stay positive and be positive...im fine,im fine.

hey hey, 2day is the first working day after Chinese New Year bor. So woke up adi go breakfast and smoke smoke. still not well as the day before. My throat is kanasai and flu flu flu. hahahaz, then get back to branch, wow, im not excited wor, u know why? because 2day is the first working days after Chinese New Year. already 4 days bank not open, and 2 staff on MC, and most of the residents around here is not working. So thank god I'm there. to handle all the lose ends and lets customer scold me or say me or complain a lil bit. They are so free bor as they can come and ask this ask that. And everything is like after sales or deposits or whatever. Thank you so much that everyone of u dun like to wait. So sorry ah if i have to make u people not happy. Cuz i oso thought Hong Leong is my father bank leh. Just realize is not and just realize everyone is the same so u people fucking go queue up please. Sorry for being a lil bit rude eh. hahahaz

And then, went lunch with ginger wor. Because ah have not seen her for quite sometime ah. Have to make an effort to catch up le. Listen to her current story that is not so good as many bad things happen. Injured and accidents happen. Pity her and we share some of our happenings. And everyone heard of my 2 weeks holiday all congratulate me. Well, u people think in a wrong way and i did explain a lil bit but u guys still think other way. But too be very honest. This 2 weeks is very precious and memorable for me.

And while going back to branch get a message. After this message im a lil bit down perhaps. But think about it,u have mentioned and tell me more than 5-6 times ba. I really should pick up this and set this in my mind. But somehow i just couldn't. Flash back, Is me myself which neva appreciate it before. and when its no longer there. i can't expect it to be there. But unfortunately im too stuborn to learn. way too stuborn. Anyway, have mentioned so many times, u r a very nice and kind person. And i think maybe is because of u r too kind. So u will entertain some of my stupid acts and behavior. And u r too kind and dunno how 2 tell me off. So i misunderstand it and this sucks. u say that u won't change and u ask me to not say till like that anymore. i really can feel it this time. i promise that i will neva use such word again. But then, i can't hide my feelings for u. People say times heal but i dun think so. But its not that bad anyway. As we human live on earth. May or may not meet someone we love. we may only meet someone we like and get marry and until the day that u die. u dun meet someone that u love. And im just so lucky, i get to taste the love from my granparents, my parents, my big big family, my good friends. my bosses and some of my customer. Everyone treat me so nice and i did take them from granted. i truly did. And i manage to find u somehow. And well, u did give me alotz of memories. great memories that i can never forget and keeps me going everytime im falling. Although thingz has change, but i dun think my feelings will change. i will save all those in my heart and never delete it. And i will alwiz behave like a friend,because i know u really dunno how 2 act on all this anymore. Everything i shall keep it in my heart,my blog that nobody's reading. I'm already so lucky as i have so many love. And i had urs before. I shouldn't be so greedy as i have tell myself before. As long as get to watch u for while is already good. So, as long as u can live happily and happy with the one beside u. I should be happy for u right.

But i can't say it doesn't affect me. Well it does and then i have to do some emotional control and adjust. Is not that i wanna act but i dun wan anyone that love's me worry about me. They thought im in love so be it. They thought im happy so im gonna be happy and keep myself happy. And i dunno. Right now i dun wana do anything not even eating as i really dun have the appetite. not in the mood. So now i think best is i sit down quietly in my room to sort out my thoughts and putting on a smile again on my face later or latest by 2molo morning. And i have to stop dreaming liao.

I truly wish u happy,and being in sweet sweet condition. Hope ur smile is there alwiz. I really miss u. Take good carez.

-seng-

After that something happen so im gonna top up a lil bit, There is a guy which reminds me of myself. He do blog blog as well, His blog and mine is also to express feelings. His is also about someone that have left him. Its also because he have take her for granted. And His blog also sound like is her fault that cause this break up. Like what i used to write. So negative yet not entertaining. And so shameless and never thought of own doing. And neva think of ownself mistakes. I really did smile while im reading his. I have been reading people's blog but this one really similar. Well i send him a private message after all. I said, dun make ur blog sound so negative. Sounds like she owe u. Sounds like is her fault that cause the break up. And Sounds like u r innocent. What is done is done. And nothing can change it. So why not appreciate those memories and wish her all the best. And hopefully she is happy with her life now even if it has to be without u. And if she has a bf, hopefully he can do much better job to make her happy. I told him, Im sharing with u and im not saying u. Hope u dun get offended. Only real friends will tell u what is right and what is wrong. U told me that. And i think this is the right thing 2 do bah. By the way did tell if u both are meant to be then u both will be. Mean time u need to upgrade urself mentally. Have some self development perhaps. Hahaha, i dunno if its too mean. But im sincere that i dun wana see him like that. I hope he can pick up what im trying to share. And i told him that im sending u this message because i did what u r doing. lol,hahahaz.

Okay lah,really finish liao. tataz,update again 2molo.

-seng-(smiling)

4th day of CNY

Because of last nite traffic congestion that cuz me sleep late..2day din wanna wake up early. However i woke up at roughly 10 o'clock. its should be later but i din sleep so long because my 4skin kaki's is droping by my house again wor. So woke up and read newspaper,watch some TV and then go bring them in to my house. Although they came so many years but still they failed to recognised way to my house...well has change alotz mah. So they drop by and then of cuz get angpau from my mom and then get a drink.

Then not long after we ciaozz to One Utama to watch movie and lunch. We reach there kinda late and shiroi is queuing. However the queue is too long and the ticket is too little. So we decide not to watch but go lunch instead. Went to enqures Kitchen or something similar. I and Kar Fai had rice while the rest have noodles. Won't say its nice but definitely its not hard to swallow. so so only lah. After eat aalready we walk around the building but seems like nothing much to see as we have too big crowd i think. 6 person walking wanna see oso difficult de. Then after a while we decide to go Cineleisure to continue look for tickets.

And so we drove to Cineleisure and try to get tickets. They queue a while and then the ticketing officer says, if 10 minutes later that person which is suppose to collect their ticket didn't come as they reserve only. Then we wonder around again to wait for the tickets. 10 minutes later we walk and queue at there again. Then finally the ticketing officer give us the tickets. By the way we are watching All's well end's well again. I had watch with my mom and toufu. But its a good movie. First time watch is funny. 2nd time watch im looking into their love story. Some of the points really hit me. As i find it so similar just like something i have experience. And something i always wish it can happen. Different view on the same movie.

Then, we came out and chit chat chit chat as they are talking about where to. The 4 of them look for their mom and another follow. However i din wana follow as im heaps tired already. So, i drove home and they all go to Sunway Giza there. Their mom open stall there by the way. or working there i dunno. They ask me to drop by their house around 11 something as they will have people coming too. But then im just too tired to do anything as i need to work by 2molo and days after. So many days wor.

And i need some alone moments. I really need as im real tired after all. and i miss u very much. Hope u r doing good. Alots of thingz cannot be explain by words. But hope u feel it.

Good nite everyone. Sleep tight and continue having a properous Chinese New Year. Have lotza fun.

-seng-

what an exhausted day le!!

2day wake up quite early due to last nite sleep quite early.But last nite sleep was not okay due to im having a flu and sore throat,actually i can't sleep as i couldn't breathe.so i sleep a while then i will accidentally wake up due to this reason.hate it so much. Morning, wake up and then online online again due to toufu is alwiz still lying on the bed refuse to move. lol, then we talk random stuff and i online until i think roughly 10 again bah,he woke up and in a while we get ready all go out to eat again. This time go to the old spot where the last time and the time before when we come we ate there. Previously order curry mee. Ohhh and i realise, when we r in Kuala Kangsar my elder brother only bring us to like curry mee, prawn mee,tom yum all this type of spicy food. No other food is nice wor in Kuala Kangsar. Really Funny. So i ordered wantan mee as i dun have choice. And we have to wait for almost an hour for the food to be ready. This coffee shop isn't that big.i do not understand why they need so long time to prepare the food and drinks. i really no no understand ah. Then one of the girl that help out the stall is funny, funny because i think everytime when i see her,she is also wearing the same top with the same pants. I mean all 3 times. i Told toufu this and he say,maybe this is her uniform when helping out.lol

Then ah, wantan mee not nice, so we finish everything still anyway. We leave and go get some newspaper. So once reach elder brother's home. i have read a chinese newspaper,an english paper and one chinese weekly paper. I'm bored like that. lol, and watching my cute little niece wondering around the house loh. She is so hyper and so healthy. Then ah, i online online again where actually dun see anyone online anyway. Just try to kill some time only. Then we go eat again about 2 something as we are too bored. Eat at the gate cafe again. But we heard bad news while eating. The highway is having a slow traffic oh...okay anyway we need to move from Kuala Kangsar to Ipoh to Cousin brother house for dinner. So elder brother suggest to use the old road instead of highway.a lil bit further but faster.

So his advise was accepted. We tried. And what the fuck is freaking jam also anyway. and heard radio say highway is not that jam. hahahahaz, but its a nice try though. So slowly move the car all the way to ipoh. Will miss that fatty and her daughter as the next time we see them will be long long time later already. So we took almost 1 and a half hour to reach a 35km spot. Reach there saw the same person is sitting on the mahjong table....others is helping out. So we did watch for a while and help out oso after that. toufu help by replace one of them play mahjong for few rounds. Then i help carry thingz to the car to shift food from auntie house to cousin house. After everything is done we move. From auntie house we drive to cousin house. And we r the 1st one to reach cousin's house. His house look much nicer dunno why. With another 2 dogs extra. Nice breed but i wouldn't know the name.Only know its from Taiwan. Then we sit down and do nothing and watch them.

After a while when my mom's siblings arrive then the dinner start. Self service de food oh. Basically no vege but all meat. So we have a lil bit of everything. mommy seems very very happy when hang out with her siblings. She even drink oh...Gold label leh...So cute. But only 1 glass and she look for gunner liao(which is me). They talk about alotz of random thingz. of cuz there is joke joke around too. i also have not seen them for at least 2 years bah. Will send mommy up again bah. Bcuz we have to leave today to avoid 2molo super jam. as im starting work early on monday. Next time get her to stay a few days loh. Sure she will find it excited wan loh. What a bad bad son i am. lol

And then while come back,the traffic is already terrible. Imagine from Ipoh to my house take almost 3 and a half hour. i really neva think of this before. and bcuz its late nite so its dark with so many cars. I'm really tired wei. and most of the time we r on emergency lane as thats the fastest lane we have. Of cuz is the Highway maintenance team lead us there lah. 2day already so terrible so i imagine 2molo will be the end of the world on the highway i bet. And once reach home i go shower. While shower i can feel that my hand and my leg is shivering. Shit man, im really getting so sick and so tired leh. Help me ah....

And, i miss u alotz alotz. Have not hear from u for a long time....i heard u r sick and still flu and cough. Hope u can get well soon loh. I'm really worry about u. Please do Take good carez of urself there. Xoxo,Gd nite.

Wish Everyone Happy and have a better day 2molo.
- Seng -

2nd day of Chinese Lunar New year

okay,lets start with last nite when im feeling sick and i got too tired. So i just lie down at the living room here without wearing shirt and slept. younger brother online still.i thought i would be snoring but very funny, i didn't snore instead. slept till i think about 5 o'clock then i feel the cold.go upstairs and look for blanket.1 for me and another for toufu. As i think he is cold too.hehez, then sleep a while and wake up a while and sleep a while and wake up a while again. roughly about 9 something 10 o'clock like that finally i woke up because my elder brother,my mom and my niece all came downstairs and start making noise already. So i woke up and online for a while there. When toufu wake up then we decide to go out for breakfast.

So elder brother drive us to a place where i dunno where but still in the Kuala Kangsar City. Then we reach there elder brother say got tom yum,curry me and dry curry me.Well im having a sore throat. So i have to take something else. Pan mee is the only choice i got. and i have my white coffee as usual. and of cuz i took alotz of random photos of my niece and my elder brother. As i hardly can do so. Then, we finish our breakfast and return home. i start to online again and view here view there.view alotz of thingz that may change my living. and how to. Then also some random folders clean up. Have read some old photos,old videos. Sometimes really regret that something that i have done has made me further from u. If i ever get a chance to hold u again. But well im not gonna complain in anywhere but just here,my blog wheres nobody is reading anymore. I'm just gonna express my feelings a lil bit. Anyway as long as u r good and happy then im happy too.

Then ah, mommy cook some chicken and pork and rice. So we have our lunch in the house. and my niece is actively wondering around the living room. everything is out of control. But its fun to see such hyper kid because she reminds me of myself when im small. Unfortunately the cane i gotten from my parents is way much more than what she had. But can't compare,she is much more cuter and lovable. Then i think about 4 o'clock like that we decide to drive to my mommy relative side.

So about 30 minutes drive then we reach there. my cousin and cousin-in-law and one of my auntie is playing mahjong. One of the auntie is not there. and another couple is here. So i and toufu sit down quietly to watch them play.we laugh when we see alotz of funny funny moves by them. mommy seems happy to hang out with her siblings. I truly understand that she miss them so much. Her face expression tells. then almost 6 o'clock cousin-in-law go back with my cousin. So toufu replace her and gamble with cousin and auntie loh. At least he manage win 1 game. And the auntie win all the way for 5 games. Then toufu win the last. pityful cousin dun win a single game. But the way he play he din wana win any games i think. he just dun wana lose alotz only.

So and then, we went to have dinner at dunno what sky river/sky rainbow or sky something. its very very pack in there. they book a table but its full. So they arrange another table and we are sitting at a corner near toilet. cousin's both with their partner and me,toufu and mommy sit on a table. With all the vege's is full wei. Plus those thingz that they have order is not nice to eat. Taste like i dunno. Even mamak can do a better job. Or maybe im half sick already. So thats y.

Then we went back to auntie house again. mommy talk with all the auntie's there. Then tracy called, so we went yum cha at somewhere near by as she is at the place very near to where i am. We sit down at mamak and have alotz of chat. But we dun seems to talk about alotz of thingz already mommy call. She say wanna go back adi. Its a nice catch up session. But if it can be longer it will be just great. She seems upset with what his ex is doing. But its okay,if u both are meant to be then will definitely be together. At least thats what im thinking.

And then pick up mommy and come back to elder brother place. shower shower and then come up and blog. feeling a lil not so excited. Maybe im tired. or maybe is because of .....................

Anyway,Hope everyone can get alotz of angpau and eat everything. Stay happy and take good carez.

I'm still missing u. Alot Alot. Nitez. xoxo

-SENG-

大年初一

因为昨天的很晚睡和前一晚的没睡令我的身体很不舒服了。我已经要生病了，救命啊。不过还是很早醒来因为很多有心的朋友都寄短信来。以及因为今天我们需要到我哥哥那里。嘻嘻，本来是三个小时多一点。可是因为非常的塞车，我们用了五个小时吧。累惨啦。到了那里我们就去看看哥哥家有没有疏菜，看了以后觉得还是出去吃比较好。

哈哈，我可爱的侄女以经忘了我们全部人。她变的比较害怕我们了不知道为什么。她甚至连和我们说话都没有了。真的很不明白。可是看到她健康的长大就好啦。哥哥就变胖了咯，我也胖啦。 然后是吃的东西啦，我们叫了一个芋头扣肉，一个清炒菜心花，一个姜葱鱼片和一个葱油豆腐。真的不是很好吃，味道非常的普通，吃饱了就回家咯。

回到哥哥家之后，我就去冲凉啦，然后就一家人一起看the A-team. 真的很不错的一部戏。我很少有的看了两部戏，在两天里。然后就上网以及三兄弟聊聊天。很久没做的事情。然后啊，我就写了这些有的没的。基本上都没做什么的一天。

不过，我很想念那些日子，更想念你。希望你的新年还不错吧。

最后，祝大家新年快乐，心想事成，万事如意，想要什么有什么，天天开心。

- 申 -

除夕

今天啊，因为昨晚的很夜睡，或者更贴切是没有睡。 然后大概是7：40 我就起床冲凉，洗脸以及刷牙。 然后把所有东西都做好了以后你也醒了。 然后到你准备咯。本来是要在9点之前到可是我们很迟才到。不过幸好没有影响到你上机。 很快的把所有东西都整理好而你也必需要离开了。我非常的不舍得但没办法。我慢慢的目送你的离开。在很无奈的心情下离开机场。

然后回到去当然是做工咯，可是很坦白，我的没有睡令我根本没办法做任何事。我只是觉得不舒服而已。有一种会吐的感觉。 哈哈， 不过还好。然后很勉强的待到4点多下午，送文件到我们的贷款中心。然后就回家了。太累了。想躺在床休息一下，可是失败了，因为电话不停的响， 而且很多人都跑到我房里打扰我。结过就没睡到。之后汉文也到了。团园饭开餐啦，丰富的食物令我们都吃了很多很多。汉文也很开心因为他很久很久没吃过住家饭了。

饱餐过后， 我们就聊天，聊了很多东西，再来就去冲凉了。 因为我们全部人一起去看戏。看那套最强囍事。真的非常好笑，从开头笑到离开。但是中间它会有很多值得学习的部份，例如爱情观啦，幸福啦，还有钱啦，以及了解女人。看完了我们就离开咯。我们就到了拜拜地方。逗留了很久。

终于在现在3：27 零晨可以写部落格，但是很明显的在我没睡觉45小时后我的头脑很空，我好像不知到我自己在写什么这样。很晕

希望你玩的还开心吧，保重啊

- 申 -

1st day of February

Well, 2day is busy day because Chinese new year is coming, and Federal Teritorry is Holiday. So alotz of customer came to branch to do whatever they wanna do. Like Cash out money and stuff like that. the queue is superb as it can achieve higher than 50 person waiting.and actually in fact what i observe is more than 75 bah. And as usual alotz of customer has come to me and they have done the routine thingz.complain complain and complain. Oh well, Hong Leong is not my father bank, besides all u people comes together of course have to wait loh. As a standard transaction take only 5 minutes but u guys come and give us something extra which definitely is gonna take more than 15 minutes.u can't blame us,u have to queue.

Mood was not affected as its suppose to be happy. and im still happy and handle all those lose ends. And about 1 i left the branch to snake.hahahaz,it means to run away from working and doing something else. And well, Something else is much more important than working. Will work super hard when i come back from chinese new year hopefully. As i have been busy since im back from travel and i have not really rest myself yet. And because of that my body is super heaty and i can feel that pimples coming,sore throat coming,and alotz more.basically im just hot hot hot.

Come back to snake-ing. I went off already and then i go home to change. lol, i still have time to change (smile). Then rush to the LCCT to pick u up. As i say,can't wait to see u and im happy that im seeing you for the third time this year.i love starting of the year when i can see you. Wish i can have more. i really wish. but its okay, then ah, waited a while in the LCCT and you arrive. Then we go get a drinks in Starbucks. i bought my as usual Espresso Frappucino and u say i can buy u anything in liquid form. I'm like,u dun like coffee, and u didn't want ice lemon tea anymore as u had enough of it. and i dunno what else i can order but Green tea latte ice. And u say y r u alwiz buying me green tea....lol, so i bet u had enough of green tea too. Then we go to Sungei Wang straight away. But the Access to Sg wang is super super jam. So i figured that i change and park it in Times Square. And we walk over to Sg.wang. And so lucky we find a parking in Times Square real quick. Then we walk up and u saw a store full of hair accessories. Then, u went inside and bought a hair clip. Then we walking around Sg wang to check ur stuff. And u didn't wanna c anything and u want a hair cut. So we walk around and i suggested snips.. Well,u went in and explain how u wan it. She seems like she understand. And she call herself professional stylist. Unfortunately she cut it not the way u wanted. So u got pissed plus u r tired....i can really see your dissapointed face. To be honest i find it shorter makes u look more Independence and capable. And still as pretty as before.

Then we walk around and u sounds upset with ur hair,well i will grow in a bit.dun get too worried. And then we walk around to see clothes, u get urself a glasses. a freshkon color lens. And also a top. Talk about this top, the girl is super persuasive and pushy. Keep on demonstrating when we only wanna get a top. So end up u got pissed and get a grey Top which is the nicest. i bet u may not like it but u buy because she has been serving u for so long with her attitude bah. hehez,then went watson for u to buy some cosmetics and we spent some time there.

Then roughly about 9:30 we get away from sg wang to go back times square,i can really see that u are super tired. but u still make an effort to catch up with wai hoong. Really kind of u. Then we reach Taipan where i work. And we bought the Bah gua there. Well u were on the phone talking about how your auntie ruin everything in jakarta. I cannot imagine if i have meet someone like this?i dun think i can react to what they have done. then u were talking to ur mom and u order bah gua. the order taking person looks fierce. hahaz, anyway, we bought and hang out with wai hoong. And station one is the place. We order a platter and din really eat as i have not eat the whole day so i dun have the appetite to eat anyway. Have some random chat and tease him a lil.Then we go home. As we reach home, bring everything up and u unpack to pack again. So im writing my stupid blog again. And well,its time for shower. Update again 2molo.

Take good carez. Im very happy 2day.

-seng-