Weirdo's life

世界末日快来了吗？

2011-04-24T01:13:00.000-07:00

最近真的是天气无常啊，每一天都是很热的天气到3-4 点，然后就开始狂风暴雨。这样的日子很可怕吧。有几天的大雨，我正在车里然后那个雷好像要劈到我酱。哈哈哈，好心虚的人噢。不过这个不是最惨。最惨的是我的脚竟然会风湿。虽然以前曾经有过，可是这次真的很痛很痛。自己坏蛋，没冲热水跑去冲冷水。后果当然是不能好好走路啦。痛惨了。

然后了，生意也没什么提升。好好，下个月我勤劳点。最近，很多事在头脑里转动。可是，现在却不记得了。好白痴噢。好像有些事如果想到的时候不写，等你有时间写的时候却不记得了。明确点应该是说心情吧。很多事情并没有如我所想的那样进行，而这些事情本来都是在控制中的。虽然有时候顾客是第一，但是我真的累了。

唉，不过我这个人啊，是一只打不死的蟑螂。我不会认命更不会认输。我只会一直向前冲。现在，也不用想将多咯，只想把家人都照顾好，以及多关心朋友。然后每一天就这样开开心心的过。应该还不错吧。忽然间很想你，忽然间很想那一段时间。我知道，我有幸福过。我也不忘记。现在把所有身边的人都珍惜是我最大的幸福吧。以及尽量不要发脾气。

上个星期很多事发生，当然我也做了一个坏人。因为我把一个人介绍给另一个人。结果那人贪得无厌，还想强吻人。我真的很后悔。不过，幸好那个女的没什么损失。否则，我跳进海里都洗不清啊。还有的就是遇见了我的中学学长。小时候，他就住我家附近。可是过后我搬走了。他和我都变胖了。他以及他两个同事和我们一起吃火锅。那个女的也是短发，很可爱。不过他们好像很看不起人。虽然我知道他们还很新，但是我也没有说什么。可能人总以为自己比较优秀吧。哈哈

还有，老爸的生日是星期五，刚刚过。我们没送什么礼物，因为他什么都不要。所以我们给了他一些钱，让他买他喜欢的东西加上陪她吃了一餐晚饭。他看起来还蛮开心的。就好咯。对啦，还有星期五，双溪威的同学喝茶。一如往常的几个人到。还聊得蛮开心的。还知道了三个同学的家。哈哈哈

好了就酱吧。暂时也不懂要写什么。就祝大家幸福快乐吧，霓也幸福快乐。还有健健康康。

- 申- 苦中作乐 -ing

Sick already

2011-04-13T05:22:00.000-07:00

I am once again sick. lol, at first is only sore throat but at the rate it's going now already flu plus cough and a lil bit headache. Whualau i din do anything eh why treat me like this. i wanna be healthy healthy again. Doctor say no exercise, no fruits, no biscuits and have to control a few days. I am so sad eh. I have not eat chili's for many days liao. Pityful me.

Then talk about last nite. Bring some banker friend to ginger. But didn't expect it to turn out become so bad. I mean not all but only one of them. I find it stupid as i never expect him to react like this. I think i dun find myself comfortable also with the way he is behaving. Luckily there is better one so i bet the happy hour not too bad also lah. But i bring them there when im sick and drink sumore. So i think i'm not too bad as a friend bah. Hope she got more refferal after this lah.

then everything in house seems good. And ohya,i have not got time go out do the courier. i'm really bad.i really have to arrange for a day to do it. Maybe on a saturday bah. Because not good loh keep people things here with dust. lol, and sales is not so good this month. Not much of submission thim. Boss is going to nag me soon. So have to work a lil bit liao. hahahaz,after recover adi social a lil bit sin.

Good Day Peoples. Miss u as usual. Wonder if u do the same?nope bah.hahaz

-seng-

Raining Friday Nite.

2011-04-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

hahaz, this week is quite a good week as i manage to go basketball twice a week and maybe 3 times plus 2molo. But really find myself very old adi. Can't really run and sumore whole body ache due to too long never exercise already. A lot of things happen since monday went injection. I myself is a quite positive person bah i think but sometimes really tired over certain things. I'm really exhausted with the lie a person can give. it's okay if u want to have overriding and its okay if you want to make money over a lots of thing. i understand that you are very business minded. But i cannot accept the part where u totally ignore us. If it is not necessary who will rush you for thing. People rush you is with valid reason and of course reasonable time frame is given. Things just seems so different when you first inform. and how it has become. i really disagree with the way you do things. i have made my decision this time. I will draw a line with you. Since things never get done with you. i'm will go on my own and you continue what you are doing. I appreciate what you have teach us long ago. But i believe all this comm is more than enough to cover. i will see that as a tuition fees.

Luckily i only need to wait till august. Once everything is settled i will be a freeman once more. And it will be good as times goes by. not really positive things i write today because this is my negative release center. Cause find it happier after write down everything. hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. now really have to go take a rest bah... try to neutralize my feelings.i will be good.

And ohya, heard that you are getting better. Congratz... i'm really happy for you. Best thing i've heard so far this week. missing you much. xoxo,good nite.

A date with the Doctor

2011-04-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

Well, It's not easy to date him cause u know why? Reason is because he is a skin specialist and i have to see him to cure my face. As usual the girl there recognize me. She see me only say Ang Eng Seng, y u cannot book ah...then she laugh and say, Sui zai, do u know 2day alotz of people ah and u gonna wait for a long long one. So i say no problem, 2day i can wait lah. hahaz, but really alotz of people there. I'm freeze even though i love air-conditioner so much. So u can imagine how cold is in there. And She did not lie. I really wait for i think more than 2 hours just to see this doctor.

As i have told u before, because of recently i always sleep very late and always never control at the food i'm eating. So my scar tissue did went a lil bit too big than usually. i can feel it. And he once look at me he say, ohhh injection ah. I say yes ah. He inject inject and inject and i feel pain and pain and very de pain. It's getting more and more difficult, But because i want to cure it so i do not have a choice and this is the path i must go through. He comment when he is done. U ah,u never apply the pimple cream am i right. So i'm like ahhhh yes. lol, and he say now i give u something to eat. And also the pimple cream to apply on the pimples. And besides this, your lip is dry. I give you some lip bump okay. So i am like, ahhhhh, okay loh. Hahahahaz, okay lah 2molo onwards i will apply everything everywhere lah can?

So cute and so painful. talk back in the branch nothing much difference as a new month i got new target again. Alotz of customer coming in and out,some old some new. 2day one of the customer come and he talks really funny and sometime doesn't make sense. He sit in our branch and talk until the wife and the son also feel shy. Of course we did talk about the loan application a little bit. But overall he is a very weird customer. And other customer ah, very impatient as usual ah. And 2day pity the operation. Can see that Chai and Sook Yee and Sri is very angry. They keep complaining and show angry face. But come on, we work as a team right. Some of them play MC hammer u mai let me be loh. we work harder to cover for them loh. No point that u people show us angry face mah. We have nothing 2 do with their MC what. If we work together faster to cover i think should be able to make it also mah. Anger management really need to be taught.

And ohya, i saw Kel 2day. She tell me that she permanently shift to Usj Taipan liao. So happy that another friend of mine come to de vicinity. Obviously she is pregnant oh. Happy for her. and what else do i have 2 say....

i'm missing you very much. i really do not know what i can do other than looking backwards. i know this is not good but i can only do this. Know that you are living healthier than u were. Get well soon. XOXO.

-seng-

Freaking Exhausted.

2011-03-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

Didn't have enough sleep. Reason being is last nite Ning Tze Birthday ah. So we celebrate for her. But its a very last minute one so nobody prepare things and all rush there when we received call at 6pm. What a boss. Organise until so lousy. Recently is busy about chasing the cases execution for money money. And chase LI so Lawyer can prepare Loan Agreement and let customer sign as soon as they can. And still cannot find any potential manager to come and look after my branch so my old boss is staying for a while until we get the new boss. Figure as usual.

Then, last nite hang out until reach home already 3 something. So freaking tired and then have to take out lens sumore and i realize that i wore that thing for more than 12 hours and its almost 24 hours. Then 2day when i open the casing and i saw one of the lens broken. Really think myself can break records ah. Nevamind, then with this lack of sleep i almost can't wake up 2day. Fell so uncomfortable at work. i got the feeling that i may fall anytime as i am too fucking tired. Then boss sumore ask me out together to check out stuff. beautiful property. Setia Eco-park. Went to Customer new house. It's seriously a damm awesome geh bungalow loh. It's like every floor also come with a garden. The highest floor (3) sumore can have a pond eh. If 1 day i got 5 million i definitely will buy a unit in there. It's like a dream house with fantastic view. Just that if it's mine perhaps i will have more furniture and not all wood. And check out a lot of development in that vicinity and it's damm awesome place to stay. All the green green make people feel comfortable. i think it's very healthy also for our health.

Then, Branch also got a lot of happening recently ah. Mira already ask to resign already. This is her third attempt so everyone understand that it can never turn back anymore. She has made her decision. My boss say let her go and we take it as a challenge and i agree because maybe the branch needs a change. Maybe we need different people to run the branch. Hopefully it can lighten our works. Gambateh people when alotz of them is trying to run away from USJ branch.

Seriously very tired and dunno what to write. Maybe one thing bah. i miss u so much. hahaz.Hope u r doing okay bah.

-seng-

清明节

2011-03-27T02:40:00.000-07:00

我见了你今年的最后一次，我很开心但是我也很无奈。因为这一次我真的感觉到我们的陌生不是在普通的地步。虽然很辛苦但是我还是觉得我们当回朋友是蛮不错的。因为我很清楚你已经没有那种感觉了。希望你和他能够有进展吧。我的幻想是时候要结束了，虽然我不能够放下，但是公主还是应该配王子吧。而我也应该尽量去实现我的梦想，我要把脚印在世界的每一个角落。我会更充实自己的。但是我有可能太过喜欢活在过去吧，虽然这样很不好，但是我不管了，只要我开心就好。这样也不错啦，可以有更多时间与家人朋友相处。再玩玩啦。

然后，回来主题，今天很早就爬起来因为要赶回去扫墓。可是那个地方真的是恐怖的多人。结果就勉强的把车停在一个很远很远的空位。然后就到婆婆的“家”。不知不觉中，婆婆已经离开我们十一年了。真的很想念他，我的福建话也比以前好很多啦。我很怀念婆婆的kopi-O, 也很怀念婆婆的关怀。我还记得婆婆临走的那一年，他的病已经到了最后，没办法好了。但是她在住院的时候也记得我的生日，她还和妈妈说：记得住红鸡蛋还有面线给ah boy吃啊。我每次想到这个都很感动。啊，写着写着我也想哭了。不过，珍惜眼前人更重要。

然后，就和清和哥哥，嫂嫂，心蕊姐姐，三伯，三伯娘，大伯，妈妈，豆腐还有我就去吃Bah Kut Teh.真的是很丰富的一餐啊。吃的超饱的，然后回阿公的家。普通的聊了一些。公公也老了，而且他脾气也不好，令很多人不喜欢与他相处。没办法，人老了都是酱的吧。然后，他们都塞了很多东西给我们。没多久我们就回来了，因为爸爸的脚很痛。回来了就带他去看医生。医生说啊，应该是肌肉撕裂？大概是酱。回来过后就很不耐了。躺在床上睡了一个下午。很满足呢。

我啊，我会不会随便找个人来谈恋爱呢？会不会寻找替代品呢？时间会证明一切啊。看看就知道了。我这个人太过顽固了。没办法，天生是酱。

不知道要些什么了，暂时先这样吧。
- 申-

Mooooody.

2011-03-21T05:19:00.000-07:00

2day is really a fucking moody day. Its the accumulation of what recently happen has cause my patience limit goes down to a very low level until i already cannot stand it anymore. I am very very moody or u shall say angry with the face one kind. It maybe due to lack of rest but in other way, Its because of everything that got into my way and everything i want it to be my way goes another way. Everything just goes against me no matter how hard i try no matter how many times i try.

I'm not trying to be negative but i think im just having too much of negative in my body and i definitely cannot cope. I have to absorb all this negative because of the money it brings to me. Life is like that and nobody can escape. So same goes to me. But things got worse when u know u do not get the support u needed from ur superior or anyone else. everybody is just pushing things around. So in the end, everything's goes back to me. Is all my fault again.

Then, some people just couldn't think for u,they only think about themselves. Whatever they want, they will just do it and asking u to tolerate with them. Even though it may cause trouble to others for your convenience. I really wonder why. How can u people be so selfish. Is this the way u show ur appreciation to someone that care about u. I got really pissed 2day and shown not happy face to my mommy and toufu. I didn't mean it but i just couldn't adjust my mood anyway. I dun feel like acting in front of u guys. i wanna neutralise my feelings and start a brand new day 2molo. i know i can do it but the process its making me mad.

Fuck it............

A bUsy SunDaY.

2011-03-13T00:22:00.000-08:00

last nite sleep quite late at roughly 2 or 3 in the morning. Then 2day thought of having a long sleep to recharge myself.manatau at 9:30 one of my customer already give me a call...i am like nooooooooooooooooo,i am so sleepy here. Then i call back and he didn't pick up,so i suppose its his grandchildren use his phone and just simply press call and so happen my surname is ang, so i am the one they alwiz "accidentally" call. this is not good.

Nevamind wake up adi then go read newspaper and have my breakfast. Suddenly think of the courier service is only half day 2day. So i online and saw u on, so i ask about the address so i can send the stuff to u. unfortunately when i got your address and have reach there in time. But the shop is not open. Then go to another one in another place also closed. then i kinda like give up liao lah. Just go to empire shopping mall and see if there is any Giant Rainbow Pocky. Who knows there is actually a courier service oh....Lucky me. Then i went there and ask them about the price and everything. Terms and condition agreed. So ah i bring the things and we start to package the item. And i notice one of the staff sitting there is new. i suppose 2day its his first day. Because i can see the more senior one is trying to explain thingz 1 by 1 to him. And all the steps. but have to admit one thing where the wrapping is not nice because he is super duper new.i wanted to do it myself but they are just too kind. So item sent. Shall reach by wednesday oh.

Then ah, went to pyramid because i have not buy present for ah sa. Others already share a present liao. So nevemind, i walk around and try to find but gosh. Its damm difficult to even look for a nice one. Or should i say a suitable one. i wondering the pyramid floor by floor to look for 1 present. stuck half way and suddenly, saw evan as she is working so ask her to lunch 2gether bah. She say okayz ah as she is going to break at that period of time. So we have some random talk at kim gary. She talk about so many recent happenings and she is still being her and lotz of issues happen because of his bf previous employment. A lotz of not happy thingz.

Anyway, then i continue to wonder around the mall. Seriously not easy eh to look for present,i think i have spent more than 2 hours for this present bah. Luckily in the end i manage to find one present which i think its kinda cute bah. Hopefully she will like it lah. tak tau. And now im home again to type all this thing.

Recently earthquake in japan and china is super scary. Hopefully thingz will goes better after a while of struggling. Hope people will start to take carez of our mother nature. If everyone do their part i think we can still do better bah. Pray for a better 2molo huh. And oh well, recently has been drinking too often. i think its a lil bit too much bah. i seriously should cut down on the volume consume. Because its very de not healthy oh. And its quite dangerous too everytime when i drive after i drink and when im tired after a long day of works. i really should take care of myself.

And my boss seems like going soon lu.....she got promoted and i have to adapt again with my new boss. jon did ask me go to his branch but i really dun find it comfortable because i know its not the same when i step into his branch. He will start to mood swing and complain when things is not properly done. Im very sure about his way of doing thingz after knowing him for so long. Besides the traffic is super duper congested to his place. So i still think its better to remains in my branch. lol

So many happenings huh, i hope u r doing well too yeah. i am really missing u very much. i hope u will know. well,nothing much except world peace and take carez everyone. Hope the world will have a better 2molo.

-seng-

Injection day bor.....

2011-03-07T05:55:00.000-08:00

2day is my injection day,early morning settle all the busy problem.sign letter offer and check acceptance and flow all the necessary file that is in urgent stage and chat with boss a little bit. She is very stress with our branch current situation. Not only sales she is worried but in fact everything she is worry. Because our operation is being too outstanding. hahahaz,some of the work they are suppose to finish it as early as they could but its been drag for quite some time. And this quite some time better not to be mentioned here cuz its really bad.

Then rush out all the outstanding matters and im on the smooth track. I strongly believe that i'm gonna make it big once more this month. A superstar is alwiz gonna be a superstar. lol,self praise is no praise wah.....but i have been really hardworking since last month so i think i should be able to tapao a big one....

Then rush to Jalan Imbi for my injection. Its been late and raining when i starting moving. Its getting more heavy rain when i go nearer and nearer to KL so the traffic is going worse as i go. Then nvm, alotz of the trees in KL falls and cause some of the road close. This action has cause alotz of driver gone mad. 2 be really honest 2day's traffic is really terrible as i have never experience a traffic congestion like this. It's different with the slow and congest like puchong but in fact this is everyone also lost their patience. Someone should have recorded it. Then when i reach Ting Skin Specialist they leave only a few more and they are gonna close shop adi. So this is a good news as i no need to wait so long. then while i go to the registry the gal say, ahhhh ang eng seng. Next time no need to register lah just walk in only lah. Because they know i only come for injection only. Regular liao lah.... But dunno izit because of i 3 weeks never go for injection already. When he really start i feel ouch. Y izit so fucking pain. and he cover damm alotz of places . After so long i pain till cannot talk liao. And the worse part is i stuck in a traffic congestion while going home. every driver is like mad already...

Then, talk about my works bah. There is always approve and reject right. So when their loan approve they will say thank you thank you. But once their loan reject right. U will be the most stupid iritating fucker and bloody annoying to them. U r liar and u r super irresponsible and all the bull shit will park under your name. Not only apply on customer. Even on the lawyers,developer,our loan center, and also our credit department. When something goes wrong everything is our fault. We sales staff is the solely party to be blame. However, im a couldn't be bothered where i do not care about how you people feel. i am alwiz gonna be who i am and i am alwiz gonna do what i like. So, i dunno, but i think im kinda tired with everyone is pushing everything around. is really annoying. lol

and i still miss you. been thinking of u for me to pass through all this. but is only remain as thinking. Because this is the only thing that i could still do. hehez

-seng-

寿司

2011-03-05T23:39:00.000-08:00

今天是一个很懒惰的星期天，我睡醒了以后匆匆忙忙的去找kitt剪头发。一个帮我剪头发剪了很多年的妈妈的朋友。我很喜欢去哪里因为他什么也不问，我什么也不说。就这样静静的被他剪头发。懒惰的我以及我懒惰的习惯。然后因为太累了，我根本没办法去做工。累惨了。然后就直接回家。到家过后就看报纸，还有煮面吃。因为吃不饱，我知道我知道，我很肥了可是我不管。i am who i am and i do what i like. So im still not gonna care about what others say.lol

然后啊，我就进去富的房间。他在看那个鱼跃在花见。这个是一个关于做寿司的故事。再看的时候，我想起了你，我想起了那短暂的几天。而我从一个不吃寿司的人到一个会有时想吃寿司了。在一个这么慵懒的星期天，我又再一次的胡思乱想，发白日梦了。可是啊，一切都已经太迟了，因为我知道那个感觉已经不再有了，我明白到你对我真的比普通朋友更普通了，反而，你在和别人沟通可以更自在。我真的懂了。如果，这个世界到最后你还是没人要的话，我会很乐意的陪在你的身边。只不过，我觉得那个可能性是零。人可以有梦想但是不可以幻想，对吧？只不过我这个人啊，很喜欢为梦想而活。无聊吧。

还有，那天令我的一个朋友不舒服了，因为我的说话令他很不爽。我开始觉得，我这个人是真的没有说话的艺术吧。就算做我这行是要很会讲话，可是有可能是我讲话不经大脑吧，很容易就过了他们的底线？做事情也是吧，这件事真的令我很困扰呢。我这个人啊，可能还是要一个人比较好吧。反正我一个人自由自在，也不用担心我会令到谁谁谁不舒服吧。因为可能我觉得这些事说说没关系吧，可是很多人会很介意啊，不管了。

很悠闲却很忧愁的一个星期天啊。我很想你，可是我已经不懂我应该怎么做了，对于人与人的相处，我已经到了一个迷宫了，我完全的迷失了。我啊，现在只想什么都不想的一天过一天。ohya, by the way last nite go drinking with wai hong rite, he finally has quit smoking. And he has keep himself away from ciggaretes for more than 2 weeks bor....Bravo my dear brothers.....Hope u can keep it up and not 2 come back 2 smoking once again. lol

i dunno what else to write as my feelings is very confuse. i have alotz in my mind. But my mind shall keep it in my mind loh. because i have no way to sort it out nicely and type it out. Its all mixed up. Hope everyone enjoy your beautiful sunday loh. take good carez as alotz of people are sick recently. Have fun and relax.

-seng-

Flyday....

2011-03-04T03:46:00.000-08:00

Friday, Its suppose to be the best day of the week. Plus, My manager has went to HQ for manager meetings the whole day. Sounds fantastic isn't it. I also thought of it this way. But then, i think due to last nite drank too much with sean and david they all for sean's farewell already. So im suffering a difficulties of swallowing the food into my mouth. The food is actually tasty de.yummy yummy. Then nvm, i have a new colleague . Frankly speaking she is not doing anything and alotz of common sense she dun have as this is her first job and this is the first 2 days of working. But, i find her a lil bit strange strange and weird weird one. More like come here work is to stalk the bf only. Cause her bf work in UOB which is just near by. But its only my feelings lah.

Then, i feel so tired when im back to my old routine way of working. Where i have 2 work everyday. Because my boss just tell me only sunday i can go look look in a launching of a super expensive project. Scary mou,and 2molo is a wonderful saturday but i need to go and explain to my customer and his loan application and signed another letter offer. Plus i am starting to take over everything in mortgage in the branch. including calling customer and chasing the lawyer. Well i find myself very ill and im going to be sick already and even if im sick i still have to go and work like a mad cow.hahahahaz, well no choice loh. Want to make that amount of money has to sacrifice wan loh.

And then afternoon accidentally make a friend of mine angry, well the word i say its just for fun only but somehow this word offended her. I din mean it but then its okay anyway. Already have a tough day and i din wana explain much anymore. I respect that everyone can have their own feeling. But im still gonna be who i am. Although im a sales person which do not really know the art of talking of the art of interacting with people. If dun like, So be it bah. Im too tired over everything already.

A disaster friday 2day bor. i wish i could talk to u about all this in details. i truly wish. i missing u so much and i miss those time we can have a long long conversation. Its really sweet. Haihz, wake up wake up bah. I will be fine. Everything will be okay. And i will be sick soon but still okayz.

Take carez everyone. tataz

-seng-

Time fly........

2011-03-02T05:51:00.001-08:00

Hey Hey, as my title show lah really time's fly. And March is the month im back on business. Everything we have it back on track. Our sales staff all working everyday except sean which loves to come late. And besides this, he can consider no longer in the branch as he come to branch and waste time only. But still appreciate where he help out to service all the problem customer. And this give me more time in doing my own thing. i have more processing and market value checking that i have been doing it on my own. Once in a while ask people to help me check but result not so encouraging. Hahaz,well more and more submission makes me confident about the money im gonna get.

But still very tired over alotz of thing. I need a rest to neutralised my body because i know my body cannot take it when i alwiz use it to the maximum..i shall take some rest. So recently i have more blank moment where i dun think. Cuz that way i can really rest my mind and my body just plain listen to music only. And the changes is starting to take place already as she start to shift things to my side. Start to delegate to me and start to teach me how to face service issue and things like that when she is not around. To be very honest, she treat me really much nicer compare to others. So im really sad about someone who take care of me leaving already. But i must be happy for her as this is a career advancement for her. And i know i can make it on my own even when she has left because im super okay.

And oh so many things happen here and there. Didn't wanna list out all as im more and more tired to write as my work loads goes more and more. But its a good sign because it means my sales is coming in. I'm making alotz of money and i want to have more. because im a superstar.

And i miss you.

-seng-

After all the celebration

2011-02-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

Hey hey,recently have been very very busy oh. Bcuz its my big day on 25th february ah. So i have alotz of celebration going on through the weeks. But still miss out some of the friends. really have to thank all of them so nice. roughly is about drunk drunk and chat chat. But of cuz not to forget my mom did cook for me on my birthday. Lovely mee suah soup as my breakfast. and i received alotz of wishes from everywhere. Wishes through the phone,via sms,via facebook or face to face wish. Well i think this year birthday is one of the sweet one.

And then yesterday nite went to zouk KL and club. i have to say that i find myself too old liao. Because i dun think i enjoy in the club but im tired. Maybe because we did not plan nicely or whatever it is. End up we only have 2 buckets of heineken. and 2 big glass of long island. And its very awkward that 2 of my dear mei mei's friend is very quiet and they stay at a side. I dunno how but pity them. By the way the song is not too nice anyway in zouk last nite.

And, supposing alotz of thingz i wanna write but come to here once again im blank. i dunno why oh. By the way is gonna be a big change cuz my boss is gonna make a move and leave us already. And hopefully im still able to survive loh. bcuz i dun know how will our new boss like. Can the new boss handle usj trouble???i doubt so but hope for the best loh and prepare for the worse.

Oh well, And i miss u alotz alotz. but then...........hahaz

Dun feel like writing suddenly. Cuz something in my mind. lol

-seng-

2day is toufu 21 years old birthday

2011-02-23T09:22:00.000-08:00

Well, actually everyday for me is tiring and work is boring. Recently heard bad news ah.boss has went to KL to meet big bosses. And she have spoken with me that there is a chance that she going to take up an offer of the management and go for a higher position. And then we will be fighting on our own for quite some time. I heard this and I'm very sure if she goes then sure there will be another adapting moment with the new manager liao. Kinda boring with it.

And then, alwiz going here and there make me tired. Doing sales is kinda tiring now i feel. But bcuz of what i get in return so i dun mind being tired. I enjoy work hard. And by the way, its my toufu 21 years old birthday leh. This younger brother is so cute so everyone is wishing him a happy birthday and i have did a lil bit in ruining his wall by adding some not relevant comments there. Hope he didn't mind loh. And he really grow up adi loh 21 as his studies also finishing. So i think after august everything will be real smooth in the house. I mean financially and mentally. Eveything should be good liao. hugs.

And then, 2molo im gonna meet all my ah meiz to celebrate my birthday. And people do ask me out on my birthday to celebrate also. But i think im kinda tired and plz plz plz, i dun wana eat any cakes and i dun wana cut any cakes oh. i am thinking if i can pass it alone oso not bad. But this year is different. I think should hang out with all this friends ya as they so nice ask me out and thought of celebrating it for me. I shouldn't hide myself liao loh.

And ohya, 2day drink with ah yong again. cuz im bored and wanna go lil bally for some music. So we drink and then derrick come. a long lost brother. Last time alwiz 3 of us kena sound by them. We have some fun by sitting there and playing the dice. Chating some old jokes. Really great to hang out with them.

And i still miss u. Birthday wish this year is a bit unique but can't tell or the wish will not come true liao. xoxo.

Good nite and take carez everyone.

-seng-

whualiao

2011-02-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

Dunno why ah, actually many things happen de. And everytime when thingz happen, i also feel like write down every single one here but when im sitting in front of this laptop i find it fucking lazy.hahahahaz,i guess i only write once in a while bah then lazy adi gua.....hahahaz,by the way, recently is about seeing many many cakes and about k-pop. Really addicted liao hahahaz,but im more into their dance hit plus rap rap. not so into their love song i think. even now im listening.

Then ah, yesterday celebrate another friend's birthday at neway. However dun like the service as the guy that providing shit service and having shit sentences. like normally u go karaoke when u wanna choose song sure got picture de mah. Then suddenly dun have and then we ask him. He replied, What is your problem with no picture??? And he say every room also got picture EXCEPT this room. And he think we will be fine with it and so happen in the room there is people that dun like it. And he change it for us after a while its back to normal. But the way he talk is seriously annoying. And there is many incident as well but im too lazy to list it down. Luckily he did not spoiled their mood. But dunno y the birthday girl got upset and cry after that. seriously sad wei. dunno why. And few more days is my birthday already and i only wanna hide at home and not going to anywhere. i dunno why but i wanna pass my birthday peacefully without any celebration. I think this is the best way i enjoy my birthday.

Suddenly i am like back to those time where i love to stay alone. i enjoy that. Alotz of space for me to think think nonsense. And daddy looks moody dunno why. I think he is very very bored bah. mommy sound me say, u ah, everyday go out go out. sumore till so late. if no go out then stay in front of the PC till late. Can u let urself really rest by going to the bed ah. i am like, wooookayyyy...but didn't do as usual. how naughty.

dunno what to write liao. Kinda blur. nitez and take carez lah. rest more.

-seng-

4 more days 2 go.

2011-02-20T05:49:00.000-08:00

well, have alotz of negative feelings before and i can't say i have already recovered. However, yesterday toufu celebrate his 21st birthday with a party at home. So preparation also took us quite some time loh, then hor, people coming one by one. And this party is quite a happening one as everyone bring present and chit chat chit chat. Not too bored as everyone is entertain. Then a cake was presented roughly about 10 bah. and toufu become cream man. And while he is chasing those that make him creamy and causes a girl fall into where i put ice and all the cold drinks. Luckily she is not wet or else we dunno how 2 apologise to her. And the party carry on till late that nite. roughly about 5 o'clock only we sleep. So freaking tired.

And then, 2day wake up adi go work. what a boring life. no choice loh. doing paperwork. but once reach taipan. Halfway walking i find my pants more lose adi. And then it almost fall off and i realise the button drop so the pants cannot hold. And im too lazy today so i din wear belt.regreted this. then do works come back dinner and then now sitting in front of pc.daily routine.

And ohya, another 4 more days. hope can pass it through peacefully like last year.

wish everyone healthy and happy.take good carez.

-seng-

Negative

2011-02-18T09:24:00.000-08:00

I'm very negative this few days.its getting worse and worse so im not going to write down the reason. Alotz of thingz happen at work. I'm really exhausted.i dun wana have a negative blog so i will update again soon. Only thing 2 say its 2day a group of friends already celebrate my birthday by eating at a very expensive restaurant. of cuz not only me lah. another 2 little kid as well. 4 table eat up to almost 5k i think. With an angpau and kisses. Im much better after that. So 2molo will be Toufu 21 years old birthday celebration. need to cheer up to make it a happening and happy one.

Continue smiling.Keep smiling.

Hope u r doing fine. Missing u.

-seng-

another public holiday.

2011-02-15T05:55:00.000-08:00

yay,public holiday suppose to stay at home or go hang out with friends.but my holiday is go back to branch and do some paperwork. and i did some work in the branch and its so fucking boring to do. Then i go to sunway pyramid to look for present. bcuz toufu big day is coming and im suppose to get him a wallet. So i did look for a nice one. Braun Buffel new arrival oh....i think the colors suits him alotz. My mom heard the price of it she got shocked and say: Mothers day and my birthday is coming my son.hahahahaz,she hint. And i have some random chat with her.

Then ah i din do anything 2day bcuz im trying to cheer myself up. I have been emo for a while so i go watch all the funny funny and laughing de video include my whole day 百分百娱乐。all the lame jokes. cuz when i smile i can make myself feel better. Because im very sure the coming three days will be another 3 difficult days again. i will meet alotz of harsh customer again. I can do it and i dunno what else to write as im still trying to make myself feel good. 2molo only upload again lah.

p.s. 2day still see alotz of couples wondering in the shopping mall. So sweet. Hope everyone happy happy lah.Take carez.

-seng-

Valentine!!!

2011-02-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

Okay lah, yesterday was emo emo emo. Then drink some beer beer in the room. Emo for a reason but didn't wanna tell. then whole nite doing nothing basically just watch youtube only.all kinds of songs that i may get. And when the mood is emo of cuz look for emo song lah. Just trying to make myself emo to the max already and then feel happy again. Then listen listen i feel sleepy adi then go sleep. Cuz really din wana do anything.

Then ah, 2day came. 2day as per the title shows, Happy Valentine everyone. Let me think, i think this is my 4th single de Valentine le bah continuously. i think so. But this year i dun feel so lonely like all the previous year. i feel calm and easy. Because i know i need 2 change into a better person first before i can talk about anything further. Even there may not be any chance. But i still will do it. And see everybody around also sweet sweet de. So happy. On facebook only see all the sweet sweet stuff. Really happy for u all lah. Even there is still single de sound very pathetic but i think they will manage to get someone soon bah. Wish u people can find ur loves one loh.

Then ah 2day at work super busy ah keep on received calls and move left right. And since im back from trip i have been solving problem already. 2day there is one customer. he call in. He wanna look for david or sri. And i answer then i ask how can i help. he say he wanna speak to them regarding a problem. Then i ask what is it regarding Mr customer. Then he say: What the Fuck u regarding regarding. I'm coming over to fuck u people. Fuck u. Ask ur manager to fucking ready. I want to see your manager. You Fucking stupid people. and then duuuu duuuu duuuu duuuu. I answer phone to help out u customer and this is what i get. How awesome. I have been receiving this type of response for continuously 2 weeks. Most of them a lil bit more polite but this one......My Valentine Day seems entertaining right. And then, its not the end yet. After a while more, another customer call in. He tell me his name and he ask for my name. i say ang from Hong Leong. Then he say, i know u hong leong,i wanna know ur name ur name. Then he say y my loan i already pay off last year now still got balance. y u tell me. i check and say,Sir u have not pay in full. u only pay partially and there is still few hundred balance that u have 2 clear it. he got annoyed and say, hey u blind or what. i pay already. and then he no no no no u shut upp.i already pay what sumore u people wan. Then i got stunt and verify with my operation. Luckily chai help me handle this customer by saying i will send email to HQ to investigate and call u back. and she is very patient to do it. Really have 2 learn from her. And this is my beautiful Valentine afternoon.

Then because i have booked for injection 2day. So i drove down but the traffic is very jam i think because of Valentine and i rush till KL is already evening. then stuck stuck stuck and reach the Specialist i think the sun already gone home bah. then luckily they still allowed me to go in although im late for more than 1 hour. so im placed as last in the waiting list. Cuz there is super alotz of people. My usual queue is 2 to maximum of 4 hours. 2day i only waited for i think 1 hour then my turn adi. How interesting. By the way,i date him on my valentine bor. This old uncle that gonna inject all over my face. hahahaz, then when finally it reach my turn. He see me only say injection ah,i say yes loh. Then he very fast take out the needle and whateve need to be prepare. He place the needle all over and i really feel pain. I think its because i have not inject for very long time thats why. i find it so pain ei.......even now i still feel the pain after few hours. and i look bloody.hahahaz

Then all the way traffic congestion till home again. really dun like valentine loh. But got no choice have to stuck in the traffic for another i think 2 hours only i manage to reach home. all the cars is so rude on the road and i dunno how 2 explain in words. Finally make it home and then shower. eat and then now sit in front of the monitor and im quite tired liao. Got the feeling that i can sleep anytime like that. Maybe because of the injection maybe because of the work. I find myself so exhausted.

And then, i am still missing u. There is alotz of time i wanna call u and tell u i'm missing u so much. i wanted to tell u how much i wanna hold u. i wanna hug u and i love u. But i didn't,not even a sms. bcuz i cannot imagine what is ur response anymore. As previously u ask me not to say this type of things anymore. i am a lostie. So lost and blur. And i will change into a better person.really will.

raining heavily again like yesterday...Happy Valentine everyone. have a sweet one.

Nitez and surga dreamz.

- SENG -

星期日

2011-02-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

今天一早醒来，就需要把心情调整好。因为要去小学老师家拜年。可是又没睡好。其实还蛮糟糕的。然后就拖着疲累的心情去拜年。一到老师家很多个都已经到咯，老师也不记得我啦因为一年没见了。不过不要紧，一到他们就想开饭了，不过我很累叻又不饿结果就闪一边去看他们吃饭。

然后不久志雄也有来。很少很少会见到他，可是见到他之后没什么特别的感觉。就比普通朋友更普通的普通朋友。just hi and bye.lol, 然后吃完以后也没什么东西做就聊聊天。我看看报纸。他们南天地北的聊。有些却很无聊的坐一旁。等人都到齐之后，我们再次捞生。我已经不会算这是第几次啦。然后吃完开溜，继需看我的报纸。然后他们就开始赌啦。今年一如往年啊没什么兴趣赌。在他们赌到一半才加入然后玩一下子就走啦。

接着就去找客人做一些事情。完了以后就去sunway pyramid因为想找一个好的钱包给我就来要二十一岁弟弟的生日咯。不过有可能因为明天就是情人节，整个商场都是情侣噢。或是帮情侣买礼物的人。我却变的好像很奇怪酱。然后因为这些人挤人我根本没有机会好好的看。所以啊，星期二早点醒然后去买咯。

心情不懂怎样解释。很复杂。希望我身边的人都过的幸福快乐。包括你。

今天天气和心情一样。

- 申 -

以前，以后-Alin

2011-02-11T22:05:00.000-08:00

作词：姚若龙作曲：金大洲

本来总是牵着的手
现在怎么各自寂寞
你在抽完烟後还要忙什么
本来总是浪漫炽热
现在怎么被动冷漠
你的心里是否还剩下温柔
假如我提的每个梦
你都觉得沉重
我还能够做什么
是放手或泪流
以前说的不是这种以後
快乐不该变得像彩虹
都要让大雨淋过才短暂拥有
以前要的不是这种以後
感动被生活辗过
爱情就磨成了寂寞

本来总是牵着的手
现在怎么各自寂寞
你在抽完烟後还要忙什么
本来总是浪漫炽热
现在怎么被动冷漠
你的心里是否还剩下温柔
假如我提的每个梦
你都觉得沉重
我还能够做什么
是放手或泪流
以前说的不是这种以後
快乐不该变得像彩虹
都要让大雨淋过才短暂拥有
以前要的不是这种以後
感动被生活辗过
爱情就磨成了寂寞

以前说的不是这种以後
心事不该窒息的锁着
相爱也不该变成
互相痛快的指责
以前要的不是这种以後
看幸福慢慢褪色
爱你值得不值得

心情极度的差

2011-02-11T07:53:00.000-08:00

如标题，今天的心情超级不好。什么也不想写，静一静然后去睡觉。明天再写过。一首歌代表心情。

曹格 - 丑角

作曲：曹格填词：阿丹

陪你放肆嬉闹开场前就应该明瞭
谁该买票谁扮丑角早註定好
只要你不无聊浓妆我就不会卸掉
努力讨好逗你欢笑多陪你一秒

我只是寂寞的解药
我也知道曲终人该散了

只要你开心就好若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处只给你祝福

你有权力寻找你最适合谁的拥抱
既然爱过还你自由我不哭不闹

我只是寂寞的解药
我也知道曲终人该散了

只要你开心就好若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处

灯灭掉人散了我开始找找不到
你尖叫你的笑跌了一跤
这双脚不知道怎麼逃伤痛煎熬
就留我独自枯坐墙角

只要你开心就好我只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好心裡对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处只给你祝福

working in this branch is tiring.

2011-02-10T05:06:00.000-08:00

Hey hey, last nite when ah nic they all reach my house is almost 10 o'clock liao loh. Then hor we dinner and some of them already eat just watch loh. Then pak and stephy late as usual lah. And they got lost while coming. So cute beh. Then they view view my house a bit. I think still tidy bah.
But my dad go upstairs loh as he shy got so many people come suddenly. He sleep in Toufu room yesterday. So cute.

Then not long after that we start playing cards lu. and until early in the morning oh. having fun while playing. but everyone seems tired bah i think. But still stay awake and play. im half awake half playing there.lol, until ah cy come over to play for me and end up she help me win alotz of money thim. But look at the clock ah,its already 4:30 in the morning and i got to be up in 2-3 hoours time.i make it 3 as im really sleepy. Then woke up oni brush teeth and everything then wear lense. fulaowei,i find it so pain eih....cuz have not sleep enough so when i put the lense in my eyes that time feel super pain leh...then check,oh fuck,have not iron clothes ah so fuck,i can only wear tee shirt thim. of cuz is hong leong tee lo.

aiyoh then drive there, traffic still okay. reach adi have breakfast wif sook yee. talk about how bad is the branch operating. so sweats and everything dun seems to improve thim. And problems rolls into more and more each day. And because im wearing that Hong Leong Tee 2day. So im like a moving directories and moving problem solver. everyone look at me then grab me straight away. And because of never rest yesterday. i really dun feel good. started to feel annoyed. And everyone don't seems to know how 2 solve problem. Help AH Help ah.y it has to be like this leh. Can deliver one Customer Service just to solve all the problem anot leh.

Then nvm, Help jason go pay his HSBC 2day. I feel so like a dispatch and customer service officer. i really really dun enjoy doing all this anymore. And in the end my own sales is not done. After that, boss and us have some chat. She talk alotz with me. She share with me the very pressure that she feel. and she say by this month is figure is not good then she is ready to go already. She plan to go for other department. or out from this branch. Unless she will be able to recruit more staff. I did talk to her about problems and what we face in this branch. She and i both got no choice but to bare with this. I really really hope this situation dun last for long. Hope to cure it as soon as we can.

Then come back home, dinner and shower wor. So tired cuz of last nite didn't sleep and 2day can't sleep cuz praying thim. Then come online and look see look see loh. then thinking whether should i go for the penang trip that they ask me to come. I dunno but i think i wanna go bcuz i wanna hide from blowing cakes. i wanna be low profile for another 2 weeks and then birthday over then can come out again. hehehez,and i wanna have some quiet moments. After the trip that is so quiet i wan more of this wind blow blow. So think think sumore loh.

dunno what to write sumore. dun really know what im writing as i am really not enough sleep. only 1 thing that i know. i miss u so much. but i have to face the reality and face the fact. i can only bring trouble and cause others feel uncomfortable right. truly wish u happy.

And i wish everyone's healthy and happy bah. May all the wish of u people come true lah.Take good carez yo.xoxo

-seng-

Impatience day.

2011-02-09T04:44:00.000-08:00

Well, 2day is suppose to be a good day as seventh day of CNY is everyone's birthday. Have a Great start while wake up. Then, reach there adi is early mah so mai go mam mam lo. Then finish it kinda fast then get my ass back to branch so early bor. But knowing that my boss will not be around as she go for sales meeting and im still there so early. whuakakaz, Bcuz every wednesday is our branch training day lo. Someone is suppose to train and we listen. 2day is Sean's turn to train. So he pick his core product Personal loan. Well fair enough as he is specialist. But he came late by a few minutes. Already consider good improvement lo. Then ah, i saw him start to print all the notes and things like that. So he didn't do his homework and he is not prepare with anything. And then nvm we start the training. He start to talk talk talk. But i believe that he never have enough preparation or should i say he never prepare at all. So i can see everyone's face look so blur. And i bet he dun even know what he is saying. I strongly believe so. lol, then one of them come to me, if ur boss is here she will surely smack him upside down. and the say when im doing the same training is so much different. lol,i am not happy but instead i find him dun respect his job and he dun respect us. But its okay as he is leaving soon. sigh

Then hor, branch open wor, And i cannot understand y izit already 3 days and the problem never go down at all. U know its like, super duper consistent leh 3 days in the role the branch is pack of problems. Customer basically is only complain and complain only. other branch doing lousy is our fault. They never teach customer also our fault. They never explain clearly oso our fault. And i look like a walking dictionaries to everyone. Once the sense problem then "ang ang ang" u know that doraemon song. i wanna be eng seng again and not ang anymore. I'm so tired of all this problem. As u know i dun even have the time to run my own sales. I'm too stuck up with all this shits. Haihz very very sad about this.

Then, Ah yong and michelle came to look for me for lunch. We had the tom yum. I think this is one of the nice one around. i strongly think so. But unfortunately im already so heaty and yet i still eat tom yum. So the result is me getting more heaty lo. And seafood. lol, well we have some random chat and they have to rush back to their branch already so tataz. and i get back to branch and continue with all the problems that we are facing. correction, i'm facing. Maybe this branch is not that bad lah i think, maybe is just that we keep on spreading negative charge around when we encounter problem. Maybe we can do it better. Maybe i shall keep myself positive right. Anyway, Stay and look see look see what i can do. Gambateh lo.

And finally go home. So freaking tired leh. Then not eating yet cuz ah nic,dex and jia xin not here yet lah. They are suppose come my house and get angpau i think. dinner together but they can only come late. So freaking tired and hungry. Then ah stock up a lil bit of beer as i dunno what they drink and i think vitagen,100 plus and wintermelon is too boring so some extra choice for them. lol, then bought corona extra which is my elder brother favourites but he is not here 2 drink. hoegarden which is not my favourite but alot of others do. Then heineken and tiger. Should be enough gua. But will buy again real soon i think as toufu is gonna celebrate his 21st Birthday wor......a Big one..... And thats all for now.

Still miss u, i regret that im so stupid dunno how 2 grab the opportunities. I wish i can be a lil bit smatter. a lil bit better and well manner. A lil bit more considerate. I'm thinking alotz. alotz now. "smile"

take carez everyone and happy birthday everyone. 2nite story i bet i have to write 2molo unless something pops up.cuz i bet it will end late bah. hehez

-seng-

got fucked in the head 2day...hahahaz

2011-02-08T04:50:00.000-08:00

2day is really a damm bad day wei....not that bad actually. Well, day goes like this. Woke up and the lazy lazy a while on the bed. then get up and get ready loh. Then after that go downstairs and take everything i need and go out adi. Once go in the car, hmmmm petrol finish liao.hahahaz,then go to pump. And then drive drive and go work. Once reach office there then go breakfast. As usual nescafe ice and Pan mee. Almost everyday same thing. hahaz,what a boring person. Then ah, go back to branch and wish boss Gong xi fa chai. As this is the first day she's back to work after so long. However, She instruct me alotz of thingz which my lovely colleague which is on leave never touch for so long. Cleaning shits session again i suppose. Then customer call me before we start working. Keep on calling to chase for her application. But im not the one handling it. So nevamind.

Then,check application that i have pass to another of my lovely colleague. very unfortunate because is a cancellation and im suppose to let my friend sign again. okay i have to drive out to do it and also, to collect a Supplementary offer letter from another customer. So early morning already drive here and there. Then get back to Taipan. Pay Citibank so bro can use the card. And then, pay maxis for jason as his bill is due and need to pay already. And then get back to branch and sweating. Well im really good at sweating. and then, alotz of customer come into the branch and asking about after sales again. Nobody seems to know how 2 handle and i have to handle most of them. Even deposits oso they ask me to figure out why they can't withdraw. And my colleague neva failed to ask customer come find me for all this beautiful "problems". So nvm in the end i get everything sort out and start doing the lose end for my "holiday-ing" colleague. And until im done with everything im already so tired wei. And 2molo i will have to rush all my outstanding work as alotz of customer is already chasing me for everything. Hey Hey im not superman and i dun incharge everything. Im already doing what i can do. I have done my best. Please understand lo......

Then when everything is done is already 6 plus?very tired so i decide to go home. Once i reach home daddy say his boss bought him a phone. cheap one but his boss at least is kind enough. He keep on asking us to put photo's put songs for him. Even he see us just came back and so tired. Toufu is tired too. we haven't shower and haven't eat. He never thought of that and just keep asking us. He is always like this. As long as we dun do things that he like he will start to grumble and show sulky face. And complain to everyone else that we r useless son. Especially me. hahahaz, then shower and dinner. And ohya, love my mom cuz last nite i got no appetite to eat at all. so i only drink soup. Then 2day mommy cook vege vege only. Cuz she say CNY eat too much meat liao. So she cook vege vege to neutralize it. And its delicious oh.

Then ah, still see that boy saying all the negative things 2day. But not so negative and he reply that message. He say, i understand that u guys worry about me. And im suppose to wake up. But im just expressing my feelings. But i think he dun understand what im trying to say bah. He still thinks they should be 2gether. She shouldn't have left him. But if she doesn't then how he realize her importance. Even though this is expensive but this is the price u have to pay when u take things for granted. Actually he makes me think of myself too. And im trying to be easy now. Dun think about all this for a while. Im treasuring moments spent with family and friends. And im happy that i started to know how 2 care about friends. I really do know.

And uhm, sometimes i do blank for a while. like daydreaming but i ain't dreaming. Just empty (most of my driving time). And most of my in the room time. I find it relax and peaceful while not doing anything. really 宅男. And im a person which alwiz look back. I know this sucks but i am not a person which can let things go easy. Too stuborn actually. But to be honest, Im very happy that i learn to appreciate and i care about others more. In a different manner. And ohya, some people say im a sweet talker. They are like, yoh y u so love to sweet talk ah,or sales people really can talk ah. But sometimes im not sweet talking lah im being honest. Maybe everything in my eyes seems so beautiful and great bah. I'm sincere de lah.

Ohya, my mom say u look very pretty. And she thinks u r my ahem ahem. But we r not and i told her that. Then my dad oso thinks u r my gf and he tell my mom, that girl look so pretty and very well manner. They like u so much but i tell them sorry la.ur boy is too evil for such a nice girl loh. Maybe next life bah. hahaz, i dunno but i hope u r happy. And i will miss u. Alwiz do.

Thats it for 2day bah. I think i wrote a lil too much le bah. Hope everyone around me are happy and sweet sweet after that. And im happy now. Really relax. siao liao...hahahaz

Take carez everyone.

-seng

stay positive and be positive...im fine,im fine.

2011-02-07T02:29:00.000-08:00

hey hey, 2day is the first working day after Chinese New Year bor. So woke up adi go breakfast and smoke smoke. still not well as the day before. My throat is kanasai and flu flu flu. hahahaz, then get back to branch, wow, im not excited wor, u know why? because 2day is the first working days after Chinese New Year. already 4 days bank not open, and 2 staff on MC, and most of the residents around here is not working. So thank god I'm there. to handle all the lose ends and lets customer scold me or say me or complain a lil bit. They are so free bor as they can come and ask this ask that. And everything is like after sales or deposits or whatever. Thank you so much that everyone of u dun like to wait. So sorry ah if i have to make u people not happy. Cuz i oso thought Hong Leong is my father bank leh. Just realize is not and just realize everyone is the same so u people fucking go queue up please. Sorry for being a lil bit rude eh. hahahaz

And then, went lunch with ginger wor. Because ah have not seen her for quite sometime ah. Have to make an effort to catch up le. Listen to her current story that is not so good as many bad things happen. Injured and accidents happen. Pity her and we share some of our happenings. And everyone heard of my 2 weeks holiday all congratulate me. Well, u people think in a wrong way and i did explain a lil bit but u guys still think other way. But too be very honest. This 2 weeks is very precious and memorable for me.

And while going back to branch get a message. After this message im a lil bit down perhaps. But think about it,u have mentioned and tell me more than 5-6 times ba. I really should pick up this and set this in my mind. But somehow i just couldn't. Flash back, Is me myself which neva appreciate it before. and when its no longer there. i can't expect it to be there. But unfortunately im too stuborn to learn. way too stuborn. Anyway, have mentioned so many times, u r a very nice and kind person. And i think maybe is because of u r too kind. So u will entertain some of my stupid acts and behavior. And u r too kind and dunno how 2 tell me off. So i misunderstand it and this sucks. u say that u won't change and u ask me to not say till like that anymore. i really can feel it this time. i promise that i will neva use such word again. But then, i can't hide my feelings for u. People say times heal but i dun think so. But its not that bad anyway. As we human live on earth. May or may not meet someone we love. we may only meet someone we like and get marry and until the day that u die. u dun meet someone that u love. And im just so lucky, i get to taste the love from my granparents, my parents, my big big family, my good friends. my bosses and some of my customer. Everyone treat me so nice and i did take them from granted. i truly did. And i manage to find u somehow. And well, u did give me alotz of memories. great memories that i can never forget and keeps me going everytime im falling. Although thingz has change, but i dun think my feelings will change. i will save all those in my heart and never delete it. And i will alwiz behave like a friend,because i know u really dunno how 2 act on all this anymore. Everything i shall keep it in my heart,my blog that nobody's reading. I'm already so lucky as i have so many love. And i had urs before. I shouldn't be so greedy as i have tell myself before. As long as get to watch u for while is already good. So, as long as u can live happily and happy with the one beside u. I should be happy for u right.

But i can't say it doesn't affect me. Well it does and then i have to do some emotional control and adjust. Is not that i wanna act but i dun wan anyone that love's me worry about me. They thought im in love so be it. They thought im happy so im gonna be happy and keep myself happy. And i dunno. Right now i dun wana do anything not even eating as i really dun have the appetite. not in the mood. So now i think best is i sit down quietly in my room to sort out my thoughts and putting on a smile again on my face later or latest by 2molo morning. And i have to stop dreaming liao.

I truly wish u happy,and being in sweet sweet condition. Hope ur smile is there alwiz. I really miss u. Take good carez.

-seng-

After that something happen so im gonna top up a lil bit, There is a guy which reminds me of myself. He do blog blog as well, His blog and mine is also to express feelings. His is also about someone that have left him. Its also because he have take her for granted. And His blog also sound like is her fault that cause this break up. Like what i used to write. So negative yet not entertaining. And so shameless and never thought of own doing. And neva think of ownself mistakes. I really did smile while im reading his. I have been reading people's blog but this one really similar. Well i send him a private message after all. I said, dun make ur blog sound so negative. Sounds like she owe u. Sounds like is her fault that cause the break up. And Sounds like u r innocent. What is done is done. And nothing can change it. So why not appreciate those memories and wish her all the best. And hopefully she is happy with her life now even if it has to be without u. And if she has a bf, hopefully he can do much better job to make her happy. I told him, Im sharing with u and im not saying u. Hope u dun get offended. Only real friends will tell u what is right and what is wrong. U told me that. And i think this is the right thing 2 do bah. By the way did tell if u both are meant to be then u both will be. Mean time u need to upgrade urself mentally. Have some self development perhaps. Hahaha, i dunno if its too mean. But im sincere that i dun wana see him like that. I hope he can pick up what im trying to share. And i told him that im sending u this message because i did what u r doing. lol,hahahaz.

Okay lah,really finish liao. tataz,update again 2molo.

-seng-(smiling)

4th day of CNY

2011-02-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

Because of last nite traffic congestion that cuz me sleep late..2day din wanna wake up early. However i woke up at roughly 10 o'clock. its should be later but i din sleep so long because my 4skin kaki's is droping by my house again wor. So woke up and read newspaper,watch some TV and then go bring them in to my house. Although they came so many years but still they failed to recognised way to my house...well has change alotz mah. So they drop by and then of cuz get angpau from my mom and then get a drink.

Then not long after we ciaozz to One Utama to watch movie and lunch. We reach there kinda late and shiroi is queuing. However the queue is too long and the ticket is too little. So we decide not to watch but go lunch instead. Went to enqures Kitchen or something similar. I and Kar Fai had rice while the rest have noodles. Won't say its nice but definitely its not hard to swallow. so so only lah. After eat aalready we walk around the building but seems like nothing much to see as we have too big crowd i think. 6 person walking wanna see oso difficult de. Then after a while we decide to go Cineleisure to continue look for tickets.

And so we drove to Cineleisure and try to get tickets. They queue a while and then the ticketing officer says, if 10 minutes later that person which is suppose to collect their ticket didn't come as they reserve only. Then we wonder around again to wait for the tickets. 10 minutes later we walk and queue at there again. Then finally the ticketing officer give us the tickets. By the way we are watching All's well end's well again. I had watch with my mom and toufu. But its a good movie. First time watch is funny. 2nd time watch im looking into their love story. Some of the points really hit me. As i find it so similar just like something i have experience. And something i always wish it can happen. Different view on the same movie.

Then, we came out and chit chat chit chat as they are talking about where to. The 4 of them look for their mom and another follow. However i din wana follow as im heaps tired already. So, i drove home and they all go to Sunway Giza there. Their mom open stall there by the way. or working there i dunno. They ask me to drop by their house around 11 something as they will have people coming too. But then im just too tired to do anything as i need to work by 2molo and days after. So many days wor.

And i need some alone moments. I really need as im real tired after all. and i miss u very much. Hope u r doing good. Alots of thingz cannot be explain by words. But hope u feel it.

Good nite everyone. Sleep tight and continue having a properous Chinese New Year. Have lotza fun.

-seng-

what an exhausted day le!!

2011-02-05T09:41:00.001-08:00

2day wake up quite early due to last nite sleep quite early.But last nite sleep was not okay due to im having a flu and sore throat,actually i can't sleep as i couldn't breathe.so i sleep a while then i will accidentally wake up due to this reason.hate it so much. Morning, wake up and then online online again due to toufu is alwiz still lying on the bed refuse to move. lol, then we talk random stuff and i online until i think roughly 10 again bah,he woke up and in a while we get ready all go out to eat again. This time go to the old spot where the last time and the time before when we come we ate there. Previously order curry mee. Ohhh and i realise, when we r in Kuala Kangsar my elder brother only bring us to like curry mee, prawn mee,tom yum all this type of spicy food. No other food is nice wor in Kuala Kangsar. Really Funny. So i ordered wantan mee as i dun have choice. And we have to wait for almost an hour for the food to be ready. This coffee shop isn't that big.i do not understand why they need so long time to prepare the food and drinks. i really no no understand ah. Then one of the girl that help out the stall is funny, funny because i think everytime when i see her,she is also wearing the same top with the same pants. I mean all 3 times. i Told toufu this and he say,maybe this is her uniform when helping out.lol

Then ah, wantan mee not nice, so we finish everything still anyway. We leave and go get some newspaper. So once reach elder brother's home. i have read a chinese newspaper,an english paper and one chinese weekly paper. I'm bored like that. lol, and watching my cute little niece wondering around the house loh. She is so hyper and so healthy. Then ah, i online online again where actually dun see anyone online anyway. Just try to kill some time only. Then we go eat again about 2 something as we are too bored. Eat at the gate cafe again. But we heard bad news while eating. The highway is having a slow traffic oh...okay anyway we need to move from Kuala Kangsar to Ipoh to Cousin brother house for dinner. So elder brother suggest to use the old road instead of highway.a lil bit further but faster.

So his advise was accepted. We tried. And what the fuck is freaking jam also anyway. and heard radio say highway is not that jam. hahahahaz, but its a nice try though. So slowly move the car all the way to ipoh. Will miss that fatty and her daughter as the next time we see them will be long long time later already. So we took almost 1 and a half hour to reach a 35km spot. Reach there saw the same person is sitting on the mahjong table....others is helping out. So we did watch for a while and help out oso after that. toufu help by replace one of them play mahjong for few rounds. Then i help carry thingz to the car to shift food from auntie house to cousin house. After everything is done we move. From auntie house we drive to cousin house. And we r the 1st one to reach cousin's house. His house look much nicer dunno why. With another 2 dogs extra. Nice breed but i wouldn't know the name.Only know its from Taiwan. Then we sit down and do nothing and watch them.

After a while when my mom's siblings arrive then the dinner start. Self service de food oh. Basically no vege but all meat. So we have a lil bit of everything. mommy seems very very happy when hang out with her siblings. She even drink oh...Gold label leh...So cute. But only 1 glass and she look for gunner liao(which is me). They talk about alotz of random thingz. of cuz there is joke joke around too. i also have not seen them for at least 2 years bah. Will send mommy up again bah. Bcuz we have to leave today to avoid 2molo super jam. as im starting work early on monday. Next time get her to stay a few days loh. Sure she will find it excited wan loh. What a bad bad son i am. lol

And then while come back,the traffic is already terrible. Imagine from Ipoh to my house take almost 3 and a half hour. i really neva think of this before. and bcuz its late nite so its dark with so many cars. I'm really tired wei. and most of the time we r on emergency lane as thats the fastest lane we have. Of cuz is the Highway maintenance team lead us there lah. 2day already so terrible so i imagine 2molo will be the end of the world on the highway i bet. And once reach home i go shower. While shower i can feel that my hand and my leg is shivering. Shit man, im really getting so sick and so tired leh. Help me ah....

And, i miss u alotz alotz. Have not hear from u for a long time....i heard u r sick and still flu and cough. Hope u can get well soon loh. I'm really worry about u. Please do Take good carez of urself there. Xoxo,Gd nite.

Wish Everyone Happy and have a better day 2molo.
- Seng -

2nd day of Chinese Lunar New year

2011-02-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

okay,lets start with last nite when im feeling sick and i got too tired. So i just lie down at the living room here without wearing shirt and slept. younger brother online still.i thought i would be snoring but very funny, i didn't snore instead. slept till i think about 5 o'clock then i feel the cold.go upstairs and look for blanket.1 for me and another for toufu. As i think he is cold too.hehez, then sleep a while and wake up a while and sleep a while and wake up a while again. roughly about 9 something 10 o'clock like that finally i woke up because my elder brother,my mom and my niece all came downstairs and start making noise already. So i woke up and online for a while there. When toufu wake up then we decide to go out for breakfast.

So elder brother drive us to a place where i dunno where but still in the Kuala Kangsar City. Then we reach there elder brother say got tom yum,curry me and dry curry me.Well im having a sore throat. So i have to take something else. Pan mee is the only choice i got. and i have my white coffee as usual. and of cuz i took alotz of random photos of my niece and my elder brother. As i hardly can do so. Then, we finish our breakfast and return home. i start to online again and view here view there.view alotz of thingz that may change my living. and how to. Then also some random folders clean up. Have read some old photos,old videos. Sometimes really regret that something that i have done has made me further from u. If i ever get a chance to hold u again. But well im not gonna complain in anywhere but just here,my blog wheres nobody is reading anymore. I'm just gonna express my feelings a lil bit. Anyway as long as u r good and happy then im happy too.

Then ah, mommy cook some chicken and pork and rice. So we have our lunch in the house. and my niece is actively wondering around the living room. everything is out of control. But its fun to see such hyper kid because she reminds me of myself when im small. Unfortunately the cane i gotten from my parents is way much more than what she had. But can't compare,she is much more cuter and lovable. Then i think about 4 o'clock like that we decide to drive to my mommy relative side.

So about 30 minutes drive then we reach there. my cousin and cousin-in-law and one of my auntie is playing mahjong. One of the auntie is not there. and another couple is here. So i and toufu sit down quietly to watch them play.we laugh when we see alotz of funny funny moves by them. mommy seems happy to hang out with her siblings. I truly understand that she miss them so much. Her face expression tells. then almost 6 o'clock cousin-in-law go back with my cousin. So toufu replace her and gamble with cousin and auntie loh. At least he manage win 1 game. And the auntie win all the way for 5 games. Then toufu win the last. pityful cousin dun win a single game. But the way he play he din wana win any games i think. he just dun wana lose alotz only.

So and then, we went to have dinner at dunno what sky river/sky rainbow or sky something. its very very pack in there. they book a table but its full. So they arrange another table and we are sitting at a corner near toilet. cousin's both with their partner and me,toufu and mommy sit on a table. With all the vege's is full wei. Plus those thingz that they have order is not nice to eat. Taste like i dunno. Even mamak can do a better job. Or maybe im half sick already. So thats y.

Then we went back to auntie house again. mommy talk with all the auntie's there. Then tracy called, so we went yum cha at somewhere near by as she is at the place very near to where i am. We sit down at mamak and have alotz of chat. But we dun seems to talk about alotz of thingz already mommy call. She say wanna go back adi. Its a nice catch up session. But if it can be longer it will be just great. She seems upset with what his ex is doing. But its okay,if u both are meant to be then will definitely be together. At least thats what im thinking.

And then pick up mommy and come back to elder brother place. shower shower and then come up and blog. feeling a lil not so excited. Maybe im tired. or maybe is because of .....................

Anyway,Hope everyone can get alotz of angpau and eat everything. Stay happy and take good carez.

I'm still missing u. Alot Alot. Nitez. xoxo

-SENG-

大年初一

2011-02-03T06:31:00.000-08:00

因为昨天的很晚睡和前一晚的没睡令我的身体很不舒服了。我已经要生病了，救命啊。不过还是很早醒来因为很多有心的朋友都寄短信来。以及因为今天我们需要到我哥哥那里。嘻嘻，本来是三个小时多一点。可是因为非常的塞车，我们用了五个小时吧。累惨啦。到了那里我们就去看看哥哥家有没有疏菜，看了以后觉得还是出去吃比较好。

哈哈，我可爱的侄女以经忘了我们全部人。她变的比较害怕我们了不知道为什么。她甚至连和我们说话都没有了。真的很不明白。可是看到她健康的长大就好啦。哥哥就变胖了咯，我也胖啦。然后是吃的东西啦，我们叫了一个芋头扣肉，一个清炒菜心花，一个姜葱鱼片和一个葱油豆腐。真的不是很好吃，味道非常的普通，吃饱了就回家咯。

回到哥哥家之后，我就去冲凉啦，然后就一家人一起看the A-team. 真的很不错的一部戏。我很少有的看了两部戏，在两天里。然后就上网以及三兄弟聊聊天。很久没做的事情。然后啊，我就写了这些有的没的。基本上都没做什么的一天。

不过，我很想念那些日子，更想念你。希望你的新年还不错吧。

最后，祝大家新年快乐，心想事成，万事如意，想要什么有什么，天天开心。

- 申 -

除夕

2011-02-02T11:04:00.000-08:00

今天啊，因为昨晚的很夜睡，或者更贴切是没有睡。然后大概是7：40 我就起床冲凉，洗脸以及刷牙。然后把所有东西都做好了以后你也醒了。然后到你准备咯。本来是要在9点之前到可是我们很迟才到。不过幸好没有影响到你上机。很快的把所有东西都整理好而你也必需要离开了。我非常的不舍得但没办法。我慢慢的目送你的离开。在很无奈的心情下离开机场。

然后回到去当然是做工咯，可是很坦白，我的没有睡令我根本没办法做任何事。我只是觉得不舒服而已。有一种会吐的感觉。哈哈，不过还好。然后很勉强的待到4点多下午，送文件到我们的贷款中心。然后就回家了。太累了。想躺在床休息一下，可是失败了，因为电话不停的响，而且很多人都跑到我房里打扰我。结过就没睡到。之后汉文也到了。团园饭开餐啦，丰富的食物令我们都吃了很多很多。汉文也很开心因为他很久很久没吃过住家饭了。

饱餐过后，我们就聊天，聊了很多东西，再来就去冲凉了。因为我们全部人一起去看戏。看那套最强囍事。真的非常好笑，从开头笑到离开。但是中间它会有很多值得学习的部份，例如爱情观啦，幸福啦，还有钱啦，以及了解女人。看完了我们就离开咯。我们就到了拜拜地方。逗留了很久。

终于在现在3：27 零晨可以写部落格，但是很明显的在我没睡觉45小时后我的头脑很空，我好像不知到我自己在写什么这样。很晕

希望你玩的还开心吧，保重啊

- 申 -

1st day of February

2011-02-01T08:26:00.000-08:00

Well, 2day is busy day because Chinese new year is coming, and Federal Teritorry is Holiday. So alotz of customer came to branch to do whatever they wanna do. Like Cash out money and stuff like that. the queue is superb as it can achieve higher than 50 person waiting.and actually in fact what i observe is more than 75 bah. And as usual alotz of customer has come to me and they have done the routine thingz.complain complain and complain. Oh well, Hong Leong is not my father bank, besides all u people comes together of course have to wait loh. As a standard transaction take only 5 minutes but u guys come and give us something extra which definitely is gonna take more than 15 minutes.u can't blame us,u have to queue.

Mood was not affected as its suppose to be happy. and im still happy and handle all those lose ends. And about 1 i left the branch to snake.hahahaz,it means to run away from working and doing something else. And well, Something else is much more important than working. Will work super hard when i come back from chinese new year hopefully. As i have been busy since im back from travel and i have not really rest myself yet. And because of that my body is super heaty and i can feel that pimples coming,sore throat coming,and alotz more.basically im just hot hot hot.

Come back to snake-ing. I went off already and then i go home to change. lol, i still have time to change (smile). Then rush to the LCCT to pick u up. As i say,can't wait to see u and im happy that im seeing you for the third time this year.i love starting of the year when i can see you. Wish i can have more. i really wish. but its okay, then ah, waited a while in the LCCT and you arrive. Then we go get a drinks in Starbucks. i bought my as usual Espresso Frappucino and u say i can buy u anything in liquid form. I'm like,u dun like coffee, and u didn't want ice lemon tea anymore as u had enough of it. and i dunno what else i can order but Green tea latte ice. And u say y r u alwiz buying me green tea....lol, so i bet u had enough of green tea too. Then we go to Sungei Wang straight away. But the Access to Sg wang is super super jam. So i figured that i change and park it in Times Square. And we walk over to Sg.wang. And so lucky we find a parking in Times Square real quick. Then we walk up and u saw a store full of hair accessories. Then, u went inside and bought a hair clip. Then we walking around Sg wang to check ur stuff. And u didn't wanna c anything and u want a hair cut. So we walk around and i suggested snips.. Well,u went in and explain how u wan it. She seems like she understand. And she call herself professional stylist. Unfortunately she cut it not the way u wanted. So u got pissed plus u r tired....i can really see your dissapointed face. To be honest i find it shorter makes u look more Independence and capable. And still as pretty as before.

Then we walk around and u sounds upset with ur hair,well i will grow in a bit.dun get too worried. And then we walk around to see clothes, u get urself a glasses. a freshkon color lens. And also a top. Talk about this top, the girl is super persuasive and pushy. Keep on demonstrating when we only wanna get a top. So end up u got pissed and get a grey Top which is the nicest. i bet u may not like it but u buy because she has been serving u for so long with her attitude bah. hehez,then went watson for u to buy some cosmetics and we spent some time there.

Then roughly about 9:30 we get away from sg wang to go back times square,i can really see that u are super tired. but u still make an effort to catch up with wai hoong. Really kind of u. Then we reach Taipan where i work. And we bought the Bah gua there. Well u were on the phone talking about how your auntie ruin everything in jakarta. I cannot imagine if i have meet someone like this?i dun think i can react to what they have done. then u were talking to ur mom and u order bah gua. the order taking person looks fierce. hahaz, anyway, we bought and hang out with wai hoong. And station one is the place. We order a platter and din really eat as i have not eat the whole day so i dun have the appetite to eat anyway. Have some random chat and tease him a lil.Then we go home. As we reach home, bring everything up and u unpack to pack again. So im writing my stupid blog again. And well,its time for shower. Update again 2molo.

Take good carez. Im very happy 2day.

-seng-

期待

2011-01-31T04:48:00.000-08:00

不要误会啦，对于新年我没什么期待，我只是对你的短暂逗留非常的期待。哈哈哈，很无聊吧。由于我期待，所以我心情还不赖，虽然有很多很不开心的事情不断发生，可是我还能够保持开朗。先说回昨晚的星光吧，李佳微拿到冠军了，可是坦白说我更喜欢孙晓亮和小白，不知道为什么？结果很多人讨论因为她是马来西亚，芙蓉人叻。然后就去写了一些，过后就去睡啦。睡觉的时侯很开心，因为我又梦到你啦。在梦里我们没说话，就静静的在吹风。然后很快的闹钟就响啦，吵死人啦。

今天醒来后，就慢慢驾车去上班。到了之后就慢慢的去吃早餐，再慢慢的回去工作。可是一回到去就很勤劳的做东西。动作很快的帮人做东西，因为有两个同事一天到晚在蛇（偷懒），然后另一个就请病假，老板娘也很巧和的生病，得了两天假。加上他原本的假期，好爽啊。我却累惨啦。帮他们服务客人顺便被他们骂骂一下。都不是我的错，公司规定嘛。算啦，对于这些问题不放心上。哈哈

然后啊，其中一个同事他怀疑他的女朋友在劈腿。我就和他说，不要紧的，可能不是真的啦。就算是真的你也没办法啦，开心一点过日子吧。他好像接受不了吧。我觉的吃醋是一定有的，可是如果他离开你会更开心的话为什么不让她走啊，真的需要勉强吗？我不赞成咯。

再来，我们的messenger今天没把重要的文件拿回来，结果啊我需要跑到总公司去拿文件。拿了之后又赶去那个收文件的地方，赶在今天进。结果很快的就忙完了。忙完了我也不够时间去打针啦。只好慢慢塞车塞回家咯。看到马路上车来车往。多到很夸张叻。回到家后，因为无聊，所以我走路去那个以前长去的公园。到了之后就坐在一个角落发呆。看看青青的草，青青的树。还有就是那几个中学生。他们在打蓝球，可是他们的技巧以及基本功都很差很差。我也没有留意他们。不过我就是吹风与发呆我也坐了一个小时多吧。无聊可是我觉得很自在，也很久没那样做了。在我想回家的时侯，以前一起打球的朋友来了。就打了一下，不过人真的老了，跑不动啦。需要跑步来练气啦。打了一下就跑啦。回到家自接去冲凉然后吃饭。标准的生活。就是把东西做好了就上网，看了一些update就上来写写心情以及发生过的事情。

就好像题目说的酱，我很期待，也很无奈。

正在想你

- 申 -

what a day!!!

2011-01-30T04:12:00.000-08:00

Due to last nite sleep a bit late. of cuz 2day cannot wake up early loh...however rains start when im sleeping and woke up till 11 its still raining so common thing 2 do is to sleep. then i sleep again and then roughly about 1 something only i wake up. what a good rest that i have. So with such a good rest 2day should be fantastic...However, after i woke up,clean up and then had my brunch. Kon Lo mee with some curry. and a cup of nescafe. then after a while i decide to go out. I decide to go pavillion to get something. And only 1 thing.

So i drove my iswara which is still not done repair. air-cond is still not okay, and unfortunately is raining. Whuakakaz, so i still open window but then the screen everything start to cannot see lo.So i look damm fucking stupid like wiping the screen with my hand and stuck in the traffic for an hour bah...and then finally reach pavillion parking and look for a space. This take me another half an hour to get a spot. However i seems more lucky than others as i only use this short time. Then, i went to that particular shop in pavillion to get this present. And the do a standard wraping for me. with extra card to write a short message.

After that, i go to get another card as i think like this could be more appropriate bah. And this is fast, just a bit then i learn something new, with those purchase i can actually get a free parking de bor. Sounds good. Then i drive out from parking. Now go second spot which is Ampang Point. And fuck up things happen, The window i dunno izit too much of water get inside there the whole thing got stuck and cuz me can't adjust window anymore. and i realise my shirt sucks when those dirty thingz goes on my shirt. Then window still blur blur hazy hazy.

Then ah i go find that slippers in Ampang Point, But then ah, they got nomore stock leh. and they say most probably not gonna import the same stock le ah....a choice we have, see in other place as i notice recently there is a lots of shop selling this type of slippers. Hopefully can get it before she leave. haiyoh,and then worse part came,as the window cannot go down....the whole car is like a small genting.i can't see anything. or hardly can see...So i go back merely see the road condition and i struggle.roughly about 7 i manage to reach home....Although is just a short 5 hours but it makes me extremely exhausted. But look at the things that i bought. Worth it de....

Then after that, shower at home and then ah, go mamak eat nasi kandar with younger brother lo...bcuz he wanna rush home and watch that 超级星光大道7 总决赛。then ah we finish it real quick lo. And now finally settling down in front of TV, they are watching and i am doing my stupid blogging. i dunno why after this trip.i loves to write down some of my daily happenings or some of my feelings. i really dunno y. hahaz

Miss you much. Take good carez oh...

-seng-

很累的 last minute

2011-01-28T19:37:00.000-08:00

因为我两个星期的假期，我这个星期忙到超出我的预期。因为工作上的没人帮我，结果就是两个星期的空窗期。什么事情都没做到，变成我一回来就需要把全部都赶完。不过啊，现实就是这样的啦，没有人会帮你，就算他已经受到命令，就算他们都已答应在你休假的时侯他会帮你处理要紧事。但是所有人都是自私和懒惰的。没什么好怨的，自己已经有了一个很好的长假了，再辛苦一下下咯。反正去年都是这样一个人熬过来，今年也可以的。而且这个假期加上借了钱给一个好朋友，再加上新年，我的储蓄就一直向下啦。幸好还有几千啊。不然就死啦。哈哈哈。所以要更勤劳赚更多更多的钱。

然后就是我的新年准备啦，因为两个星期不在。所以大扫除和油漆都还没做，也还没买必须品。因为这个原因我在星期四的晚上，当工作已经很烦很累的时侯，我还需要拖着很疲惫的身体在油漆。当然我在油我最爱的浅蓝色咯，但是油到一半，两幅墙壁之后才发现漆不够。过后我必须在没办法里找办法。就是用其他的漆去配剩下那两幅墙。结果叻我用了很浅的青色来配。我都不懂是好看还是不好看。不过我自己觉的很舒服，很温暖的地方，我最自在的地方。但是不知不觉之中我才知道我油漆油到十二点晚上呃。累惨啦。

还有一件事想说，我啊，如果人对我好我会害怕叻。我不知道我怕什么，就好像我工作那里有个同事。他应该有四十吧。单身噢。她常常会对我很好的，连我旅行回来过后身体还没好。很热很不舒服，她会买一瓶不知道是什么但应该对身体好的饮料给我。说喝了会好。还有很多很多，可是我这个笨蛋啊，不懂珍惜不要紧，还要怕他。我甚至到了我家人对我好我都会感觉怪怪的。我的头脑应该是坏去了吧。

然后，星期五因为前晚油漆到很夜所以上班的时后很没精神。而且还有很多不懂是怎样来的问题一个接一个的来攻击我。很弱的我啊，虽然我知道我能够熬得过这些考验，但我很想告诉霓，很想听听你的声音。因为霓玖是我的动力。在星期五晚回到家后，我冲好凉之后就开始我的大扫除。因为所有东西都做好了。结果把一些东西丢了，把一些东西重新摆过。然后真的还蛮满意啦。很舒服的藏身之所。哈哈，然后十点酱顾客打来，问我能出来拿那个支票然后帮我进银行吗？小姐，我能够说不吗？好笑，结果明知道马路因为全部人都出来买东西而变塞车我都要出来。差不多一个小时后才到家。会到家想上网，可是我连接不到。弟弟又在打机。所以最后只好去睡觉罢了。

到今天，很早就醒了。今天和妈妈还有弟弟约好要去sungei wang plaza的。可是弟弟还没醒，结果我就先上网啦。然后检差了email一下。就写blog了。写到一半弟弟醒了，所以就出去吃早餐咯。吃好了就出发自接到那里。一如往常妈妈要自己走，而我和弟弟就四周围逛。我们临时买了些新年衣服。我们还去了pavillion闲逛。其实没有东西买的，只是带弟弟去看而已，因为如果没人带他他是不会去那里的。本来想买他一个钱包，可是他被价钱吓到了所以不好意思。没办法啦，只好自己去猜咯，然后希望我买的他还会喜欢啦。

逛了一天过后超级累，才3小时。那两个星期我逛整天都可以，我开始不了解自己的身体构造啦。奇怪的我。我真的很想念霓啊。

祝大家，
新年快乐，一家团圆，平平安安以及身体健康。
- 申 -

May i love you

2011-01-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

我要如何　才能擁抱妳呢
緊緊抱著　我吻妳妳附和
從朋友　晉陞情人角色
從苦澀　轉變成了快樂

把鑰匙交給了妳　妳卻轉身將我囚禁
在一扇叫做等待的門裡
妳試過　那麼多心的鎖
怎麼就不來開啟　我的愛情

Love you, Love you, May I love you?
Tell me what to do
才能讓你不孤單　我不孤獨　一起找幸福
當這個世界一步一步　華麗到荒蕪

請放心　我還是妳的信徒

Love you, Love you, May I love you?
Tell me you love me too
我可以繼續付出　付出就夠我滿足
不相信愛情對我　永遠(的)殘酷
我奢望　時間會為我祝福

看著我這樣投入　難道妳都沒有感觸
不接受至少給我些幫助
就說你感動到想要哭
多少能減輕一點我的痛苦

This is a song where at different age it brings different meaning to me. 2day alotz of thingz happen but im too tired to write down....will take a rest and write tomorrow. And I'm feeling this song now so i post.

take good carez. xoxo

i miss you

-seng-

好久不见！

2011-01-26T05:01:00.000-08:00

我啊，真的很久很久没回来了。因为去年实在发生了太多事情了，很多很多很难应付的难关。不过也庆幸老天爷给了我那么多的考验。就因为这些考验令我更明白很多事情。我觉得我真的变得更加可靠了，就算一个人也能够把家给撑起来。虽然很辛苦但是看到家人就已经很值得啦。

现在，事情像是平伏了下来。可是全家人的开销还是很大啊。我还是需要很努力很努力的赚钱，不过只要我抱持像去年一样的忙碌我还是可以有储蓄啊。只要我赚够了我就要想办法去实现我的梦想。我有信心我能够做到的。

i think i better write back in English. Because this part is about my wonderful trip has come to an end. This trip gives me back a lots of different feelings, and more desire to achieve my dream. And of course a opportunities to look at other place which is not KL. Because of this trip i come back writing. Ohya, and i think personal development also after this trip. A lil different.

Time about 12:10 p.m. Departures of Singapore and coming back to LCCT. By the time i get into the plane, a lots of people already sitting at their place. Because i didn't rush and queue when they are all rushing. Then my seat is at 20E, in the middle and i hope both side is clear so more relaxing for me. Unfortunately, Both seat beside me also got people. So i sit down, There is a guy from Singapore sitting at my left and a lady from India sitting on my right. As we have put on our safety belt, This guy beside me is still playing his i phone. Then, the stewardess ask us to switch off the phone and i did. However, this guy on my left, and this moment he start making calls. He is so excited talking on the phone until the stewardess has to come and ask him to stop. However, he stop but then he start one of the game of his I Phone. In my heart is like, whualiao u dun understand English de bor. Then finally he switch off the phone. After that, just right after the stewardess has demonstrate to us how to use all the facilities he can't wait to ask, "can i buy your souvenir" . Really Kiasu, then during the flight more things happen. he is having a flu. He has tissue but what surprise me is that he never wipe his nose with the tissue but then with his purple color Tee-shirt. I'm so shocked with his a lil bit wet Tee. But i pretend never see anything. Then, when the plane is going to land, we were asked to fastened our seat belt. This Guy on my left never failed to entertain me. When everyone is sitting down quietly he climb up and down to put his thing in his hand carry. walk here and there and until quite a while only he sit down. And this is not the end yet. So,as we are going down walking back to the terminal. He go the fastest but actually he come with his parents and grandma. His grandma is just right behind him. So his dad say, take care of ah ma when u going down. I'm tall enough to stand behind this family to watch them. What i see is that this guy walk very de fast and end up his mom is holding his grandma and his father watching at the back. Whualiao, and then when walking he walk almost 100 meter's in front and then follow by his parents. But his grandma is at the back slowly walking as i'm standing right behind of her. I dunno but if u asked me, if whole family is going on a trip, shouldn't they walk together and at least if u dun feel like holding ur grandma,stay by her side. However they just amaze me.

Then, when to tax free bought ciggaretes for daddy and liquor for display（perhaps drink when we needed to). After that, went out and wait for toufu. Timing is about just nice, he reach not long after that. Reach home only feel very tired and relieve. But haven't sleep as chit chat with family for a while. Unload all the dirty clothes, souvenir, shower and clean up some stuff. After that went online and stay up for a while. watch 娱乐百分百 and have homecook food as dinner. Then when everything is done almost at 10 o'clock I'm too tired so lie on the bed and Oi Oi till next morning.

First day back to work, i can honestly say is frustrating. Cause i have not been working for the past 16 days. So physically and mentally also not rest yet. Once i get into the office i can see my manager smile. She is happy that finally someone is back to share her trouble. When the others create. lol, Things i have instruct before I'm on leave remains as it is when I'm. Very annoyed. And then the phone has been ringing the whole day. Problem arise one after another. I've learned a lesson. Do not instruct the wrong person. But after this trip i am more equip to face all this challenges. I'm ready to go for more. However the sales report is entertaining as I'm still the top 20 nationwide even when I'm away for holiday.

Second day, is still about cleaning all the shits that have not been clean for 2 weeks. Boss is fierce because her patience for this boys has come to an end. screaming and yelling here and there. I'm someone she don't say because I'm super busy doing all the works. I think if i take 1 more weeks she will suffer mental insane. And guilty hits me. I will work even harder to earn more money and cover her in her yearly achievement. Remains on top and go closer to my dream. if i can ever make it to Sydney and study actuarial. Unfortunately, the cost of living there is too high plus the fees and difficulty of this subject is equally high. But i enjoy overcome obstacle and challenge after what i have experience. I can view what i want in a clearer vision. And new year resolution is go learn swimming after CNY. Then after that will go for Gym. Keep Fit as my health seems not so good recently. Can feel it so clearly.

And Third day, Sales is coming back. Agents all are ready and I'm ready. Going to hit it big again next month. Busy busy whole day. Well, there is a funny jokes today, i drove my mom's car and after i drove. When I'm going home the car start to jerk and i realize I'm a very rough user. All cars that i have drove need to send for maintenance. Hahahahaz.

Another 1 month then birthday coming le, i wish this year would be like last year. I don't want to work but just stay at home alone doing nothing and sit in front of my laptop perhaps. And then i can have my daydream session and i don't want any cake. What a loner but this is my little wish.

Ohya, forget to wish ah nic happy birthday. i wanted to come by your party but however my work is too much and i need to work tomorrow as well so i can't make it. But u a nice dinner okay. Happy birthday and have a blast.

Finally, i think thats it for now bah. Hope to come back and write more often. As i have so many things to say after so long didn't come here. Take carez everyone.（ｓａｙｉｎｇ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｐｅｒｓｏｎａｌｌｙ　ｈｅａｌｔｈ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｓｏ　ｇｏｏｄ．ｎｏｔ　ｗｅｌｌ）

ｐ．ｓ　ｗｏｎｄｅｒ　ｉｆ　ｕ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｒｅａｄ？ｉ　ｍｉｓｓ　ｕ　ａｌｏｔｚ．ｈｏｐｅ　ｕ　ｒ　ｄｏｉｎｇ　ｆｉｎｅ．

－ｓｅｎｇ－

what a release

2010-04-18T00:22:00.000-07:00

Okay now im listening to 张震岳-就让这首歌。hahaz.i feel better than before. As u can see from the title i am really release after the result is out.But having alot of sleepless nite before they tell us the outcome...and really thanks jason and jon for helping me by accompany me going up there and suffer.

As on monday i work until 6 something then go home and eat and bath. Then i sleep at 8 bah. After that about 2:30 am i woke up and pick up double j.Then we start driving up to Alor setar. so i start first and drive and we take turns to rest. So we able to reach there by 8 something. then able to meet up my elder bro at 10:30 like that.have a chat with him. Then still we r waiting for the result. Then we meet up wif the IO.lunch with him. He ask us to wait for the outcome so dun go back first. So we lepak at alor setar and we even go and watch a movie (clash of the titans). Then we waited until 6:45 oni the IO tell us the outcome cannot be out on the same day.all rite i have no choice but to accept it. and we reach home at 1 in the morning. tired maximum.

Then sleep 5 hours wake up and go work adi.last nite already travel 900km come work sumore get scolded from boss....she scold just as she like. Then nvm,work very hard keep doing work in the branch. about 3 the IO call me and say that okay the result is out and u can pick him out at 8 already.Then i was like oh god.call home nobody can pick him up. So the hero is here again.i say okay i go and pick him up. Then double j heard it faster faster come and say no way bro....tagged us along we go together. then at 7 we all start our journey.Then we buy Mc d eat in the car. So we drove even faster this time. we able to reach alor setar at 11:30 like that this time.feels good. bcuz the result that came out is not the worse so we still able to accept. Oni thingz is we have to be patient for 2 years maybe. But problem that can be solve is neva a problem. Then we drove back and reach KL at 4:30 like that and i reach home at 5 something.i sleep straight away when im home cuz i need to wake up at 7. Then i go work with the soul all not back....suffering day. At nite when to niong niong place to pray pray cuz thaank her for the help.

so friday oso i work wif blur blur like that. But result up to date is still fine.Then i pray pray again on friday nite. Saturday doing nothing but sleep to da max.....cuz i was exhausted to the max. So luckily can rest. Then at nite go fun fair wif zhai zhai. play the coca cola game.buy 10 token with RM10 and win a cotton of coke home...hahahahahaz,so the coke give to the kids all...

Okay and life is still normal wif me...job's target up to date is still okayz.family more stable already.everything is better than before....but dunno y this few days the heart feel pain.hopefully is not bcuz of my cholestrol or anything lah....pray pray....

ohya and i miss u alotz...hope u r doing fine loh......although we r not talking much lately but my care for u is still there.u r still very important for me...just that perhaps im too busy recently oni...take good carez of urself and stay happy....gambateh ne.....

thats all for now lah.will update soon again..

been a while

2010-04-04T06:12:00.000-07:00

Its a weekend again,so its time for me to update again.....there is alotz of happening hor.....last week say one of myy colleague already leave the branch rite, Then she got 2 hire purchase case not settle.so the thing is, i am the oni one she can ask for help.since she already pregnant,okay lah i help her out lah.....i settle her 2 case...one of the case everything already done just that the dealer is waiting for the bank to give them the cheque oni...What happen is, on last friday she call,i said cannot bcuz the messenger is back at branch adi..so can oni go on monday...then that day celebrate duntoi's birthday so sleep at 6 in the morning.about 10 she call and tell me what to do on monday..really pengsan i tell u....hahahaz

So on monday,i did settle that case by bank in the cheque to another bank...scan and fax whatever im suppose to.then courier the thing next day...So everything is done adi bah...then wednesday sms come and we chat for a bit.and suddenly on a thursday morning, she sms me again and mentioned there is something she wanna tell, okay but 1st day of the week its seriously very busy for me. But still i ask her tell loh, then she say, since we both r doing sales y not get together wor....im like "stunt" for dunno how long. Of cuz i reply no loh. Just that very surprise. But we have neva see each other,not even know each other before friday. just a call and chat for one time oni.... Anyway, no matter know for how long still cannot be 2gether loh....cuz im just not a person which suitable to go into a relationshipz. Besides now im oni focusing in my career and earn more to cover family. Extra to be invest somewhere else.

Then have great time wif my niece...she alwiz stick to me when im at home...call me zouk zouk...really super duper cute....but she is being very very naughty leh. Alwiz bully my parents and her mom...but surprisingly she listen what me and my younger bro say..maybe sometimes we still scold her and whach her a lil bit maybe...But she's definitely very cute and she's gonna be a hot chick when she grow up bcuz she really very pretty leh.....have a recharge sunday...she is thee support that keeps me moving forward nowadays....no matter how tough it is still will carry on....

okay lah thats all for now,nothing much.take carez everyone and happy easter....

-seng-

writing time

2010-03-27T08:32:00.000-07:00

Long time din come to write my updates....been a busy month cuz alotz of thingz to do...busy busy to the maximum wei....chasing case.wanna beat the rest...working hard....

that day one aunty come to the branch...was late. So she request to place a fixed deposits and of cuz we tell her no loh....and she speaks hokkien wif me....so i talk to her until she sits down and share her stuff wif me and careen.so we keep our conversation in hokkien and im surprise cuz im a hokkien but my hokkien not so good.lol,and she say her son very lazy and stuff....but im working for so many years adi...me and careen and her son are same age.....just so lucky......all her kids is good,study got no problem and all proffesional...except this son same age wif me...hahahaz,i managed to speak hokkien until the end....not bad.....hahahaz,give myself credit this time....

And ohya,so fast qing feng's daughter is 1 years old adi.....my god time past wei....last year we just went his daughter full moon party oni and we have some drinks.....im getting old liao...and we r discussing whether who will be the next one to run out and be the 2nd....and perhaps we may have more gathering as they suggested to do so...if include this group i really will have lesser time at home bah i think...hope my mommy can forgive me bah......

and last nite duntoi's birthday so we celebrate wif him and hang out till morning....reach home at 6 and my mom already wake up that time.....she maybe angry a lil bit bah...but im alwiz like that....hahahahaz,and then from 6 i sleep until 4 bah......still very tired now...cuz received alotz of call from people......but as long as he have a great birthday nite......i think its worth it lah...hahaz,and 2molo will be chai's birthday already....wish u happy birthday..........

And my niece is being super cute.....she is so lovely....she call me zouk zouk.....wonder izit she wanna go zouk or what...hahahaz,and she loves to chase after me...cuz i alwiz go out...but she is just as naughty as me when im small.....but everyone too loves her so no one beat her...she will be the queen and soon this will be worrying as she grow up adi no one can stop her,advise her or scold her cuz she will not layan them.thats what i can see.......but then again,as long as she is happy and grows up healthy,thats all we ask for bah i think......

so nothing much to write now....time to go sleep as 2molo meeting customer in the morning.....good nite everyone...take good carez of urself and rememba to smile okayz bcuz u dunno who loves ur smile......so just smile or laugh or wateva.....

XOXOXOXO

running nose

2010-03-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

hahaz,im alwiz wif sickness....im just so weak.....and maybe bcuz i neva take care of myself as well lah.....yeah padan muka....hahaz,long time neva come back to my lovely blog...how r u blog blog....r u better than me??

recentlly been working hard hard and hard....alotz of thingz i dunno and i have to learn...then senior advice me to be patient because i feel ffucking lost with where im standing now in this career...i am like cannot find myself....hate it very much....but then no choice if i can survive here i will be someone in 1-2 years time....i definitely will be....i have to be...

and 2day suppose i can sleep till noon...but one experience banker say wanna bring us to visit developer.....so i agree to follow him....say meet up at 9 and i reach at 9...call them all neva pick up so i know thingz are fucked up adi....and yeah they both sleep till cannot wake up....then i wait for 1 hour and 30 minutes if im not mistaken...then after having breakfast we find out that actually they dun have anything to do due to one of the senior is having some business in a developer office and so we feel bored....go home after that...but my precious sleeping time was spoiled........i feel so pain.....

and dunno what else to write.....update again soon lah now very blur...

everyday oso blur...hahaz

workaholic mode

2010-03-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

whuakakakaz,as u can see from the title,recently im working more hard than usual.everyday reaching home late.besides there is celebration for friend's birthday asd well lah of cuz.......this saturday and sunday working at developer sales gallery cuz they doing a launching.so stand there from 10-5 and of cuz can sit for while lah....but my leg still feel very de letih......hahahaz

On a row few days din rest good enough now my body is complaining.i can feel in a way,thursday went lunch wif birthday girls and found out that she's sick too.we bought her flowers and on friday we decide to catch up wif her at bangsar and we reach at about 9.then i go her work place wait for her....end up waited almost 2 hours i think and she did turn up.Then we hang out at Alexis for a while more and had a slice tiramisu cake..have a photo session. Then went to her place for a visit and then go home....end up i reaqch home at about 1 i think.so sleep at 3 bah if im not mistaken...then woke up at 8 to eat and rush to developer's launching on saturday. Then after finish work went dinner with another birthday girl. So we have a great time there as they look happy. Then went and watch Alice in wonderland at 11pm..anhd im so fucking exhausted that time so if u ask me whats the show about i can tell u where im blur.basically know the storyline but it did not stop me from fishing to be honest.hahahaz,then reach home at 2 again and straight away sleep...and 2day wake up 8 something again.work work work and manage to get some business rite and then finish at about 5:30 then rush to pj to catch a personal loan customer.he is late and i waited for him...then signed and then reach home at about 7.have my fried rice and then shower come out again for marketing but the one i have appoinment with is not here yet.so i have some time to blog now.....

Hell yeah cuz im not blogging for many days already babeh....and i will not blog so soon bcuz my schedule basically is just fully booked.even until the weekend.because Mid Valley property exhibition is coming again.this friday,saturday and sunday i guess...so im going there to visit all of them and try to get more business.yupe loh,and wednesday jason bro birthday.monday is our futsal day.then duntoi birthday is coming too....wahhhhhh,my life is just so fully booked.....i dunno when oni can rest leh....hopefully this march i got no chance liao..hahaz

And,im not sure what else to type cuz my brain abit blur blur now so thats all for 2day bah.yupe

Love u.cuz 2day is a valentine day oso.miss ya lotz......

-seng-

Sexy voice

2010-03-08T02:21:00.000-08:00

whuakakaz,asu can see from the title,seng's voice has evolve to where my voice is more sexy than that 啊杜from singapore....hahahaz,actually is i ownself cari problem de.....bcuz the first day i take medication is on tuesday.....it did turns a bit better...then wednesday went site visit...so went to lunch but boss interested in eating indian food.....so great i have nasi goreng kampong wif ayam and still i take medicine...but its not a good thingz bcuz doctor advise no spicy food no fried...i have both...then on thursday i think din really dare to eat anything damaging my throat but did drink nescafe ice...hahaz

Then at nite dinner wif college mate...so we did order food and then drink chinese tea....end up couldn't sleep rite so i know its not good for my body...then on friday went and visit a developer he spend us lunch...so have spicy food again plus not enough sleep ...already very scary and i sumore go have steamboat at nite....my god....then my throat turn to be itchy on saturday but yupe i went and have nasi lemak that day...hahaz,wif a fried chicken and then i go and smoke + drinnk beer and sleep very late then sunday wake up ealry....stupid enough to cuz my throat totaly sexy on sunday then got appoinment.morning is breakfast wif customer eat dim sum...wow,scared my throat and then afternoon went boss house for house warming...oso ate some spicy food as there are oni that they offered.whualau then after that, go watch movie wif college gang and worse part of all they went to eat at "chilis"....so i go all out and have some fried spicy food and today my throat 100% gone...hahahaz,so 2day is monday everything i eat is soup....have to do it for coming few days to get back my voice.......hahahaz

life is boring leh......

bye bye!!

2010-03-06T12:01:00.001-08:00

im saying bye bye to my throat....cuz yeah u have been so sick....r u leaving me or what??spit got blood few days back...now totaly got no voice...my god apa lu mau.....y wanna torture me like that...but by the way im having enough sleep mah just that 2day dun have oni...and food that i eat sometimes its not suitable although doctor ask me oni eat soup type of food.

been so busy wei and the exam in KL is so stupid.say is a computer system exam and end up reach there need to used pencil and answer...and the worse part i thought is computer type so neva bring pencil end up borrow with the person in charge there.....and no study guide...hopefully i dun failed or else i will be very shamed of myself already.....

and 2day consume alotz of alcohol and ciggaretes....its time to control a lil bit for my throat before it turn worse.......like really worse.......now im already having my sexy voice already....scared people away......alotz of thingz i wanna write but at this point can't type much......let me think think and see..by the way smoke until now feel hard to breathe..hahaz,a bit over 2day.....promise to be good kz eng seng....if not ur throat will be gone for good......okay okay....

-seng- in crazee mode.

okayz

2010-03-05T07:27:00.000-08:00

my throat is not yet okay....still like that,and last nite dunno why i can't sleep.wonder izit i drink too much of caffeine and chinese tea or what im not too sure but i roll roll till early in the morning.fuck myself..hahahahaz,and then 2day regional manager came and give speech.of cuz im not performing she knows my figure very well.so she shoot me left right.but she already being very polite.and she force us to commit sales figure to her.

then went to site visit 2day.oh god this place is fucking nice wei.if i can get to buy 1 lot i will be like flying up and down wei....but is about 1 mil per unit bah...hahahaz,minimum ohhhh...but the whole concept is fantastic wei......i wan it i wan it so bad.......but the place is quite far actually....to be considered again.......

and 1 more thingz more stupidz,im suppose to have a exam 2molo afternoon in KL,my exam is at part B...then i just realise when im on leave during 20/1/10 to 26/1/10 my boss print that study guide for me rite....is part A and part C....and i read till half way now oni i realise is not what im going for exam 2molo.....and more funny is 1 more exam that they wan me to go i already pass 1 year ago.....my boss really playing a fool wif me babeh....hahaz

my mood is im confident even though the fucking guide is not wif me but im still gonna pass the exam and score......by the way my company cannot provide the study guide wei...im a lil bit surprise....how come ah???weird

chasing star

-seng-

calm

2010-03-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

yeap as u can see im more calm than before loh.listen to music does help.and my health is better oso anyway.life is difficult but we r the one that living our life but not life live us..hahahahaz,dunno what im saying but i just wanna pass day by day peacefully and as long as people around me are happy then thats it.nothing much i wanna know.

rush for figure time.dun think much.money money come 2 me.eng seng loves u.just now see younger bro watching 海派甜心。it gives me really sweet feelings and some similarity as well.everything its just so cute.hahahaz,i swear will take out some of my personal time to watch the whole drama.

anyway continuosly till sunday will have dinner dinner and dinner outside.saturday sumore exam wor for my stupid insurance license.wasting time.hope i dun failed lah if not must pay sumore.hahahahaz,life is neva bitter as long as u r living.yupe.....

step over the obstacle and be the winner.chasing dream.

-seng-

lol,so sick

2010-03-03T05:42:00.000-08:00

2day wake up same thing happen,spit and u see blood.wow,wonder how long sumore will see this blood early morning.okay anyway its not feeling well.but not very sick.its just something wrong somewhere.lol,let the wind blow me and then fly fly just like the kite.

i have to build back my confident in what im doing.i need to be success.i cannot failed.i dun wana be a loser anymore.i need to do it.yupe,so work harder bah 2molo.just work us ass out and achieve something.hug hug myself.hahahaz,and drink nescafe ice bah.i will fight wif u until the end my dear god.i know u r giving me alotz of challenge.im gonna solve everything that u trying to destroy my confidents,my principle and my moto of living. i will achieve my dreamz.

dunno what else to write,boring...update again 2molo bah.

-seng-

祝我生日快乐《农历的》

2010-03-02T04:22:00.000-08:00

今天一早醒来，喉咙痛的很历害。然后吐出来的痰是有血的！！病重了。哈哈，然后就吃妈妈煮的面线。然后就上班去被中骂。骂的很惨很惨。然后才去看医生。不舒服到，然后午餐吃炸面线咯。过后吃药了就非常的眼睡。很想很想睡。

大概是酱咯。也没什么特别想说的话。迟点再写吧！

-申-

just reach home.

2010-02-28T05:49:00.001-08:00

awww,i feel so tired after so many days lack of sleep.im really exhausted.start from 2day onwards we got to be hardworking babeh.i need to achieve my goals by end year.actually mood is just so so.alotz of thing i wanna write but maybe too long neva sleep now brain is not really working so yupe.i canot structure things out properly.add on some extra soon.

mood is calm and only calm.nothing else.

-seng-

Happy Birthday Seng

2010-02-25T08:15:00.000-08:00

okay,2day i am having my 24th big day.hehez.i din celebrate it anywhere but hide at home.bcuz no mood for cakes,din wana go club,neva go drinking.so what i do is i enjoy my peaceful and quiet birthday.receving sms and comment in facebook by friend all.and that already make me feel so good.

and i need to thank everyone that wishes me.u guys make me feel so sweet and so warm.well supposing got alotz i wanna write but now brain is not functioning that well.im confuse.ohya in 5 hours time im going up to penang already.trip with my primary school mate.so i guess im not sleeping bah 2nite.see how it goes bah.

24th this year.needs to plan well.goal no 1.make alotz of money to cover family.goal no.2 is get a passport and travel to at least 1 inside malaysia 1 outside malaysia.goal no 3 is to meet for the 3rd time.and i wish everyone around me of cuz included my family to be healthy and happy alwiz.no matter what happens everyone still will be able to go on.happily.with a smile on the face.

we need to be as positive as we could.dunno what to write sumore.maybe conclude everything again soon.

mood-sweet in the heart.

-seng-

30 minutes more.

2010-02-24T07:20:00.000-08:00

2day is my younger brother birthday.i was too tired before so sharp at 12a.m. his friend came into the room to celebrate for him.and they try say hi wif me but im too tired so i cover my face wif blanket bcuz im really exhausted.travelling is killing me. actually up till 2day im still exhausted bcuz 2day went working.really not feeling so cool.mood is not so okay.

Anyway, another 30 minutes more than will be my birthday,actually quite alotz of people asking me out for movie and stuff.But i really dun have the mood.im sorry.but this year i dun wana have any cakes nor any celebration. And then i have been keep on hiding myself.hide inside my house.lol,im not doing it on purpose.im just trying to keep myself calm.bcuz stay alone can keep myself peaceful.

i really dunno wat else to update.let me think think and see.

well basically nothing.prepare for a great day stupid stupid me.a most normal and not noticeable birthday is reaching.

-seng-

Dream

2010-02-21T02:35:00.001-08:00

According to some people.we have to be realistic,dun dream.But somehow i just couldn't stop myself from dreaming.maybe we need to be realistic,but i still dream because i think it does makes me smile.pieces love dreaming anyway.

then,2day went to my primary school class teacher house for CNY visiting. Teacher house is big and nice cuz just renovated. Then all of us lunch 2gether and gamble a while.of cuz im the loser alwiz lose money.But we did spend time til maybe 4 something. Actually was winning,then received a call from elder bro and knew that he is suffering so lose the mood and keep losing since then.

But luckily,im a bit more calm than before.everything that happens is like just normal to me.last nite saw the drama final episode.the chef say in life, spicy,sour,salty,bitter and in the end oni u can feel sweet.bcuz if without all those u wouldn't appreciate what u have.so no matter what happen.i still think i shall just remain calm.not over joy or over sad.just treat it like its nothing.

close your eyes,and calm down.

update again soon.

-seng-

20/2/2010

2010-02-19T21:17:00.000-08:00

4 more days to younger bro birthday and 5 more days is mine birthday.1st wish i get is on 26/1/2010.is a super early wish.and then 2nd wish came from WWF.is actually a birthday card that they send with my name on top. when i received this card i feel surprise.i think its sweet?yeah,my emotional finally become a bit calm.bcuz when received this card i remember why i did support them.cuz i think the animal needs help.maybe our contribution may not be alot.but as long as we did help.is the heart that matters.

And i start thinking,as long as im healthy and im not dead.thats all good already.i couldn't ask for more.so now im a bit more calm and less stress.dunno what else to update.but didn't wanna celebrate my birthday cuz not in the mood.

update soon.

-seng-

alive

2010-02-19T02:52:00.000-08:00

yeah,im not dead,nothing much to update.life is still like that.seeking solution.problem that can be solve is neva a problem.Problem that i can't solve,just fuck it cuz anyway it wouldn't be able to be solve.so just take it.

try to be calm again.will try alotz harder these few days.i do my best.

not happy

2010-02-13T03:39:00.000-08:00

yeah 2day is the chinese new year eve.Everyone is having dinner 2gether with their family.me too did the same thing.all right i start to feel not all right bcuz i din wana write anything in my blog maybe.new year new resolution rite.okay,change myself.change into someone even i cannot recognised.and hide the real me inside.

basically din do anything.just having alotz of thought and alotz of thoughts.thats all only.but wat type of thoughtz.im not gonna tell.i think thats all,not gonna write anything anymore.just update my daily happening.

Haihz,ang eng seng,ang eng seng.

-seng-

我不懂！！！

2010-02-12T07:39:00.000-08:00

新年要到了，我不想写一些不吉利或不好听的东西。所以这篇会比较短。因为心情更差，一点好转都没有。只能说事事都不顺。以前是喝酒多，现在却是抽烟多。

不管了，不能再写，不然会破坏气氛。大家都那么的开心。就祝福大家新的一年都幸福快乐吧！

-申-

i give myself up

2010-02-11T04:14:00.000-08:00

2day woke up.not too sad not too happy.it just a normal day for me.just hope to pass these day smoothly.but,stupid pc can't start even for few hours.already iritated. Then, got call by lawyer saying that customer complain bcuz some charges she needs to pay.okay, then just second later customer called me.she fuck me upside down.she claim that its my fault and stuff like that.bcuz of RM400.and come on she's taking a 500,000 loan.and she has the ability to but a few property. she scolded me and demand for some comfirmation by me before end day.was frustrated already. Then seek help from boss,she has been MIA almost for the whole day.

So verbally she ask me to email to mortgage center people.and there people twist and turn stuff,everybody also put the blame on me while the file is already long gone from branch.its not at our place anymore.so lawyer is frustrated,boss is not helping,other departments are not even helping.so every one make me so pissed off and im like come on i got other thingz to do why the fuck u guys keep on bothering me. I was like come on is oni 400,this amount of money make me get all those bull shit and stuff.

Then one of my big case got rejected as well.then one of the senior which alwiz create problem 2day create another problem that get me involves as well. when other branch people asking for help,if they asked me i straight away say okay.ask the most senior one oso she will be fine.but she ask this lady.so this senior is like fucking iritating keep on giving fucking excuse and trying to dun do it for them.so the other branch people got pissed and ask me for help.so i say okay straight away. then my eldest senior is not happy and tell boss about this.and then everyone come and ask me about what had happen and shits like that.im like come on leave me alone. My senior that helps me cuz she dun like alwiz me doing all these rubbish and end up boss will accuse me for not giving her figure.so she alwiz help me.

But 2day when all this happen,i really give myself up.i start thinking whether is my future here anot.i give me.i feel that im useless.i dunno about everything that is happening.im just a nobody,a failure which can't contribute anything.im very stress and not happy.i hate being like that.and i din wana tell anyone bcuz i dun wan anyone to worry.besides they might not be interested wif what had happen to me oso. I dun wana anyone to pity me.i decided to keep everything inside my heart.feeling very bad.bitter maybe.as a person to be so useless,i really dunno wat i wan.im lost and stuff.i used to be a confident guy,but now im just a demoralised asshole which is blocking other people's way.i am 100% sure im leaving this bank.where is my next station i really dunno.maybe other bank or maybe other industry.hate everything that happen.feel that im not that strong i thought i were.i trying very hard to survive but survival game is making me more and more tired and demotivated.

actually there is more thingz but din wanna say all.already very not happy.really dun have the mood.what CNY,valentine and birthday.i feel is so extra now.i just hope i can be ignore and quietly pass all these day.cuz i really wanna calm down myself.i have lost my patient.

-seng- dead 11/02/2010

thoughtz

2010-02-10T07:22:00.000-08:00

alotz of thoughtz and fucking tired.alotz of thing pops into my mind.and from feel like blogging until 2day i got no mood until blog oso im not in the mood.recently alotz of thingz has happen to me and so make me not calm at all.emotion like going on a roller coaster riding up and down.i oso dunno wats wrong wif me.

okay,chinese new year coming,valentine coming,birthday also coming,im pretending to be excited and happy.but i am in fact.not in the mood to celebrate anything.just feel like hide myself at one corner there to pass through all these days oni.well,i dunno wat is wrong wif me.anyway im still acting normal.acting is not easy.2day i feel more tired than usually.smoke more often recently.i know its neva a good thing but i just couldn't help it.hahaz,anyway i am who i am mah,i dun care adi bout stuff like that.

well,its been a while din go for beer drinking session.din wanna go bcuz i know the next time i go,definitely i will drink alotz,and perhaps the next morning will feel damm bad.hardcore alcoholic consumer.why am i like that ah?hopefully my emotion can be peaceful again.calm most important.i can neva be until 2day.

c i dunno wat im writing again 2day.im so lost.im like a no soul zombie these days.and alwiz send sms wif lyrics inside.i oso dunno why i do this.i really have no idea anyway.but i just did.come on.ang eng seng.ang eng seng.u ah...........

update again.2day really not okay.
-seng-

今天想写华语。。。

2010-02-09T04:36:00.000-08:00

好了，要新年了，如果你不喜欢看到悲悲的东西就不要再看下去咯。今天也有很多东西想写。其实这几天已经写了很多东西了，可是都乱七八糟的。因为我根本都不能把我的心情平伏下来好好的写。现在，我偿试用一个平静的心来慢慢写。

今天的我很颓废加自曝自弃，我就很像没有目的地工作。可是很好笑，当你心情很坏的时候就是最不想工作的时候。当然你的脸也很讨人厌。可是我刚刚相反，当我今天心情掉进谷底的时候我有一个客人的汽车贷款批准了，另一个来申请汽车贷款。还有一个背景不错的客人终于都有时间帮我了，她申请私人贷款。还被顾客赞。陪笑，可是我那时超不开心的。所以我这个人还真的很假叻。

那天，在网上看到一个短片。那个短片说，在这个世界上的感情，你会遇到三个不同的人。第一个是他很爱你的人，但是这个人不会和你长久，因为他太爱你了所以你不会爱他。然后，你会遇到第二个人，这个人是一个你很爱的人，可是这个人通常都不会跟你长久，原因是一样的，就是你太爱他了所以他不会爱你。过后，终于到了第三个人，这个人不是你的最爱，他最爱也不是你，但是因为两个人能互相了解然后在一起到很久很久。看了这个短片之后想了更多，但是并不代表任同。而是觉得，如果要在一起就和最爱的那个人，如果不能够和他在一起那不如一个人。不过每个人的想法都不一样。可能我比较另类吧。

然后，最近的我在逃避。我在逃避与人接触。逃避与家人的接触，逃避和朋友的接触，逃避和同事的接触，逃避与所有人接触，就连上网都没给人看到。已经不知到是几时开始变成这样可是真的真的变成了这样。忽然想起。你也曾说过你也有酱的一段时间。我终于了解到你那时的感受咯。真的很奇怪。

还有很多东西想写，可是我现在不懂怎么写下去了。心情完全不能够平伏下来。算了。明天再继续吧。

心里的天气-超级的十号台风《狂风爆雨》

明天见！！！！！！！！

还是想追星。

-申-

all mixed up?

2010-01-26T00:21:00.000-08:00

argh,im so so mixed up.blur blur X10........................................ Its a new year, And alotz of thing has just suddenly hit me. Lets start with work bah, actually it reach the time for my work comfirmation already but then my boss didn'y wanna comfirm me because she thinks that im not fit to be comfirm,example like 70 is the score to be comfirm she can even give me just 67 and ask me to sign on the probation extention.i was like what the fuck u r thinking? She can even tell me that u r helping enough but sales still we look at figure u know.And the thing is KRA of mine is achieve almost everymonth up till now.Seriously after that day im super upset. And then i have started to do alotz of planning for my career advancement because of my cheap salary they gave me. I dun think there will be opportunities under this person. Besides not enough support we get.how can we be competitive enough.

Anyway,there is already offer coming in and all i need to do is to wait. I believe there will surely be a place which i can go and have a more comfortable earnings. Just that choosing is a bit difficult as well.

And im very happy having a dream come true. I really din expect that to happen. Alotz of thingz i wanna say but i can't say because i wanna keep it just between us oni. So mixed up now my brain. Is not functioning huh......

dunno how 2 continue with my blog nowadays. but as i said i will update u my weekly happening just incase u didn't have time to catch up wif me again. xoxo.love u oh. missing u like mad. Really appreciate thingz u have done for me. Take good carez of urself.

26/1/10
seng

December

2009-12-04T23:33:00.000-08:00

well,december is already here.new month new target of cuz. recently one of my mei mei tell me y ur blog alwiz show sad sad story de...i think think think,and i answer because everytime when im not happy then i will come and blog to release my moodiness?to relax.yeah after u type everything u will feel better and when u read back u would laugh and say how cute.

Well,recently there is alotz of changes.me and u were once so close babe.but now it seems like we r so far from each other..i know its different but i din wana change it bcuz i understand how hurt it is for both of us when we maintain like that.but anyway u r happy now thats the best of all.im happy for u.i dun wana force anything. yeah although i miss u alotz. but i will love u still.hahaz,i know u will say nah u won't.lol,im glad that u walk into my life during this year 2009.i feel great.hope i did not become ur memories oni.

And then,about my work place, somehow its just a very realistic place...my boss is a demanding boss thats y she can maintain at no.1 spot.when u hit ur own KRA she will say its not enough.u are below par performance..that is not what i wanna see...i wan my PFC to be top 10 percent nationwide.best is top 10.and not enough support we received from her. if im in other brance life will be much greater.haihz,just hope another 6 month goes faster so i can have some planning to increase my basic salary. yeah aimed to achieve big thingz.

then december got alotz of holiday.this is lovely. going to broga hill on the 12/13 of dec. then go penang on 19/20 of dec.christmas still thinking wanna do what..if i can that will be the greatest christmas ever.lol,hope everyone around me can have a good month this month..all stay very happy happy.

and so,my life is normal.okay this time is not so sad bah my post,its just a normal blog which dun have much excitement bah.lol,not too sad not too happy.and not very ang eng seng style.lol

have a great month dear friend.

cheers

bleeding...

2009-09-26T03:36:00.000-07:00

i dunno why everytime thingz like this will happen to me...i dun understand izit bcuz i alwiz think of alotz of different different thing so it alwiz put up some challenge for me.....or we should call all this negative happenings in my life....

i dunno but when u say if i call u or if i sms u is actually ur burden. u do not wana have any connection wif me....besides u even ask me to not let u hate so much....when i heard this it really gives me a very big impact.....i feel like u used a knife to slowly carve my heart....then cut into pieces and then smash it with the machine.but i din wanna tell u how i feel there....cuz actually i understand im being ur burden already....if u will be not happy wif what i have done...then i won't do anything. i wil stay away from u if u think thats work best for u...bcuz the most important thingz for me is u being happy.

from the heart, i wish u have a happy future and meet a nice man that will not hurt u...all the best.and i will alwiz love u wif all my heart..

And stupid stupid,its time to wake up from ur dream.......there is nothing u must focus....just fucking focus wif ur career....lets think about money making.....go all out....or i should say i can oni work work work myself out to forget all this pain.....

by the well im not well....sick...hahaz

not happy at all..

2009-08-10T21:37:00.001-07:00

i dunno wat is happening to the thingz around me...everything is just seems so unsmooth...commission is not coming in.....then alotz of bills has come to paying time.....then other source we suppose to have oso not yet out.

Just yesterday im starting to feel not well.then is getting worse so in the end i go to clinic and get a day off.....whole body ache and then sore throat of cuz......lil bit fever......whole body is shivering....so i wore long sleeve and long pants.cover blanket wif oni fan on.....result is im better today....luckily.and did not online of cuz.

i didn't know why im alwiz being ignore or stay away from......am i like H1N1?or am i like AIDS?i really dun understand the reason....but is not good for me anyway....But its clear that we cannot force thingz...if people wanna do that just let them do it...as long as they are happy....yeah..

dunno what to type this not well feeling making me very emotional...easily get frustrated over thingz.so i think thats all for 2day...will update later..

1st week of work.....

2009-06-21T04:28:00.000-07:00

I can say is super tired......reason being is very simple.....bcuz a day before i start work which is sunday im out since afternoon to lunch wif a roiz....then after that jeff call...asking to yum cha...so i agree and i go....then he ask me go on his car then we dinner...after dinner we go yum cha and then snooker...so my stupidity make me reach home around 1 and then go work early at 7 something.....crazee,so monday i already scared and pantang so i go home makan....and then i thought can rest for the 1st day.....unfortunately a call come......say:jeff birthday celebration lah so asking us to go some stupid karaoke which is expensive yet unproffessional and not nice.......waste time oni......and then reach there nobody come...oni a few person.....then order the beer all neva drink.....so end up on monday nite when everything is done is already 2 something and i sleep around 3.....

then tuesday follow boss go klang visit branch there.....2nite wanna excape but they already call me and say birthday is the day so force all of us be there for dinner...manatau tak boleh make it.....so we eat nearby oni.....so steamboat until 9 something then i go home adi to rest...damm tired.....wednesday wake up damm early to go klang branch.....learn how 2 do sales...then almost whole day there...at nite shawn pulak birthday.....so must go....and so stupid this is also steamboat....so this is the 4th steamboat 2 weeks on the row....crazee liao then took alotz of picture...but able to reach home around 11 if im not mistaken....or 11 something...then sleep loh and go to work thursday...this is the one and only day im free to eat and home and rest myself....so lucky....im so tired already...

but my nightmares doesn't end......on friday bcuz is to celebrate vincent's birthday.....i go the sri petaling harbour to steamboat....the food is nice....but this is the 5th steamboat of this 2 weeks....this week 3 time....so crazee...while eating steamboat already drink beer....then finish we go station 1 and drink again...so this whole drinking thingz make me home at 1 something or 2..then after i bath and everything i sleep around 2:45.....then i woke up at 5 on saturdat to go to KL that wisma hong leong..to meet up at 6:30 and shoot up to cameron highland...but the fact is everyone is late and 7 something oni we shoot up..and the most unlucky part is that the bus im on suddenly spoiled...the oil is dripping....my god......so i was stuffed in another bus wif some seats left....im at the back wif the bus throwing me from left to right from right to left...i almost vomit.....the bus driver can go for power rally liao.....cornering like mad....and this is not the nightmare yet....

then when reach adi...we go for lunch but dun really have appetite....then eat something and go into hall for some product briefing.....not really happy wif products is alotz but incentive i dun see many....negative...then hor we go for teambuilding...holy shit where we r in the jungle and doing alotz of activities.....and i oni bring the nike...im so sad my nike is dirty already....but mother nature is best lah...love it so much.....then the air is damm fresh at cameron highland...really a healthy place.....if can go wif loves one or family then sweet......the food all fresh.....but the teambuilding until 6:30 almost 7...then we go in the room happily wanna bath and we find out the room got no water supply...fuck them lah i got so pissed off....and call them couldn't get...then we go hotel room and bath...under repair de room...so stupid......then the dinner time....i see my nightmare....fuck and its steamboat again......6 times in 2 weeks and 4 times in a week man...oh god.....im gonna ban steamboat for 2 months......no more...no more.....

then after that got some award presentation and a stupid karaoke session and drinking session which last 4 hours....i really feel is a waste of time...i dun like it.....cuz the judges r like bias.....then the drinking session is not about who can drink more.....is about speed.....so boring......then after that,we r wondering around and enjoy the air.......and unfortunately i still sleep around 1 something almost 2 cuz of the fantastic 3 ka ka cau cau.....same room wif them is funny lah anyway........when drunk adi very funny de that ah yong....

then 2day wake up at 7....extremely not enuff sleep oh.....then go breakfast.....then i thought we leaving early and im happy...manatau we went shopping.....to a market they buy so many thingz....strawberry,corn,cabbage and alotz more vege.....then go down a lil bit we go c the strawberry farm......then go down a lil bit sumore to see the tea garden....nice place....and john buy again....teas....nvm then we like wanna go back adi...then got sumore thingz they buy......like strawberry cakes or stuff...then after that potatoes lah.....then thought we r done...but is not...we go further down and they r buying more thingz......crazee people......the even buy kaya puff,then bicuits....and alotz alotz of thingz even petai at bidor.....end up reach KL at 4..so crazily tired....reach home and bath already 5.....then go out eat wif daddy cuz father's day....the bill is RM75...my god i got so shocked almost bang wall cuz we din order much...stupid place.........nvm liao then i think 2day im gonna sleep early..cuz very very tired...

by the way my phone hang again and it cuz me cannot send sms again....so many days liao...so stupid...gonna smack the phone again...1 day....

quick update....

2009-06-12T00:39:00.000-07:00

wow this week has been busy....cuz keep on going out oni non stop..........like saturday and monday i go back to jenjarom cuz wanna do the medical card for ah yap.....and he assume that i wanna cheat him.....so he is very big......i am very small...nvm i accept this.....and sunday cuz help jeff do his online assessment....my god...terrible.....

monday after jenjorom session in the morning and afternoon.........at nite got meeting at 9......then we were talking talking there.....then ah yong when leave adi oni tell us that he dun wana work sumore....he got his own reason but basically as my understanding is he still not willing to learn and keep on giving himself excuses.......bcuz his parents pampered him.......i feel lucky for him cuz he got no commitment....and then johnathan and jason talk wif him until i reach home also 2 o'clock adi....his mind set is not in career...he is just like i work..get some salary and pass time...that is his mind set...he neva think further.....god bless him.....

then tuesday went back see grandpa he is ill.....and he make ah foo look stupid cuz foo dun understand hokkien u see.....then after that nvm..........then nite so happy we went yuen steamboat......got evan yong,tiff chin,shiroi yong,irene kuah,vivi leng,zkan,evan ong,jason teh,marcus,henry,kien fei,steven and me.......we were having fun there and joke joke around and i eat until i think my mom oso cannot recognised me lah....lol,then after done already we went macdonald for drinking session....but not all there...oni me,tiff,vivi and evan ong,shiroi,zkan and jimmy wif jason.......so we stay a while then leave.......cuz have to fetch vivi back ampang.....and on the way back saw accident......the car bang the lamp post till the lamp post got S shape so sexy.....then reach home already almost 2......

Wednesday.....this is another special day cuz i come out to meet my penang friend kent chin.....okayz this guy is funny....i go his cousin house and pick him up.....then after that we go lunch in sunway....then we walk around sunway....then his friend come we go eat again....then after that they shop in pyramid and bowling....i sit wif my friend and have some chating session....and then at nite we already planned to go bah kut teh......so we all go down to bah kut teh and we r having fun eating........so then when finish and we go home i reach home already 12 something...is a bit earlier then i online till almost 2 and i sleep......

then thursday i need to go fetch kent out again from his cousin house....so then we lunch in pyramid again and we watch movie.....then after that we walk around and go for dinner.we have some chating and playing session lah of cuz......but this day got alotz of happening which make me not quite happy...not bcuz of one person...bcuz of few reason im not happy or u can say im kinda pissed......bcuz of all this selfish ass......

And friday...i dunno y i can't sleep loh...and so i was awake the whole day loh.....then around 10 in the morning the hong leong HR call.....she ask me start work next monday...okayz cool......then 3 hours later standard chartered admin call.....ask me turn up to work on the next next monday...i was like huh???no choice i must take hong leong...bcuz the hong leong friend warn me....last time i reject their offer once.....last year so if this year i reject their fucking offer again....i will be fucking blacklisted by the hong leong group for life.......awwww.....so sad.....

and even more sad is my fucking phone got hang.......so now i cannot sms adi.....i can received but cannot sent out.....so stupid.......make me feel so uncomfortable......yeah and i miss u so much still....still......

And Kiu,i watch the last vampire blood...the girl name SAYA really look like u lah....seriously...when i look at her face straight away reminds me of u......and recently dun really have time online catch up wif u oh......hope next week after i work adi then got more time at nite to stay home....maybe???i dunno.......

and quin yee....yeah i suppose speak canton wif u...sorry lah cuz when primary school we communicate wif mandarin mah.....if speak cantonese teacher will fine us money....therefore this is the reason lah...next time cantonese kz.....hahahaz

and gloomy still goes on.......SPARTA!!

How to absorb money??

2009-06-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

quite stress recently about the younger brother studies fees.....must come out wif some money....then after that got sumore other thingz to think......housing loan and mama car loan....besides i sumore have to think about save some money...no way for now.......whua,how can i make lotza lotza money harh??i neva can get chances to spend on wat i like....lol

dear shiroi mei mei recently very stress oh.....similar problem like that chee bai kia tak tau macam mana wanna reply people's sms....din know how to treat a gal......and can alwiz ignored own gf...thats the really bull shit of saying himself busy when he is just a student....wat da fuck u think u r....the son of public listed company chairman?or shareholder of those company....

then dear psycho oso has a similar problem but its not the same.....she finaly can take it easy and not asking too much maybe.....and she already can put it down all the past i think.....that fat ko really very childish....he need to grow up a lil bit and be a nicer person.....good luck to him....

then dear kiu,u must rush on ur assignment adi u know.this study break is for u to complete it.....plz dun do it last minute again or else u will not have the time to sleep again my dear....okayz mah??and thanx for alwiz be there for me when i need u....although we are far from each other but i think still there is no problem...we still able to be so close...thank you very much.....i appreciate u very very much...kekez,maid will do the housework if i have the chance.....permit not out lol....

then dear xiu keng.....i really dunno wat we r now......u r making me super duper confuse....maybe i did not make enuff effort to chase after u....maybe......but im really not sure wat can i do by now........but the most important thingz is u r happy......if u happy then im happy....cuz now i dun think i can have time to be in any relationshipz when i got so much burden to carry.......

dunno...but i had a gloomy weekend and a stressful weekdays......and its still goin on.....goin on....

maybe time will help me be clear of my direction....wat to do...where to proceed....

one thing for sure...i will be a successful person and smack the world.....smack smack.....

hope everyone can be happy....smile on the face after all this gloomy time....

extra moody....

2009-05-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

recently bcuz holiday-ing....no need to work so everyday like zombie lidat got nothing to do...online and read newspaper and outside hang out wif frenz.......almost everyday......one is to get job and now finaly get job liao....im gonna be a PFC in hong leong in taipan.......but moody about other thingz also oh........

when u alwiz ignore me and i saw that comment in ur facebook i thought u already have someone in ur life......but u just sms me 2 days ago and tell me very long neva received my msh already.....ok first of all im busy everyday reach home quite late so i assume u sleep already so din wanna sms u.....then 2nd is i thought of u dun wanna even see my msg so i din wanna disturb u as someone tell me when u dun like me and i keep on sms u end up oni will be hated by u oni...i guess.....but u r making me very confuse and lost of direction.....i really dunno wat u r thinking and wat u wan.....im so blur..

then happy birthday to dear kiu and dear quin yee......have a great one.....and 2molo will be yee mei's birthday......one of my ex-schoolmate which sit beside me 14 years ago......and din even see each other since primary school...but so happen add her in facebook and friendster....lol,so happy birthday all...and friday is jeff's gf birthday.....got celebration at the curve...so scary.......

then shiroi look very sad recently......my god,i have to say that chee bai will get his day....when raining the thunder sure will hit his head.....hopefully yee chin kam mei mei can recovered from it lah...then tiff mei mei and jun jun mei mei look like recovered a lil bit adi..although there is problem but the love is there.....i think problem can be solve.....good luck.....

wat else...i oso duno.very blur rite now...and enjoying cuz no need to go to work.......happy...everyday just being lazy lazy lazy just like a weirdo.......hahaz

moody!!

2009-05-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

i duno wat the fuck is happening recently bcuz everything just seems so terrible......fucking iritating......like i was hurt..my leg and hands......then officially on holiday already....then have to look for job already.............then she seems like having a close new bf already...whuakakakaz,its just so so dark wei.......

i dunno wat to type bcuz i realy dun feel happy at all.....it does affect my mood...can't sleep well the other day...so terrible......but i cannot blame others bcuz me myself everything is just not stable how can i expect so many thing....i shall just be like now......focus on my career and other thingz dun even think about it anymore......and yes i must be lidat...and if she's happy then let her be loh...

and the uncle of my boss really very very noisy lah...im really not interested about all this shitty stuff.....i already got no time myself and so im not gonna touch other thingz.....not basic and just live on my commision is seriously not something that i wan......i need to survive bcuz i has alotz of commitment......im so tired...i really hope one day i can escape here and go for a sweet vacation and relax my soul.....

i saw the kite in the park 2day....and its so windy...i feel so good be in the park feel the wind....even nobody come out 2day....but just enjoy the wind is good enuff to release my moodyness...duno wat to say..update later..

vacancy

2009-05-07T05:41:00.000-07:00

Whuakakakaz,as the title shows oh yes ang eng seng is going to look for a new job...resume was send out already......then now see where should i go.....there is ambank,hong leong bank and public bank already send resume.....then got a financial planner meeting 2molo cuz he is nickson's uncle...well we should just look into it and see if we have something going on......then direct competitor also ask me to join them.....but to be honest if join them means out of my focus already....then HSBC mortagage oso got space......lol,with intro.......why suddenly like so many post for me......i think this must be i alwiz intro people job so therefore this is my reward kah??

i dunno lah but im so calm rite now.....im not blur or stress or wateva fuck.....bcuz i already know which path next already......so i have to work 2wards all this shit loh......haihz,too bad.all the effort waste liao.....but i believe it will take me a short period then i can go far far for travel already...i believe......i mean hit target lah....lol,besides working in a bank provide more stability also lah....life goes on...

then i miss u lah xiu keng....but i dunno wats happening rite now.....maybe im sensitive or something i feel very odd.....is like there is a distance between us lidat.....haihz,maybe i need to be more aggresive??more and more aggresive?maybe lah

dunno wat else to say.......ohya oni this.....kiu kiu,recently has human interaction phobia or communication phobia....there is one day u ignore everybody almost exclude me....im so worry about u u know......plz dun do that again...i think u just lack of sleep alotz....and drink more water then u can feel better liao......and if there is anything im here to support u mah rite??although is a bit far maybe...hahahaz,gambateh and life will be better rite....

update soon lah....alotz of thinking going on..

shitty stuff

2009-05-05T06:11:00.000-07:00

okayz hate to admit this but i think i got no choice but to change again.......and is not taking over the business.....i think bcuz nickson already decided and making everything goes on a very smooth and fast track....i dun think we got time to react over it......so yeah im changing my job probably to bank.......and im stick to remark liao........izit a good thing i dunno......but i know start from now on i got to join alotz of meeting liao.....well i got no choice but oni to join them....

so now my conflict comes.....looks like my elder bro has fucking couldn't be bothered wif them....so how??i dunno......but if i get along wif them or not me and my elder brother is still de same.....we still dun get along....we used to be so close.....im not sure the reason why...i really got no idea......am i really being too rude??am i too fucking rebelious last time?Yeah maybe i din wanna share wif him and my blog hurt him......i thought i have grown up......so i wanna do all by myself.....i dunno...im so blur rite now.....but luckily he is better now wif my dad,my younger bro,and my mom...he is trying to get everything back to the shape i think......but internally in my heart i know im being very mean to everyone in this house....i think my attitude does.....but i am who i am....i dunno will i change anot.....

Elder bro has some good friend.....somehow he is lucky to have them as friend...but on the other hand is bad to see all of them already succeed and he is still working towards there....so i think this made them a gap.....but they just dun understand how he feel i guess....i dunno how 2 help out but as usual i can only be outsider....bcuz in this family alwiz elders will not listen to younger people advise....neva.......well......

im so fucking stress and so i pick up cigarettes again.....but i think its oni a way to calm myself down.....or izit am i too bored while sitting alone got nothing to do...so i smoke and i think.......is that something rite?maybe i should just quit it again.......i dunno.....

and im missing u much...recently been busy so neva sms u at all.....but knowing u went a happy trip....glad u enjoy a relaxing week.and i start to realise i shouldn't alwiz tell u my updates bcuz maybe u just dun even wanna know.......and i shall not share anything negatives wif u.....i really very stress wif everything happening around.......fuck fuck fuck....hate all this......

hahahaz,a negative blogger and im still 1.....my blog hardly share my happiness.....i dunno why.....but im not a negative person i think........lol,beside i got a best friend which neva see her before.....we are alwiz sharing and cheer each other up......thank you for alwiz being beside me my dear....

mood-lost..really lost....and fucked up!!!!!

Changes in life

2009-04-30T23:07:00.000-07:00

As the title show im having a situation here which again im into changes....and this changes is not my choice and its bcuz of something out of my control.......yeah my career path is alwiz so difficult to go.....whenever im going to that direction it ends up will tell me ahahahaz,u got the wrong road and so now u gotta turn back and choose the other road.....well but in the process of choosing all this wrong roads i learn alotz of different different thingz....and im glad i meet alotz of good people which help me out........

So im not worried about i can't get a job with people's help and also with my qualification.....the skills i got....But the thingz im worried is this job can get me how far??where can i reach by going through this path.....will i meet the same sign again??i really got no idea beh.....hahaz,but i know alotz of people willing to guide me and help me through this path.......although im being quite moody but i know nothing i can do......anyway its dissapointed bcuz once i thought this path im gonna reach somewhere and it will bring me to a different level........but im wrong in some way....bcuz of some inethical practice we are going to withdraw ourself.......

then im so blur of myself.........i miss u......do u know???yes i know u knew...but i duno how to be more close wif u...i really got no idea and im so stuck now....u teach me.....wat can i do??but now oso dun really have time to think about all this......unfortunately...

and oh my dear kiu, hahahaz,u r so stress with everything and become so weak bcuz i think u din sleep enuff and have not drink enough of water lah.......go drink more then u can feel much happier rite.......lol,im glad we are alwiz there for each other....we share so many thingz.......how nice if we r actually staying nearby....i think the place that we stay will banned us going anywhere together......cuz im such an silly idiot which i think might influence u to disturb the peaceful of that place......hahahahaz,but plz be strong bcuz nothing can stop a strong person......tough time won't last but tough people do.....i believe in u.....gambateh yoz........hahaz

oh my god...after update my blog i still feel shit........thingz seems sucks.......i bet im greedy and im a very negative person so my blog alwiz shows the negative side of me....sorry for those people which is reading it.....i apologise here for my evil practice...but this is actually a way of me trying to relax my soul and trying to express my feelingz and so to feel better.....in other words is SS lah....syok sendiri.....which i enjoy myself.......lol,hahaz

UPDATE SOON LOH!!!!!!

shocked...............................R.I.P

2009-04-20T09:35:00.000-07:00

As the title show 2day im very very shocked.......early morning woke up already received a message saying that hon woon's mother enter hospital liao......okayz my worry start....but i keep telling myself that everything will be okayz.......she will be fine...its not serious.....then around 10 o'clock lidat there is a phone call from one of the auntie saying that she is gone........that accident is a joke......bcuz government block the motorbike lane.......so this bike must go on highway and it got hit by some rich people.....some executive of foreign company......and so she is gone.....

So the day start to be tough......bcuz this auntie watch me grow.......she know me when im oni 3 month's old.....and hon woon is not even born yet......and through my childhood.......i rememba i alwiz go hon woon house......we r like best buddies.....and when my mom having business outside i alwiz go hon woon house and his mom take care of us......when these aunties got nothing to do alwiz they stay together and chit chat chit chat....they all gather and cook......alotz of thingz they do.....so we r like a big family......

i still rememba there is one time i kick on the glasses and my leg bleed non stop....my elder brother and me and my younger brother oso dunno wat to do........so my elder bro ask auntie for help...so she cycle almost 1 KM to look for the doctor.......auntie is alwiz so friendly and she really loves her family...she willing to do everything for the family.......and she neva whack hon woon or ying ying before......work for the family to spend......

i believe that everyone will miss her.....and everyone will now help out hon woon and ying ying......bcuz we understand how helpless both of them will be.......but i know me myself is gonna help hon woon.....and its time for auntie to rest since she already work so hard for the family...hardly she get to rest......its time for her to rest 4eva.......a great women she is......everybody say...........

And i sumore must force myself to smile bcuz im doing marketing....i must entertain my customer in order they will buy from me.........cuz im representing the company........its so hard for me....i try to seek for help during afternoon but failed......but i still smile smile and laugh laugh.....although i know its fake......life must go on...i believe auntie would like to see us smile and laugh....she will go to heaven.....for sure.....

duno wat to say....not happy....2molo is the last time we still able to see her...after that nomore....
auntie

REST IN PEACE

stress

2009-04-19T08:06:00.000-07:00

recently alotz of not happy stuff occurs in front of me.....im seriously not happy....just like our distributor is giving us alotz of trouble......set stupid target for us......and then compete directly wif us.....they even set the rules and i think its not authorised by the xox about the are allowed to steal our dealers...my god it means all my hard work has come to an end kah........fuck man......stupid ass....and then give those stupid numbers......everyone see's it also will not like it man......they grab nice one we get bad's one.......

career is moving no where...very stress.....dun like this type of environment........then talk about family......just last friday my dad start up a fight again......really fucking stupid when he did it so over.....he keep saying my mom outing wif other man.......sleep wif other man....use karaoke as an excuse to meet up wif those man...talk until my mom like a slut like that.......and my mom cannot take it so my mom yell at him......say wat r u done wif ur imagination ah...u crazee ah...thingz like that....okayz then me and younger bro go downstairs watch them and try to avoid any of them use violence.......then my mom pray in front of the guan yin and my grandmonther.....so my dad got crazy and he dig out those sand and throw at my mom's eyes........and he break that water put there for grandma.....and so my younger bro got very angry so i push my dad to sit on a chair and i stop him from moving......that time my mom so angry and bring the broom stick out......she wanna hit him and i protected my dad.......i can consider myself stop my mom and my younger bro whack my dad.....and stopped my dad to do stupid thingz....

then my elder bro come home....so he try to talk nicely wif my dad.......me and younger bro sit aside....but he is not listening lah..but he is tired......so he can't fight so long........then he sleep.....after that the next morning he got angry again.......he start everything again and scream and yell.......then he say his boss ask him out to breakfast......when he come home will fight again....early notice....fuck man......so my elder bro and his wife wif my niece out for breakfast too...left oni me wif my mom..younger bro sleepin....then when dad come back he really fight again........my god and as usual he say lah me this son useless lah,stupid lah,and he curse me that when im old my wife will betrayed me also and sleep wif other man....hahahahaz,wat a good daddy he is....then nvm,finaly he stopped when reaching noon.....then he talk nicely and try to apologise i dunno.....but my mood already spoiled for this weekend......then me and younger bro wif mom go out during noon to lunch wif the baby my mom used to babysit last time.....they are big now...so fun to walk around in pyramid........wif them i mean....so cute they are now.....

then reach home adi evening go for basketball.....so tired and was elbow on my chest by that big fat guy......well cuz nobody wanna guard him....everytime im there....and the basketball is satisfying,really sweat all out........but stress not clear at all.....hahahahaz

then sunday nothing much either than sleep sleep sleep......then out to lunch wif elder bro family.......in a nearby mamak.......then at nite mom and elder family go tapao...the food is so so oni....not to say nice as they claimed.....but anyway is just dinner....so dun bother about it........

then luckily kiu kiu alwiz share my problem.....i alwiz grumble grumble wif her all my problem.......although me and kiu neva meet each other before but we chat like we know each other very long adi......maybe is bcuz she neva see me before or else she will be sacred of me maybe...hahahahaz,but im glad she is alwiz here listen......but recently having a study break hope that u really can study hard and achieve ur goal u set earlier this year...cross fingers.....

finally,i still missing u very much leh......previous sunday which we dinner together and walk around its veryy sweet to me......i feel so happy can be wif u.....although we talk about oni normal stuff....but i realised that im more close wif u at least a few steps maybe........and let kevin saw me.....but we din go in any shop we just keep walking around oni.......looking forward to have another date wif u......miss u so much....

then ohya not to forget,justin mei mei and patrick mei mei recently go for travel and relax......welcome back to malaysia and work work work..hahahahaz,then happy birthday to evan mei mei on the 15th of april......stupid price tag....that staff which wrap for me is brainless....already ask her take out she just dun listen....hahahaz,apartment seems like a nice place for dinner....quite nice...hahaz

conclusion......im lost.......need a break...

im sure is not monday blue

2009-04-06T05:23:00.000-07:00

2day definitely is not monday blue.....but i had been very very unhappy i dunno y......is no reason or no nothing but im not happy........no fight nor nothing happen......i dunno wat cause that.......maybe is bcuz last nite one day that i cannot online...........or izit bcuz i know about nee nee problem didn't share much wif her last nite....or izit bcuz recently me and keng hardly chat or something.......really missing u much....

well im 23 years old......i have work as carlsberg marketing representative assistant before........i have work as retail shop before as a part time until supervisor.......i have work in ds-max which do direct selling before.......i can even go door to door selling...no problem....now im a business development executive of this company in a new telco company.......but i still see me going no where.........i cannot see where i can reach......i feel like i wan more......i need more.....is that so?i really dunno......im like got no direction at the moment........im just lost.....

and family recently has back to the peaceful stage........just for temporarily oni....we will not know in a month or 2 month time or maybe in a week times they might fight again.....i just do not know.....i just feel quite tired to maintain........

i really dunno wat to write anymore bcuz i really dun feel happy 2day...im moody...really moody......i wonder why...........im doubt about my value....

my dad is back...

2009-03-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

last friday he came back........and i really dunno y my mom become like so down......maybe bcuz of his past records......then my mom just try to be normal but actually that nite she cook the dinner taste very different........till i have to force it in my mouth............and i expected that soon there will be a fight no matter how we do it........and yet is only less than 2 days..........2day afternoon my mom went summit to watch singing contest wif my elder brother.........so then my dad was sleeping so my mom neva tell her anything and just go......then when he woke up he just check everywhere to look for her....and then i say i was in the toilet when they are out....but i heard is go summit loh...then he dun wana believe me........he keep saying my mom go out wif mans.......oh god plz tell me wat sin did we do until he wanna torture us like this.......i really dun like him.........so and while he questioning me in my room my younger brother was sleeping.....it does disturb my younger bro.............then my sister in law told me that he call up my mom and scold her straight away now........oh my god i just feel that my beautiful sunday just screw up.........i just feel so dissapointed........he neva think of the family financial nvm......use the money to gamble nvm...........still wanna start up a fight on a sunday which i plan to just rest........

And i know my mom very hate my dad........but i really cannot understand y she still choose to sometimes maybe hide or purposely wanna make thingz the worse way......everyone knows how my dad behave but y............i wanna have my own house.....if i no need to pay for the house installment i could have do that in a year time......but god.....everything is just so fucked up.......

well.......i really miss u alotz rite now.......after this blogging i think i will sms u and see whether can u chat wif me anot......cuz really not happy wif wats happening............but my ffamily which cause so many conflict make me dun know whether can i have a stable relationship anot......im just so afraid.........and im just so tired.....

then at work place also the same thing........this fucking "iritating asss" neva give us wat we wan and set something they wan and so we must follow them.........and im not sure whether will my boss follow them anot...i really do not know.....at least for me myself im negative wif wats actually happening..........im really worried about my own future rite now........this is just so negative.......

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.....................kiuuuuuuuuuuu.................im so helpless....later when u be online i will be grumbling and mumbling to u again..........bcuz supposing write blog can ease my pain but now it seems not good enough.......i need more help.......im very very tired.....

as i predict.

2009-03-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

as i predict 2day went this so far trip is not efficient bcuz it took me so long and some of them not open yet and the worse is......some of them complain about the complicated situation that happen around malaysia......i can understand this.....so i use some time to explain to the dealers about wat actually happening here.....and the distributor so troublesome......principle themselves is oso another issues.....so stress..hahaz

and this few days really feeling very uncomfortable about my own body....bcuz i feel very very very hot in my body........is like burning.....and my face....so oily and those pimples...my god this is killing me......i just feel so dead.......and wanna eat oso cannot eat well bcuz inside my mouth is almost 30% ulcer....so pain so pain.....din wana use listerine......

and again im missing u.......missing u so much......again our relationshipz maybe growing....i think.....but we dun know yet wat will happen in the future.......we just slowly move on...whuakakakaz,im excited over the date..........

lol,and kiu kiu has already drop one of her subject i think.....which makes her wake up early in the morning every tuesday......so funny......and amaze wif her can dun sleep early.....or to be accurate sometime dun even sleep......she's crazee...if me i dun think i can take it.....im excited about hatyai trip ne....whuakakakaz

cloudy day!!

2009-03-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

2day dunno izit bcuz god pity me got burn the other day.....so he decide to let no sun out 2day!!hahahaz,i love 2day......well and recently got quite busy wif everything.......especially wif the distributors and the dealers....i feel so tired wif them......and my bosses thinks that if we can keep on slow pace should be good......so lets go babe.....

and very tired recently......neva had a good rest.......2molo sumore have to rush go kuala selangor and make sure everyone sign before i can come back.....and then most probably i need to go KL city to sign the rest of the dealers......and hopefully i can start selling those packs by thursday.......that will be great!!

then become very weird wif us now.....i wonder how r both of us consider?????looks so far yet so close.....my god.....very dizzy and my body got so hot suddenly....now my mouth is full of ulcer beh........can understand i need more water to cool down my body...i think......lol

and helllllllllllllllllllllllll,i need a break to rest and out of this city......hahahaz

wednesday!!!

2009-03-18T08:52:00.001-07:00

okayz,recently has been very busy bcuz just everything is picking up so i got alotz of work to do.....alwiz flying here and there loh.........then after that has to communicate wif dealers......and try to make them buy...hahahaz,funny a bit...

then recently my dear kiu start to be very very not happy......actually did try to make her happy.....but then after a while then she will think about those negative stuff again......but if im her,i might even be worse...nobody know.....she is so tough i think......well but dun really know wat actually happening..........well i guess now i can do oni chat wif her....try to relax her mind.........hope she will be better soon......

then just now when yum cha wif kevin and thiam soon.......again this kevin is in troubled.......hahahahaz,bcuz the mom bring for some fortune teller......so that person totaly crashed kevin's heart and say u will not have a good relationshipz.....even if got wife oso not good....the ending i think.....then if u got son or daughter oso not good....bcuz they will finish all ur money in a bad way.........and u will still be in bad luck until 31 years old......but he is oni 22 going 23....whuakakakakakaz,so i just scold him one thing.....this type of thing dun go see better lah...if they say good thing does not mean u no need to work hard......if they say u bad then u will feel terrible and no confident......this activity is so demotivating but his mom alwiz bring him go.......pity him.......so he is a bit negative but i think we did help him to relax a lil bit i guess....hope i did if not really waste my time...hahahahaz

and as usual im missing u very very much.......i know u might be busy recently and i am too.......but i think u know that i miss u.....maybe u miss me too...nobody know..hahahaz

whualau....

2009-03-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

start wif last friday nite suppose to celebrate ah sa birthday at look out point.....the plan was everyone wait at ah sa house and go together at 8...but bcuz yee wei work until 8 so i told her i will pick them up and go there a bit late........so they go by themselves.....oh well.....we use 1 hour to reach look out point which we can see the whole KL view...nice place.....but if for 25 person at one row.....maybe a lil weird........and i waited for everyone 2 sit down then we order food and drinks......my food came last...so stupid....hahahahaz,then something not happy happen....which is half way we were eating half group of the people left........cuz they wanna go up and see the more clear KL view.......but one follow another end up oni left 10 person lidat wif the super long table.....and the birthday gal was left wif us.......she's just not so happy bcuz after that ask people take picture and about the bills just so troublesome.......and then at first someone already promise to club together.......end up most of them din go......so i understand she's not happy.......well then i reach home around 2....and sleep

then saturday woke up at 9 lidat cuz need to go cut my hair......now my hair is no difference wif those botak...damm short my hair....hahahahaz,then after that we go home.......then alan and foo wanna go KL to walk around and buy present for kah chun....then after that more funny.......we go by train....we park the car at bukit jalil stadium there.......so we reach there and alan suggest to buy that shit keychain.....so after he buy we walk a while more in times square....then when we wanna walk to the train station start raining.......but we still manage to reach station without being wet yet.....so inside the train then we reach bukit jalil station.........so when we reach we know its gonna rain cats and dogs.......but suddenly we heard the drifting sound...so we go up and see really there's drifting...but foo say leave before the heavy rain.......we neva listen.........end up when we start walk back to the car start raining heavily.....so we r stuck in the middle.....then we decided to be wet...is very fun to play.......and end up all wet like bathing....then when we sit in the car,we start driving back to home....then sudddenly alan so unluckily car cannot start in the middle of highway...........reason after his father staff check is the timing belt spoiled.......whualau end up it drag a few hours there and i promise to dinner together wif desmond and the gang....those college kawan......

then reach home wif whole day wet.....so then i go to that steamboat place.....but the food honestly is just so so...i dun feel anything nice so just simply grab alotz of thingz in my mouth...then we chat chat a lil...then desmond and ah san go back.....kah wah oso go home....left oni me and vincent and wai hong go lil bali cafe watch manchester united vs liverpool and also arsenal vs blackburn.......

and 3 of us the whole nite sitting outdoor under the rain....so wet........and we have 4 bucket of heineken......my god.....so drunk.....hahahahaz,cuz excited when liverpool win 4-1 and arsenal win 4-0.....and we talk about some staff that happen recently.......and i reach home already almost 3 in the morning.....so sleep

and 2day wake up i feel so dizzy.......headache bcuz of wat i had yesterday i think....and freaking hot i feel......and 2day just do nothing in front of laptop and just went eat alotz of foods.....so now resting and prepare for 2molo back to work......

at the same time missing her much......lol.so funny...

raining cats and dogs...

2009-03-11T01:37:00.000-07:00

as the title show......now raining till like mad lidat.....whualau im so scared......so 2day cannot go exercise jor lah......so pity.....nvm lah....okayz since that few days which give me alotz of stress and pressure...now at least everything is slowing down.....and i can have a breathe........well regarding my recent family issues.....my dad just went kuantan yesterday....so he will not be home for 2 weeks.......so peace for 2 weeks...but when he is back wat will happen sincerely i dunno....i have no idea.......just hope for the best and definitely im prepared for the worse...i alwiz do.....

then jun jun oso went to work adi.....lucky this time they neva say delay or anything....good for her......then kiu is gonna exam.......and im gonna invite some klang kaki and shiroi,vivian makan bah kut teh...whualau so hard to ask cuz everyone busy like mad everytime......so cacat..........

then recently catch up wif kevin,kok hay and soon..........so basically soon and kok hay is fine....but our fren kevin is having some conflict there.......he is just into his relationship problem again..........well,that gal is under his team...and he is a team leader.....not positive....if im the manager i will sack her...hahahaz,or at least shift her to another team.....then he is not afraid of wat others say and be i think flirty wif her......so i believe the rest of the team member might drop their confidence on him a lil bit........then recently i think he decided not to get close wif her....but he suffer...i dunno how 2 say......i did advice but dun seems working....so we leave it.....he will grow tougher each time he fall......gambateh mate.......

then to my dear.....im missing u much.....i can feel that we r being at least a bit closer........i really feel very very excited.......sweet flirty stage i suppose....i know will take times to progress.....but i dun mind waiting........as long as i can stay by ur side.....i already feel very very happy......hehehez,hope for the best.....hope for the best...hahaz

stressfull day!!!!

2009-03-07T22:41:00.000-08:00

2day actually quite weird.........i oso dunno how 2 say...woke up quite early considering is sunday.....i oso dunno y....then after that had breakfast and watch discovery talking about crocodile...read some news on the paper............then suddenly oni justin oso say he cannot make it 2nite so the rest is oso not coming......hahahaz,so end up me and pat pat will dinner 2gether just to catch up wif each other loh......kekez

then around 12 lidat mommy wanna go out........she brings a bottle of water........so my dad start grumble say she going out to have fun.......to mixed around wif man and women.........we actually quite pissed off wif his attitude.....he say straight away like my mom did something wrong and probably he is looking for a fight..........im quite dissapointed wif this childish attitude....mentioned alotz of time before that if cannot take it then u both dun get along.........they both wanna get along but then wanna fight like this.........he neva even think about how im burdened at this stage......i pay house loan...sometimes daily expenses like papers or security fees oso i pay......and alotz more.......neva contribute nevamind on the sunday oso wanna start up a fight and end up will need us to stop them......i really had enuff of this dramatic scene........y is he so negative and im so positive???he just spoiled my sunday morning mood......

then after that im still missing her so much....i know our relationship is very hard to define where izit......."ai mei" should be the best describtion........i think so..............but really hope one day we can be closer than just that...well time will proves everything............

very boring day.......everything is just so not excited except for the dinner.....and the nite chat wif kiu........but i think after my dinner will be quite late oso...hahahaz.....

mood--bomb gonna explode anytime.....

2day i just feel like blogging....second part of the day!!!!!!!!well actually suppose to have a gathering 2day........but then bcuz of some incident then we cannot gather together but since im already at pyramid i got nothing to do then stay at bookstore and read a mystery novel for 3 hours there.....stand till leg pain......then oni go some mamak near by look for food.........after finish that dinner/supper i knew that when im home there will definitely be alotz of problem.........bcuz my dad is being stupid again.....as i mentioned in the afternoon,he really fight over the issue just now.......and my stupid auntie wif husband and the son is her....she is the one comment alotz.......like proffesor,but i bet she wanna help my mom....but she really talk alotz and my father that so so so insists about face issue.......say my mom make him shame........not respect.....oh well and dun talk wif him all is my mom's fault....i was like wat the fuck man.......2day my mood is just the worse of all.......im just being stressful wif him.....he can't even support the family but is burdening me but he neva realise and he still wanna act as a person in charge of the house.......fuck man.....if got time find fought why not just go and get some job to help out the family.........im exhausted wif all this shit adi.....he keep on grumble like fucking ass hole oni....neva even think of all his mistake that he keep repeating.......neva wanna give people freedom......my god man......and say thingz like wanna kill my mom and stuff....brainless.......he really has no idea how he has make us feel shame.......

god,can u plz tell me my dad which i respect so much last time....which is a superman to me...which is contributing to family...where have he been...y he oni know how 2 grumble and burdening us.......im gonna lose patience on this guy......im ashamed wif him......y people's parents can do so good......my dad......i really feel like crying.......i hope my grandma is here to slap him awake......slap till he know he is wrong and fucking wrong which neva cares about anyone's feelingz........

busy!!!

2009-03-05T21:22:00.000-08:00

been so busy since yesterday...cuz mom car send for repair....so i need to send younger brother to school and then me myself go to the skin specialist for injection...so i leave home at 8 and have breakfast adi then send bro there.....while im waiting for my turn to go inject my face im so nervous......is something similar to a prisoner prepare to be torture.....but rememba thereis support......just go ahead and get injection by the doctor......he is so funny he say where should i poke this time.....hand or leg......then i say face lah.........then he poke until i feel so pain left and right side or my face.......then bloody.......then he joke,since i poke ur left side and right side....u wan some in the middle????lol,since there is no scar tissue y poke.....i asked him...he laugh.......

then after that wait for younger bro........he say probably can leave at 11:20 but i wait until 12 oni he is out...my god....then bcuz of the ah hong from seremban getting interview from johnny....so i went kim gary and catch up wif them see how thingz goes.....but hong just not prepare mentally,he is not confidence enough and some of his resume is just not right......so i believe he will get some idea and prepare again so in the future he can do better........

then reach home adi stay a while read the papers then rush out again to get the car send to repair...then toufu go home and me go mid valley to meet up wif evan,jun jun and justin....so we have a drink there then shop around wif evan and jun.........neva buy anything but around 7 lidat they are hungry so they eat......i watch......then jia xin and tony call ask me to go pyramid....whualau haven rest then rush to pyramid and meet up wif them.......so talk talk some crap there......chat around until 10 something lidat oni go home......reach home bath and eat adi sumore go online and check check......then oni wanna go oi oi.......later gonna meet up wif boss...good luck to myself......hope got something good happen......

thank you!!

2009-03-01T04:47:00.000-08:00

well,even though my birthday already pass few days.....yesterday i have a birthday dinner again wif seaport group which is ah nic,yee wei,shi liang,stephy,theresa,jia xin, and me and tiff which is both not from seaport...hahahaz,have some great time chat chat and play play there......and those cake is chocolate banana.....so again thanx for all of them that came for the dinner.really appreciate it!!!!so many times i celebrate...lol,and the place is at millenium square...until now i still dunno how i can put this picture nicer.....still look funny funny when i post.....

then 2day boss email to me.....basically i think is need me to work harder for him and let him now my progress i think.....well he already give me very much freedom but the thing is i still dun have epf and socso.he still haven give me any new contract???im not sure how he wanna pay me....so boring...

well,and my ulcer almost a week adi still there not cured.....wat can i do....did i talk crap too much until my mouth now lidat???well,theres alotz of dinner coming by all friends.....sister in law,hon woon,then patrick and theresa.....i feel that life is becoming quite busy there.....lol,but its good bcuz it means i can have a lotz of thingz to do....busy busy....

again miss u so much.....still dunno how???speechless...............haihz..

rainy day!!!

2009-02-26T18:05:00.000-08:00

yesterday while chating talk about my grandma....suddenly make me feel so miss her.....i miss those time when im back she will cook nice food,she will be happy see us running around in the house.....and she alwiz watch us leave and wave to us......and i rememba when she is very ill in the hospital she still rememba my birthday and ask my mom to cook something nice for me.....i wish i can be like small that time just be in her arm........is already 9 years she's gone....and since i so miss her...my elder brother shouuld miss her even more since he last time thought my grandma is her mama....but grandma is really good to us.......hahahahaz,ahma should be watching us....we will be somebody in the future.....so that u can be proud of us....

rainy day makes me write this feelingz out.and actually career is not that smooth at the moment...but its not that bad....just that is very hard to proceed...hope for better future....2day toufu finaly get back to school....we glad he do that....and wat else??hmmm

missing her much....so excited the other day she wishes me on my birthday...seriously surprised bcuz i din know she will rememba...but she mentioned that actually she remembered every word that i said.....its so sweet but im just blur....im very blur about us now....i dunno wat am i to her........well,confuse..........

and recently raining almost everyday...hardly go for exercise so make myself very very very fat adi....lol,must back to exercise...........and wanna buy myself a present after i got my salary!!!!!!now thinking wat to buy......kekez

ohya,jun jun recent post look very very down and moody.....i suppose is 4skin mei mei inspired her to spotcheck her boy boy....but i think that makes them argue maybe.....so she is very moody now and angry possibly...lol,but the above is just wat i assume oni.....if not right dun scold me plz....hahahaz,funny!!

my happy birthday!!!!!!

2009-02-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

well,my day is really great.....when that time my younger brother birthday which is one day earlier than me already celebrate!!!!!for me as well....and we play wif those cakes.....so when i make him face on the cake...he just did it back to me as well....so pain......but i did share wif ling ling and alan...so funny....have fun in that red box...but haven get those picture yet so cannot post here....one day when free.....

then when countdown for my birthday bcuz hon woon car spoiled we neva out...so i stay at home and i countdown wif kiu nee pau online...alotz of people wish me through sms and msn online and facebook and friendster......really thanx for all of their wishes....those that wish me first is shirley,then follow by evan ong,then shiroi and kiu and ling ling,ah foo.....then msn is stephy,and who else???can't rememba...then 2day dinner together wif all 4skin mei mei....feel quite happy compare wif my last year birthday have to celebrate in the dark....lol

and 2day got alotz of people wish me in facebook and friendster and smses.....feel really sweet compare wif my last year.....and really appreciate those that already wishes me....love u all muacks.....and im so funny purposely go disturb a few person just to ask them wish me...one of them is best buddy since small,lim chee siang...hahaz,one is joey.....really so free kacau people...but gonna sleep since eng seng day already come to an end.....and today is also a few of my friends birthday......happy birthday to jason lim,zheng han,izeen tik,erica,sureen nita and najib from topman/topshop!!!!!!so many of them is born on the same day as me....my younger bro one day earlier.....happy birthday too.......lol

miss her much...continue the blog 2molo....whuakakaz

ohhh,so long no post!!!!

2009-02-24T04:08:00.000-08:00

hahahaz,recently quite fun playing around but forget to post....me not much difference,grow fatter adi.....cuz i did alotz of thingz....i went park kum sun house on the 2nd last day of CNY.....then some frenz come my house....then after that nothing much happen except i work work work and then valentine come i hide at home.......then recently that KIU KIU that missing in action already back online.....so alwiz see get her...but bcuz of her holiday finish adi so i think she will back to study hard adi.....wish her luck for her goals.....of cuz not about spam my profile....is about to get the chance to get into the best UNI........gambateh mass......

my life is normal,nothing special bcuz not much outing....recently went gabriel open house thats all.....then 2day is actually my younger brother birthday and 2molo is mine.....is just so so so ngam.....lol,last nite celebrate 2gether wif ling ling,kah chun,alan sot,kwok sing.....well we have fun inside there and swallow some cake.....lol,and chun is drunk..so funny.........

dunno wat else to post bcuz of too long neva blog adi..kinda dun rememba thingz well....one thing for sure...still miss u much much....i wonder u know anot...i guess not.....lol,just hope u r doing fine there..muacks....

dong chan sze!!!

2009-02-03T04:45:00.000-08:00

whua,yesterday before pray ti gong we went back to jenjarom to visit ah gong,wanna visit auntie but she slept adi i think......then we go dong chan ssze......seriously so nice the thingz there....a very good photoshoot place.......i took a few of it..gonna post soon......the hall i think display books and thingz....then got some art work about those monk living places......a mini display of tibet i think......then got alotz of tanglung....then got wish tree and wish pool......then got a garden got alotz of light wif some flower wif a pool of fish...then still got the countdown stage.....then got the guan yin street....after that got the big moo moo and the rest wif flowers at the garden near car park.....then next to it is the association of Ang......but too dark cannot take get picture...next time go in the morning and take...hahahaz,quite big.....

then pray ti gong....wish.......then online online online....sleep around 2...so sienz...then wake up go work....but uncle not home cuz i think some car ran over his dog......then uncle went serdang hospital.......so after that go work.....so tired after so long start work again.....then get ready wif a new starter pack......waiting for them to convert.....just view the mnp hop on package......then just now go jogging and shoot shoot basketball for while...nobody there cuz raining...but i still shoot under the rain.....cuz i wanna get sick...hahahahaz,feel so good under the rain..im not sure wat reason.........

as usual missing u much much...i wonder how r u doing???hehez,dunno....really dunno........but feel quite happy sometimes.....hahahahaz

long time no blog

2009-02-01T06:30:00.000-08:00

hehehez,recently extremey busy wif CNY...cuz got alotz of activities so therefore sometimes cannot online......just busy going everywhere............but haven got a chance to go dong chan sze yet...maybe going there 2molo.....hahahaz,in between there is so many days have been to genting,have been to jenjarom watch fireworks........have been to cinema.......have been to redbox sing karaoke and then go one utama watch ink hearts...have been to wan san house gamble.....have been to IOI watch "ga yau hei si".....this is the short summary of my cny life.....will be back soon.....

chinese new year coming to town....

2009-01-24T01:05:00.000-08:00

hahahahaz,chinese new year coming everybody so busy included me...clean here clean there clean non stop........and buy buy buy non stop oso...i spend banyak banyak duit..going to issue bankruptcy soon......will not have time to blog...will be back after chinese new year i guess.....

busy day

2009-01-22T05:57:00.000-08:00

have a great sleep last nite........until almost 11 2day.....then go makan wif mommy then go tesco buy some stuff for chinese new year...end up bayar 136......wow.......but as long as got a happy chinese new year then can adi......hahahaz,then reach home online a while and wait for toufu....

when toufu is home then we go find auntie in pkns shah alam to get new specs......and chat a while wif auntie....then after a while go one utama.....not very jam but then when reach there round round round quite long.......din get wat i plan to get...nvm......bought something to eat then stuck in LDP traffic congestion and reach home at almost 8.....then bath adi and eat adi dunno wat to do....so boring........

miss her so much.........but haihz.....hahahahaz

so tired

2009-01-21T05:09:00.001-08:00

last nite elder bro bring me and toufu carrying those guan yin stuff to setia alam to mandarin say "kai guang"....and reach there adi nobody yet so we watch HE Man....it look liks 70's show to me...perhaps 80's.....i dunno but after everything is done is already 1:33.....then we reach the toll machine face difficulties to print so we drag there for almost 20 minutes.....then reach home already 2 something...so late....then sleep and wake up early today feel so letih.......then go and distribute the rest of those red packets......

then very tired reach home adi straight away fall dead.......and tiba tiba raining very heavily so neva go exercise oso....just sleep.......and its woke up already almost 8..then bath and eat....now sitting in front of the comp dunno wat to do....mayb later boring boring follow toufu go pasar malam....to pass my time...hahaz

miss miss miss her much much.........nothing much to blog...moody~~

my job's done....

2009-01-20T05:34:00.000-08:00

i have got my work almost complete.........i mean distribute those red packets to all the dealers......alotz of people wanna give me back mandarin as return......lol,but i really not quite like it so i rejected them.......and 2molo just need to distribute few more then my work is done adi....so thursday and friday i think i can get day off jor....hahahahaz

this few day cannot sleep well im not sure why but it might be something to do wif me....izit the air cond???izit my body???or izit the bed sheet haven change since so long.......well i dunno......just not feeling well....or i called it uncomfortable....and hot.....lol

alotz of them haven prepare the documents to me...im planning to find them after chinese new year bcuz im very sure they dun have the mood to do thingz rite now.....they are alwiz like this......dealers........

and again i miss miss miss miss miss u much much.....nothing to blog...moody...

sore throat.

2009-01-19T05:11:00.000-08:00

As the title show im having a sore throat rite now....so pain ne......2day so damm rushing keep on flying all the place......from house puchong to subang then go semenyih and then all the way down to kajang......then oni go home....rush around all the dealers there to distribute red packets....and just received some information from CM.....but the things that they say im not sure izit okayz anot....

lol,when im exercise i feel more tired recently i oso dunno y...just tired.......so letih......jogging adi lagi tired....after basketball game adi freaking tired........i oso dunno wat i can do.......izit start to old adi???muscle just like tak boleh tahan lidat....im afraid of myself........

chinese new year coming.......busy busy busy.......miss miss miss her...haihz.....

shopping till im so so tired

2009-01-18T05:52:00.000-08:00

As the title show recently keep on going to the mall there for some shopping for our grand grand chinese new year 2009....so 2day early morning wake up the same thing going out to have breakfast in pyramid.....kim gary as usual loh..........then give back stevan members card to evan.......cuz today they wanna buy something oso........then after makan we go s&j and buy a present....

but this present is actually not mine...is toufu buy for one of his friend.......but before that we went in to a shop i think its speedy or something bought original VCD....hahahaz,about some talk show of lam hoi fong.......is alwiz funny........

then we go in giant wanted to buy some drinks....too bad is 100 plus is too expensive there...but then we dunno at nite we go tesco there already no stock of this 100 plus.....CNY is really scary.....everybody crazee buying thingz......

back to usual thingz.....i go exercise just as usual and eat as usual and miss her as usual......lol

no time blog yesterday

2009-01-17T06:24:00.000-08:00

hahahahahaz,very busy and tired last nite thats y neva write any blog de ne....busy dou mother oso cannot recognise......ahahahaz,last nite busy and buy clothes from sungei wang and also got go pyramid see see thingz.....then sit a while at station one!!!!then watch bedtime stories......is seriously a damm funny show.....i love it and actually i smile quite happily....love it so much......but i dun rememba my kids time my mom did not do this....thats y i grew up quite nottily i guess....hahahaz

then 2day more busy...woke up adi go cut hair......then go pyramid lunch......then bought some shirt for me and my younger bro and dad and elder brother......lol,but seriously so banyak olang inside there where......really got the mood for this happy chinese new year........of cuz there's alotz of pretty gal wondering inside the mall as well.......so lepaking in mall is becoming one of the hobby of weirdo recently.....so puas.......then at nite dinner have steamboat together wif segi fren......desmond and san,wai hong and kah wah.....have until so full so penuh.......chat a lil bit and kah wah look so down and he kinda say he got cheated by a gal or something..........then after this no activities.....lol

nothing much but just miss her much as usual....lol

me so letih!!!!!

2009-01-15T04:54:00.000-08:00

whua,2day early morning wake up then go makan.....but then 2day i damm rushing........at 1st reach uncle house then rush go a shop to fax and photocopy........then pass the things to uncle straight away run all the way to ampang there.......oh my god then dunno y all the handphone shop like belum buka.........

then after tat rush to pyramid and lunch wif shiroi...din buy anything for steven.....maybe shiroi will buy a cake in a short while.....then later we plan to meet up around 10 something....aiyer,so letih......back to my exercise time......2day went to the park the U18 is there again....but they are very lousy........maybe their basic is not good enuff...and their teamwork is nil.....i really glad that my team before was so good......compare wif them....compare to previous U18 strongest will be kenneth that year and following toufu that year.......

but too long neva full court i feel so tired......run as a guard is so tiring.....i still prefer my small forward position....no need run so much.....lol

and usual i miss miss miss her so much....whuakakaz

im exhausted....

2009-01-14T05:31:00.000-08:00

2day wake up go breakfast...then tapau for everybody in the house.....then after there go uncle house.....he call to maxis and complaint some staff behavior and also his network problem...alwiz got cut off haly way talking....and according to him maxis customer service got quite alotz of problem as one of the staff dare to slam the phone on him.....is so rude and they are customer service sumore....i wonder izit they got complain too many time so they explode adi leh....still their fault anyway.....

then go distribute red packet without money wan...hahahaz,all asking where is the money inside....so funny....and drive here and there.....then come home raining...then go exercise and basketball.....saw the utama school team U18.....ask for next team all dare not even have a match wif us...run when they finish the game between them....so damm funny and stupid.......now think back im alwiz glad if those better skills wanna play wif us.....but them....haihz.....no wonder utama standard so lousy adi...all the coward.....

then as usual after my dinner adi feel so tired.....wanna sleep lidat...hahaz,and as usual miss her much much....lol

rainy day!!!!

2009-01-13T04:48:00.000-08:00

2day so boring...bcuz my house full of chicken pox virus....every one look so down.....my mom,my bro,my dad......toufu looks better but his nose keep bleeding dunno y....haihz......my dad is bcuz of alwiz grumble.....im not sure is this called pesismistic......i start to thank god actually im a quite optimistic person....and im glad i do.......bcuz when i look at me i feel so down and sad as well....it does has the influence......and he did not notice it...he still thought this is the best way he should do.......if me i bet i will make everyone happy and think of solution but not with that face in front of my children...hahahaz

then 2day actually so hot the whole afternoon oni until 4:30 it start to rain.....i mean more accurate is 4:50 lidat.....then rain till 6 lidat....actually is 5:50.....lol,and then i go jogging when nobody is there.....then everyone comes even the floor is wet....then we play a few game but actually all scared fall dare not run.....oni me keep moving bcuz wanna exercise till tired tired then wat oso no need to think and go to sleep.....hahahaz,just did it yesterday.......wat a boring man's life........

as usual missing her much....too bad is not something that i can tell...but i can oni keep secret about it....but that day obviously can see she is very happy...neva c her like this before.....now i know wat she means when she tell me she is a funny person in front of everyone and she makes everyone laugh.....hahahaz

mood=rainy day

cockroach.....

2009-01-12T05:26:00.000-08:00

2day wake up nothing special...just that ada 2 person kena infected chicken pox from my younger bro then look like very tired lidat....hahahaz,so after breakfast reach home bath adi then go out......reach uncle there chat chat a while talk about chelsea loses....uncle is happy bcuz he is a MU fans.....so its a good thing happened....but he say he neva expect that score....agreed..

then go and distribute those red packet to dealers.....some of the dealers get it feel very happy wif it.....hahahaz,out of my expectation......then distribute till ampang there wanna go lunch.....sit inside hamid maju i think.......sit down order nescafe ice wif mamak mee goreng.....drinks come adi....then tiba tiba i feel something go inside my pants.....i feel very very very not happy adi...i can guess get wat izit adi.....so i keep pushing it out and it keep wanna climb in sumore...fuck.....then end up i make it out and comfirm is actually a cockroach.........really hate this stupid place....so damm fucking dirty when u see it.......hate hate......just simply spoiled my day....then continue distribute red packet....main main....

then reach home adi bro wanna go buy coconut drinks.......fetch him out adi......then reach home sky adi dark dark......predict will rain....then i exercise a while then go out jogging and basketball adi....but dunno y raining....then i tak mau balik........so basketball under the rain.......then 2day basketball almost 3 hour i think...so funny.....and tired now....feel like sleep straight away......play play and talk talk....all the boring man got together.....lol

heart broken!!!

2009-01-11T07:43:00.000-08:00

2day early morning wake up until afternoon oso nothing special happen...oni that toufu chicken pox is getting okayz adi but then dunno y my elder bro and my mama i think got affected...so i think they got hit by chicken pox loh....hahahaz,then they can have a long long long long rest jor lah....

then after that got go exercise and basketball to get all my sweats out........then after that go home and bath then fast fast rush out to pyramid adi......cuz 2nite date wif 3 ah meiz......lolz,and the location is at station one there....beside sunway pyramid that one.......then we ate there and then evan main main say mau minum carlsberg then open bucket manatau actually she and shiroi drink one and half bottle oni...so funny...end up i drink.......so full......

but back to the title lah,i saw someone that i miss so much,but she is with some guy and yee mei as well.....she seems like so close wif one guy and if im not mistaken i saw when she going back she hold hand wif this guy.....but y this guy so lala one.....definitely no match wif her......but they look quite sweet together so nothing much i can say lah...i can oni keep quiet and watch her.....and just seeing her happy thats alll......if thats wat she want i wish her luck loh....hahahaz,but still i wanna msg msg her....to keep in touch wif her....lol