Freaking Exhausted.

Didn't have enough sleep. Reason being is last nite Ning Tze Birthday ah. So we celebrate for her. But its a very last minute one so nobody prepare things and all rush there when we received call at 6pm. What a boss. Organise until so lousy. Recently is busy about chasing the cases execution for money money. And chase LI so Lawyer can prepare Loan Agreement and let customer sign as soon as they can. And still cannot find any potential manager to come and look after my branch so my old boss is staying for a while until we get the new boss. Figure as usual.

Then, last nite hang out until reach home already 3 something. So freaking tired and then have to take out lens sumore and i realize that i wore that thing for more than 12 hours and its almost 24 hours. Then 2day when i open the casing and i saw one of the lens broken. Really think myself can break records ah. Nevamind, then with this lack of sleep i almost can't wake up 2day. Fell so uncomfortable at work. i got the feeling that i may fall anytime as i am too fucking tired. Then boss sumore ask me out together to check out stuff. beautiful property. Setia Eco-park. Went to Customer new house. It's seriously a damm awesome geh bungalow loh. It's like every floor also come with a garden. The highest floor (3) sumore can have a pond eh. If 1 day i got 5 million i definitely will buy a unit in there. It's like a dream house with fantastic view. Just that if it's mine perhaps i will have more furniture and not all wood. And check out a lot of development in that vicinity and it's damm awesome place to stay. All the green green make people feel comfortable. i think it's very healthy also for our health.

Then, Branch also got a lot of happening recently ah. Mira already ask to resign already. This is her third attempt so everyone understand that it can never turn back anymore. She has made her decision. My boss say let her go and we take it as a challenge and i agree because maybe the branch needs a change. Maybe we need different people to run the branch. Hopefully it can lighten our works. Gambateh people when alotz of them is trying to run away from USJ branch.

Seriously very tired and dunno what to write. Maybe one thing bah. i miss u so much. hahaz.Hope u r doing okay bah.

-seng-

清明节

我见了你今年的最后一次，我很开心但是我也很无奈。因为这一次我真的感觉到我们的陌生不是在普通的地步。虽然很辛苦但是我还是觉得我们当回朋友是蛮不错的。因为我很清楚你已经没有那种感觉了。希望你和他能够有进展吧。我的幻想是时候要结束了，虽然我不能够放下，但是公主还是应该配王子吧。而我也应该尽量去实现我的梦想，我要把脚印在世界的每一个角落。我会更充实自己的。但是我有可能太过喜欢活在过去吧，虽然这样很不好，但是我不管了，只要我开心就好。这样也不错啦，可以有更多时间与家人朋友相处。再玩玩啦。

然后，回来主题，今天很早就爬起来因为要赶回去扫墓。可是那个地方真的是恐怖的多人。结果就勉强的把车停在一个很远很远的空位。然后就到婆婆的“家”。不知不觉中，婆婆已经离开我们十一年了。真的很想念他，我的福建话也比以前好很多啦。我很怀念婆婆的kopi-O, 也很怀念婆婆的关怀。我还记得婆婆临走的那一年，他的病已经到了最后，没办法好了。但是她在住院的时候也记得我的生日，她还和妈妈说：记得住红鸡蛋还有面线给ah boy吃啊。 我每次想到这个都很感动。啊，写着写着我也想哭了。不过，珍惜眼前人更重要。

然后，就和清和哥哥，嫂嫂，心蕊姐姐，三伯，三伯娘，大伯，妈妈，豆腐 还有我就去吃Bah Kut Teh.真的是很丰富的一餐啊。吃的超饱的，然后回阿公的家。普通的聊了一些。公公也老了，而且他脾气也不好，令很多人不喜欢与他相处。没办法，人老了都是酱的吧。然后，他们都塞了很多东西给我们。没多久我们就回来了，因为爸爸的脚很痛。回来了就带他去看医生。医生说啊，应该是肌肉撕裂？大概是酱。回来过后就很不耐了。躺在床上睡了一个下午。很满足呢。

我啊，我会不会随便找个人来谈恋爱呢？会不会寻找替代品呢？时间会证明一切啊。看看就知道了。我这个人太过顽固了。没办法，天生是酱。

不知道要些什么了，暂时先这样吧。
- 申-

Mooooody.

2day is really a fucking moody day. Its the accumulation of what recently happen has cause my patience limit goes down to a very low level until i already cannot stand it anymore. I am very very moody or u shall say angry with the face one kind. It maybe due to lack of rest but in other way, Its because of everything that got into my way and everything i want it to be my way goes another way. Everything just goes against me no matter how hard i try no matter how many times i try.

I'm not trying to be negative but i think im just having too much of negative in my body and i definitely cannot cope. I have to absorb all this negative because of the money it brings to me. Life is like that and nobody can escape. So same goes to me. But things got worse when u know u do not get the support u needed from ur superior or anyone else. everybody is just pushing things around. So in the end, everything's goes back to me. Is all my fault again.

Then, some people just couldn't think for u,they only think about themselves. Whatever they want, they will just do it and asking u to tolerate with them. Even though it may cause trouble to others for your convenience. I really wonder why. How can u people be so selfish. Is this the way u show ur appreciation to someone that care about u. I got really pissed 2day and shown not happy face to my mommy and toufu. I didn't mean it but i just couldn't adjust my mood anyway. I dun feel like acting in front of u guys. i wanna neutralise my feelings and start a brand new day 2molo. i know i can do it but the process its making me mad.

Fuck it............

A bUsy SunDaY.

last nite sleep quite late at roughly 2 or 3 in the morning. Then 2day thought of having a long sleep to recharge myself.manatau at 9:30 one of my customer already give me a call...i am like nooooooooooooooooo,i am so sleepy here. Then i call back and he didn't pick up,so i suppose its his grandchildren use his phone and just simply press call and so happen my surname is ang, so i am the one they alwiz "accidentally" call. this is not good.

Nevamind wake up adi then go read newspaper and have my breakfast. Suddenly think of the courier service is only half day 2day. So i online and saw u on, so i ask about the address so i can send the stuff to u. unfortunately when i got your address and have reach there in time. But the shop is not open. Then go to another one in another place also closed. then i kinda like give up liao lah. Just go to empire shopping mall and see if there is any Giant Rainbow Pocky. Who knows there is actually a courier service oh....Lucky me. Then i went there and ask them about the price and everything. Terms and condition agreed. So ah i bring the things and we start to package the item. And i notice one of the staff sitting there is new. i suppose 2day its his first day. Because i can see the more senior one is trying to explain thingz 1 by 1 to him. And all the steps. but have to admit one thing where the wrapping is not nice because he is super duper new.i wanted to do it myself but they are just too kind. So item sent. Shall reach by wednesday oh.

Then ah, went to pyramid because i have not buy present for ah sa. Others already share a present liao. So nevemind, i walk around and try to find but gosh. Its damm difficult to even look for a nice one. Or should i say a suitable one. i wondering the pyramid floor by floor to look for 1 present. stuck half way and suddenly, saw evan as she is working so ask her to lunch 2gether bah. She say okayz ah as she is going to break at that period of time. So we have some random talk at kim gary. She talk about so many recent happenings and she is still being her and lotz of issues happen because of his bf previous employment. A lotz of not happy thingz.

Anyway, then i continue to wonder around the mall. Seriously not easy eh to look for present,i think i have spent more than 2 hours for this present bah. Luckily in the end i manage to find one present which i think its kinda cute bah. Hopefully she will like it lah. tak tau. And now im home again to type all this thing.

Recently earthquake in japan and china is super scary. Hopefully thingz will goes better after a while of struggling. Hope people will start to take carez of our mother nature. If everyone do their part i think we can still do better bah. Pray for a better 2molo huh. And oh well, recently has been drinking too often. i think its a lil bit too much bah. i seriously should cut down on the volume consume. Because its very de not healthy oh. And its quite dangerous too everytime when i drive after i drink and when im tired after a long day of works. i really should take care of myself.

And my boss seems like going soon lu.....she got promoted and i have to adapt again with my new boss. jon did ask me go to his branch but i really dun find it comfortable because i know its not the same when i step into his branch. He will start to mood swing and complain when things is not properly done. Im very sure about his way of doing thingz after knowing him for so long. Besides the traffic is super duper congested to his place. So i still think its better to remains in my branch. lol

So many happenings huh, i hope u r doing well too yeah. i am really missing u very much. i hope u will know. well,nothing much except world peace and take carez everyone. Hope the world will have a better 2molo.

-seng-

Injection day bor.....

2day is my injection day,early morning settle all the busy problem.sign letter offer and check acceptance and flow all the necessary file that is in urgent stage and chat with boss a little bit. She is very stress with our branch current situation. Not only sales she is worried but in fact everything she is worry. Because our operation is being too outstanding. hahahaz,some of the work they are suppose to finish it as early as they could but its been drag for quite some time. And this quite some time better not to be mentioned here cuz its really bad.

Then rush out all the outstanding matters and im on the smooth track. I strongly believe that i'm gonna make it big once more this month. A superstar is alwiz gonna be a superstar. lol,self praise is no praise wah.....but i have been really hardworking since last month so i think i should be able to tapao a big one....

Then rush to Jalan Imbi for my injection. Its been late and raining when i starting moving. Its getting more heavy rain when i go nearer and nearer to KL so the traffic is going worse as i go. Then nvm, alotz of the trees in KL falls and cause some of the road close. This action has cause alotz of driver gone mad. 2 be really honest 2day's traffic is really terrible as i have never experience a traffic congestion like this. It's different with the slow and congest like puchong but in fact this is everyone also lost their patience. Someone should have recorded it. Then when i reach Ting Skin Specialist they leave only a few more and they are gonna close shop adi. So this is a good news as i no need to wait so long. then while i go to the registry the gal say, ahhhh ang eng seng. Next time no need to register lah just walk in only lah. Because they know i only come for injection only. Regular liao lah.... But dunno izit because of i 3 weeks never go for injection already. When he really start i feel ouch. Y izit so fucking pain. and he cover damm alotz of places . After so long i pain till cannot talk liao. And the worse part is i stuck in a traffic congestion while going home. every driver is like mad already...

Then, talk about my works bah. There is always approve and reject right. So when their loan approve they will say thank you thank you. But once their loan reject right. U will be the most stupid iritating fucker and bloody annoying to them. U r liar and u r super irresponsible and all the bull shit will park under your name. Not only apply on customer. Even on the lawyers,developer,our loan center, and also our credit department. When something goes wrong everything is our fault. We sales staff is the solely party to be blame. However, im a couldn't be bothered where i do not care about how you people feel. i am alwiz gonna be who i am and i am alwiz gonna do what i like. So, i dunno, but i think im kinda tired with everyone is pushing everything around. is really annoying. lol

and i still miss you. been thinking of u for me to pass through all this. but is only remain as thinking. Because this is the only thing that i could still do. hehez

-seng-

寿司

今天是一个很懒惰的星期天，我睡醒了以后匆匆忙忙的去找kitt剪头发。一个帮我剪头发剪了很多年的妈妈的朋友。我很喜欢去哪里因为他什么也不问，我什么也不说。就这样静静的被他剪头发。懒惰的我以及我懒惰的习惯。 然后因为太累了，我根本没办法去做工。累惨了。然后就直接回家。到家过后就看报纸，还有煮面吃。因为吃不饱，我知道我知道，我很肥了可是我不管。i am who i am and i do what i like. So im still not gonna care about what others say.lol

然后啊，我就进去富的房间。他在看那个鱼跃在花见。这个是一个关于做寿司的故事。再看的时候，我想起了你，我想起了那短暂的几天。而我从一个不吃寿司的人到一个会有时想吃寿司了。 在一个这么慵懒的星期天，我又再一次的胡思乱想，发白日梦了。可是啊，一切都已经太迟了，因为我知道那个感觉已经不再有了，我明白到你对我真的比普通朋友更普通了，反而，你在和别人沟通可以更自在。 我真的懂了。如果，这个世界到最后你还是没人要的话，我会很乐意的陪在你的身边。只不过，我觉得那个可能性是零。人可以有梦想但是不可以幻想，对吧？只不过我这个人啊，很喜欢为梦想而活。无聊吧。

还有，那天令我的一个朋友不舒服了，因为我的说话令他很不爽。我开始觉得，我这个人是真的没有说话的艺术吧。就算做我这行是要很会讲话，可是有可能是我讲话不经大脑吧，很容易就过了他们的底线？做事情也是吧， 这件事真的令我很困扰呢。我这个人啊，可能还是要一个人比较好吧。反正我一个人自由自在，也不用担心我会令到谁谁谁不舒服吧。因为可能我觉得这些事说说没关系吧，可是很多人会很介意啊，不管了。

很悠闲却很忧愁的一个星期天啊。我很想你，可是我已经不懂我应该怎么做了，对于人与人的相处，我已经到了一个迷宫了，我完全的迷失了。我啊，现在只想什么都不想的一天过一天。ohya, by the way last nite go drinking with wai hong rite, he finally has quit smoking. And he has keep himself away from ciggaretes for more than 2 weeks bor....Bravo my dear brothers.....Hope u can keep it up and not 2 come back 2 smoking once again. lol

i dunno what else to write as my feelings is very confuse. i have alotz in my mind. But my mind shall keep it in my mind loh. because i have no way to sort it out nicely and type it out. Its all mixed up. Hope everyone enjoy your beautiful sunday loh. take good carez as alotz of people are sick recently. Have fun and relax.

-seng-

Flyday....

Friday, Its suppose to be the best day of the week. Plus, My manager has went to HQ for manager meetings the whole day. Sounds fantastic isn't it. I also thought of it this way. But then, i think due to last nite drank too much with sean and david they all for sean's farewell already. So im suffering a difficulties of swallowing the food into my mouth. The food is actually tasty de.yummy yummy. Then nvm, i have a new colleague . Frankly speaking she is not doing anything and alotz of common sense she dun have as this is her first job and this is the first 2 days of working. But, i find her a lil bit strange strange and weird weird one. More like come here work is to stalk the bf only. Cause her bf work in UOB which is just near by. But its only my feelings lah.

Then, i feel so tired when im back to my old routine way of working. Where i have 2 work everyday. Because my boss just tell me only sunday i can go look look in a launching of a super expensive project. Scary mou,and 2molo is a wonderful saturday but i need to go and explain to my customer and his loan application and signed another letter offer. Plus i am starting to take over everything in mortgage in the branch. including calling customer and chasing the lawyer. Well i find myself very ill and im going to be sick already and even if im sick i still have to go and work like a mad cow.hahahahaz, well no choice loh. Want to make that amount of money has to sacrifice wan loh.

And then afternoon accidentally make a friend of mine angry, well the word i say its just for fun only but somehow this word offended her. I din mean it but then its okay anyway. Already have a tough day and i din wana explain much anymore. I respect that everyone can have their own feeling. But im still gonna be who i am. Although im a sales person which do not really know the art of talking of the art of interacting with people. If dun like, So be it bah. Im too tired over everything already.

A disaster friday 2day bor. i wish i could talk to u about all this in details. i truly wish. i missing u so much and i miss those time we can have a long long conversation. Its really sweet. Haihz, wake up wake up bah. I will be fine. Everything will be okay. And i will be sick soon but still okayz.

Take carez everyone. tataz

-seng-