世界末日快来了吗？

最近真的是天气无常啊，每一天都是很热的天气到3-4 点，然后就开始狂风暴雨。这样的日子很可怕吧。有几天的大雨，我正在车里然后那个雷好像要劈到我酱。哈哈哈，好心虚的人噢。不过这个不是最惨。最惨的是我的脚竟然会风湿。虽然以前曾经有过，可是这次真的很痛很痛。自己坏蛋，没冲热水跑去冲冷水。后果当然是不能好好走路啦。痛惨了。

然后了，生意也没什么提升。好好，下个月我勤劳点。最近，很多事在头脑里转动。可是，现在却不记得了。好白痴噢。好像有些事如果想到的时候不写，等你有时间写的时候却不记得了。明确点应该是说心情吧。很多事情并没有如我所想的那样进行，而这些事情本来都是在控制中的。虽然有时候顾客是第一，但是我真的累了。

唉， 不过我这个人啊，是一只打不死的蟑螂。我不会认命更不会认输。 我只会一直向前冲。 现在，也不用想将多咯，只想把家人都照顾好，以及多关心朋友。然后每一天就这样开开心心的过。应该还不错吧。 忽然间很想你，忽然间很想那一段时间。我知道，我有幸福过。我也不忘记。现在把所有身边的人都珍惜是我最大的幸福吧。以及尽量不要发脾气。

上个星期很多事发生，当然我也做了一个坏人。因为我把一个人介绍给另一个人。结果那人贪得无厌，还想强吻人。我真的很后悔。不过，幸好那个女的没什么损失。否则，我跳进海里都洗不清啊。还有的就是遇见了我的中学学长。小时候，他就住我家附近。可是过后我搬走了。他和我都变胖了。他以及他两个同事和我们一起吃火锅。那个女的也是短发，很可爱。不过他们好像很看不起人。虽然我知道他们还很新，但是我也没有说什么。可能人总以为自己比较优秀吧。哈哈

还有，老爸的生日是星期五，刚刚过。我们没送什么礼物，因为他什么都不要。所以我们给了他一些钱，让他买他喜欢的东西加上陪她吃了一餐晚饭。他看起来还蛮开心的。就好咯。对啦，还有星期五，双溪威的同学喝茶。一如往常的几个人到。还聊得蛮开心的。还知道了三个同学的家。哈哈哈

好了就酱吧。暂时也不懂要写什么。就祝大家幸福快乐吧，霓也幸福快乐。还有健健康康。

- 申- 苦中作乐 -ing

Sick already

I am once again sick. lol, at first is only sore throat but at the rate it's going now already flu plus cough and a lil bit headache. Whualau i din do anything eh why treat me like this. i wanna be healthy healthy again. Doctor say no exercise, no fruits, no biscuits and have to control a few days. I am so sad eh. I have not eat chili's for many days liao. Pityful me.

Then talk about last nite. Bring some banker friend to ginger. But didn't expect it to turn out become so bad. I mean not all but only one of them. I find it stupid as i never expect him to react like this. I think i dun find myself comfortable also with the way he is behaving. Luckily there is better one so i bet the happy hour not too bad also lah. But i bring them there when im sick and drink sumore. So i think i'm not too bad as a friend bah. Hope she got more refferal after this lah.

then everything in house seems good. And ohya,i have not got time go out do the courier. i'm really bad.i really have to arrange for a day to do it. Maybe on a saturday bah. Because not good loh keep people things here with dust. lol, and sales is not so good this month. Not much of submission thim. Boss is going to nag me soon. So have to work a lil bit liao. hahahaz,after recover adi social a lil bit sin.

Good Day Peoples. Miss u as usual. Wonder if u do the same?nope bah.hahaz

-seng-

Raining Friday Nite.

hahaz, this week is quite a good week as i manage to go basketball twice a week and maybe 3 times plus 2molo. But really find myself very old adi. Can't really run and sumore whole body ache due to too long never exercise already. A lot of things happen since monday went injection. I myself is a quite positive person bah i think but sometimes really tired over certain things. I'm really exhausted with the lie a person can give. it's okay if u want to have overriding and its okay if you want to make money over a lots of thing. i understand that you are very business minded. But i cannot accept the part where u totally ignore us. If it is not necessary who will rush you for thing. People rush you is with valid reason and of course reasonable time frame is given. Things just seems so different when you first inform. and how it has become. i really disagree with the way you do things. i have made my decision this time. I will draw a line with you. Since things never get done with you. i'm will go on my own and you continue what you are doing. I appreciate what you have teach us long ago. But i believe all this comm is more than enough to cover. i will see that as a tuition fees.

Luckily i only need to wait till august. Once everything is settled i will be a freeman once more. And it will be good as times goes by. not really positive things i write today because this is my negative release center. Cause find it happier after write down everything. hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. now really have to go take a rest bah... try to neutralize my feelings.i will be good.

And ohya, heard that you are getting better. Congratz... i'm really happy for you. Best thing i've heard so far this week. missing you much. xoxo,good nite.

A date with the Doctor

Well, It's not easy to date him cause u know why? Reason is because he is a skin specialist and i have to see him to cure my face. As usual the girl there recognize me. She see me only say Ang Eng Seng, y u cannot book ah...then she laugh and say, Sui zai, do u know 2day alotz of people ah and u gonna wait for a long long one. So i say no problem, 2day i can wait lah. hahaz, but really alotz of people there. I'm freeze even though i love air-conditioner so much. So u can imagine how cold is in there. And She did not lie. I really wait for i think more than 2 hours just to see this doctor.

As i have told u before, because of recently i always sleep very late and always never control at the food i'm eating. So my scar tissue did went a lil bit too big than usually. i can feel it. And he once look at me he say, ohhh injection ah. I say yes ah. He inject inject and inject and i feel pain and pain and very de pain. It's getting more and more difficult, But because i want to cure it so i do not have a choice and this is the path i must go through. He comment when he is done. U ah,u never apply the pimple cream am i right. So i'm like ahhhh yes. lol, and he say now i give u something to eat. And also the pimple cream to apply on the pimples. And besides this, your lip is dry. I give you some lip bump okay. So i am like, ahhhhh, okay loh. Hahahahaz, okay lah 2molo onwards i will apply everything everywhere lah can?

So cute and so painful. talk back in the branch nothing much difference as a new month i got new target again. Alotz of customer coming in and out,some old some new. 2day one of the customer come and he talks really funny and sometime doesn't make sense. He sit in our branch and talk until the wife and the son also feel shy. Of course we did talk about the loan application a little bit. But overall he is a very weird customer. And other customer ah, very impatient as usual ah. And 2day pity the operation. Can see that Chai and Sook Yee and Sri is very angry. They keep complaining and show angry face. But come on, we work as a team right. Some of them play MC hammer u mai let me be loh. we work harder to cover for them loh. No point that u people show us angry face mah. We have nothing 2 do with their MC what. If we work together faster to cover i think should be able to make it also mah. Anger management really need to be taught.

And ohya, i saw Kel 2day. She tell me that she permanently shift to Usj Taipan liao. So happy that another friend of mine come to de vicinity. Obviously she is pregnant oh. Happy for her. and what else do i have 2 say....

i'm missing you very much. i really do not know what i can do other than looking backwards. i know this is not good but i can only do this. Know that you are living healthier than u were. Get well soon. XOXO.

-seng-

Freaking Exhausted.

Didn't have enough sleep. Reason being is last nite Ning Tze Birthday ah. So we celebrate for her. But its a very last minute one so nobody prepare things and all rush there when we received call at 6pm. What a boss. Organise until so lousy. Recently is busy about chasing the cases execution for money money. And chase LI so Lawyer can prepare Loan Agreement and let customer sign as soon as they can. And still cannot find any potential manager to come and look after my branch so my old boss is staying for a while until we get the new boss. Figure as usual.

Then, last nite hang out until reach home already 3 something. So freaking tired and then have to take out lens sumore and i realize that i wore that thing for more than 12 hours and its almost 24 hours. Then 2day when i open the casing and i saw one of the lens broken. Really think myself can break records ah. Nevamind, then with this lack of sleep i almost can't wake up 2day. Fell so uncomfortable at work. i got the feeling that i may fall anytime as i am too fucking tired. Then boss sumore ask me out together to check out stuff. beautiful property. Setia Eco-park. Went to Customer new house. It's seriously a damm awesome geh bungalow loh. It's like every floor also come with a garden. The highest floor (3) sumore can have a pond eh. If 1 day i got 5 million i definitely will buy a unit in there. It's like a dream house with fantastic view. Just that if it's mine perhaps i will have more furniture and not all wood. And check out a lot of development in that vicinity and it's damm awesome place to stay. All the green green make people feel comfortable. i think it's very healthy also for our health.

Then, Branch also got a lot of happening recently ah. Mira already ask to resign already. This is her third attempt so everyone understand that it can never turn back anymore. She has made her decision. My boss say let her go and we take it as a challenge and i agree because maybe the branch needs a change. Maybe we need different people to run the branch. Hopefully it can lighten our works. Gambateh people when alotz of them is trying to run away from USJ branch.

Seriously very tired and dunno what to write. Maybe one thing bah. i miss u so much. hahaz.Hope u r doing okay bah.

-seng-

清明节

我见了你今年的最后一次，我很开心但是我也很无奈。因为这一次我真的感觉到我们的陌生不是在普通的地步。虽然很辛苦但是我还是觉得我们当回朋友是蛮不错的。因为我很清楚你已经没有那种感觉了。希望你和他能够有进展吧。我的幻想是时候要结束了，虽然我不能够放下，但是公主还是应该配王子吧。而我也应该尽量去实现我的梦想，我要把脚印在世界的每一个角落。我会更充实自己的。但是我有可能太过喜欢活在过去吧，虽然这样很不好，但是我不管了，只要我开心就好。这样也不错啦，可以有更多时间与家人朋友相处。再玩玩啦。

然后，回来主题，今天很早就爬起来因为要赶回去扫墓。可是那个地方真的是恐怖的多人。结果就勉强的把车停在一个很远很远的空位。然后就到婆婆的“家”。不知不觉中，婆婆已经离开我们十一年了。真的很想念他，我的福建话也比以前好很多啦。我很怀念婆婆的kopi-O, 也很怀念婆婆的关怀。我还记得婆婆临走的那一年，他的病已经到了最后，没办法好了。但是她在住院的时候也记得我的生日，她还和妈妈说：记得住红鸡蛋还有面线给ah boy吃啊。 我每次想到这个都很感动。啊，写着写着我也想哭了。不过，珍惜眼前人更重要。

然后，就和清和哥哥，嫂嫂，心蕊姐姐，三伯，三伯娘，大伯，妈妈，豆腐 还有我就去吃Bah Kut Teh.真的是很丰富的一餐啊。吃的超饱的，然后回阿公的家。普通的聊了一些。公公也老了，而且他脾气也不好，令很多人不喜欢与他相处。没办法，人老了都是酱的吧。然后，他们都塞了很多东西给我们。没多久我们就回来了，因为爸爸的脚很痛。回来了就带他去看医生。医生说啊，应该是肌肉撕裂？大概是酱。回来过后就很不耐了。躺在床上睡了一个下午。很满足呢。

我啊，我会不会随便找个人来谈恋爱呢？会不会寻找替代品呢？时间会证明一切啊。看看就知道了。我这个人太过顽固了。没办法，天生是酱。

不知道要些什么了，暂时先这样吧。
- 申-

Mooooody.

2day is really a fucking moody day. Its the accumulation of what recently happen has cause my patience limit goes down to a very low level until i already cannot stand it anymore. I am very very moody or u shall say angry with the face one kind. It maybe due to lack of rest but in other way, Its because of everything that got into my way and everything i want it to be my way goes another way. Everything just goes against me no matter how hard i try no matter how many times i try.

I'm not trying to be negative but i think im just having too much of negative in my body and i definitely cannot cope. I have to absorb all this negative because of the money it brings to me. Life is like that and nobody can escape. So same goes to me. But things got worse when u know u do not get the support u needed from ur superior or anyone else. everybody is just pushing things around. So in the end, everything's goes back to me. Is all my fault again.

Then, some people just couldn't think for u,they only think about themselves. Whatever they want, they will just do it and asking u to tolerate with them. Even though it may cause trouble to others for your convenience. I really wonder why. How can u people be so selfish. Is this the way u show ur appreciation to someone that care about u. I got really pissed 2day and shown not happy face to my mommy and toufu. I didn't mean it but i just couldn't adjust my mood anyway. I dun feel like acting in front of u guys. i wanna neutralise my feelings and start a brand new day 2molo. i know i can do it but the process its making me mad.

Fuck it............