And while he is chasing those that make him creamy and causes a girl fall into where i put ice and all the cold drinks. Luckily she is not wet or else we dunno how 2 apologise to her. And the party carry on till late that nite. roughly about 5 o'clock only we sleep. So freaking tired.

And then, 2day wake up adi go work. what a boring life. no choice loh. doing paperwork. but once reach taipan. Halfway walking i find my pants more lose adi. And then it almost fall off and i realise the button drop so the pants cannot hold. And im too lazy today so i din wear belt.regreted this. then do works come back dinner and then now sitting in front of pc.daily routine.

And ohya, another 4 more days. hope can pass it through peacefully like last year.

wish everyone healthy and happy.take good carez.

-seng-

Negative

I'm very negative this few days.its getting worse and worse so im not going to write down the reason. Alotz of thingz happen at work. I'm really exhausted.i dun wana have a negative blog so i will update again soon. Only thing 2 say its 2day a group of friends already celebrate my birthday by eating at a very expensive restaurant. of cuz not only me lah. another 2 little kid as well. 4 table eat up to almost 5k i think. With an angpau and kisses. Im much better after that. So 2molo will be Toufu 21 years old birthday celebration. need to cheer up to make it a happening and happy one.

Continue smiling.Keep smiling.

Hope u r doing fine. Missing u.

-seng-

another public holiday.

yay,public holiday suppose to stay at home or go hang out with friends.but my holiday is go back to branch and do some paperwork. and i did some work in the branch and its so fucking boring to do. Then i go to sunway pyramid to look for present. bcuz toufu big day is coming and im suppose to get him a wallet. So i did look for a nice one. Braun Buffel new arrival oh....i think the colors suits him alotz. My mom heard the price of it she got shocked and say: Mothers day and my birthday is coming my son.hahahahaz,she hint. And i have some random chat with her.

Then ah i din do anything 2day bcuz im trying to cheer myself up. I have been emo for a while so i go watch all the funny funny and laughing de video include my whole day 百分百娱乐。all the lame jokes. cuz when i smile i can make myself feel better. Because im very sure the coming three days will be another 3 difficult days again. i will meet alotz of harsh customer again. I can do it and i dunno what else to write as im still trying to make myself feel good. 2molo only upload again lah.

p.s. 2day still see alotz of couples wondering in the shopping mall. So sweet. Hope everyone happy happy lah.Take carez.

-seng-

Valentine!!!

Okay lah, yesterday was emo emo emo. Then drink some beer beer in the room. Emo for a reason but didn't wanna tell. then whole nite doing nothing basically just watch youtube only.all kinds of songs that i may get. And when the mood is emo of cuz look for emo song lah. Just trying to make myself emo to the max already and then feel happy again. Then listen listen i feel sleepy adi then go sleep. Cuz really din wana do anything.

Then ah, 2day came. 2day as per the title shows, Happy Valentine everyone. Let me think, i think this is my 4th single de Valentine le bah continuously. i think so. But this year i dun feel so lonely like all the previous year. i feel calm and easy. Because i know i need 2 change into a better person first before i can talk about anything further. Even there may not be any chance. But i still will do it. And see everybody around also sweet sweet de. So happy. On facebook only see all the sweet sweet stuff. Really happy for u all lah. Even there is still single de sound very pathetic but i think they will manage to get someone soon bah. Wish u people can find ur loves one loh.

Then ah 2day at work super busy ah keep on received calls and move left right. And since im back from trip i have been solving problem already. 2day there is one customer. he call in. He wanna look for david or sri. And i answer then i ask how can i help. he say he wanna speak to them regarding a problem. Then i ask what is it regarding Mr customer. Then he say: What the Fuck u regarding regarding. I'm coming over to fuck u people. Fuck u. Ask ur manager to fucking ready. I want to see your manager. You Fucking stupid people. and then duuuu duuuu duuuu duuuu. I answer phone to help out u customer and this is what i get. How awesome. I have been receiving this type of response for continuously 2 weeks. Most of them a lil bit more polite but this one......My Valentine Day seems entertaining right. And then, its not the end yet. After a while more, another customer call in. He tell me his name and he ask for my name. i say ang from Hong Leong. Then he say, i know u hong leong,i wanna know ur name ur name. Then he say y my loan i already pay off last year now still got balance. y u tell me. i check and say,Sir u have not pay in full. u only pay partially and there is still few hundred balance that u have 2 clear it. he got annoyed and say, hey u blind or what. i pay already. and then he no no no no u shut upp.i already pay what sumore u people wan. Then i got stunt and verify with my operation. Luckily chai help me handle this customer by saying i will send email to HQ to investigate and call u back. and she is very patient to do it. Really have 2 learn from her. And this is my beautiful Valentine afternoon.

Then because i have booked for injection 2day. So i drove down but the traffic is very jam i think because of Valentine and i rush till KL is already evening. then stuck stuck stuck and reach the Specialist i think the sun already gone home bah. then luckily they still allowed me to go in although im late for more than 1 hour. so im placed as last in the waiting list. Cuz there is super alotz of people. My usual queue is 2 to maximum of 4 hours. 2day i only waited for i think 1 hour then my turn adi. How interesting. By the way,i date him on my valentine bor. This old uncle that gonna inject all over my face. hahahaz, then when finally it reach my turn. He see me only say injection ah,i say yes loh. Then he very fast take out the needle and whateve need to be prepare. He place the needle all over and i really feel pain. I think its because i have not inject for very long time thats why. i find it so pain ei.......even now i still feel the pain after few hours. and i look bloody.hahahaz

Then all the way traffic congestion till home again. really dun like valentine loh. But got no choice have to stuck in the traffic for another i think 2 hours only i manage to reach home. all the cars is so rude on the road and i dunno how 2 explain in words. Finally make it home and then shower. eat and then now sit in front of the monitor and im quite tired liao. Got the feeling that i can sleep anytime like that. Maybe because of the injection maybe because of the work. I find myself so exhausted.

And then, i am still missing u. There is alotz of time i wanna call u and tell u i'm missing u so much. i wanted to tell u how much i wanna hold u. i wanna hug u and i love u. But i didn't,not even a sms. bcuz i cannot imagine what is ur response anymore. As previously u ask me not to say this type of things anymore. i am a lostie. So lost and blur. And i will change into a better person.really will.

raining heavily again like yesterday...Happy Valentine everyone. have a sweet one.

Nitez and surga dreamz.

- SENG -

星期日

今天一早醒来，就需要把心情调整好。因为要去小学老师家拜年。 可是又没睡好。其实还蛮糟糕的。然后就拖着疲累的心情去拜年。一到老师家很多个都已经到咯， 老师也不记得我啦因为一年没见了。不过不要紧，一到他们就想开饭了，不过我很累叻又不饿结果就闪一边去看他们吃饭。

然后不久志雄也有来。 很少很少会见到他，可是见到他之后没什么特别的感觉。就比普通朋友更普通的普通朋友。just hi and bye.lol, 然后吃完以后也没什么东西做就聊聊天。我看看报纸。他们南天地北的聊。有些却很无聊的坐一旁。等人都到齐之后，我们再次捞生。我已经不会算这是第几次啦。然后吃完开溜，继需看我的报纸。 然后他们就开始赌啦。 今年一如往年啊没什么兴趣赌。在他们赌到一半才加入 然后玩一下子就走啦。

接着就去找客人做一些事情。 完了以后就去sunway pyramid因为想找一个好的钱包给我就来要二十一岁弟弟的生日咯。不过有可能因为明天就是情人节，整个商场都是情侣噢。或是帮情侣买礼物的人。我却变的好像很奇怪酱。 然后因为这些人挤人我根本没有机会好好的看。所以啊，星期二早点醒然后去买咯。

心情不懂怎样解释。很复杂。希望我身边的人都过的幸福快乐。包括你。

今天天气和心情一样。

- 申 -

以前，以后-Alin

作词：姚若龙 作曲：金大洲

本来总是牵着的手
现在怎么各自寂寞
你在抽完烟後 还要忙什么
本来总是浪漫炽热
现在怎么被动冷漠
你的心里是否 还剩下温柔
假如我提的每个梦
你都觉得沉重
我还能够做什么
是放手或泪流
以前说的不是这种以後
快乐不该变得像彩虹
都要让大雨淋过 才短暂拥有
以前要的不是这种以後
感动被生活辗过
爱情 就磨成了寂寞

本来总是牵着的手
现在怎么各自寂寞
你在抽完烟後 还要忙什么
本来总是浪漫炽热
现在怎么被动冷漠
你的心里是否 还剩下温柔
假如我提的每个梦
你都觉得沉重
我还能够做什么
是放手或泪流
以前说的不是这种以後
快乐不该变得像彩虹
都要让大雨淋过 才短暂拥有
以前要的不是这种以後
感动被生活辗过
爱情 就磨成了寂寞

以前说的不是这种以後
心事不该窒息的锁着
相爱也不该变成
互相痛快的 指责
以前要的不是这种以後
看幸福慢慢褪色
爱你 值得不值得

心情极度的差

如标题，今天的心情超级不好。什么也不想写，静一静然后去睡觉。明天再写过。一首歌代表心情。


曹格 - 丑角

作曲：曹格 填词：阿丹

陪你放肆嬉闹 开场前就应该明瞭
谁该买票 谁扮丑角 早註定好
只要你不无聊 浓妆我就不会卸掉
努力讨好 逗你欢笑 多陪你一秒

我只是 寂寞的解药
我也知道 曲终人该散了

只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好 心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处 只给你祝福

你有权力寻找 你最适合谁的拥抱
既然爱过 还你自由 我不哭不闹

我只是 寂寞的解药
我也知道 曲终人该散了

只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好 心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处

灯灭掉 人散了 我开始找 找不到
你尖叫 你的笑 跌了一跤
这双脚 不知道 怎麼逃 伤痛煎熬
就留我独自枯坐墙角

只要你开心就好 我只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好 心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处 只给你祝福

working in this branch is tiring.

Hey hey, last nite when ah nic they all reach my house is almost 10 o'clock liao loh. Then hor we dinner and some of them already eat just watch loh. Then pak and stephy late as usual lah. And they got lost while coming. So cute beh. Then they view view my house a bit. I think still tidy bah.
But my dad go upstairs loh as he shy got so many people come suddenly. He sleep in Toufu room yesterday. So cute.

Then not long after that we start playing cards lu. and until early in the morning oh. having fun while playing. but everyone seems tired bah i think. But still stay awake and play. im half awake half playing there.lol, until ah cy come over to play for me and end up she help me win alotz of money thim. But look at the clock ah,its already 4:30 in the morning and i got to be up in 2-3 hoours time.i make it 3 as im really sleepy. Then woke up oni brush teeth and everything then wear lense. fulaowei,i find it so pain eih....cuz have not sleep enough so when i put the lense in my eyes that time feel super pain leh...then check,oh fuck,have not iron clothes ah so fuck,i can only wear tee shirt thim. of cuz is hong leong tee lo.

aiyoh then drive there, traffic still okay. reach adi have breakfast wif sook yee. talk about how bad is the branch operating. so sweats and everything dun seems to improve thim. And problems rolls into more and more each day. And because im wearing that Hong Leong Tee 2day. So im like a moving directories and moving problem solver. everyone look at me then grab me straight away. And because of never rest yesterday. i really dun feel good. started to feel annoyed. And everyone don't seems to know how 2 solve problem. Help AH Help ah.y it has to be like this leh. Can deliver one Customer Service just to solve all the problem anot leh.

Then nvm, Help jason go pay his HSBC 2day. I feel so like a dispatch and customer service officer. i really really dun enjoy doing all this anymore. And in the end my own sales is not done. After that, boss and us have some chat. She talk alotz with me. She share with me the very pressure that she feel. and she say by this month is figure is not good then she is ready to go already. She plan to go for other department. or out from this branch. Unless she will be able to recruit more staff. I did talk to her about problems and what we face in this branch. She and i both got no choice but to bare with this. I really really hope this situation dun last for long. Hope to cure it as soon as we can.

Then come back home, dinner and shower wor. So tired cuz of last nite didn't sleep and 2day can't sleep cuz praying thim. Then come online and look see look see loh. then thinking whether should i go for the penang trip that they ask me to come. I dunno but i think i wanna go bcuz i wanna hide from blowing cakes. i wanna be low profile for another 2 weeks and then birthday over then can come out again. hehehez,and i wanna have some quiet moments. After the trip that is so quiet i wan more of this wind blow blow. So think think sumore loh.

dunno what to write sumore. dun really know what im writing as i am really not enough sleep. only 1 thing that i know. i miss u so much. but i have to face the reality and face the fact. i can only bring trouble and cause others feel uncomfortable right. truly wish u happy.

And i wish everyone's healthy and happy bah. May all the wish of u people come true lah.Take good carez yo.xoxo

-seng-

Impatience day.

Well, 2day is suppose to be a good day as seventh day of CNY is everyone's birthday. Have a Great start while wake up. Then, reach there adi is early mah so mai go mam mam lo. Then finish it kinda fast then get my ass back to branch so early bor. But knowing that my boss will not be around as she go for sales meeting and im still there so early. whuakakaz, Bcuz every wednesday is our branch training day lo. Someone is suppose to train and we listen. 2day is Sean's turn to train. So he pick his core product Personal loan. Well fair enough as he is specialist. But he came late by a few minutes. Already consider good improvement lo. Then ah, i saw him start to print all the notes and things like that. So he didn't do his homework and he is not prepare with anything. And then nvm we start the training. He start to talk talk talk. But i believe that he never have enough preparation or should i say he never prepare at all. So i can see everyone's face look so blur. And i bet he dun even know what he is saying. I strongly believe so. lol, then one of them come to me, if ur boss is here she will surely smack him upside down. and the say when im doing the same training is so much different. lol,i am not happy but instead i find him dun respect his job and he dun respect us. But its okay as he is leaving soon. sigh

Then hor, branch open wor, And i cannot understand y izit already 3 days and the problem never go down at all. U know its like, super duper consistent leh 3 days in the role the branch is pack of problems. Customer basically is only complain and complain only. other branch doing lousy is our fault. They never teach customer also our fault. They never explain clearly oso our fault. And i look like a walking dictionaries to everyone. Once the sense problem then "ang ang ang" u know that doraemon song. i wanna be eng seng again and not ang anymore. I'm so tired of all this problem. As u know i dun even have the time to run my own sales. I'm too stuck up with all this shits. Haihz very very sad about this.

Then, Ah yong and michelle came to look for me for lunch. We had the tom yum. I think this is one of the nice one around. i strongly think so. But unfortunately im already so heaty and yet i still eat tom yum. So the result is me getting more heaty lo. And seafood. lol, well we have some random chat and they have to rush back to their branch already so tataz. and i get back to branch and continue with all the problems that we are facing. correction, i'm facing. Maybe this branch is not that bad lah i think, maybe is just that we keep on spreading negative charge around when we encounter problem. Maybe we can do it better. Maybe i shall keep myself positive right. Anyway, Stay and look see look see what i can do. Gambateh lo.

And finally go home. So freaking tired leh. Then not eating yet cuz ah nic,dex and jia xin not here yet lah. They are suppose come my house and get angpau i think. dinner together but they can only come late. So freaking tired and hungry. Then ah stock up a lil bit of beer as i dunno what they drink and i think vitagen,100 plus and wintermelon is too boring so some extra choice for them. lol, then bought corona extra which is my elder brother favourites but he is not here 2 drink. hoegarden which is not my favourite but alot of others do. Then heineken and tiger. Should be enough gua. But will buy again real soon i think as toufu is gonna celebrate his 21st Birthday wor......a Big one..... And thats all for now.

Still miss u, i regret that im so stupid dunno how 2 grab the opportunities. I wish i can be a lil bit smatter. a lil bit better and well manner. A lil bit more considerate. I'm thinking alotz. alotz now. "smile"

take carez everyone and happy birthday everyone. 2nite story i bet i have to write 2molo unless something pops up.cuz i bet it will end late bah. hehez

-seng-

got fucked in the head 2day...hahahaz

2day is really a damm bad day wei....not that bad actually. Well, day goes like this. Woke up and the lazy lazy a while on the bed. then get up and get ready loh. Then after that go downstairs and take everything i need and go out adi. Once go in the car, hmmmm petrol finish liao.hahahaz,then go to pump. And then drive drive and go work. Once reach office there then go breakfast. As usual nescafe ice and Pan mee. Almost everyday same thing. hahaz,what a boring person. Then ah, go back to branch and wish boss Gong xi fa chai. As this is the first day she's back to work after so long. However, She instruct me alotz of thingz which my lovely colleague which is on leave never touch for so long. Cleaning shits session again i suppose. Then customer call me before we start working. Keep on calling to chase for her application. But im not the one handling it. So nevamind.

Then,check application that i have pass to another of my lovely colleague. very unfortunate because is a cancellation and im suppose to let my friend sign again. okay i have to drive out to do it and also, to collect a Supplementary offer letter from another customer. So early morning already drive here and there. Then get back to Taipan. Pay Citibank so bro can use the card. And then, pay maxis for jason as his bill is due and need to pay already. And then get back to branch and sweating. Well im really good at sweating. and then, alotz of customer come into the branch and asking about after sales again. Nobody seems to know how 2 handle and i have to handle most of them. Even deposits oso they ask me to figure out why they can't withdraw. And my colleague neva failed to ask customer come find me for all this beautiful "problems". So nvm in the end i get everything sort out and start doing the lose end for my "holiday-ing" colleague. And until im done with everything im already so tired wei. And 2molo i will have to rush all my outstanding work as alotz of customer is already chasing me for everything. Hey Hey im not superman and i dun incharge everything. Im already doing what i can do. I have done my best. Please understand lo......

Then when everything is done is already 6 plus?very tired so i decide to go home. Once i reach home daddy say his boss bought him a phone. cheap one but his boss at least is kind enough. He keep on asking us to put photo's put songs for him. Even he see us just came back and so tired. Toufu is tired too. we haven't shower and haven't eat. He never thought of that and just keep asking us. He is always like this. As long as we dun do things that he like he will start to grumble and show sulky face. And complain to everyone else that we r useless son. Especially me. hahahaz, then shower and dinner. And ohya, love my mom cuz last nite i got no appetite to eat at all. so i only drink soup. Then 2day mommy cook vege vege only. Cuz she say CNY eat too much meat liao. So she cook vege vege to neutralize it. And its delicious oh.

Then ah, still see that boy saying all the negative things 2day. But not so negative and he reply that message. He say, i understand that u guys worry about me. And im suppose to wake up. But im just expressing my feelings. But i think he dun understand what im trying to say bah. He still thinks they should be 2gether. She shouldn't have left him. But if she doesn't then how he realize her importance. Even though this is expensive but this is the price u have to pay when u take things for granted. Actually he makes me think of myself too. And im trying to be easy now. Dun think about all this for a while. Im treasuring moments spent with family and friends. And im happy that i started to know how 2 care about friends. I really do know.

And uhm, sometimes i do blank for a while. like daydreaming but i ain't dreaming. Just empty (most of my driving time). And most of my in the room time. I find it relax and peaceful while not doing anything. really 宅男. And im a person which alwiz look back. I know this sucks but i am not a person which can let things go easy. Too stuborn actually. But to be honest, Im very happy that i learn to appreciate and i care about others more. In a different manner. And ohya, some people say im a sweet talker. They are like, yoh y u so love to sweet talk ah,or sales people really can talk ah. But sometimes im not sweet talking lah im being honest. Maybe everything in my eyes seems so beautiful and great bah. I'm sincere de lah.

Ohya, my mom say u look very pretty. And she thinks u r my ahem ahem. But we r not and i told her that. Then my dad oso thinks u r my gf and he tell my mom, that girl look so pretty and very well manner. They like u so much but i tell them sorry la.ur boy is too evil for such a nice girl loh. Maybe next life bah. hahaz, i dunno but i hope u r happy. And i will miss u. Alwiz do.

Thats it for 2day bah. I think i wrote a lil too much le bah. Hope everyone around me are happy and sweet sweet after that. And im happy now. Really relax. siao liao...hahahaz

Take carez everyone.

-seng

stay positive and be positive...im fine,im fine.

hey hey, 2day is the first working day after Chinese New Year bor. So woke up adi go breakfast and smoke smoke. still not well as the day before. My throat is kanasai and flu flu flu. hahahaz, then get back to branch, wow, im not excited wor, u know why? because 2day is the first working days after Chinese New Year. already 4 days bank not open, and 2 staff on MC, and most of the residents around here is not working. So thank god I'm there. to handle all the lose ends and lets customer scold me or say me or complain a lil bit. They are so free bor as they can come and ask this ask that. And everything is like after sales or deposits or whatever. Thank you so much that everyone of u dun like to wait. So sorry ah if i have to make u people not happy. Cuz i oso thought Hong Leong is my father bank leh. Just realize is not and just realize everyone is the same so u people fucking go queue up please. Sorry for being a lil bit rude eh. hahahaz

And then, went lunch with ginger wor. Because ah have not seen her for quite sometime ah. Have to make an effort to catch up le. Listen to her current story that is not so good as many bad things happen. Injured and accidents happen. Pity her and we share some of our happenings. And everyone heard of my 2 weeks holiday all congratulate me. Well, u people think in a wrong way and i did explain a lil bit but u guys still think other way. But too be very honest. This 2 weeks is very precious and memorable for me.

And while going back to branch get a message. After this message im a lil bit down perhaps. But think about it,u have mentioned and tell me more than 5-6 times ba. I really should pick up this and set this in my mind. But somehow i just couldn't. Flash back, Is me myself which neva appreciate it before. and when its no longer there. i can't expect it to be there. But unfortunately im too stuborn to learn. way too stuborn. Anyway, have mentioned so many times, u r a very nice and kind person. And i think maybe is because of u r too kind. So u will entertain some of my stupid acts and behavior. And u r too kind and dunno how 2 tell me off. So i misunderstand it and this sucks. u say that u won't change and u ask me to not say till like that anymore. i really can feel it this time. i promise that i will neva use such word again. But then, i can't hide my feelings for u. People say times heal but i dun think so. But its not that bad anyway. As we human live on earth. May or may not meet someone we love. we may only meet someone we like and get marry and until the day that u die. u dun meet someone that u love. And im just so lucky, i get to taste the love from my granparents, my parents, my big big family, my good friends. my bosses and some of my customer. Everyone treat me so nice and i did take them from granted. i truly did. And i manage to find u somehow. And well, u did give me alotz of memories. great memories that i can never forget and keeps me going everytime im falling. Although thingz has change, but i dun think my feelings will change. i will save all those in my heart and never delete it. And i will alwiz behave like a friend,because i know u really dunno how 2 act on all this anymore. Everything i shall keep it in my heart,my blog that nobody's reading. I'm already so lucky as i have so many love. And i had urs before. I shouldn't be so greedy as i have tell myself before. As long as get to watch u for while is already good. So, as long as u can live happily and happy with the one beside u. I should be happy for u right.

But i can't say it doesn't affect me. Well it does and then i have to do some emotional control and adjust. Is not that i wanna act but i dun wan anyone that love's me worry about me. They thought im in love so be it. They thought im happy so im gonna be happy and keep myself happy. And i dunno. Right now i dun wana do anything not even eating as i really dun have the appetite. not in the mood. So now i think best is i sit down quietly in my room to sort out my thoughts and putting on a smile again on my face later or latest by 2molo morning. And i have to stop dreaming liao.

I truly wish u happy,and being in sweet sweet condition. Hope ur smile is there alwiz. I really miss u. Take good carez.

-seng-

After that something happen so im gonna top up a lil bit, There is a guy which reminds me of myself. He do blog blog as well, His blog and mine is also to express feelings. His is also about someone that have left him. Its also because he have take her for granted. And His blog also sound like is her fault that cause this break up. Like what i used to write. So negative yet not entertaining. And so shameless and never thought of own doing. And neva think of ownself mistakes. I really did smile while im reading his. I have been reading people's blog but this one really similar. Well i send him a private message after all. I said, dun make ur blog sound so negative. Sounds like she owe u. Sounds like is her fault that cause the break up. And Sounds like u r innocent. What is done is done. And nothing can change it. So why not appreciate those memories and wish her all the best. And hopefully she is happy with her life now even if it has to be without u. And if she has a bf, hopefully he can do much better job to make her happy. I told him, Im sharing with u and im not saying u. Hope u dun get offended. Only real friends will tell u what is right and what is wrong. U told me that. And i think this is the right thing 2 do bah. By the way did tell if u both are meant to be then u both will be. Mean time u need to upgrade urself mentally. Have some self development perhaps. Hahaha, i dunno if its too mean. But im sincere that i dun wana see him like that. I hope he can pick up what im trying to share. And i told him that im sending u this message because i did what u r doing. lol,hahahaz.

Okay lah,really finish liao. tataz,update again 2molo.

-seng-(smiling)

4th day of CNY

Because of last nite traffic congestion that cuz me sleep late..2day din wanna wake up early. However i woke up at roughly 10 o'clock. its should be later but i din sleep so long because my 4skin kaki's is droping by my house again wor. So woke up and read newspaper,watch some TV and then go bring them in to my house. Although they came so many years but still they failed to recognised way to my house...well has change alotz mah. So they drop by and then of cuz get angpau from my mom and then get a drink.

Then not long after we ciaozz to One Utama to watch movie and lunch. We reach there kinda late and shiroi is queuing. However the queue is too long and the ticket is too little. So we decide not to watch but go lunch instead. Went to enqures Kitchen or something similar. I and Kar Fai had rice while the rest have noodles. Won't say its nice but definitely its not hard to swallow. so so only lah. After eat aalready we walk around the building but seems like nothing much to see as we have too big crowd i think. 6 person walking wanna see oso difficult de. Then after a while we decide to go Cineleisure to continue look for tickets.

And so we drove to Cineleisure and try to get tickets. They queue a while and then the ticketing officer says, if 10 minutes later that person which is suppose to collect their ticket didn't come as they reserve only. Then we wonder around again to wait for the tickets. 10 minutes later we walk and queue at there again. Then finally the ticketing officer give us the tickets. By the way we are watching All's well end's well again. I had watch with my mom and toufu. But its a good movie. First time watch is funny. 2nd time watch im looking into their love story. Some of the points really hit me. As i find it so similar just like something i have experience. And something i always wish it can happen. Different view on the same movie.

Then, we came out and chit chat chit chat as they are talking about where to. The 4 of them look for their mom and another follow. However i din wana follow as im heaps tired already. So, i drove home and they all go to Sunway Giza there. Their mom open stall there by the way. or working there i dunno. They ask me to drop by their house around 11 something as they will have people coming too. But then im just too tired to do anything as i need to work by 2molo and days after. So many days wor.

And i need some alone moments. I really need as im real tired after all. and i miss u very much. Hope u r doing good. Alots of thingz cannot be explain by words. But hope u feel it.

Good nite everyone. Sleep tight and continue having a properous Chinese New Year. Have lotza fun.

-seng-

what an exhausted day le!!

2day wake up quite early due to last nite sleep quite early.But last nite sleep was not okay due to im having a flu and sore throat,actually i can't sleep as i couldn't breathe.so i sleep a while then i will accidentally wake up due to this reason.hate it so much. Morning, wake up and then online online again due to toufu is alwiz still lying on the bed refuse to move. lol, then we talk random stuff and i online until i think roughly 10 again bah,he woke up and in a while we get ready all go out to eat again. This time go to the old spot where the last time and the time before when we come we ate there. Previously order curry mee. Ohhh and i realise, when we r in Kuala Kangsar my elder brother only bring us to like curry mee, prawn mee,tom yum all this type of spicy food. No other food is nice wor in Kuala Kangsar. Really Funny. So i ordered wantan mee as i dun have choice. And we have to wait for almost an hour for the food to be ready. This coffee shop isn't that big.i do not understand why they need so long time to prepare the food and drinks. i really no no understand ah. Then one of the girl that help out the stall is funny, funny because i think everytime when i see her,she is also wearing the same top with the same pants. I mean all 3 times. i Told toufu this and he say,maybe this is her uniform when helping out.lol

Then ah, wantan mee not nice, so we finish everything still anyway. We leave and go get some newspaper. So once reach elder brother's home. i have read a chinese newspaper,an english paper and one chinese weekly paper. I'm bored like that. lol, and watching my cute little niece wondering around the house loh. She is so hyper and so healthy. Then ah, i online online again where actually dun see anyone online anyway. Just try to kill some time only. Then we go eat again about 2 something as we are too bored. Eat at the gate cafe again. But we heard bad news while eating. The highway is having a slow traffic oh...okay anyway we need to move from Kuala Kangsar to Ipoh to Cousin brother house for dinner. So elder brother suggest to use the old road instead of highway.a lil bit further but faster.

So his advise was accepted. We tried. And what the fuck is freaking jam also anyway. and heard radio say highway is not that jam. hahahahaz, but its a nice try though. So slowly move the car all the way to ipoh. Will miss that fatty and her daughter as the next time we see them will be long long time later already. So we took almost 1 and a half hour to reach a 35km spot. Reach there saw the same person is sitting on the mahjong table....others is helping out. So we did watch for a while and help out oso after that. toufu help by replace one of them play mahjong for few rounds. Then i help carry thingz to the car to shift food from auntie house to cousin house. After everything is done we move. From auntie house we drive to cousin house. And we r the 1st one to reach cousin's house. His house look much nicer dunno why. With another 2 dogs extra. Nice breed but i wouldn't know the name.Only know its from Taiwan. Then we sit down and do nothing and watch them.

After a while when my mom's siblings arrive then the dinner start. Self service de food oh. Basically no vege but all meat. So we have a lil bit of everything. mommy seems very very happy when hang out with her siblings. She even drink oh...Gold label leh...So cute. But only 1 glass and she look for gunner liao(which is me). They talk about alotz of random thingz. of cuz there is joke joke around too. i also have not seen them for at least 2 years bah. Will send mommy up again bah. Bcuz we have to leave today to avoid 2molo super jam. as im starting work early on monday. Next time get her to stay a few days loh. Sure she will find it excited wan loh. What a bad bad son i am. lol

And then while come back,the traffic is already terrible. Imagine from Ipoh to my house take almost 3 and a half hour. i really neva think of this before. and bcuz its late nite so its dark with so many cars. I'm really tired wei. and most of the time we r on emergency lane as thats the fastest lane we have. Of cuz is the Highway maintenance team lead us there lah. 2day already so terrible so i imagine 2molo will be the end of the world on the highway i bet. And once reach home i go shower. While shower i can feel that my hand and my leg is shivering. Shit man, im really getting so sick and so tired leh. Help me ah....

And, i miss u alotz alotz. Have not hear from u for a long time....i heard u r sick and still flu and cough. Hope u can get well soon loh. I'm really worry about u. Please do Take good carez of urself there. Xoxo,Gd nite.

Wish Everyone Happy and have a better day 2molo.
- Seng -

2nd day of Chinese Lunar New year

okay,lets start with last nite when im feeling sick and i got too tired. So i just lie down at the living room here without wearing shirt and slept. younger brother online still.i thought i would be snoring but very funny, i didn't snore instead. slept till i think about 5 o'clock then i feel the cold.go upstairs and look for blanket.1 for me and another for toufu. As i think he is cold too.hehez, then sleep a while and wake up a while and sleep a while and wake up a while again. roughly about 9 something 10 o'clock like that finally i woke up because my elder brother,my mom and my niece all came downstairs and start making noise already. So i woke up and online for a while there. When toufu wake up then we decide to go out for breakfast.

So elder brother drive us to a place where i dunno where but still in the Kuala Kangsar City. Then we reach there elder brother say got tom yum,curry me and dry curry me.Well im having a sore throat. So i have to take something else. Pan mee is the only choice i got. and i have my white coffee as usual. and of cuz i took alotz of random photos of my niece and my elder brother. As i hardly can do so. Then, we finish our breakfast and return home. i start to online again and view here view there.view alotz of thingz that may change my living. and how to. Then also some random folders clean up. Have read some old photos,old videos. Sometimes really regret that something that i have done has made me further from u. If i ever get a chance to hold u again. But well im not gonna complain in anywhere but just here,my blog wheres nobody is reading anymore. I'm just gonna express my feelings a lil bit. Anyway as long as u r good and happy then im happy too.

Then ah, mommy cook some chicken and pork and rice. So we have our lunch in the house. and my niece is actively wondering around the living room. everything is out of control. But its fun to see such hyper kid because she reminds me of myself when im small. Unfortunately the cane i gotten from my parents is way much more than what she had. But can't compare,she is much more cuter and lovable. Then i think about 4 o'clock like that we decide to drive to my mommy relative side.

So about 30 minutes drive then we reach there. my cousin and cousin-in-law and one of my auntie is playing mahjong. One of the auntie is not there. and another couple is here. So i and toufu sit down quietly to watch them play.we laugh when we see alotz of funny funny moves by them. mommy seems happy to hang out with her siblings. I truly understand that she miss them so much. Her face expression tells. then almost 6 o'clock cousin-in-law go back with my cousin. So toufu replace her and gamble with cousin and auntie loh. At least he manage win 1 game. And the auntie win all the way for 5 games. Then toufu win the last. pityful cousin dun win a single game. But the way he play he din wana win any games i think. he just dun wana lose alotz only.

So and then, we went to have dinner at dunno what sky river/sky rainbow or sky something. its very very pack in there. they book a table but its full. So they arrange another table and we are sitting at a corner near toilet. cousin's both with their partner and me,toufu and mommy sit on a table. With all the vege's is full wei. Plus those thingz that they have order is not nice to eat. Taste like i dunno. Even mamak can do a better job. Or maybe im half sick already. So thats y.

Then we went back to auntie house again. mommy talk with all the auntie's there. Then tracy called, so we went yum cha at somewhere near by as she is at the place very near to where i am. We sit down at mamak and have alotz of chat. But we dun seems to talk about alotz of thingz already mommy call. She say wanna go back adi. Its a nice catch up session. But if it can be longer it will be just great. She seems upset with what his ex is doing. But its okay,if u both are meant to be then will definitely be together. At least thats what im thinking.

And then pick up mommy and come back to elder brother place. shower shower and then come up and blog. feeling a lil not so excited. Maybe im tired. or maybe is because of .....................

Anyway,Hope everyone can get alotz of angpau and eat everything. Stay happy and take good carez.

I'm still missing u. Alot Alot. Nitez. xoxo

-SENG-

大年初一

因为昨天的很晚睡和前一晚的没睡令我的身体很不舒服了。我已经要生病了，救命啊。不过还是很早醒来因为很多有心的朋友都寄短信来。以及因为今天我们需要到我哥哥那里。嘻嘻，本来是三个小时多一点。可是因为非常的塞车，我们用了五个小时吧。累惨啦。到了那里我们就去看看哥哥家有没有疏菜，看了以后觉得还是出去吃比较好。

哈哈，我可爱的侄女以经忘了我们全部人。她变的比较害怕我们了不知道为什么。她甚至连和我们说话都没有了。真的很不明白。可是看到她健康的长大就好啦。哥哥就变胖了咯，我也胖啦。 然后是吃的东西啦，我们叫了一个芋头扣肉，一个清炒菜心花，一个姜葱鱼片和一个葱油豆腐。真的不是很好吃，味道非常的普通，吃饱了就回家咯。

回到哥哥家之后，我就去冲凉啦，然后就一家人一起看the A-team. 真的很不错的一部戏。我很少有的看了两部戏，在两天里。然后就上网以及三兄弟聊聊天。很久没做的事情。然后啊，我就写了这些有的没的。基本上都没做什么的一天。

不过，我很想念那些日子，更想念你。希望你的新年还不错吧。

最后，祝大家新年快乐，心想事成，万事如意，想要什么有什么，天天开心。

- 申 -

除夕

今天啊，因为昨晚的很夜睡，或者更贴切是没有睡。 然后大概是7：40 我就起床冲凉，洗脸以及刷牙。 然后把所有东西都做好了以后你也醒了。 然后到你准备咯。本来是要在9点之前到可是我们很迟才到。不过幸好没有影响到你上机。 很快的把所有东西都整理好而你也必需要离开了。我非常的不舍得但没办法。我慢慢的目送你的离开。在很无奈的心情下离开机场。

然后回到去当然是做工咯，可是很坦白，我的没有睡令我根本没办法做任何事。我只是觉得不舒服而已。有一种会吐的感觉。 哈哈， 不过还好。然后很勉强的待到4点多下午，送文件到我们的贷款中心。然后就回家了。太累了。想躺在床休息一下，可是失败了，因为电话不停的响， 而且很多人都跑到我房里打扰我。结过就没睡到。之后汉文也到了。团园饭开餐啦，丰富的食物令我们都吃了很多很多。汉文也很开心因为他很久很久没吃过住家饭了。

饱餐过后， 我们就聊天，聊了很多东西，再来就去冲凉了。 因为我们全部人一起去看戏。看那套最强囍事。真的非常好笑，从开头笑到离开。但是中间它会有很多值得学习的部份，例如爱情观啦，幸福啦，还有钱啦，以及了解女人。看完了我们就离开咯。我们就到了拜拜地方。逗留了很久。

终于在现在3：27 零晨可以写部落格，但是很明显的在我没睡觉45小时后我的头脑很空，我好像不知到我自己在写什么这样。很晕

希望你玩的还开心吧，保重啊

- 申 -

1st day of February

Well, 2day is busy day because Chinese new year is coming, and Federal Teritorry is Holiday. So alotz of customer came to branch to do whatever they wanna do. Like Cash out money and stuff like that. the queue is superb as it can achieve higher than 50 person waiting.and actually in fact what i observe is more than 75 bah. And as usual alotz of customer has come to me and they have done the routine thingz.complain complain and complain. Oh well, Hong Leong is not my father bank, besides all u people comes together of course have to wait loh. As a standard transaction take only 5 minutes but u guys come and give us something extra which definitely is gonna take more than 15 minutes.u can't blame us,u have to queue.

Mood was not affected as its suppose to be happy. and im still happy and handle all those lose ends. And about 1 i left the branch to snake.hahahaz,it means to run away from working and doing something else. And well, Something else is much more important than working. Will work super hard when i come back from chinese new year hopefully. As i have been busy since im back from travel and i have not really rest myself yet. And because of that my body is super heaty and i can feel that pimples coming,sore throat coming,and alotz more.basically im just hot hot hot.

Come back to snake-ing. I went off already and then i go home to change. lol, i still have time to change (smile). Then rush to the LCCT to pick u up. As i say,can't wait to see u and im happy that im seeing you for the third time this year.i love starting of the year when i can see you. Wish i can have more. i really wish. but its okay, then ah, waited a while in the LCCT and you arrive. Then we go get a drinks in Starbucks. i bought my as usual Espresso Frappucino and u say i can buy u anything in liquid form. I'm like,u dun like coffee, and u didn't want ice lemon tea anymore as u had enough of it. and i dunno what else i can order but Green tea latte ice. And u say y r u alwiz buying me green tea....lol, so i bet u had enough of green tea too. Then we go to Sungei Wang straight away. But the Access to Sg wang is super super jam. So i figured that i change and park it in Times Square. And we walk over to Sg.wang. And so lucky we find a parking in Times Square real quick. Then we walk up and u saw a store full of hair accessories. Then, u went inside and bought a hair clip. Then we walking around Sg wang to check ur stuff. And u didn't wanna c anything and u want a hair cut. So we walk around and i suggested snips.. Well,u went in and explain how u wan it. She seems like she understand. And she call herself professional stylist. Unfortunately she cut it not the way u wanted. So u got pissed plus u r tired....i can really see your dissapointed face. To be honest i find it shorter makes u look more Independence and capable. And still as pretty as before.

Then we walk around and u sounds upset with ur hair,well i will grow in a bit.dun get too worried. And then we walk around to see clothes, u get urself a glasses. a freshkon color lens. And also a top. Talk about this top, the girl is super persuasive and pushy. Keep on demonstrating when we only wanna get a top. So end up u got pissed and get a grey Top which is the nicest. i bet u may not like it but u buy because she has been serving u for so long with her attitude bah. hehez,then went watson for u to buy some cosmetics and we spent some time there.

Then roughly about 9:30 we get away from sg wang to go back times square,i can really see that u are super tired. but u still make an effort to catch up with wai hoong. Really kind of u. Then we reach Taipan where i work. And we bought the Bah gua there. Well u were on the phone talking about how your auntie ruin everything in jakarta. I cannot imagine if i have meet someone like this?i dun think i can react to what they have done. then u were talking to ur mom and u order bah gua. the order taking person looks fierce. hahaz, anyway, we bought and hang out with wai hoong. And station one is the place. We order a platter and din really eat as i have not eat the whole day so i dun have the appetite to eat anyway. Have some random chat and tease him a lil.Then we go home. As we reach home, bring everything up and u unpack to pack again. So im writing my stupid blog again. And well,its time for shower. Update again 2molo.

Take good carez. Im very happy 2day.

-seng-

期待

不要误会啦，对于新年我没什么期待，我只是对你的短暂逗留非常的期待。哈哈哈，很无聊吧。 由于我期待，所以我心情还不赖，虽然有很多很不开心的事情不断发生，可是我还能够保持开朗。先说回昨晚的星光吧，李佳微拿到冠军了，可是坦白说我更喜欢孙晓亮和小白，不知道为什么？结果很多人讨论因为她是马来西亚，芙蓉人叻。然后就去写了一些，过后就去睡啦。 睡觉的时侯很开心，因为我又梦到你啦。在梦里我们没说话，就静静的在吹风。然后很快的闹钟就响啦，吵死人啦。

今天醒来后， 就慢慢驾车去上班。到了之后就慢慢的去吃早餐，再慢慢的回去工作。可是一回到去就很勤劳的做东西。动作很快的帮人做东西，因为有两个同事一天到晚在蛇（偷懒），然后另一个就请病假，老板娘也很巧和的生病，得了两天假。加上他原本的假期，好爽啊。我却累惨啦。帮他们服务客人顺便被他们骂骂一下。都不是我的错，公司规定嘛。算啦，对于这些问题不放心上。哈哈

然后啊，其中一个同事他怀疑他的女朋友在劈腿。我就和他说，不要紧的，可能不是真的啦。就算是真的你也没办法啦，开心一点过日子吧。他好像接受不了吧。我觉的吃醋是一定有的，可是如果他离开你会更开心的话为什么不让她走啊，真的需要勉强吗？我不赞成咯。

再来，我们的messenger今天没把重要的文件拿回来，结果啊我需要跑到总公司去拿文件。拿了之后又赶去那个收文件的地方，赶在今天进。结果很快的就忙完了。 忙完了我也不够时间去打针啦。只好慢慢塞车塞回家咯。看到马路上车来车往。多到很夸张叻。回到家后，因为无聊，所以我走路去那个以前长去的公园。到了之后就坐在一个角落发呆。看看青青的草，青青的树。还有就是那几个中学生。他们在打蓝球，可是他们的技巧以及基本功都很差很差。我也没有留意他们。不过我就是吹风与发呆我也坐了一个小时多吧。无聊可是我觉得很自在，也很久没那样做了。在我想回家的时侯，以前一起打球的朋友来了。就打了一下，不过人真的老了，跑不动啦。需要跑步来练气啦。 打了一下就跑啦。回到家自接去冲凉然后吃饭。标准的生活。就是把东西做好了就上网，看了一些update就上来写写心情以及发生过的事情。

就好像题目说的酱，我很期待，也很无奈。

正在想你

- 申 -

what a day!!!

Due to last nite sleep a bit late. of cuz 2day cannot wake up early loh...however rains start when im sleeping and woke up till 11 its still raining so common thing 2 do is to sleep. then i sleep again and then roughly about 1 something only i wake up. what a good rest that i have. So with such a good rest 2day should be fantastic...However, after i woke up,clean up and then had my brunch. Kon Lo mee with some curry. and a cup of nescafe. then after a while i decide to go out. I decide to go pavillion to get something. And only 1 thing.

So i drove my iswara which is still not done repair. air-cond is still not okay, and unfortunately is raining. Whuakakaz, so i still open window but then the screen everything start to cannot see lo.So i look damm fucking stupid like wiping the screen with my hand and stuck in the traffic for an hour bah...and then finally reach pavillion parking and look for a space. This take me another half an hour to get a spot. However i seems more lucky than others as i only use this short time. Then, i went to that particular shop in pavillion to get this present. And the do a standard wraping for me. with extra card to write a short message.

After that, i go to get another card as i think like this could be more appropriate bah. And this is fast, just a bit then i learn something new, with those purchase i can actually get a free parking de bor. Sounds good. Then i drive out from parking. Now go second spot which is Ampang Point. And fuck up things happen, The window i dunno izit too much of water get inside there the whole thing got stuck and cuz me can't adjust window anymore. and i realise my shirt sucks when those dirty thingz goes on my shirt. Then window still blur blur hazy hazy.

Then ah i go find that slippers in Ampang Point, But then ah, they got nomore stock leh. and they say most probably not gonna import the same stock le ah....a choice we have, see in other place as i notice recently there is a lots of shop selling this type of slippers. Hopefully can get it before she leave. haiyoh,and then worse part came,as the window cannot go down....the whole car is like a small genting.i can't see anything. or hardly can see...So i go back merely see the road condition and i struggle.roughly about 7 i manage to reach home....Although is just a short 5 hours but it makes me extremely exhausted. But look at the things that i bought. Worth it de....

Then after that, shower at home and then ah, go mamak eat nasi kandar with younger brother lo...bcuz he wanna rush home and watch that 超级星光大道7 总决赛。then ah we finish it real quick lo. And now finally settling down in front of TV, they are watching and i am doing my stupid blogging. i dunno why after this trip.i loves to write down some of my daily happenings or some of my feelings. i really dunno y. hahaz

Miss you much. Take good carez oh...

-seng-

很累的 last minute

因为我两个星期的假期， 我这个星期忙到超出我的预期。 因为工作上的没人帮我， 结果就是两个星期的空窗期。什么事情都没做到， 变成我一回来就需要把全部都赶完。 不过啊， 现实就是这样的啦，没有人会帮你，就算他已经受到命令，就算他们都已答应在你休假的时侯他会帮你处理要紧事。但是所有人都是自私和懒惰的。没什么好怨的，自己已经有了一个很好的长假了，再辛苦一下下咯。反正去年都是这样一个人熬过来，今年也可以的。而且这个假期加上借了钱给一个好朋友，再加上新年，我的储蓄就一直向下啦。幸好还有几千啊。不然就死啦。哈哈哈。所以要更勤劳赚更多更多的钱。

然后就是我的新年准备啦， 因为两个星期不在。所以大扫除和油漆都还没做，也还没买必须品。因为这个原因我在星期四的晚上， 当工作已经很烦很累的时侯，我还需要拖着很疲惫的身体在油漆。当然我在油我最爱的浅蓝色咯，但是油到一半，两幅墙壁之后才发现漆不够。过后我必须在没办法里找办法。就是用其他的漆去配剩下那两幅墙。结果叻我用了很浅的青色来配。我都不懂是好看还是不好看。不过我自己觉的很舒服，很温暖的地方，我最自在的地方。但是不知不觉之中我才知道我油漆油到十二点晚上呃。累惨啦。

还有一件事想说， 我啊，如果人对我好我会害怕叻。我不知道我怕什么，就好像我工作那里有个同事。他应该有四十吧。单身噢。她常常会对我很好的，连我旅行回来过后身体还没好。很热很不舒服，她会买一瓶不知道是什么但应该对身体好的饮料给我。说喝了会好。还有很多很多，可是我这个笨蛋啊，不懂珍惜不要紧，还要怕他。我甚至到了我家人对我好我都会感觉怪怪的。我的头脑应该是坏去了吧。

然后，星期五因为前晚油漆到很夜所以上班的时后很没精神。 而且还有很多不懂是怎样来的问题一个接一个的来攻击我。很弱的我啊，虽然我知道我能够熬得过这些考验，但我很想告诉霓，很想听听你的声音。因为霓玖是我的动力。在星期五晚回到家后，我冲好凉之后就开始我的大扫除。因为所有东西都做好了。结果把一些东西丢了，把一些东西重新摆过。然后真的还蛮满意啦。很舒服的藏身之所。哈哈，然后十点酱顾客打来，问我能出来拿那个支票然后帮我进银行吗？小姐，我能够说不吗？好笑，结果明知道马路因为全部人都出来买东西而变塞车我都要出来。差不多一个小时后才到家。会到家想上网，可是我连接不到。弟弟又在打机。所以最后只好去睡觉罢了。

到今天，很早就醒了。今天和妈妈还有弟弟约好要去sungei wang plaza的。 可是弟弟还没醒，结果我就先上网啦。然后检差了email一下。就写blog了。写到一半弟弟醒了，所以就出去吃早餐咯。吃好了就出发自接到那里。一如往常妈妈要自己走，而我和弟弟就四周围逛。 我们临时买了些新年衣服。我们还去了pavillion闲逛。其实没有东西买的，只是带弟弟去看而已，因为如果没人带他他是不会去那里的。本来想买他一个钱包，可是他被价钱吓到了所以不好意思。没办法啦，只好自己去猜咯，然后希望我买的他还会喜欢啦。

逛了一天过后超级累，才3小时。那两个星期我逛整天都可以，我开始不了解自己的身体构造啦。奇怪的我。我真的很想念霓啊。

祝大家，
新年快乐，一家团圆，平平安安以及身体健康。
- 申 -

May i love you

我要如何　才能擁抱妳呢
緊緊抱著　我吻妳妳附和
從朋友　晉陞情人角色
從苦澀　轉變成了快樂

把鑰匙交給了妳　妳卻轉身將我囚禁
在一扇叫做等待的門裡
妳試過　那麼多心的鎖
怎麼就不來開啟　我的愛情

Love you, Love you, May I love you?
Tell me what to do
才能讓你不孤單　我不孤獨　一起找幸福
當這個世界一步一步　華麗到荒蕪

請放心　我還是妳的信徒

Love you, Love you, May I love you?
Tell me you love me too
我可以繼續付出　付出就夠我滿足
不相信愛情對我　永遠(的)殘酷
我奢望　時間會為我祝福

看著我這樣投入　難道妳都沒有感觸
不接受至少給我些幫助
就說你感動到想要哭
多少能減輕一點我的痛苦


This is a song where at different age it brings different meaning to me. 2day alotz of thingz happen but im too tired to write down....will take a rest and write tomorrow. And I'm feeling this song now so i post.

take good carez. xoxo

i miss you

-seng-

好久不见！

我啊，真的很久很久没回来了。因为去年实在发生了太多事情了，很多很多很难应付的难关。不过也庆幸老天爷给了我那么多的考验。就因为这些考验令我更明白很多事情。我觉得我真的变得更加可靠了，就算一个人也能够把家给撑起来。虽然很辛苦但是看到家人就已经很值得啦。

现在，事情像是平伏了下来。可是全家人的开销还是很大啊。我还是需要很努力很努力的赚钱，不过只要我抱持像去年一样的忙碌我还是可以有储蓄啊。只要我赚够了我就要想办法去实现我的梦想。我有信心我能够做到的。

i think i better write back in English. Because this part is about my wonderful trip has come to an end. This trip gives me back a lots of different feelings, and more desire to achieve my dream. And of course a opportunities to look at other place which is not KL. Because of this trip i come back writing. Ohya, and i think personal development also after this trip. A lil different.

Time about 12:10 p.m. Departures of Singapore and coming back to LCCT. By the time i get into the plane, a lots of people already sitting at their place. Because i didn't rush and queue when they are all rushing. Then my seat is at 20E, in the middle and i hope both side is clear so more relaxing for me. Unfortunately, Both seat beside me also got people. So i sit down, There is a guy from Singapore sitting at my left and a lady from India sitting on my right. As we have put on our safety belt, This guy beside me is still playing his i phone. Then, the stewardess ask us to switch off the phone and i did. However, this guy on my left, and this moment he start making calls. He is so excited talking on the phone until the stewardess has to come and ask him to stop. However, he stop but then he start one of the game of his I Phone. In my heart is like, whualiao u dun understand English de bor. Then finally he switch off the phone. After that, just right after the stewardess has demonstrate to us how to use all the facilities he can't wait to ask, "can i buy your souvenir" . Really Kiasu, then during the flight more things happen. he is having a flu. He has tissue but what surprise me is that he never wipe his nose with the tissue but then with his purple color Tee-shirt. I'm so shocked with his a lil bit wet Tee. But i pretend never see anything. Then, when the plane is going to land, we were asked to fastened our seat belt. This Guy on my left never failed to entertain me. When everyone is sitting down quietly he climb up and down to put his thing in his hand carry. walk here and there and until quite a while only he sit down. And this is not the end yet. So,as we are going down walking back to the terminal. He go the fastest but actually he come with his parents and grandma. His grandma is just right behind him. So his dad say, take care of ah ma when u going down. I'm tall enough to stand behind this family to watch them. What i see is that this guy walk very de fast and end up his mom is holding his grandma and his father watching at the back. Whualiao, and then when walking he walk almost 100 meter's in front and then follow by his parents. But his grandma is at the back slowly walking as i'm standing right behind of her. I dunno but if u asked me, if whole family is going on a trip, shouldn't they walk together and at least if u dun feel like holding ur grandma,stay by her side. However they just amaze me.

Then, when to tax free bought ciggaretes for daddy and liquor for display（perhaps drink when we needed to). After that, went out and wait for toufu. Timing is about just nice, he reach not long after that. Reach home only feel very tired and relieve. But haven't sleep as chit chat with family for a while. Unload all the dirty clothes, souvenir, shower and clean up some stuff. After that went online and stay up for a while. watch 娱乐百分百 and have homecook food as dinner. Then when everything is done almost at 10 o'clock I'm too tired so lie on the bed and Oi Oi till next morning.

First day back to work, i can honestly say is frustrating. Cause i have not been working for the past 16 days. So physically and mentally also not rest yet. Once i get into the office i can see my manager smile. She is happy that finally someone is back to share her trouble. When the others create. lol, Things i have instruct before I'm on leave remains as it is when I'm. Very annoyed. And then the phone has been ringing the whole day. Problem arise one after another. I've learned a lesson. Do not instruct the wrong person. But after this trip i am more equip to face all this challenges. I'm ready to go for more. However the sales report is entertaining as I'm still the top 20 nationwide even when I'm away for holiday.

Second day, is still about cleaning all the shits that have not been clean for 2 weeks. Boss is fierce because her patience for this boys has come to an end. screaming and yelling here and there. I'm someone she don't say because I'm super busy doing all the works. I think if i take 1 more weeks she will suffer mental insane. And guilty hits me. I will work even harder to earn more money and cover her in her yearly achievement. Remains on top and go closer to my dream. if i can ever make it to Sydney and study actuarial. Unfortunately, the cost of living there is too high plus the fees and difficulty of this subject is equally high. But i enjoy overcome obstacle and challenge after what i have experience. I can view what i want in a clearer vision. And new year resolution is go learn swimming after CNY. Then after that will go for Gym. Keep Fit as my health seems not so good recently. Can feel it so clearly.

And Third day, Sales is coming back. Agents all are ready and I'm ready. Going to hit it big again next month. Busy busy whole day. Well, there is a funny jokes today, i drove my mom's car and after i drove. When I'm going home the car start to jerk and i realize I'm a very rough user. All cars that i have drove need to send for maintenance. Hahahahaz.

Another 1 month then birthday coming le, i wish this year would be like last year. I don't want to work but just stay at home alone doing nothing and sit in front of my laptop perhaps. And then i can have my daydream session and i don't want any cake. What a loner but this is my little wish.

Ohya, forget to wish ah nic happy birthday. i wanted to come by your party but however my work is too much and i need to work tomorrow as well so i can't make it. But u a nice dinner okay. Happy birthday and have a blast.

Finally, i think thats it for now bah. Hope to come back and write more often. As i have so many things to say after so long didn't come here. Take carez everyone.（ｓａｙｉｎｇ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｐｅｒｓｏｎａｌｌｙ　ｈｅａｌｔｈ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｓｏ　ｇｏｏｄ．ｎｏｔ　ｗｅｌｌ）

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