Okay now im listening to 张震岳-就让这首歌。hahaz.i feel better than before. As u can see from the title i am really release after the result is out.But having alot of sleepless nite before they tell us the outcome...and really thanks jason and jon for helping me by accompany me going up there and suffer.
As on monday i work until 6 something then go home and eat and bath. Then i sleep at 8 bah. After that about 2:30 am i woke up and pick up double j.Then we start driving up to Alor setar. so i start first and drive and we take turns to rest. So we able to reach there by 8 something. then able to meet up my elder bro at 10:30 like that.have a chat with him. Then still we r waiting for the result. Then we meet up wif the IO.lunch with him. He ask us to wait for the outcome so dun go back first. So we lepak at alor setar and we even go and watch a movie (clash of the titans). Then we waited until 6:45 oni the IO tell us the outcome cannot be out on the same day.all rite i have no choice but to accept it. and we reach home at 1 in the morning. tired maximum.
Then sleep 5 hours wake up and go work adi.last nite already travel 900km come work sumore get scolded from boss....she scold just as she like. Then nvm,work very hard keep doing work in the branch. about 3 the IO call me and say that okay the result is out and u can pick him out at 8 already.Then i was like oh god.call home nobody can pick him up. So the hero is here again.i say okay i go and pick him up. Then double j heard it faster faster come and say no way bro....tagged us along we go together. then at 7 we all start our journey.Then we buy Mc d eat in the car. So we drove even faster this time. we able to reach alor setar at 11:30 like that this time.feels good. bcuz the result that came out is not the worse so we still able to accept. Oni thingz is we have to be patient for 2 years maybe. But problem that can be solve is neva a problem. Then we drove back and reach KL at 4:30 like that and i reach home at 5 something.i sleep straight away when im home cuz i need to wake up at 7. Then i go work with the soul all not back....suffering day. At nite when to niong niong place to pray pray cuz thaank her for the help.
so friday oso i work wif blur blur like that. But result up to date is still fine.Then i pray pray again on friday nite. Saturday doing nothing but sleep to da max.....cuz i was exhausted to the max. So luckily can rest. Then at nite go fun fair wif zhai zhai. play the coca cola game.buy 10 token with RM10 and win a cotton of coke home...hahahahahaz,so the coke give to the kids all...
Okay and life is still normal wif me...job's target up to date is still okayz.family more stable already.everything is better than before....but dunno y this few days the heart feel pain.hopefully is not bcuz of my cholestrol or anything lah....pray pray....
ohya and i miss u alotz...hope u r doing fine loh......although we r not talking much lately but my care for u is still there.u r still very important for me...just that perhaps im too busy recently oni...take good carez of urself and stay happy....gambateh ne.....
thats all for now lah.will update soon again..
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
been a while
Its a weekend again,so its time for me to update again.....there is alotz of happening hor.....last week say one of myy colleague already leave the branch rite, Then she got 2 hire purchase case not settle.so the thing is, i am the oni one she can ask for help.since she already pregnant,okay lah i help her out lah.....i settle her 2 case...one of the case everything already done just that the dealer is waiting for the bank to give them the cheque oni...What happen is, on last friday she call,i said cannot bcuz the messenger is back at branch adi..so can oni go on monday...then that day celebrate duntoi's birthday so sleep at 6 in the morning.about 10 she call and tell me what to do on monday..really pengsan i tell u....hahahaz
So on monday,i did settle that case by bank in the cheque to another bank...scan and fax whatever im suppose to.then courier the thing next day...So everything is done adi bah...then wednesday sms come and we chat for a bit.and suddenly on a thursday morning, she sms me again and mentioned there is something she wanna tell, okay but 1st day of the week its seriously very busy for me. But still i ask her tell loh, then she say, since we both r doing sales y not get together wor....im like "stunt" for dunno how long. Of cuz i reply no loh. Just that very surprise. But we have neva see each other,not even know each other before friday. just a call and chat for one time oni.... Anyway, no matter know for how long still cannot be 2gether loh....cuz im just not a person which suitable to go into a relationshipz. Besides now im oni focusing in my career and earn more to cover family. Extra to be invest somewhere else.
Then have great time wif my niece...she alwiz stick to me when im at home...call me zouk zouk...really super duper cute....but she is being very very naughty leh. Alwiz bully my parents and her mom...but surprisingly she listen what me and my younger bro say..maybe sometimes we still scold her and whach her a lil bit maybe...But she's definitely very cute and she's gonna be a hot chick when she grow up bcuz she really very pretty leh.....have a recharge sunday...she is thee support that keeps me moving forward nowadays....no matter how tough it is still will carry on....
okay lah thats all for now,nothing much.take carez everyone and happy easter....
-seng-
So on monday,i did settle that case by bank in the cheque to another bank...scan and fax whatever im suppose to.then courier the thing next day...So everything is done adi bah...then wednesday sms come and we chat for a bit.and suddenly on a thursday morning, she sms me again and mentioned there is something she wanna tell, okay but 1st day of the week its seriously very busy for me. But still i ask her tell loh, then she say, since we both r doing sales y not get together wor....im like "stunt" for dunno how long. Of cuz i reply no loh. Just that very surprise. But we have neva see each other,not even know each other before friday. just a call and chat for one time oni.... Anyway, no matter know for how long still cannot be 2gether loh....cuz im just not a person which suitable to go into a relationshipz. Besides now im oni focusing in my career and earn more to cover family. Extra to be invest somewhere else.
Then have great time wif my niece...she alwiz stick to me when im at home...call me zouk zouk...really super duper cute....but she is being very very naughty leh. Alwiz bully my parents and her mom...but surprisingly she listen what me and my younger bro say..maybe sometimes we still scold her and whach her a lil bit maybe...But she's definitely very cute and she's gonna be a hot chick when she grow up bcuz she really very pretty leh.....have a recharge sunday...she is thee support that keeps me moving forward nowadays....no matter how tough it is still will carry on....
okay lah thats all for now,nothing much.take carez everyone and happy easter....
-seng-
Saturday, March 27, 2010
writing time
Long time din come to write my updates....been a busy month cuz alotz of thingz to do...busy busy to the maximum wei....chasing case.wanna beat the rest...working hard....
that day one aunty come to the branch...was late. So she request to place a fixed deposits and of cuz we tell her no loh....and she speaks hokkien wif me....so i talk to her until she sits down and share her stuff wif me and careen.so we keep our conversation in hokkien and im surprise cuz im a hokkien but my hokkien not so good.lol,and she say her son very lazy and stuff....but im working for so many years adi...me and careen and her son are same age.....just so lucky......all her kids is good,study got no problem and all proffesional...except this son same age wif me...hahahaz,i managed to speak hokkien until the end....not bad.....hahahaz,give myself credit this time....
And ohya,so fast qing feng's daughter is 1 years old adi.....my god time past wei....last year we just went his daughter full moon party oni and we have some drinks.....im getting old liao...and we r discussing whether who will be the next one to run out and be the 2nd....and perhaps we may have more gathering as they suggested to do so...if include this group i really will have lesser time at home bah i think...hope my mommy can forgive me bah......
and last nite duntoi's birthday so we celebrate wif him and hang out till morning....reach home at 6 and my mom already wake up that time.....she maybe angry a lil bit bah...but im alwiz like that....hahahahaz,and then from 6 i sleep until 4 bah......still very tired now...cuz received alotz of call from people......but as long as he have a great birthday nite......i think its worth it lah...hahaz,and 2molo will be chai's birthday already....wish u happy birthday..........
And my niece is being super cute.....she is so lovely....she call me zouk zouk.....wonder izit she wanna go zouk or what...hahahaz,and she loves to chase after me...cuz i alwiz go out...but she is just as naughty as me when im small.....but everyone too loves her so no one beat her...she will be the queen and soon this will be worrying as she grow up adi no one can stop her,advise her or scold her cuz she will not layan them.thats what i can see.......but then again,as long as she is happy and grows up healthy,thats all we ask for bah i think......
so nothing much to write now....time to go sleep as 2molo meeting customer in the morning.....good nite everyone...take good carez of urself and rememba to smile okayz bcuz u dunno who loves ur smile......so just smile or laugh or wateva.....
XOXOXOXO
that day one aunty come to the branch...was late. So she request to place a fixed deposits and of cuz we tell her no loh....and she speaks hokkien wif me....so i talk to her until she sits down and share her stuff wif me and careen
And ohya,so fast qing feng's daughter is 1 years old adi.....my god time past wei....last year we just went his daughter full moon party oni and we have some drinks.....im getting old liao...and we r discussing whether who will be the next one to run out and be the 2nd....and perhaps we may have more gathering as they suggested to do so...if include this group i really will have lesser time at home bah i think...hope my mommy can forgive me bah......
and last nite duntoi's birthday so we celebrate wif him and hang out till morning....reach home at 6 and my mom already wake up that time.....she maybe angry a lil bit bah...but im alwiz like that....hahahahaz,and then from 6 i sleep until 4 bah......still very tired now...cuz received alotz of call from people......but as long as he have a great birthday nite......i think its worth it lah...hahaz,and 2molo will be chai's birthday already....wish u happy birthday..........
And my niece is being super cute.....she is so lovely....she call me zouk zouk.....wonder izit she wanna go zouk or what...hahahaz,and she loves to chase after me...cuz i alwiz go out...but she is just as naughty as me when im small.....but everyone too loves her so no one beat her...she will be the queen and soon this will be worrying as she grow up adi no one can stop her,advise her or scold her cuz she will not layan them.thats what i can see.......but then again,as long as she is happy and grows up healthy,thats all we ask for bah i think......
so nothing much to write now....time to go sleep as 2molo meeting customer in the morning.....good nite everyone...take good carez of urself and rememba to smile okayz bcuz u dunno who loves ur smile......so just smile or laugh or wateva.....
XOXOXOXO
Sunday, March 21, 2010
running nose
hahaz,im alwiz wif sickness....im just so weak.....and maybe bcuz i neva take care of myself as well lah.....yeah padan muka....hahaz,long time neva come back to my lovely blog...how r u blog blog....r u better than me??
recentlly been working hard hard and hard....alotz of thingz i dunno and i have to learn...then senior advice me to be patient because i feel ffucking lost with where im standing now in this career...i am like cannot find myself....hate it very much....but then no choice if i can survive here i will be someone in 1-2 years time....i definitely will be....i have to be...
and 2day suppose i can sleep till noon...but one experience banker say wanna bring us to visit developer.....so i agree to follow him....say meet up at 9 and i reach at 9...call them all neva pick up so i know thingz are fucked up adi....and yeah they both sleep till cannot wake up....then i wait for 1 hour and 30 minutes if im not mistaken...then after having breakfast we find out that actually they dun have anything to do due to one of the senior is having some business in a developer office and so we feel bored....go home after that...but my precious sleeping time was spoiled........i feel so pain.....
and dunno what else to write.....update again soon lah now very blur...
everyday oso blur...hahaz
recentlly been working hard hard and hard....alotz of thingz i dunno and i have to learn...then senior advice me to be patient because i feel ffucking lost with where im standing now in this career...i am like cannot find myself....hate it very much....but then no choice if i can survive here i will be someone in 1-2 years time....i definitely will be....i have to be...
and 2day suppose i can sleep till noon...but one experience banker say wanna bring us to visit developer.....so i agree to follow him....say meet up at 9 and i reach at 9...call them all neva pick up so i know thingz are fucked up adi....and yeah they both sleep till cannot wake up....then i wait for 1 hour and 30 minutes if im not mistaken...then after having breakfast we find out that actually they dun have anything to do due to one of the senior is having some business in a developer office and so we feel bored....go home after that...but my precious sleeping time was spoiled........i feel so pain.....
and dunno what else to write.....update again soon lah now very blur...
everyday oso blur...hahaz
Sunday, March 14, 2010
workaholic mode
whuakakakaz,as u can see from the title,recently im working more hard than usual.everyday reaching home late.besides there is celebration for friend's birthday asd well lah of cuz.......this saturday and sunday working at developer sales gallery cuz they doing a launching.so stand there from 10-5 and of cuz can sit for while lah....but my leg still feel very de letih......hahahaz
On a row few days din rest good enough now my body is complaining.i can feel in a way,thursday went lunch wif birthday girls and found out that she's sick too.we bought her flowers and on friday we decide to catch up wif her at bangsar and we reach at about 9.then i go her work place wait for her....end up waited almost 2 hours i think and she did turn up.Then we hang out at Alexis for a while more and had a slice tiramisu cake..have a photo session. Then went to her place for a visit and then go home....end up i reaqch home at about 1 i think.so sleep at 3 bah if im not mistaken...then woke up at 8 to eat and rush to developer's launching on saturday. Then after finish work went dinner with another birthday girl. So we have a great time there as they look happy. Then went and watch Alice in wonderland at 11pm..anhd im so fucking exhausted that time so if u ask me whats the show about i can tell u where im blur.basically know the storyline but it did not stop me from fishing to be honest.hahahaz,then reach home at 2 again and straight away sleep...and 2day wake up 8 something again.work work work and manage to get some business rite and then finish at about 5:30 then rush to pj to catch a personal loan customer.he is late and i waited for him...then signed and then reach home at about 7.have my fried rice and then shower come out again for marketing but the one i have appoinment with is not here yet.so i have some time to blog now.....
Hell yeah cuz im not blogging for many days already babeh....and i will not blog so soon bcuz my schedule basically is just fully booked.even until the weekend.because Mid Valley property exhibition is coming again.this friday,saturday and sunday i guess...so im going there to visit all of them and try to get more business.yupe loh,and wednesday jason bro birthday.monday is our futsal day.then duntoi birthday is coming too....wahhhhhh,my life is just so fully booked.....i dunno when oni can rest leh....hopefully this march i got no chance liao..hahaz
And,im not sure what else to type cuz my brain abit blur blur now so thats all for 2day bah.yupe
Love u.cuz 2day is a valentine day oso.miss ya lotz......
-seng-
On a row few days din rest good enough now my body is complaining.i can feel in a way,thursday went lunch wif birthday girls and found out that she's sick too.we bought her flowers and on friday we decide to catch up wif her at bangsar and we reach at about 9.then i go her work place wait for her....end up waited almost 2 hours i think and she did turn up.Then we hang out at Alexis for a while more and had a slice tiramisu cake..have a photo session. Then went to her place for a visit and then go home....end up i reaqch home at about 1 i think.so sleep at 3 bah if im not mistaken...then woke up at 8 to eat and rush to developer's launching on saturday. Then after finish work went dinner with another birthday girl. So we have a great time there as they look happy. Then went and watch Alice in wonderland at 11pm..anhd im so fucking exhausted that time so if u ask me whats the show about i can tell u where im blur.basically know the storyline but it did not stop me from fishing to be honest.hahahaz,then reach home at 2 again and straight away sleep...and 2day wake up 8 something again.work work work and manage to get some business rite and then finish at about 5:30 then rush to pj to catch a personal loan customer.he is late and i waited for him...then signed and then reach home at about 7.have my fried rice and then shower come out again for marketing but the one i have appoinment with is not here yet.so i have some time to blog now.....
Hell yeah cuz im not blogging for many days already babeh....and i will not blog so soon bcuz my schedule basically is just fully booked.even until the weekend.because Mid Valley property exhibition is coming again.this friday,saturday and sunday i guess...so im going there to visit all of them and try to get more business.yupe loh,and wednesday jason bro birthday.monday is our futsal day.then duntoi birthday is coming too....wahhhhhh,my life is just so fully booked.....i dunno when oni can rest leh....hopefully this march i got no chance liao..hahaz
And,im not sure what else to type cuz my brain abit blur blur now so thats all for 2day bah.yupe
Love u.cuz 2day is a valentine day oso.miss ya lotz......
-seng-
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sexy voice
whuakakaz,asu can see from the title,seng's voice has evolve to where my voice is more sexy than that 啊杜from singapore....hahahaz,actually is i ownself cari problem de.....bcuz the first day i take medication is on tuesday.....it did turns a bit better...then wednesday went site visit...so went to lunch but boss interested in eating indian food.....so great i have nasi goreng kampong wif ayam and still i take medicine...but its not a good thingz bcuz doctor advise no spicy food no fried...i have both...then on thursday i think din really dare to eat anything damaging my throat but did drink nescafe ice...hahaz
Then at nite dinner wif college mate...so we did order food and then drink chinese tea....end up couldn't sleep rite so i know its not good for my body...then on friday went and visit a developer he spend us lunch...so have spicy food again plus not enough sleep ...already very scary and i sumore go have steamboat at nite....my god....then my throat turn to be itchy on saturday but yupe i went and have nasi lemak that day...hahaz,wif a fried chicken and then i go and smoke + drinnk beer and sleep very late then sunday wake up ealry....stupid enough to cuz my throat totaly sexy on sunday then got appoinment.morning is breakfast wif customer eat dim sum...wow,scared my throat and then afternoon went boss house for house warming...oso ate some spicy food as there are oni that they offered.whualau then after that, go watch movie wif college gang and worse part of all they went to eat at "chilis"....so i go all out and have some fried spicy food and today my throat 100% gone...hahahaz,so 2day is monday everything i eat is soup....have to do it for coming few days to get back my voice.......hahahaz
life is boring leh......
Then at nite dinner wif college mate...so we did order food and then drink chinese tea....end up couldn't sleep rite so i know its not good for my body...then on friday went and visit a developer he spend us lunch...so have spicy food again plus not enough sleep ...already very scary and i sumore go have steamboat at nite....my god....then my throat turn to be itchy on saturday but yupe i went and have nasi lemak that day...hahaz,wif a fried chicken and then i go and smoke + drinnk beer and sleep very late then sunday wake up ealry....stupid enough to cuz my throat totaly sexy on sunday then got appoinment.morning is breakfast wif customer eat dim sum...wow,scared my throat and then afternoon went boss house for house warming...oso ate some spicy food as there are oni that they offered.whualau then after that, go watch movie wif college gang and worse part of all they went to eat at "chilis"....so i go all out and have some fried spicy food and today my throat 100% gone...hahahaz,so 2day is monday everything i eat is soup....have to do it for coming few days to get back my voice.......hahahaz
life is boring leh......
Saturday, March 6, 2010
bye bye!!
im saying bye bye to my throat....cuz yeah u have been so sick....r u leaving me or what??spit got blood few days back...now totaly got no voice...my god apa lu mau.....y wanna torture me like that...but by the way im having enough sleep mah just that 2day dun have oni...and food that i eat sometimes its not suitable although doctor ask me oni eat soup type of food.
been so busy wei and the exam in KL is so stupid.say is a computer system exam and end up reach there need to used pencil and answer...and the worse part i thought is computer type so neva bring pencil end up borrow with the person in charge there.....and no study guide...hopefully i dun failed or else i will be very shamed of myself already.....
and 2day consume alotz of alcohol and ciggaretes....its time to control a lil bit for my throat before it turn worse.......like really worse.......now im already having my sexy voice already....scared people away......alotz of thingz i wanna write but at this point can't type much......let me think think and see..by the way smoke until now feel hard to breathe..hahaz,a bit over 2day.....promise to be good kz eng seng....if not ur throat will be gone for good......okay okay....
-seng- in crazee mode.
been so busy wei and the exam in KL is so stupid.say is a computer system exam and end up reach there need to used pencil and answer...and the worse part i thought is computer type so neva bring pencil end up borrow with the person in charge there.....and no study guide...hopefully i dun failed or else i will be very shamed of myself already.....
and 2day consume alotz of alcohol and ciggaretes....its time to control a lil bit for my throat before it turn worse.......like really worse.......now im already having my sexy voice already....scared people away......alotz of thingz i wanna write but at this point can't type much......let me think think and see..by the way smoke until now feel hard to breathe..hahaz,a bit over 2day.....promise to be good kz eng seng....if not ur throat will be gone for good......okay okay....
-seng- in crazee mode.
Friday, March 5, 2010
okayz
my throat is not yet okay....still like that,and last nite dunno why i can't sleep.wonder izit i drink too much of caffeine and chinese tea or what im not too sure but i roll roll till early in the morning.fuck myself..hahahahaz,and then 2day regional manager came and give speech.of cuz im not performing she knows my figure very well.so she shoot me left right.but she already being very polite.and she force us to commit sales figure to her.
then went to site visit 2day.oh god this place is fucking nice wei.if i can get to buy 1 lot i will be like flying up and down wei....but is about 1 mil per unit bah...hahahaz,minimum ohhhh...but the whole concept is fantastic wei......i wan it i wan it so bad.......but the place is quite far actually....to be considered again.......
and 1 more thingz more stupidz,im suppose to have a exam 2molo afternoon in KL,my exam is at part B...then i just realise when im on leave during 20/1/10 to 26/1/10 my boss print that study guide for me rite....is part A and part C....and i read till half way now oni i realise is not what im going for exam 2molo.....and more funny is 1 more exam that they wan me to go i already pass 1 year ago.....my boss really playing a fool wif me babeh....hahaz
my mood is im confident even though the fucking guide is not wif me but im still gonna pass the exam and score......by the way my company cannot provide the study guide wei...im a lil bit surprise....how come ah???weird
chasing star
-seng-
then went to site visit 2day.oh god this place is fucking nice wei.if i can get to buy 1 lot i will be like flying up and down wei....but is about 1 mil per unit bah...hahahaz,minimum ohhhh...but the whole concept is fantastic wei......i wan it i wan it so bad.......but the place is quite far actually....to be considered again.......
and 1 more thingz more stupidz,im suppose to have a exam 2molo afternoon in KL,my exam is at part B...then i just realise when im on leave during 20/1/10 to 26/1/10 my boss print that study guide for me rite....is part A and part C....and i read till half way now oni i realise is not what im going for exam 2molo.....and more funny is 1 more exam that they wan me to go i already pass 1 year ago.....my boss really playing a fool wif me babeh....hahaz
my mood is im confident even though the fucking guide is not wif me but im still gonna pass the exam and score......by the way my company cannot provide the study guide wei...im a lil bit surprise....how come ah???weird
chasing star
-seng-
Thursday, March 4, 2010
calm
yeap as u can see im more calm than before loh.listen to music does help.and my health is better oso anyway.life is difficult but we r the one that living our life but not life live us..hahahahaz,dunno what im saying but i just wanna pass day by day peacefully and as long as people around me are happy then thats it.nothing much i wanna know.
rush for figure time.dun think much.money money come 2 me.eng seng loves u.just now see younger bro watching 海派甜心。it gives me really sweet feelings and some similarity as well.everything its just so cute.hahahaz,i swear will take out some of my personal time to watch the whole drama.
anyway continuosly till sunday will have dinner dinner and dinner outside.saturday sumore exam wor for my stupid insurance license.wasting time.hope i dun failed lah if not must pay sumore.hahahahaz,life is neva bitter as long as u r living.yupe.....
step over the obstacle and be the winner.chasing dream.
-seng-
rush for figure time.dun think much.money money come 2 me.eng seng loves u.just now see younger bro watching 海派甜心。it gives me really sweet feelings and some similarity as well.everything its just so cute.hahahaz,i swear will take out some of my personal time to watch the whole drama.
anyway continuosly till sunday will have dinner dinner and dinner outside.saturday sumore exam wor for my stupid insurance license.wasting time.hope i dun failed lah if not must pay sumore.hahahahaz,life is neva bitter as long as u r living.yupe.....
step over the obstacle and be the winner.chasing dream.
-seng-
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
lol,so sick
2day wake up same thing happen,spit and u see blood.wow,wonder how long sumore will see this blood early morning.okay anyway its not feeling well.but not very sick.its just something wrong somewhere.lol,let the wind blow me and then fly fly just like the kite.
i have to build back my confident in what im doing.i need to be success.i cannot failed.i dun wana be a loser anymore.i need to do it.yupe,so work harder bah 2molo.just work us ass out and achieve something.hug hug myself.hahahaz,and drink nescafe ice bah.i will fight wif u until the end my dear god.i know u r giving me alotz of challenge.im gonna solve everything that u trying to destroy my confidents,my principle and my moto of living. i will achieve my dreamz.
dunno what else to write,boring...update again 2molo bah.
-seng-
i have to build back my confident in what im doing.i need to be success.i cannot failed.i dun wana be a loser anymore.i need to do it.yupe,so work harder bah 2molo.just work us ass out and achieve something.hug hug myself.hahahaz,and drink nescafe ice bah.i will fight wif u until the end my dear god.i know u r giving me alotz of challenge.im gonna solve everything that u trying to destroy my confidents,my principle and my moto of living. i will achieve my dreamz.
dunno what else to write,boring...update again 2molo bah.
-seng-
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
祝我生日快乐《农历的》
今天一早醒来，喉咙痛的很历害。然后吐出来的痰是有血的！！病重了。哈哈，然后就吃妈妈煮的面线。然后就上班去被中骂。骂的很惨很惨。然后才去看医生。不舒服到，然后午餐吃炸面线咯。过后吃药了就非常的眼睡。很想很想睡。
大概是酱咯。也没什么特别想说的话。迟点再写吧！
-申-
大概是酱咯。也没什么特别想说的话。迟点再写吧！
-申-
Sunday, February 28, 2010
just reach home.
awww,i feel so tired after so many days lack of sleep.im really exhausted.start from 2day onwards we got to be hardworking babeh.i need to achieve my goals by end year.actually mood is just so so.alotz of thing i wanna write but maybe too long neva sleep now brain is not really working so yupe.i canot structure things out properly.add on some extra soon.
mood is calm and only calm.nothing else.
-seng-
mood is calm and only calm.nothing else.
-seng-
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Happy Birthday Seng
okay,2day i am having my 24th big day.hehez.i din celebrate it anywhere but hide at home.bcuz no mood for cakes,din wana go club,neva go drinking.so what i do is i enjoy my peaceful and quiet birthday.receving sms and comment in facebook by friend all.and that already make me feel so good.
and i need to thank everyone that wishes me.u guys make me feel so sweet and so warm.well supposing got alotz i wanna write but now brain is not functioning that well.im confuse.ohya in 5 hours time im going up to penang already.trip with my primary school mate.so i guess im not sleeping bah 2nite.see how it goes bah.
24th this year.needs to plan well.goal no 1.make alotz of money to cover family.goal no.2 is get a passport and travel to at least 1 inside malaysia 1 outside malaysia.goal no 3 is to meet for the 3rd time.and i wish everyone around me of cuz included my family to be healthy and happy alwiz.no matter what happens everyone still will be able to go on.happily.with a smile on the face.
we need to be as positive as we could.dunno what to write sumore.maybe conclude everything again soon.
mood-sweet in the heart.
-seng-
and i need to thank everyone that wishes me.u guys make me feel so sweet and so warm.well supposing got alotz i wanna write but now brain is not functioning that well.im confuse.ohya in 5 hours time im going up to penang already.trip with my primary school mate.so i guess im not sleeping bah 2nite.see how it goes bah.
24th this year.needs to plan well.goal no 1.make alotz of money to cover family.goal no.2 is get a passport and travel to at least 1 inside malaysia 1 outside malaysia.goal no 3 is to meet for the 3rd time.and i wish everyone around me of cuz included my family to be healthy and happy alwiz.no matter what happens everyone still will be able to go on.happily.with a smile on the face.
we need to be as positive as we could.dunno what to write sumore.maybe conclude everything again soon.
mood-sweet in the heart.
-seng-
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
30 minutes more.
2day is my younger brother birthday.i was too tired before so sharp at 12a.m. his friend came into the room to celebrate for him.and they try say hi wif me but im too tired so i cover my face wif blanket bcuz im really exhausted.travelling is killing me. actually up till 2day im still exhausted bcuz 2day went working.really not feeling so cool.mood is not so okay.
Anyway, another 30 minutes more than will be my birthday,actually quite alotz of people asking me out for movie and stuff.But i really dun have the mood.im sorry.but this year i dun wana have any cakes nor any celebration. And then i have been keep on hiding myself.hide inside my house.lol,im not doing it on purpose.im just trying to keep myself calm.bcuz stay alone can keep myself peaceful.
i really dunno wat else to update.let me think think and see.
well basically nothing.prepare for a great day stupid stupid me.a most normal and not noticeable birthday is reaching.
-seng-
Anyway, another 30 minutes more than will be my birthday,actually quite alotz of people asking me out for movie and stuff.But i really dun have the mood.im sorry.but this year i dun wana have any cakes nor any celebration. And then i have been keep on hiding myself.hide inside my house.lol,im not doing it on purpose.im just trying to keep myself calm.bcuz stay alone can keep myself peaceful.
i really dunno wat else to update.let me think think and see.
well basically nothing.prepare for a great day stupid stupid me.a most normal and not noticeable birthday is reaching.
-seng-
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Dream
According to some people.we have to be realistic,dun dream.But somehow i just couldn't stop myself from dreaming.maybe we need to be realistic,but i still dream because i think it does makes me smile.pieces love dreaming anyway.
then,2day went to my primary school class teacher house for CNY visiting. Teacher house is big and nice cuz just renovated. Then all of us lunch 2gether and gamble a while.of cuz im the loser alwiz lose money.But we did spend time til maybe 4 something. Actually was winning,then received a call from elder bro and knew that he is suffering so lose the mood and keep losing since then.
But luckily,im a bit more calm than before.everything that happens is like just normal to me.last nite saw the drama final episode.the chef say in life, spicy,sour,salty,bitter and in the end oni u can feel sweet.bcuz if without all those u wouldn't appreciate what u have.so no matter what happen.i still think i shall just remain calm.not over joy or over sad.just treat it like its nothing.
close your eyes,and calm down.
update again soon.
-seng-
then,2day went to my primary school class teacher house for CNY visiting. Teacher house is big and nice cuz just renovated. Then all of us lunch 2gether and gamble a while.of cuz im the loser alwiz lose money.But we did spend time til maybe 4 something. Actually was winning,then received a call from elder bro and knew that he is suffering so lose the mood and keep losing since then.
But luckily,im a bit more calm than before.everything that happens is like just normal to me.last nite saw the drama final episode.the chef say in life, spicy,sour,salty,bitter and in the end oni u can feel sweet.bcuz if without all those u wouldn't appreciate what u have.so no matter what happen.i still think i shall just remain calm.not over joy or over sad.just treat it like its nothing.
close your eyes,and calm down.
update again soon.
-seng-
Friday, February 19, 2010
20/2/2010
4 more days to younger bro birthday and 5 more days is mine birthday.1st wish i get is on 26/1/2010.is a super early wish.and then 2nd wish came from WWF.is actually a birthday card that they send with my name on top. when i received this card i feel surprise.i think its sweet?yeah,my emotional finally become a bit calm.bcuz when received this card i remember why i did support them.cuz i think the animal needs help.maybe our contribution may not be alot.but as long as we did help.is the heart that matters.
And i start thinking,as long as im healthy and im not dead.thats all good already.i couldn't ask for more.so now im a bit more calm and less stress.dunno what else to update.but didn't wanna celebrate my birthday cuz not in the mood.
update soon.
-seng-
And i start thinking,as long as im healthy and im not dead.thats all good already.i couldn't ask for more.so now im a bit more calm and less stress.dunno what else to update.but didn't wanna celebrate my birthday cuz not in the mood.
update soon.
-seng-
alive
yeah,im not dead,nothing much to update.life is still like that.seeking solution.problem that can be solve is neva a problem.Problem that i can't solve,just fuck it cuz anyway it wouldn't be able to be solve.so just take it.
try to be calm again.will try alotz harder these few days.i do my best.
try to be calm again.will try alotz harder these few days.i do my best.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
not happy
yeah 2day is the chinese new year eve.Everyone is having dinner 2gether with their family.me too did the same thing.all right i start to feel not all right bcuz i din wana write anything in my blog maybe.new year new resolution rite.okay,change myself.change into someone even i cannot recognised.and hide the real me inside.
basically din do anything.just having alotz of thought and alotz of thoughts.thats all only.but wat type of thoughtz.im not gonna tell.i think thats all,not gonna write anything anymore.just update my daily happening.
Haihz,ang eng seng,ang eng seng.
-seng-
basically din do anything.just having alotz of thought and alotz of thoughts.thats all only.but wat type of thoughtz.im not gonna tell.i think thats all,not gonna write anything anymore.just update my daily happening.
Haihz,ang eng seng,ang eng seng.
-seng-
Friday, February 12, 2010
我不懂！！！
新年要到了，我不想写一些不吉利或不好听的东西。所以这篇会比较短。因为心情更差，一点好转都没有。只能说事事都不顺。以前是喝酒多，现在却是抽烟多。
不管了，不能再写，不然会破坏气氛。大家都那么的开心。就祝福大家新的一年都幸福快乐吧！
-申-
不管了，不能再写，不然会破坏气氛。大家都那么的开心。就祝福大家新的一年都幸福快乐吧！
-申-
Thursday, February 11, 2010
i give myself up
2day woke up.not too sad not too happy.it just a normal day for me.just hope to pass these day smoothly.but,stupid pc can't start even for few hours.already iritated. Then, got call by lawyer saying that customer complain bcuz some charges she needs to pay.okay, then just second later customer called me.she fuck me upside down.she claim that its my fault and stuff like that.bcuz of RM400.and come on she's taking a 500,000 loan.and she has the ability to but a few property. she scolded me and demand for some comfirmation by me before end day.was frustrated already. Then seek help from boss,she has been MIA almost for the whole day.
So verbally she ask me to email to mortgage center people.and there people twist and turn stuff,everybody also put the blame on me while the file is already long gone from branch.its not at our place anymore.so lawyer is frustrated,boss is not helping,other departments are not even helping.so every one make me so pissed off and im like come on i got other thingz to do why the fuck u guys keep on bothering me. I was like come on is oni 400,this amount of money make me get all those bull shit and stuff.
Then one of my big case got rejected as well.then one of the senior which alwiz create problem 2day create another problem that get me involves as well. when other branch people asking for help,if they asked me i straight away say okay.ask the most senior one oso she will be fine.but she ask this lady.so this senior is like fucking iritating keep on giving fucking excuse and trying to dun do it for them.so the other branch people got pissed and ask me for help.so i say okay straight away. then my eldest senior is not happy and tell boss about this.and then everyone come and ask me about what had happen and shits like that.im like come on leave me alone. My senior that helps me cuz she dun like alwiz me doing all these rubbish and end up boss will accuse me for not giving her figure.so she alwiz help me.
But 2day when all this happen,i really give myself up.i start thinking whether is my future here anot.i give me.i feel that im useless.i dunno about everything that is happening.im just a nobody,a failure which can't contribute anything.im very stress and not happy.i hate being like that.and i din wana tell anyone bcuz i dun wan anyone to worry.besides they might not be interested wif what had happen to me oso. I dun wana anyone to pity me.i decided to keep everything inside my heart.feeling very bad.bitter maybe.as a person to be so useless,i really dunno wat i wan.im lost and stuff.i used to be a confident guy,but now im just a demoralised asshole which is blocking other people's way.i am 100% sure im leaving this bank.where is my next station i really dunno.maybe other bank or maybe other industry.hate everything that happen.feel that im not that strong i thought i were.i trying very hard to survive but survival game is making me more and more tired and demotivated.
actually there is more thingz but din wanna say all.already very not happy.really dun have the mood.what CNY,valentine and birthday.i feel is so extra now.i just hope i can be ignore and quietly pass all these day.cuz i really wanna calm down myself.i have lost my patient.
-seng- dead 11/02/2010
So verbally she ask me to email to mortgage center people.and there people twist and turn stuff,everybody also put the blame on me while the file is already long gone from branch.its not at our place anymore.so lawyer is frustrated,boss is not helping,other departments are not even helping.so every one make me so pissed off and im like come on i got other thingz to do why the fuck u guys keep on bothering me. I was like come on is oni 400,this amount of money make me get all those bull shit and stuff.
Then one of my big case got rejected as well.then one of the senior which alwiz create problem 2day create another problem that get me involves as well. when other branch people asking for help,if they asked me i straight away say okay.ask the most senior one oso she will be fine.but she ask this lady.so this senior is like fucking iritating keep on giving fucking excuse and trying to dun do it for them.so the other branch people got pissed and ask me for help.so i say okay straight away. then my eldest senior is not happy and tell boss about this.and then everyone come and ask me about what had happen and shits like that.im like come on leave me alone. My senior that helps me cuz she dun like alwiz me doing all these rubbish and end up boss will accuse me for not giving her figure.so she alwiz help me.
But 2day when all this happen,i really give myself up.i start thinking whether is my future here anot.i give me.i feel that im useless.i dunno about everything that is happening.im just a nobody,a failure which can't contribute anything.im very stress and not happy.i hate being like that.and i din wana tell anyone bcuz i dun wan anyone to worry.besides they might not be interested wif what had happen to me oso. I dun wana anyone to pity me.i decided to keep everything inside my heart.feeling very bad.bitter maybe.as a person to be so useless,i really dunno wat i wan.im lost and stuff.i used to be a confident guy,but now im just a demoralised asshole which is blocking other people's way.i am 100% sure im leaving this bank.where is my next station i really dunno.maybe other bank or maybe other industry.hate everything that happen.feel that im not that strong i thought i were.i trying very hard to survive but survival game is making me more and more tired and demotivated.
actually there is more thingz but din wanna say all.already very not happy.really dun have the mood.what CNY,valentine and birthday.i feel is so extra now.i just hope i can be ignore and quietly pass all these day.cuz i really wanna calm down myself.i have lost my patient.
-seng- dead 11/02/2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
thoughtz
alotz of thoughtz and fucking tired.alotz of thing pops into my mind.and from feel like blogging until 2day i got no mood until blog oso im not in the mood.recently alotz of thingz has happen to me and so make me not calm at all.emotion like going on a roller coaster riding up and down.i oso dunno wats wrong wif me.
okay,chinese new year coming,valentine coming,birthday also coming,im pretending to be excited and happy.but i am in fact.not in the mood to celebrate anything.just feel like hide myself at one corner there to pass through all these days oni.well,i dunno wat is wrong wif me.anyway im still acting normal.acting is not easy.2day i feel more tired than usually.smoke more often recently.i know its neva a good thing but i just couldn't help it.hahaz,anyway i am who i am mah,i dun care adi bout stuff like that.
well,its been a while din go for beer drinking session.din wanna go bcuz i know the next time i go,definitely i will drink alotz,and perhaps the next morning will feel damm bad.hardcore alcoholic consumer.why am i like that ah?hopefully my emotion can be peaceful again.calm most important.i can neva be until 2day.
c i dunno wat im writing again 2day.im so lost.im like a no soul zombie these days.and alwiz send sms wif lyrics inside.i oso dunno why i do this.i really have no idea anyway.but i just did.come on.ang eng seng.ang eng seng.u ah...........
update again.2day really not okay.
-seng-
okay,chinese new year coming,valentine coming,birthday also coming,im pretending to be excited and happy.but i am in fact.not in the mood to celebrate anything.just feel like hide myself at one corner there to pass through all these days oni.well,i dunno wat is wrong wif me.anyway im still acting normal.acting is not easy.2day i feel more tired than usually.smoke more often recently.i know its neva a good thing but i just couldn't help it.hahaz,anyway i am who i am mah,i dun care adi bout stuff like that.
well,its been a while din go for beer drinking session.din wanna go bcuz i know the next time i go,definitely i will drink alotz,and perhaps the next morning will feel damm bad.hardcore alcoholic consumer.why am i like that ah?hopefully my emotion can be peaceful again.calm most important.i can neva be until 2day.
c i dunno wat im writing again 2day.im so lost.im like a no soul zombie these days.and alwiz send sms wif lyrics inside.i oso dunno why i do this.i really have no idea anyway.but i just did.come on.ang eng seng.ang eng seng.u ah...........
update again.2day really not okay.
-seng-
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
今天想写华语。。。
好了，要新年了，如果你不喜欢看到悲悲的东西就不要再看下去咯。今天也有很多东西想写。其实这几天已经写了很多东西了，可是都乱七八糟的。因为我根本都不能把我的心情平伏下来好好的写。现在，我偿试用一个平静的心来慢慢写。
今天的我很颓废加自曝自弃，我就很像没有目的地工作。可是很好笑，当你心情很坏的时候就是最不想工作的时候。当然你的脸也很讨人厌。可是我刚刚相反，当我今天心情掉进谷底的时候我有一个客人的汽车贷款批准了，另一个来申请汽车贷款。还有一个背景不错的客人终于都有时间帮我了，她申请私人贷款。还被顾客赞。陪笑，可是我那时超不开心的。所以我这个人还真的很假叻。
那天，在网上看到一个短片。那个短片说，在这个世界上的感情，你会遇到三个不同的人。第一个是他很爱你的人，但是这个人不会和你长久，因为他太爱你了所以你不会爱他。然后，你会遇到第二个人，这个人是一个你很爱的人，可是这个人通常都不会跟你长久，原因是一样的，就是你太爱他了所以他不会爱你。过后，终于到了第三个人，这个人不是你的最爱，他最爱也不是你，但是因为两个人能互相了解然后在一起到很久很久。 看了这个短片之后想了更多，但是并不代表任同。而是觉得，如果要在一起就和最爱的那个人，如果不能够和他在一起那不如一个人。不过每个人的想法都不一样。可能我比较另类吧。
然后，最近的我在逃避。我在逃避与人接触。逃避与家人的接触，逃避和朋友的接触，逃避和同事的接触，逃避与所有人接触，就连上网都没给人看到。已经不知到是几时开始变成这样可是真的真的变成了这样。忽然想起。你也曾说过你也有酱的一段时间。我终于了解到你那时的感受咯。真的很奇怪。
还有很多东西想写，可是我现在不懂怎么写下去了。心情完全不能够平伏下来。算了。明天再继续吧。
心里的天气-超级的十号台风《狂风爆雨》
明天见！！！！！！！！
还是想追星。
-申-
今天的我很颓废加自曝自弃，我就很像没有目的地工作。可是很好笑，当你心情很坏的时候就是最不想工作的时候。当然你的脸也很讨人厌。可是我刚刚相反，当我今天心情掉进谷底的时候我有一个客人的汽车贷款批准了，另一个来申请汽车贷款。还有一个背景不错的客人终于都有时间帮我了，她申请私人贷款。还被顾客赞。陪笑，可是我那时超不开心的。所以我这个人还真的很假叻。
那天，在网上看到一个短片。那个短片说，在这个世界上的感情，你会遇到三个不同的人。第一个是他很爱你的人，但是这个人不会和你长久，因为他太爱你了所以你不会爱他。然后，你会遇到第二个人，这个人是一个你很爱的人，可是这个人通常都不会跟你长久，原因是一样的，就是你太爱他了所以他不会爱你。过后，终于到了第三个人，这个人不是你的最爱，他最爱也不是你，但是因为两个人能互相了解然后在一起到很久很久。 看了这个短片之后想了更多，但是并不代表任同。而是觉得，如果要在一起就和最爱的那个人，如果不能够和他在一起那不如一个人。不过每个人的想法都不一样。可能我比较另类吧。
然后，最近的我在逃避。我在逃避与人接触。逃避与家人的接触，逃避和朋友的接触，逃避和同事的接触，逃避与所有人接触，就连上网都没给人看到。已经不知到是几时开始变成这样可是真的真的变成了这样。忽然想起。你也曾说过你也有酱的一段时间。我终于了解到你那时的感受咯。真的很奇怪。
还有很多东西想写，可是我现在不懂怎么写下去了。心情完全不能够平伏下来。算了。明天再继续吧。
心里的天气-超级的十号台风《狂风爆雨》
明天见！！！！！！！！
还是想追星。
-申-
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
all mixed up?
argh,im so so mixed up.blur blur X10........................................ Its a new year, And alotz of thing has just suddenly hit me. Lets start with work bah, actually it reach the time for my work comfirmation already but then my boss didn'y wanna comfirm me because she thinks that im not fit to be comfirm,example like 70 is the score to be comfirm she can even give me just 67 and ask me to sign on the probation extention.i was like what the fuck u r thinking? She can even tell me that u r helping enough but sales still we look at figure u know.And the thing is KRA of mine is achieve almost everymonth up till now.Seriously after that day im super upset. And then i have started to do alotz of planning for my career advancement because of my cheap salary they gave me. I dun think there will be opportunities under this person. Besides not enough support we get.how can we be competitive enough.
Anyway,there is already offer coming in and all i need to do is to wait. I believe there will surely be a place which i can go and have a more comfortable earnings. Just that choosing is a bit difficult as well.
And im very happy having a dream come true. I really din expect that to happen. Alotz of thingz i wanna say but i can't say because i wanna keep it just between us oni. So mixed up now my brain. Is not functioning huh......
dunno how 2 continue with my blog nowadays. but as i said i will update u my weekly happening just incase u didn't have time to catch up wif me again. xoxo.love u oh. missing u like mad. Really appreciate thingz u have done for me. Take good carez of urself.
26/1/10
seng
Anyway,there is already offer coming in and all i need to do is to wait. I believe there will surely be a place which i can go and have a more comfortable earnings. Just that choosing is a bit difficult as well.
And im very happy having a dream come true. I really din expect that to happen. Alotz of thingz i wanna say but i can't say because i wanna keep it just between us oni. So mixed up now my brain. Is not functioning huh......
dunno how 2 continue with my blog nowadays. but as i said i will update u my weekly happening just incase u didn't have time to catch up wif me again. xoxo.love u oh. missing u like mad. Really appreciate thingz u have done for me. Take good carez of urself.
26/1/10
seng
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